Xiao Yunying picked up the various wildflowers around her one by one and slowly wove them into a small wreath in her hands.
"I know I probably have depression, um... what you call overthinking, leading to depression, but I don't know why I don't have the courage to see a psychologist."
It's like if I don't get a diagnosis, I won't have any symptoms, which makes me feel like I'm no different from others.
She held the half-finished flower wreath in her hand, resting her chin on her other hand on her lap: "I can't even untangle my own knots, how could I possibly untangle other people's knots?"
Xiao Yunying sat quietly for a while, then suddenly perked up and said:
"Although I don't know how to help people with psychological problems, I believe that as long as they feel safe enough, they will forget about the bad things."
Love and time can heal all wounds, don't you agree?
Just like her, having escaped her previously oppressive living environment, she is now living a pretty happy life.
As Xiao Yunying was speaking, she suddenly burst out laughing.
"I've gone off on a tangent. Do you think I'm being long-winded?"
"There's nothing I can do. I don't even have anyone to confide in here. Although Luo Chen and Luo Yang know I'm not you anymore, they're still young, and there are some things I can't tell them. So, I can only talk to you here."
Xiao Yunying finished weaving the last bit of the wreath in her hand and adjusted the position of the small wildflowers on it: "Actually, the children still remember your kindness."
They actually made a memorial tablet for you behind my back and enshrined it at home, right in Luo Chen's room.
Last night, your mother remembered your birthday and sent you red eggs. They even knew to offer red eggs to you.
Do you know what's written on the memorial tablet? It says "The Spirit Tablet of Our Loving Mother, Xiao Yunying." Yunying, they remember your kindness and consider you their mother.
Xiao Yunying briefly explained their backgrounds: "Those children were originally young masters in the general's mansion, living a life of luxury since childhood. However, their family fell into ruin overnight, and they were abandoned by their own mothers. Their fathers also passed away. Under such repeated blows, it's understandable that they couldn't accept you for a while. You agree, right?"
She was too embarrassed to say it, but it was normal for the children to look down on the original owner back then.
Aside from being a skilled embroiderer, he's good for nothing else.
Putting aside the fact that her status as an ordinary peasant girl was not a good match for Luo Sheng, who came from a military family... even if she fell on hard times, their views on social status would not easily change.
His lazy and gluttonous manner doesn't suggest he's the type of person who can live a good life.
If you run out of money, sell your belongings. You can't let yourself go hungry or cold. You only think about making money when you have absolutely nothing left to sell.
However, in Xiao Yunying's eyes, the fact that the original owner was able to learn to do some housework within her ability in order to raise the children and start thinking of ways to earn money was also a kind of progress.
In fact, Xiao Yunying felt that if they were given more time, they might be able to get along well.
Based on her understanding of Luo Yang, at least she knew that the boy would find a way to improve their relationship and prevent it from remaining so strained.
Unfortunately, the original owner didn't live to see it...
Xiao Yunying placed the woven flower wreath next to the peach: "Yunying, happy birthday."
She sat there lost in thought again, and after a long while, she slowly spoke: "Your parents are still thinking about your birthday and are wishing you a happy birthday, but..."
Not a single blessing was given to her.
Xiao Yunying tilted her head: "Am I being too greedy? Our life is already very good."
She hesitated for a moment: "There's something else I don't know how to tell you... Luo Sheng... he's back."
Hiding in the tree, Luo Sheng heard the people below mention him and squinted, trying to see her expression.
Xiao Yunying never intended to hide her thoughts from the beginning: "I am not you, I don't like him. Besides, Luo Sheng and I are from two different worlds. We have different life philosophies and can't live together, not even for the sake of the child."
She picked up a small twig and unconsciously scribbled on the ground: "Even Xin'er knows I like freedom. I don't like being confined to the backyard by the title of a general's wife."
Although I don't know what he's thinking right now, I know that as long as I'm still known as the General's wife, I can't do whatever I want.
Yunying, I don't want to wrong myself.
So... I want to divorce him. You won't blame me, will you?
After she finished speaking, she waited for a while. Apart from the chirping of insects, birds, and the sound of the wind blowing through the leaves, there were no other unusual phenomena around her.
"If there's no response, I'll take that as your agreement."
She continued talking to herself, "It's just that I can't bear to part with Xin'er. After all, Xin'er isn't a member of the Luo family. I think I might be able to keep Xin'er, um... this matter needs to be considered carefully."
After saying all that, Xiao Yunying picked out some interesting things from her life and talked about them in detail, as if she were really having a chat with someone.
It wasn't until it got dark that she got up and dusted herself off.
"It's getting late, Yunying. I'll head back now; I still need to cook for the children."
If you can hear me, remember to tell me in my dreams what you want to eat next time.
After throwing the cushion into the supermarket, Xiao Yunying checked her surroundings to make sure nothing was left behind, and then returned the way she came.
Once she had gone some distance, Luo Sheng and Wei Xun jumped down from the tree and walked to the small grave mound.
Wei Xun was deeply shocked by what he had just witnessed and by what Xiao Yunying had said.
"master……"
Luo Sheng didn't say anything, but stood in front of the grave for a while before saying, "Let's go back."
The mountain was covered with dense trees, and it got dark quickly. Xiao Yunying was in a hurry to get back, so she didn't carefully avoid the various weeds and branches and got scratched several times.
After she grimaced as she descended the mountain, her hair was disheveled and her body was covered in various dry branches and leaves.
As she picked the leaves off her clothes and walked home, she saw several people standing at the gate in the distance.
There are four children, plus Zheng Yunwan.
There's another one... Wan Jun?
"Mother, you're finally back."
Luo Xin jogged over, wanting to hug Xiao Yunying's leg, but Xiao Yunying stopped her.
"Xin'er, don't hug me yet, I have cockleburs on me."
As Xiao Yunying removed the burrs from her pants, she glanced at Luo Chen with a smile and said, "What are you all waiting here for? Are you afraid I'll run away?"
Luo Chen pursed his lips but didn't say anything.
Xiao Yunying could tell from his expression that the child was really afraid she would run away.
She reached out and gently tapped Luo Chen's forehead: "What nonsense are you thinking about in your little head again? Hurry up and take your younger siblings back to wash their hands. I'm going to cook."
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