Chapter 28 Chapter 28 Brothers and sisters shouldn’t be like this
Song Zhihan had thought that Lin Jie had heard the entire conversation between her and Zhao Wendi, but she never thought he would ask it so directly.
But if you think about it carefully, this is also something Lin Jie could do. He has always been clear about what he likes and dislikes and acts directly, otherwise he would not have rejected her so readily back then.
Secrets are always relative. This sentence applies not only to Zhao Wendie, but also to Song Zhihan.
That year, that day, she decided to confess her love to Lin Jie.
She had paid for a tarot reading specifically to choose the date. The cards said everything was favorable for her today. She chose the school's piano room as the venue, quiet and elegant, perfect for romance. She also applied a light layer of makeup with her unskilled technique. The two shy pinks on her cheeks were naturally unadorned, reflecting a girlish innocence, a beauty that no other color could possibly match.
Everything was perfect, but what Song Zhihan didn't know was that Zhao Wendi's sisters actually saw this scene on the surveillance camera. How could they miss such a good show?
Zhao Wendi is the president of the school's literary and art club. It is easy for her to get the key to the piano room. The hidden camera placed in advance silently records Lin Jie's rejection and Song Zhihan's tearful eyes.
Zhao Wendi treated that video like an invincible sword, replaying it over and over in front of Song Zhihan. Li Daizhen and Qu Yixing had scrapped several of their phones, but the backups were as pervasive as a virus.
She also knew that this matter couldn't be made a big deal, so the scope of spread was limited to Song Zhihan. They saw the shame and anger on Song Zhihan's face as they wished, and then several people looked at each other and laughed, making a laugh that only they could understand.
Looking back on those days, Song Zhihan's mindset has completely changed. She used to take rejection for granted, believing it was the biggest setback in life. But as she turned the pages of her life, her former childishness and innocence slowly faded. She was no longer young, and she no longer felt compelled to let these things drain her emotions.
So when faced with Lin Jie's question, she simply brushed it off lightly: "She happened to be passing by the piano room that day and probably heard it."
This insignificant attitude left Lin Jie with an inexplicable pang of bitterness. He glimpsed a dimming side to Song Zhihan during that quarrel, like a bouquet of flowers, always with its head held high and full of vitality, ravaged by a gust of wind that should never have been in her life. That carefree flower had its stamens closed, and its translucent white petals had curled up, turning yellow.
He was the instigator of this storm, and everything stemmed from his selfishness.
Regret and self-blame were intertwined. Lin Jie opened his mouth, looked at her smiling face as she took things apart, and swallowed everything back.
He was suddenly at a loss. He apologized before, but brushed it off afterward. But an apology nine years later was too late. Not to mention whether Song Zhihan would accept it, even he himself was too embarrassed to speak up.
Should we just brush it off? Let it pass without causing any pain. But that would be too unfair to Song Zhihan. It would be tantamount to ignoring all the grievances she had suffered and disregarding the harm done to her.
Lin Jie didn't want this to happen, and he couldn't bear to treat her like this. He had made a mistake before, and he couldn't make the same mistake again.
"Song Zhihan, I'm sorry. I apologize to you for every word I said back then." Lin Jie looked at her, his voice very low, very low. If you listened carefully, you could even hear a hint of difficulty in it.
Song Zhihan was stunned for a moment, blinked quickly, lowered her head, and her hands under the table had shrank nervously. She didn't know why Lin Jie suddenly brought up this matter again. Didn't he already apologize last time at the resort?
"I once said that you are not my type. But actually, Song Zhihan, facing you at that time, it is hard for me to say that I don't like you against my will." At the end, he spoke almost word by word, his tone full of nostalgia, which easily aroused other people's curiosity, making people curious about what this girl who he held in high esteem was like.
It’s hard to say against your will, I don’t like it, I don’t like it?
Song Zhihan suddenly raised his head, and looked at him with his bright eyes, just like the ragdoll cat on the first floor looking at people, his azure pupils containing a clear ocean, full of curiosity.
After she figured out what this sentence meant, two blushes appeared on the tips of her ears. She clenched her hands, frantically suppressing the urge to bite them.
What does Lin Jie mean? So when he says he doesn't like her, is that a lie? Does this translate to, "He likes her?"
Song Zhihan was confused and felt like she was dreaming. Some time ago, she had already accepted Lin Jie's explanation that he rejected her because he was worried about the impact on his college entrance examination, but now this sentence made her think twice.
Lin Jie seemed not to notice her extremely wonderful expression. He was completely immersed in his memories, and his voice gradually became vague.
In high school, there was probably no one who disliked Song Zhihan. The first thing that caught my eye was her appearance. She was charming and pretty, especially her round eyes, innocent yet unconsciously charming. She walked like a graceful swan, her back always straight and her neck held high. She had the capital to be proud, but she didn't have the slightest bit of arrogance.
She always smiles at others, with a hint of silliness in her sincerity. This is not childishness, but a kind of...honesty from a pure heart. Only people with a bright heart can have such a smile.
She was like the sun on a summer afternoon, glaring and blinding, accompanied by a clear sky of blue sky and white clouds. This beam of light had intruded into Lin Jie's gloomy life without warning.
Yes, he once used the word "gray" to describe his past self. His poor family background was enough to bend the boy's thin back.
He couldn't help but touch the light, but it burned his heart. He wondered why he could approach her without any hesitation, and why he could accept her affection with peace of mind.
The strong sense of unworthiness made Lin Jie do many things beyond his control. He watched himself sinking soberly, indulging in this dreamlike light.
Until Song Zhihan confessed her love to him, all the good things were shattered. Lin Jie suddenly realized that he could no longer deceive himself and enjoy her closeness, and could no longer continue to dream at such a critical moment.
They have never been from the same world. Song Zhihan should have lived a carefree life. Being with him is self-degradation. He will only drag Song Zhihan down. True love should be unconditional support, but Lin Jie can't do that. He can't even afford to spend extra money to buy her gifts.
Lin Jie was rational enough and he figured this out quickly. He chose to cut off all possibilities in a decisive manner. Such decisiveness was also a warning to himself.
Don't get close to her anymore, Lin Jie, don't like her anymore, Lin Jie.
"The reason I said that is because I felt we were not a good match. I didn't think I could give you a good relationship experience at that time. I was afraid that if you were with me, you would be disappointed in me."
He also has self-esteem. Rather than seeing her disappointed look, he would rather let Song Zhihan think that he is an inhuman and cold-blooded animal.
At least he won't be too embarrassed.
"Song Zhihan, don't deny yourself. Don't be disappointed in yourself because of other people's malice. I am a coward, but I have never disliked you, because you were the best girl I have ever met."
His voice was so low that it was hoarse, and every word he spoke was particularly sincere, with a look in his eyes that Song Zhihan wanted to see but didn't dare to.
Song Zhihan was so surprised that she was completely speechless. She had no idea how to respond to Lin Jie. Her mind was completely occupied by this established fact: Lin Jie liked her, and Lin Jie also liked her.
Lin Jie rejected her because of his inferiority complex.
Her stagnant brain suddenly started working rapidly, and she instantly thought of the question she had asked last time.
"Have you found the girl you like?"
"No."
He said no, not now, or never. Is there a possibility that Lin Jie still likes her?
As soon as this thought came to mind, Song Zhihan froze in shock. If Lin Jie liked her, then what were they now?
This is not allowed between siblings. She and Lin Jie are blood-related siblings.
Lin Jie looked at her frightened face and felt strange. He moved closer to see her: "What's wrong with you? Are you feeling unwell?"
The voice pulled her out of her fantasy. Seeing him approaching, Song Zhihan subconsciously dodged backwards.
"No...nothing...nothing." She stammered, looking at him as if he were a monster.
Lin Jie's heart suddenly ached. Was she afraid, afraid of his approach?
Should I say this now? Will it scare her? All of Lin Jie's hesitations almost happened to Song Zhihan at the same time. He had always been decisive, but when it came to Song Zhihan, he was always hesitant and timid.
The two of them were silent at the same time. Lin Jie was called away by the urgent ringing of the phone. Song Zhihan stayed where she was and began to bite her hand unconsciously. Her face became paler and paler because she was horrified to find that when facing Lin Jie, Chen Bai's first reaction was expectation.
This shouldn't be the case, between siblings. Lin Jie is the older brother, and a brother shouldn't have feelings for his sister that cross the line, and a sister shouldn't have such expectations of her brother.
The more he thought about it, the more scared he became. Song Zhihan picked up his bag and ran away.
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The next morning, Song Zhihan was awakened by a fright. She dreamed that she traveled back to ancient times and was caught having an affair with Lin Jie. The two of them were paraded through the streets for violating human ethics and engaging in incest between siblings. She and Lin Jie held hands and calmly faced death.
Don’t be afraid, dreams are the opposite of what they actually are, Song Zhihan comforted himself.
When he arrived at the company, he saw the person from his dream again the moment he got out of the elevator. Song Zhihan flashed and slipped away before he could speak.
She had no idea how to face Lin Jie anymore.
Lin Jie looked at the person who disappeared out of thin air, slightly stunned. He slowly clenched his empty palms, and a strange emotion flashed across his eyes.
Time waits for no one. Since fate has allowed him and Song Zhihan to meet again, it means that their destiny is not over yet.
It’s never too late for good things to happen, and fate will always come true. Even if there is another nine years, he will not let go.
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The author has something to say: Lin Jie is actually crazy at heart... [glasses]
Weibo @一个肚肚切, everyone is welcome to play with me, but I am not often [猫头]
Maybe there are some soft-hearted babies who have pre-collected the column "After traveling to the dark and paranoid male second side"
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