"Baby?" Wan Qiu ran too fast, and Yang Xiaoyu didn't have time to catch him, so he subconsciously chased after him.
"It's okay, Mom." Chu Yigui, who had been watching Wan Qiu, said to Yang Xiaoyu, "Brother probably needs to calm down."
Because of Chu Yigui's words, Yang Xiaoyu did not pursue her anymore.
She reached out and rubbed her scalp where her hair was pulled, looking a little dazed.
In the living room, Chu Jianshu looked at Yang Xiaoyu's scalp. Although it was pulled hard by Wan Qiu, there were no serious marks left.
"It's okay, it doesn't hurt too much." Yang Xiaoyu only had a few hairs pulled out.
Although Wan Qiu was grabbing and tearing, he didn't actually keep swinging it around. It seemed more like he didn't want her to get close.
"Baby, you don't even know how to vent your anger, so you hardly used much effort." Yang Xiaoyu casually tidied his hair and returned to normal from his slightly embarrassed appearance.
Chu Jianshu sighed. Compared to Yang Xiaoyu now, Chu Jianshu's mood was more complicated.
Being abandoned hurt Wan Qiu more than he had imagined.
This is enough to prove how wrong and arrogant his previous decisions were.
Even if he wanted to make it up to Wan Qiu, Chu Jianshu couldn't even find a way to do it.
When hugging Wan Qiu, Chu Jianshu felt that Wan Qiu was really too weak, and even his hard struggles could be easily controlled.
And he also participated in this fragility.
Yang Xiaoyu noticed Chu Jianshu's disappointment at the moment, and said, "This may not be a bad thing. At least I saw the emotional side of the baby. I thought it would take a long time for the baby to truly reveal his feelings."
Chu Jianshu also understood this and said, "If possible, let Yan Hua come back and see if he can communicate with Wan Qiu again."
"Yan Hua also said that the real cause of Wan Qiu's psychological problems lies with us. Only if we do what parents should do, Wan Qiu's condition will naturally get better."
Wan Qiu had strongly rejected Yan Hua once, and Yang Xiaoyu didn't want Yan Hua to make Wan Qiu upset again.
Chu Jianshu sighed: "Wan Qiu's reaction is very slow. What happened yesterday has only started to explode today."
Yang Xiaoyu also nodded: "I must have thought a lot about it."
Chu Yigui listened to the conversation between the two people and vaguely realized that the communication between him and Wan Qiu played a role in it.
He continued to guide Wan Qiu with his intentions as always, and he still gained Wan Qiu's trust.
But Wan Qiu's reaction was more intense than he expected.
Fear and shadow are like a heavy downpour in the middle of the night, obscuring the already dark sky without any light at all.
"I don't know how to coax him into a good mood." Yang Xiaoyu, who was still nervous, was relieved by Wan Qiu's emotional outburst. "I wonder if eating fruit salad will make him feel better."
Chu Jianshu was also thinking about this question. He looked up at Chu Yigui, who had been silent the whole time, and said, "Yigui, do you have any good suggestions?"
Chu Yigui's eyes appeared the scene of Wan Qiu suddenly running away from between Chu Jianshu and Yang Xiaoyu after being released by Yang Xiaoyu.
After thinking for a while, he said, "My brother probably feels a little regretful and remorseful. He should be able to be comforted no matter what he does."
Chu Jianshu paused: "Regret and self-blame?"
Yang Xiaoyu didn't react either: "Baby, what are you regretting?"
"My brother is not the type to get angry at others at random. This time he just exploded because of his accumulated emotions..."
Chu Yigui had been watching Wan Qiu, and saw all of Wan Qiu's silence and repression, his temptations and outbursts.
"It would be too much for my brother to hurt our parents. He will regret it."
Yang Xiaoyu's expression was very subtle, and finally froze on a subtle expression.
"Why is this child so good at finding faults in himself?" Chu Jianshu's voice sounded as if he was sighing.
But everyone present knew the reason for Wan Qiu's personality.
Yang Xiaoyu pursed her lips, and finally rubbed her forehead helplessly: "Baby, you have to be in a cold war with us for at least a month, then get angry, and deliberately make things unpleasant or something."
When Chu Jianshu heard what Yang Xiaoyu said, the shadow of Chu Zhang appeared in his mind.
Chu Zhang likes to go against him like this whenever he gets angry.
"I'm afraid my brother will be embarrassed to see mom and dad during this period."
Chu Yigui thought of Wan Qiu’s panicked and flushed face as he ran away without even daring to look back.
Yang Xiaoyu was sitting on the sofa, her hair was a little messy, and there was a hint of tenderness and heartache in her eyes.
"Our baby is innocent and cute. It's my fault for making such a baby cry."
Chu Yigui did not comment and said, "Let brother calm down for a while."
Chu Yigui has always been the closest to Wan Qiu, so Yang Xiaoyu had to follow Chu Yigui's advice.
Looking at Chu Yigui, Yang Xiaoyu suddenly said, "Yigui, if you want to go find Wanqiu, can you tell your mother a message?"
Chu Yigui was not surprised that Yang Xiaoyu guessed his next move.
He always goes to find Wan Qiu.
"Okay." Chu Yigui responded.
——
Wan Qiu lay on the bed, curled up in the quilt, leaving a gap above his head for breathing.
If the air conditioner hadn't been on, Wan Qiu would probably be suffocating from the heat.
When Wan Qiu thought about what he had just done, his face began to turn red.
He seemed to have done something very terrible.
Wan Qiu also felt that his emotions were abnormal just now.
He spoke loudly, pulled his mother's hair, and even kicked his father's legs.
Wan Qiu couldn't understand why he would do that.
Does it hurt when mom’s hair is pulled?
Did he just scold his brother?
Wan Qiu curled up in the quilt, hugging his legs, his whole body curled up tightly, not daring to stick his head out.
He thought he must be crazy.
He was so crazy, just like a completely different person.
what to do……
what to do?
As he ran away, there seemed to be no sound of angry curses coming from behind him.
Are mom and dad blaming him?
Going crazy will make people dislike him. Could it be that his parents' gentleness towards him is just his imagination and did not happen at all?
Wan Qiu thought about the possibilities and the impossibilities at the same time, and a tug-of-war began between reason and desire.
Until there was a knock on Wan Qiu's door.
Wan Qiu curled up in the quilt and paused.
Listening to the sound of knocking on the door.
It was the familiar regular knock on the door.
It's his younger brother.
Wan Qiu was reluctant to leave the bed, afraid of anyone who might accuse him.
But no matter how much I tried to avoid it, the knock on the door still persisted.
Wan Qiu lifted the quilt, and the cool air from the air-conditioning in the room was like a bottle of cold water pressed against his neck. He shuddered and became slightly more awake.
He stepped on the soft carpet, in this space that belonged to him, without any memory of any violent invasion.
Wan Qiu still opened the door.
Chu Yigui knew that Wan Qiu would definitely open the door.
Because I won’t refuse others, nor do I want to make others wait in vain.
At this time Chu Yigui saw that Wan Qiu's door was only half open.
Most of Wan Qiu's body was hidden behind the door, with only half of his head sticking out.
The red corners of his eyes revealed a bit of confusion and helplessness, and he looked nervous through the door.
It was like a timid squirrel whose attention was attracted by a chestnut trap called Chu Yigui outside the door and who did not dare to step forward and test it immediately.
Chu Yigui always heard Yang Xiaoyu say that Wan Qiu was very cute.
Yang Xiaoyu kept calling Wan Qiu baby, and exaggeratedly said that she fainted because of Wan Qiu's cuteness.
But in Chu Yigui's view, his brother is a strong person worthy of respect, learning and reliance.
And now...
Chu Yigui seemed to vaguely understand Yang Xiaoyu's feelings.
He thinks his brother is cute.
"Brother, I brought dinner over." Chu Yigui even pushed the dining cart prepared by the housekeeper, "Can I come in?"
In Chu Yigui's opinion, Wan Qiu might not want to leave the bedroom today.
Wan Qiu was guarding the door, obviously still hesitating.
"It's okay, brother." Chu Yigui was coaxing him, without any extra words, his voice was still calm, steady, and he was waiting.
Wan Qiu would never refuse Chu Yigui.
Wan Qiu obeyed the other party.
Wan Qiu opened the door.
Wan Qiu lowered his head, huddled together, and kept glancing behind Chu Yigui.
Chu Yigui pushed the dining cart into the room, closed the door behind him in front of Wan Qiu, and locked it.
They were the only ones left in this vast bedroom.
There was no one waiting outside the door, only two people.
The little animal, which was so nervous that it almost curled up in the corner, realized that it was safe.
"You didn't change your clothes after returning home?" Chu Yigui said to Wan Qiu, "Change into your home clothes. I'll help your brother set the table for dinner."
Wan Qiu followed Chu Yigui's words and found the home clothes that Butler Bai had placed on the bedside before he came back.
When Chu Yigui looked up, he saw Wan Qiu had taken off his shirt, exposing his body to the air.
Wan Qiu's skin color, which was once uneven due to long-term running outside, is no longer clearly defined.
The milky white skin she inherited from Yang Xiaoyu seemed to glow under the light.
"Brother's scar has faded a lot." Chu Yigui left the dining car and came to Wan Qiu's side.
Before Wan Qiu changed his clothes, Chu Yigui held Wan Qiu's wrist and looked at Wan Qiu's arm.
Chu Yigui once observed the wounds on Wan Qiu's body in such a careful manner.
He remembered every scar clearly, and memorized the origin of every scar that Wan Qiu told him.
And now even these scars have disappeared.
Some of them are left with red marks, while others only have slight differences in the skin.
"When my brother grows up a little bit, these scars will disappear completely."
Chu Yigui murmured, but because the bedroom was too quiet, Wan Qiu heard it.
"I apply scar removal ointment every day."
Wan Qiu has been persisting and will also be supervised by Yang Xiaoyu or Butler Bai.
Now Wan Qiu can't even remember what those scars looked like originally.
"Mom hopes that my brother will not remember the wounds of the past."
Wan Qiu nodded.
"Mom hopes to see the brother she raised become better."
Wan Qiu lowered his head and nodded.
Thinking about what he did to Yang Xiaoyu today, he felt a little depressed.
Chu Yigui reached out and picked up the home clothes beside him, helped Wan Qiu put them on, and buttoned the clothes one by one.
Wan Qiu grabbed the hem of his clothes with both hands, still feeling uneasy.
Chu Yigui lowered his eyes, looked at Wan Qiu, and said, "I asked my brother to focus on his emotions, so my brother expressed them, right?"
Wan Qiu nodded.
"Did I help my brother? Do you feel better?" Chu Yigui's voice was still gentle.
After expressing out loud the fear in his heart that even Wan Qiu himself was not aware of, he did seem to feel a lot better.
"But if I go crazy, will my parents be unhappy?" Wan Qiu didn't even dare to look up at Chu Jianshu and Yang Xiaoyu's faces at that time.
"My mother asked me to give my brother a message."
When Wan Qiu heard Chu Yigui's words, he immediately pricked up his ears and grabbed his clothes even harder with his fingers.
"Mom said, baby, you did a great job. You should act like this in the future."
Wan Qiu slowly opened his eyes, and after his brain finally understood the meaning of this sentence, he immediately looked up.
"Dad said that he was glad to see you express your emotions. If he couldn't even take care of your emotions, then he wouldn't have grown at all as a parent."
Wan Qiu didn't quite understand what Chu Jianshu said.
Chu Yigui seemed to see Wan Qiu's confusion and explained, "Dad said, it's okay, brother is doing very well, they will tolerate brother."
However, Wan Qiu was even more confused: "Why? I clearly did something wrong."
"Brother, do you know that when seeing a doctor, you should tell the doctor where it hurts?" Chu Yigui asked.
Wan Qiu nodded.
"Only by knowing the symptoms can the doctor prescribe the right medicine." Chu Yigui's fingertips pressed against Wan Qiu's heart. "Only when your brother expresses your emotions can mom and dad know how to treat you."
Wan Qiu looked at Chu Yigui's slender fingers and asked blankly: "Even if it is a wrong emotion?"
Chu Yigui said, "There is no right or wrong in emotions. The actions born from emotions are what distinguish right from wrong."
Wan Qiu felt that Chu Yigui’s words were very profound.
But vaguely, I seemed to understand what Chu Yigui was saying.
"I don't understand." Wan Qiu just said this.
"Brother, do you remember what I said?" Chu Yigui smiled, as steady and calm as ever, "Brother, you can show your emotions to me. I will be responsible for guiding you."
Wan Qiu looked at Chu Yigui eagerly. His brother was the same as always, just like the space created by the bed and bedding, reliable and comfortable.
But……
"What about your brother's mood?" Wan Qiu asked.
Wan Qiu always asks Chu Yigui, and when Chu Yigui heard the expected words, he smiled.
"My brother has always been tolerant of my emotions."
Wan Qiu widened his eyes, as if asking, "What, when, how did I tolerate it?"
Chu Yigui didn't explain it in detail, he thought it was the best situation now.
"Brother, as long as you know that mom and dad are not angry, that's enough." Chu Yigui said.
"But you have to apologize to mom and dad." Wan Qiu said.
"Then brother will find a chance to apologize if that's what you want to do." Chu Yigui would not stop Wan Qiu from doing this.
Wan Qiu did not find any words such as "blame", "mistake", or "can't" in these conversations.
It was like he was allowed to do anything.
Am I really not dreaming? Wan Qiu thought.
"Would you like to have dinner now?" Chu Yigui returned to the dining car.
Wan Qiu looked at Chu Yigui who arranged the food on the dining car one by one. He was always methodical in everything he did, understood logic, and knew right and wrong.
Wan Qiu sat at the dining table, waiting.
Suddenly something flashed through his mind, and Wan Qiu asked, "What did my brother want to say to me that night when my parents apologized to me?"
Chu Yigui paused.
"I want to apologize to my brother." Chu Yigui sat opposite Wan Qiu, "I'm sorry, brother, I didn't do anything for you at that time."
Wan Qiu was very confused.
But Chu Yigui did not explain.
This apology was not so much an apology to Wan Qiu as it was an apology for himself, and it was said to Wan Qiu.
During the time he and Wan Qiu were entangled with each other by accident, each left a mark in the other's past because of the other's existence.
Once, Chu Yigui chose Chu Jianshu and Yang Xiaoyu over Zhen Wanqiu.
He once wanted to be Wan Qiu.
What he neglected the most was himself.
so……
Chu Yigui turned a blind eye to Wanqiu's suffering.
"I also want to say thank you to my brother." Chu Yigui thought for a moment, "Maybe I should say thank you first, then apologize."
Because he saw himself through Wan Qiu first.
That's why I want to cherish Wanqiu even more.
I'm afraid Wan Qiu will never be able to understand these confusing emotions.
"Then... I forgive you? And... it's okay?" Wan Qiu hesitated and responded to Chu Yigui.
Chu Yigui smiled.
"I'm just satisfying myself, don't worry about it, brother."
Wan Qiu looked at Chu Yigui.
Although his brother was speaking incomprehensible words, Wan Qiu felt that Chu Yigui's face did not show any unhappiness.
It was as if the sand was blown by the breeze, leaving a unique mark on the sand hill, forming a meaningless but beautiful natural picture.
"Dad specially asked the chef to prepare a lot of meat. The satisfaction of eating meat should make my brother feel better."
"This fruit salad was prepared by my mother herself. Although she really wants to cook, unfortunately she doesn't know how to cook."
"Butler Bai also hopes that brother can feel better, so I put some sugar in the milk I prepared for brother today."
"My second brother came back late, but he brought back a portion of crepes. I heard that my second brother queued up specifically to buy them."
There is not much food on this table.
But it reflects everyone's concerns about Wan Qiu.
Wan Qiu put the food into his mouth. No matter what it was, it tasted delicious.
This was the first time Wan Qiu expressed his emotions so clearly.
This was also the first time that Wan Qiu realized that he was being tolerated in this way.
Perhaps more fears in the future will fade away with growth and healing, just like scars.
Apart from the fear of ghosts, everything should be fine.
Wan Qiu's little emotional outburst would not pass quickly.
Wan Qiu was indeed not willing to contact Yang Xiaoyu and Chu Jianshu immediately because he was doing something he was not good at and also because of a little dissatisfaction in his heart.
But for some reason, Wan Qiu couldn't be on guard against Chu Yigui.
Chu Jianshu and Yang Xiaoyu were really not angry. They talked to Wan Qiu in the morning, but Wan Qiu did not answer.
Wan Qiu saw the 'unhappiness' but did not feel threatened.
Although there was still some strange feeling lingering deep in his heart, Wan Qiu still found an opportunity to apologize to Chu Jianshu and Yang Xiaoyu for tearing his hair and kicking when he was venting his emotions.
But Yang Xiaoyu and Chu Jianshu said that this was what they deserved and there was no reason for an apology.
Wan Qiu once again received their apology and promise.
He will never be abandoned again.
For Wan Qiu, this promise is more important than anything else he gets.
Although Wan Qiu has always believed in the memory fragments that he will be abandoned in the future.
But compared to those memories that Wan Qiu still doesn't understand, Wan Qiu trusts his parents who are so close to him more.
This sense of security seemed to give Wan Qiu a more thorough understanding of emotions.
Wan Qiu made a request.
"I want to go and see where my parents are now." Wan Qiu pulled Chu Yigui's sleeve and refused to hold Chu Yigui's hand.
Chu Yigui also noticed this little thing, which was Wan Qiu's resistance to him.
"Then can mom take you there?" Yang Xiaoyu asked tentatively, lowering her voice and posture.
But Wanqiu shook his head.
Wan Qiu rejected Yang Xiaoyu and Chu Jianshu.
Also rejected Yang Ze.
In the end, it was Butler Bai who drove Wan Qiu there.
Fortunately, Wan Qiu allowed Chu Yigui to follow.
Butler Bai drove more steadily, just like his calm personality.
Wan Qiu and Chu Yigui could be seen sitting in the back seat in the rearview mirror.
The two boys, who are usually inseparable, were unusually quiet this time.
Butler Bai vaguely felt that the entire space was too quiet.
The vehicle drove from the suburbs to a more distant place, and at the edge of the city among a group of low-rise bungalows, the walls of a prison appeared.
Butler Bai parked the car on the side of the road.
"That's the prison over there. Wan Qiu, Ning Hai and Ning Qiaozhen are there." Butler Bai's voice came.
I kept looking at Wan Qiu outside the window and finally came to my senses.
He got out of the car and stood on the side of the road, looking at the prison not far away.
The large and neatly-built buildings are tall and have anti-climbing barbs and iron nets.
Wan Qiu looked into the distance.
The weather today is not that hot. Without the blockage of tall buildings, the breeze is blowing gently.
The two people that Wan Qiu thought he would never see again are now within sight of him.
"If you want to visit him in prison, I have brought my ID and we can go in at any time." Butler Bai said to Wan Qiu.
However, Wan Qiu shook his head and just looked at the high wall.
Wan Qiu sat on the side of the road.
It's very quiet here.
Even vehicles rarely pass through.
Wan Qiu didn't want to see Ning Qiaozhen and Ning Hai anymore, but he didn't know why he wanted to come here to take a look.
What is life like in prison?
Will mom and dad do bad things again in the future?
Is it really like what Dad said, that even if they come out, they will still treat him badly?
Wan Qiu was in a delicate mood.
Wan Qiu sat at the prison gate for a long time, his eyes looking into the distance at the prison.
Chu Yigui stood beside Butler Bai and only looked at Wan Qiu.
Wan Qiu had a lunch here.
It was Butler Bai who took the initiative to buy it from nearby, and it was Wan Qiu who took the initiative to ask to eat here.
There are still two people beside Wan Qiu.
Wan Qiu also has memories of having meals with Ning Hai and Ning Qiaozhen in harmony.
Peaceful times are also happy.
Wan Qiu just wanted to stay here, and the people around him also gave him enough time.
When Wan Qiu stood up again, the sun had already set.
My eyes are a little tired.
Wan Qiu turned around and held Chu Yigui's hand.
The warmth is intertwined between the two young men holding hands.
When Wan Qiu left, he never looked back at the prison.
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