Disappeared for Wanqiu's recovery.
Chu Yigui could feel Wan Qiu quietly sticking to him, as if checking his body temperature.
Sadly, his fever hadn't gone down and he was now very hot.
Chu Yigui could see the disappointment in Wan Qiu's eyes.
Chu Yigui found his medicine and opened the thermos.
The thermos cup did not contain hot water as Chu Yigui thought, but soup.
Chu Yigui drank a little and it tasted like ginger soup.
It was Wan Qiu who did it.
Chu Yigui was extremely sure.
The ginger soup swayed slightly, and Chu Yigui swallowed the pill.
The warm ginger soup relieved the discomfort, but the relief came too quickly and did not seem to come from the taste of the soup.
It comes from the warmth of the emotions of the person in front of you.
Chu Yigui has always known very clearly that he is Wan Qiu's substitute.
The Chu family is incomplete, and its gap is called Wanqiu.
So Chu Yigui filled the gap that had already been created.
Everyone is born with his or her own identity, but Chu Yigui never thinks that he or she is capable of occupying a certain position.
He was abandoned from birth.
He has no place of his own.
Only when he came to the broken Chu family could he gain more things from the identity of a substitute that he could never get on his own.
He is Wan Qiu's shadow.
After Wan Qiu came back, it was even more so.
Chu Yigui believes that he is Wan Qiu, and is a part used to fill Wan Qiu's space.
He exists in the Chu family because of Wan Qiu, so he must bear some part of Wan Qiu's responsibility.
He is inseparable from Wan Qiu.
When he saw Wan Qiu, Chu Yigui truly realized how superficial his thoughts were.
He enjoyed everything that should have belonged to Wan Qiu, but he had no way to fill Wan Qiu's past with himself.
At an age when he still needs to be taken care of, Wan Qiu is taking care of an irresponsible family and living a life that is different from his own and worries about safety.
And during this time, he enjoyed a life that Wan Qiu could not even imagine.
"Brother." Chu Yigui's hoarse voice seemed to be deeper than usual when it sounded under the soft light. "You know what? You can hit me, scold me, and bully me, and I won't resist you."
"Why?" Wan Qiu just patted his back and said, "Mom and Dad live far away. I'm watching you secretly. They can't hear you, so they won't get beaten!"
Wanqiu’s understanding is naive, immature and pure.
And he would not understand Chu Yigui’s deeper thoughts.
He was prepared for everything, waiting to face Wan Qiu's negativity, whether it was bullying or beatings.
But he saw these eyes from the very beginning.
Or rather...
These eyes saw him.
Countless days and nights, countless free time, he would always think of these eyes.
And after the owner of these eyes approached him actively, Chu Yigui could always see them.
I am reflected in these eyes, only myself.
Chu Yigui believed that he was Wan Qiu.
He can become Wan Qiu.
He will also become Wan Qiu's shadow and live in this Chu family.
But from the very beginning, he had been torn apart by Wan Qiu.
What he saw in those eyes was not Wan Qiu.
It is a person named Chu Yigui.
Just like a mirror.
This beautiful, flawless, bright mirror has the most eye-catching, simple, yet extremely beautiful frame in the world, making everyone marvel at the art of this mirror.
But when you really stand in front of the mirror, what you see is yourself.
I saw the embarrassed, stupid, and truest version of myself.
Wan Qiu will never know what these eyes mean to a man named Chu Yigui.
Just like Chu Yigui now, he can't even tell what his meaning is.
He wanted to be Wan Qiu.
I want to be intertwined with Wan Qiu and become inseparable from him.
But Wan Qiu struggled out of the mud and returned to the ground under the threat of death, which had almost sunk to his chest and drowned him.
I brushed off the dirt on my body and told him.
This is called cowardice.
"elder brother."
Chu Yigui put his arm around Wan Qiu's shoulders and held him in his arms.
His hot palm pressed against Wan Qiu's cheek.
His dry lips pressed against Wan Qiu's hair.
Where Wan Qiu couldn't see, Chu Yigui could no longer hide his vulnerability.
Like an ice flower, its branches melted by the scorching heat, and it fell to the ground and broke into pieces.
"What should I do?"
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