Xu Nuo touched the bloodstain. Although it had dried, it was clear that it hadn't been there long.
"My brother has been here! My brother has been here!"
Xu Nuo called out to the night owl.
Night Owl heard Xu Nuo's words and quickly walked over, seeing the bloodstains on the tombstone.
"He's been here before, it must be him..."
Xu Nuo then began searching around again, hoping to find anything else Ye Linyan had left behind.
A few steps away from the tombstone, a gentle breeze rippled across the grass, carrying away a few scraps of paper...
She picked up a small piece of paper, only about the size of a bottle cap. She turned the paper over and saw Ye Linyan's face, torn open, with only two-thirds of it remaining.
Xu Nuo immediately started searching the surrounding area again, covering a radius of nearly a hundred meters. Aside from finding a few more small fragments, she found nothing else…
Xu Nuo tried to piece together the less than ten small fragments in his hand, but he couldn't. He remembered this photo; it was a picture of him and Ye Linyan taken on a rooftop in the clouds!
Now, the photo is torn to shreds, leaving only a few small pieces in my hand, which I can't piece together no matter what I try...................
Xu Nuo repeatedly examined the fragments. He noticed that some pieces were stained with blood—Ye Linyan's blood. He wondered what Ye Linyan's feelings were when he tore the photograph to shreds at his mother's grave...
Xu Nuo felt a sharp pain in her heart...................
His brother has been here!
He left in despair!
He left with a deep resentment towards Xu Nuo!
He couldn't find Ye Linyan, and this thought suddenly popped into Xu Nuo's mind!
Xu Nuo slumped to the ground, clutching the few shards in her hand, staring into the distance...
"You two go back and get a few people to search in the direction this person is heading!"
Night Owl told the two men who were digging the hole to put down their tools and go back to get help. Naturally, the two men didn't want to dig the hole there, so they put down their tools and went back.
"I can't find him, Night Owl, I can't find him..."
Xu Nuo looked into the distance and muttered to himself.
"Go ahead and do what you want! Now look what's happened! If he dies out there, I'm telling you, we won't even be able to find his body!"
The night owl lit a cigarette in frustration and took a deep drag.
"What can I do? What do you think I can do?" Xu Nuo pouted and stood up, supporting herself.
"Having come this far, is it still possible for me to turn back?"
Xu Nuo turned around to face Night Owl, haphazardly stuffing the shards he was holding into his pocket:
"Do you think I don't know this stuff is addictive? But what can I do? He said he'd take me away, but where? Where can we go? How can I go with him in this state!"
"Where to go? If I leave with him, his life will be ruined..."
Night Owl sighed and shook his head: "He's willing, but you're not! It's such a simple thing, you like him, he likes you, that's all! Why make it so complicated!"
"That's not how it is!" Xu Nuo breathed a sigh of relief, but the dull ache in her heart still hadn't subsided.
"I've already ruined him once! I don't want to do it a second time! We're just not meant to be! He doesn't like me that much! To him, I'm more of a responsibility!"
"What do you mean?"
"Night Owl asked."
“When I was brought to China, I couldn’t keep up with the pace of things there. Aunt Lin kept telling him that I was young and that as his older brother, he had to take care of me!”
At this point, Xu Nuo gave a wry smile:
"He did a great job, taking good care of me in everything. It's just that my intentions weren't pure, and I couldn't keep up with his pace. I'm bad at studying, and I'm bad at everything!"
"You have no idea how eye-catching he was in college! I still remember how spirited and high-spirited he was back then!"
"After that car accident, if he hadn't abandoned me and gone off to live his own life, he would have had a bright future even without the Ye family taking him back!"
"But he still chose to take me, this burden, with him! Of course, it was also because I clung to him relentlessly! At that time, if he hadn't taken care of me, I really don't know how I would have survived!"
Xu nudged Night Owl: "Give me a cigarette!"
Night Owl handed it to him and lit one for himself as well.
"Because of me, he embarked on a different path! A path that was never meant for him! During those inhuman days, apart from being a little short-tempered, he never complained!"
"He doesn't like men, and he's not gay! I misled him and tricked him into bed step by step! Deep down, he's a gentleman!"
"It took me a lot of effort to get him into bed!"
“I lied to him and misled him all along! I dragged him into the mire until the Ye family recognized him and he finally saw the light at the end of the tunnel!”
Xu Nuo took a deep drag of his cigarette, let it swirl in his lungs, and then exhaled.
"He has never mistreated me! He cooks for me, teaches me all kinds of etiquette, and teaches me how to dress... There are so many temptations in the world of fame and fortune, but he has never wavered!"
"I once thought he was completely smitten with me and had fallen for me! Then his first love appeared, and he started to wake up a little!"
"What do you mean he's about to wake up? I don't understand what you're saying!"
The night owl threw the cigarette on the ground and crushed it with his foot.
"The first time we argued, he said to me, 'You're a man, do you expect me to marry you?'"
Xu Nuo chuckled twice: "The words he blurts out when he's angry are his truest thoughts!"
"Deep down, he never truly accepted the fact that I am a man. His feelings for me have always been more about responsibility than affection!"
"But this time he abandoned everything to come find you! What else could it be but liking you?"
Night Owl turned his head and looked at Xu Nuo.
"Because he's a good person! He thinks everything I've done is for him, and he can't just throw me away like this! He guessed that I wanted to cut ties with him because of him!"
"That old bastard Ye wants to kill me. If something really happens to me, he won't be able to get over it in his heart! He'll feel guilty for the rest of his life!"
"So he came to me, wanting to take me with him!"
"I don't think so. That's just your own opinion. Have you asked him what he really thinks?"
Night Owl recalled Ye Linyan at the entrance of that village and asked himself, what does it feel like to like someone?
Perhaps Xu Nuo was right; Ye Linyan had never truly understood his feelings for Xu Nuo...
What he thinks is no longer important!
"I've never been a very ethical person, but no matter how unethical I am, I can't ruin him twice..."
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