Chapter 64 I Can’t Say I Like You
Lu Yan glanced at her sideways, crossed his arms over his chest, and crossed his long legs on the coffee table, his tone filled with displeasure.
"After thinking it over, I won't agree."
The air was silent for half a second. Li Qingqing exhaled softly without showing much expression, as if she had expected him to say that.
"Is it interesting, Lu Yan? Since we are destined to separate, why waste your feelings here now? Can't you just go and date Miss Jiang? Why do you have to cling to me?"
"Are you jealous?" Lu Yan's heart suddenly felt a little excited. The corners of his lips curled up slightly, and he turned his head to observe her facial reaction.
Li Qingqing was startled, but she didn't show any major emotion on the surface. She just said in a flat voice, "Why should I be jealous? Some things don't belong to me. I know that."
She had been thinking very clearly these past few days: it was better for her to end her relationship with Lu Yan as soon as possible. People are all made of flesh and blood, and after being together for a long time, it was inevitable that some feelings would arise. She had to get away quickly before that happened. In fact, she was already on the verge of losing control.
"Who said that? How do you know it doesn't belong to you?" Lu Yan retorted with a sneer.
Li Qingqing was talking about people, but Lu Yan understood their hearts.
After hearing this, Li Qingqing suddenly felt a pang in her heart, and she suddenly had an urge to cry. Although she knew that he said this just to spite her, she didn't take it seriously, but she listened to it in her heart.
She placed her hands on both sides of her body, tightly grasping the edge of the sofa, trying to calm the surging emotions in her heart.
After a long while, he spoke again: "I'm serious, please think about it."
Lu Yan withdrew his gaze and his expression turned cold again.
"I said I won't agree. We agreed on the terms. We agreed on a year. I won't accept a day, an hour, or a minute less."
He was also upset, he was also wronged. How could such a good agreement change so suddenly? Lu Yan was a little confused for a moment, and he just felt depressed and uncomfortable.
"Then can you please consider me? You let me sink into obscurity with you, and then you turn around and marry another woman. What should I do..." Li Qingqing's tone suddenly became excited, and tears welled up in her eyes.
Lu Yan's breathing stagnated and he stared at her blankly, as if he was hit hard by her words.
"I made you sink..." He repeated her words vaguely, as if he had caught something.
Li Qingqing subconsciously avoided his gaze, a flicker of panic crossing her face. Realizing she had spoken out of turn, she immediately changed her demeanor.
"...That's not what I meant, please don't misunderstand... Anyway...please don't force me, okay? Even if you have pity on me, I'm still a human being, and I have my own free will. You're willing to help me when I'm in the most difficult time, and I'm very grateful. I've done my best to repay you, but some things can't be forced. Continuing like this won't be good for either of us..."
She didn't say it directly, but just hid her love behind her free will and told him, hoping that he could understand.
She might never say the word "like" out loud, because she was afraid that if Lu Yan knew, he would never let her go.
Yes, her heart was shaken, unpredictably and uncontrollably... She herself had not expected it.
But that's what love is like. It doesn't make sense to you at all. It won't notify you in advance when it comes. It always comes suddenly, like snow in winter or rain in summer.
Li Qingqing realized this, so she wanted to leave because she was afraid that if she continued to sink into depravity, she would be doomed...
"I will find a way to return the money to you as soon as possible..."
Seeing that Lu Yan hadn't said anything, Li Qingqing said this lightly, then got up and went back to her bedroom.
Lu Yan sat alone on the sofa in the living room for a long time, recalling every word Li Qingqing had just said.
Force? Freedom? Was it all just wishful thinking? He thought her uncontrollable indulgence under him had already given up everything like him, wasn't it?
What if she wavered even a little? Not even a little? Did she really want to leave him? Had she only felt forced and imprisoned?
Lu Yan asked himself these questions in his heart. He was not sure of the answers to these questions. He only knew that if these were true, perhaps he should really let go... But he was so unwilling...
…
He didn't knock on her door again to ask her for clarification, but just put all the puzzled questions aside for the time being. Maybe she was just in a bad mood these days and didn't really want to leave him. He would forgive her temporary unreasonableness and wait for a few days, and she would be the same as before.
Lu Yan fell into a deep sleep with this mood, which made him feel much better.
The next day, they both went to work as usual, as if nothing had happened the night before. Lu Yan's attitude remained cold, and he never gave her a clear answer.
After thinking about it all night, Li Qingqing decided to borrow money from Mu Xingyi.
Last night, she calculated how long she had been with Lu Yan. It was about a month. She was surprised by the result. Only a month had passed?
This short month seemed as long as half a year. No wonder people often say that we only live for a few moments in this world. In this short month, she experienced many "moments" of life, so it seemed as if time was stretched out.
Li Qingqing was filled with emotion. What she couldn't accept most was that after all the hardships she had gone through, she had only managed to pay off a mere 100,000 yuan in debt... and the remaining debt was probably over 910,000 yuan...
The feeling of being played by fate almost made her laugh. Li Qingqing couldn't help but sigh in her heart: "Is this life?"
…
She checked her balance and saw the 100,000 yuan Lu Yan had transferred to her for groceries. Her defenses were broken again...
Some people spend 100,000 yuan on food, while others sell their bodies for 100,000 yuan. How ironic...
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