This was the first quarrel between Chu Yigui and Wan Qiu, but in reality, Wan Qiu was venting his emotions on Chu Yigui.
Because it was so rare, it was even intense for Wan Qiu and alarmed everyone in the Chu family.
Yang Ze carried Wan Qiu to the living room. The boy had grown too tall to be held in Yang Ze's arms, but he looked fragile and thin under Yang Ze's body.
Yang Ze was not very good at comforting people, so he could only pat Wan Qiu's back regularly, as if trying to calm him down.
Butler Bai specially brewed a soothing tea, and the chef also took the trouble to prepare a fruit plate with distinct colors and various carvings for Wan Qiu, which looked like a small flower bed placed on the table.
Butler Bai even played some soothing music.
Gradually, Wan Qiu came back to his senses.
The angry mood seemed to dissipate little by little under the comfort of others.
Wan Qiu, who was truly angry for the first time, stared ahead in a daze.
"Have you calmed down?" Yang Ze patted Wan Qiu on the back and tried to soften his voice, although it did not fit in with his serious face that was tense and tense due to nervousness.
Wan Qiu nodded.
"Being angry is so scary." Wan Qiu rubbed Yang Ze, recalling that anxious emotion, and felt a lingering fear.
"Really?" Yang Ze agreed with Wan Qiu.
"Hmm..." Wan Qiu touched his heart with both hands, "It hurts here."
"Does it still hurt now?" Yang Ze asked, patting Wan Qiu's back.
Wan Qiu shook his head.
"Are you feeling uncomfortable somewhere?"
Wan Qiu rubbed his eyes: "My eyes hurt."
"It's because I cried."
Butler Bai brought an ice towel, and Yang let Wan Qiu lean on his shoulder and covered Wan Qiu's eyes with the ice towel.
The icy cool temperature gradually cooled down the burning temperature left by the anger.
Wan Qiu's brain was in a blank state.
"What happened?" Yang asked.
Wan Qiu shook his head slowly. He had calmed down, but his memory seemed to be disconnected and he couldn't remember anything specific.
"Did Yigui bully you?" Although Yang Ze thought it was unlikely, he still asked just in case.
This time, Wan Qiu just shook his head frantically, and Yang immediately covered Wan Qiu with an ice towel.
"Then why are you so angry?"
Wan Qiu could hear Yang Ze's cautious questioning, and Wan Qiu also wanted to give Yang Ze an answer.
"I don't know." Wan Qiu's voice was a little muffled due to his stuffy nose, "I just got angry all of a sudden."
"Then is there anything Second Brother can do?" Yang Ze asked.
Wan Qiu shook his head.
"It's already healed."
"Really?" Yang Ze was a little doubtful. "If you feel angry, just tell your second brother. He can take you to the gym to play with sandbags. If you like, he can also put a headshot of Yigui on you."
Wan Qiu still shook his head.
"I'm not angry anymore." Wan Qiu covered his chest and said, "I feel better after being angry."
After saying this, Wan Qiu vaguely realized something.
After I got completely mad, the strange feeling of blockage in my chest disappeared.
Don't want to think about anything.
Everything is much smoother.
Wan Qiu vaguely realized that he might have been angry all along.
But he didn't know that he was angry.
The anger that had been lingering in my heart finally had an outlet to vent, so I felt so relieved now.
If that's the case, then why is he angry?
Wan Qiu couldn't remember.
"If you are still angry, should we let Yigui live in another house today?" Yang Ze asked.
Wan Qiu immediately held Yang Ze's hand and revealed his eyes from under the ice towel: "No, I'm not angry anymore."
Seeing Wan Qiu’s eyes still a little red, Yang smiled.
"I knew you would say that."
Wan Qiu's mood was obviously much better.
He also ate a lot of sweet fruits. If he hadn't eaten dinner and was not hungry, he would have even eaten the entire fruit plate.
Chu Jianshu came out of Chu Yigui's room. He seemed to have had a conversation with Chu Yigui, but no one knew the content of the conversation.
Chu Jianshu briefly asked Wan Qiu about his condition, and Wan Qiu still said that he was fine.
Wan Qiu sat obediently in a seat, covering his face with an ice towel in both hands.
Maybe it was because I gradually came to my senses and realized that what I had just done was somewhat embarrassing.
Wan Qiu asked, "Did Yigui say anything just now?"
"He didn't say anything." Chu Jianshu obviously didn't have much control over the situation. "He just said it was his fault and he was willing to bear any consequences."
"It's not Yigui's fault." Wan Qiu peeked out from behind the ice towel and looked at Chu Jianshu anxiously.
How could Chu Jianshu not see Wan Qiu's protection for Chu Yigui? He sighed and said, "I'm not planning on doing anything."
Of course Wan Qiu also noticed Chu Jianshu's helpless expression and felt a little guilty.
"There's nothing wrong with doing this occasionally." Chu Jianshu suddenly said.
Yang Ze and Wan Qiu looked at Chu Jianshu together, as if they couldn't understand why Chu Jianshu said that.
“Joy, anger, sorrow and happiness are all part of life.”
Chu Jianshu's fingertips rubbed the armrest of the sofa unconsciously.
"I have never seen Yigui make people so angry. Although Chu Zhang doesn't like Yigui, he won't be angry because of Chu Yigui. People can't be too perfect."
"Yigui is very smart and would not do such a thing." Yang Ze also agreed.
"The fact that something like this has happened now proves that Yigui has also encountered a difficult problem that he cannot solve. Knowing your own strengths and weaknesses and being able to feel your own limits in advance is not necessarily a bad thing."
Chu Jianshu was very rare. Instead of harshly rebuking others, he chose gentleness.
"He was able to understand and experience failure so early, which is not necessarily a bad thing considering his intelligence."
Chu Yigui is always perfect.
This child, who seemed to have grown up with perfection in mind, also reached his own limits after finding his own ideas.
After overcoming this difficulty, Chu Yigui should be polished to become more outstanding and dazzling.
Chu Jianshu looked at Wan Qiu.
His youngest son seemed to have a unique charm.
His growth always leads everyone around him and changes the people around him little by little.
It's like a gift from God to them.
Chu Jianshu rarely showed Wan Qiu a gentle smile: "I hope you can resolve the conflict as soon as possible."
The ice towel in Wan Qiu's hand has been warmed up.
After Butler Bai took it away, Wan Qiu shook his head and said that he didn't want the ice towel anymore.
"Isn't getting angry a bad thing?" Wan Qiu was still nervous in front of Chu Jianshu, as he did in front of his elders.
Wan Qiu knows that it is not a good thing to lose anger in front of parents.
"Just like what I said just now, happiness, anger, sadness, and joy are all emotions that people must experience." Chu Jianshu stood up, walked to Wan Qiu's side, and ruffled Wan Qiu's hair, "It proves that you are also growing up."
Wan Qiu really likes Chu Jianshu touching his hair.
Unlike Yang Xiaoyu who always liked to hug him directly, Chu Jianshu's most intimate action towards Wan Qiu was limited to this.
Wan Qiu rubbed Chu Jianshu's palm with a not-so-obvious act of coquettishness.
"but……"
Chu Jianshu's "but" suddenly made Wan Qiu's nervous heart skip a beat.
"If you really can't solve it, remember to come to me. If you can't solve it, I will help you solve it."
Chu Jianshu withdrew his hand.
But Wan Qiu did not feel that the warmth remaining on her hair disappeared because of Chu Jianshu's departure.
It seems that tenderness has always remained there.
"It's too late, everyone should go home and have some rest." Chu Jianshu's voice fell.
After Chu Jianshu left, the others who stayed here left.
Yang, who was the last one left, turned his head and wanted to take Wan Qiu back to the bedroom.
Wan Qiu was held by Yang Ze's hand and prepared to return to the bedroom step by step.
Wan Qiu suddenly said, "Second brother, I want to go to Yigui's room."
Yang was a little surprised: "Didn't we just have a fight? Maybe it would be better if we calm down for a day."
Wan Qiu shook his head: "I don't want to keep delaying this annoying thing."
Yang tilted his head and saw Wan Qiu's innocence and optimism.
Patted Wan Qiu on the shoulder.
"I won't lock the door tonight, and don't lock it when you go to Yigui's room. If you get angry, call me loudly and I will take you out."
Wanqiu should be well behaved.
Yang Ze watched Wan Qiu's back as he walked towards Chu Yigui's room.
Vaguely, he no longer saw that weak child.
His straight back and even his gradually broad shoulders tell us that this once weak child is gradually growing into an amazing man.
Yang noticed that he seemed to be smiling.
The corners of his mouth curled up, expressing emotion and admiration.
——
Is this the right thing to do?
Why do the wrong thing?
When Chu Yigui heard the question from Wan Qiu, he answered Wan Qiu.
Even if Wan Qiu likes anyone, it is not a mistake.
He hopes Wan Qiu can do anything, no matter what it is, and he will support everything Wan Qiu does.
He told Wan Qiu about it.
Wan Qiu couldn't hear anything he said.
Wan Qiu grasped his clothes with his hands with a strength he had never used before.
Tearing and pushing him hard away, he could only follow Wan Qiu's movements and keep retreating.
He leaned against the bed, sat on it, and looked up at the angry Wan Qiu.
At this moment, very inappropriately, Chu Yigui felt that Wan Qiu was really beautiful.
Bright, vivid, carrying the flames that can burn everything, so vivid that it seems to illuminate everything.
He watched Wan Qiu grow up, and watched Wan Qiu grow from being ignorant to becoming a person who can be relied on.
Wan Qiu became more and more outstanding, more and more dazzling, and he could not take his eyes off her.
Once, he remembered the look Wan Qiu gave him.
Now, he is watching everything about Wan Qiu all the time.
But what about him?
Is everything he is doing different from what he has done before?
Can the seeds that curl up quietly beside the raging fire, trying to get a little warmth in this cold world, sprout?
Even now, compared to the angry Wan Qiu, at that moment, he was greedy for the hidden preference Wan Qiu had for him.
Chu Jianshu asked them what happened.
But he couldn't say anything to answer Chu Jianshu.
The air was cold and deserted, with the scent of eternal autumn lingering, but it was so quiet that it seemed as if it was about to dissipate completely.
At this moment, he only saw blankness.
"It's my fault, and I am willing to bear any consequences."
Chu Jianshu sighed.
What Chu Jianshu said is actually not important.
Chu Yigui also realized that Chu Jianshu had no intention of comforting him or punishing him.
"You and Wan Qiu have always had a good relationship. I believe you won't bully him."
"There will always be conflicts when you are together. Don't avoid them, solve them properly."
“It’s not a bad thing to occasionally look at things you can’t do.”
Chu Jianshu became gentle.
It seemed that after Wan Qiu came back, he understood the meaning of gentleness more and more.
Chu Jianshu's changes are also a testament to Wan Qiu's excellence.
When everyone was praising his excellence, only they knew that the truly excellent person was Wan Qiu.
After Chu Jianshu left, Chu Yigui was the only one left in the bedroom.
Chu Yigui heard a quiet voice.
"Don't you like it?" Wan Qiu's questioning voice suddenly echoed in his ears.
He obeyed Wan Qiu's request, and the joy born out of his humble obedience to Wan Qiu's proposal brought him closer to Wan Qiu.
Do you like it?
like.
Don't like it?
like.
How could I not like it?
It was a familiar scent, a taste he longed for, and even the smell he first noticed had never faded from his memory.
The intimacy wrapped in desire was like poison in his tarsal bones, almost devouring him.
Wan Qiu's indulgent questioning magnified his selfishness and meanness.
At this moment, Chu Yigui truly realized that hidden beneath the praised excellence and what he thought was his hard work, was a bottomless and filthy inferiority complex.
The empty room was filled up bit by bit by Wan Qiu.
But a room is always just a room. Once Wan Qiu takes away everything, he is still left with nothing.
Neither warmth nor fullness can change the essence of a room.
He greedily demanded from Wan Qiu one-way, clinging to him like a dodder.
But he could give nothing in return to Wan Qiu.
Sooner or later, unequal emotions will collapse due to excessive tilt, and it will not be Wanqiu that will be destroyed in the collapse.
Therefore, he selfishly wanted to maintain the status quo.
Chu Yigui despised his selfish self, but this was the emotion he had found that belonged to him, and he could not resist.
He knew Wan Qiu would be angry.
He knew that Wan Qiu would be confused because of his rejection.
He could also see Wan Qiu's concentration and caution towards him.
He understood Wan Qiu so clearly.
But because of selfishness, he turned a blind eye.
Because we turn a blind eye, we despise meanness even more.
But how to do it?
What is the best practice?
How can he change? He couldn't even find a way to apologize.
Everything looked like a stuck movie, with only garbled characters left and unable to be played.
Only in the dark places where no one pays attention, in the unnoticed corners covered with moss, do people have the courage to release dark emotions and covetousness.
Do this?
What should he do.
In a world where everything has a traceable path, why is it that only Wan Qiu is so irrational, and no rules apply to him?
The sound of the door opening came to Chu Yigui's ears through the cold air.
Chu Yigui raised his eyes and saw Wan Qiu coming in.
At this moment, all the complicated thoughts disappeared because of Wan Qiu's approach, leaving only the person in his sight.
He only feels relaxed when he is with Wan Qiu.
Only when he is by Wan Qiu's side, all his thoughts will turn into attention to Wan Qiu.
Chu Yigui sat on the bed and Wan Qiu stood in front of him.
Under the light, Wan Qiu looked away, with a little anger that had not dissipated, and a slight sense of guilt, which together formed a soft blush at the corners of his eyes.
"I'm sorry." Chu Yigui found his own voice first.
Chu Yigui also heard his hoarse tone, which was different from his usual calm tone.
"I'm sorry, I don't want this to happen." Chu Yigui said.
"I seem to be particularly angry, but I can't remember what I am angry about." Wan Qiu didn't look at him, but looked into the darkness.
There is obviously a brighter place where you can see more things clearly, but you are still staring at that corner that has never been illuminated by the light.
For some reason, Chu Yigui's heartbeat accelerated unconsciously.
"Do you know that this is wrong?" Wan Qiu asked.
"Yeah." Chu Yigui said.
"What's wrong?" Wan Qiu asked.
"I belittled my own feelings and underestimated your care for me." Chu Yigui knew very well why Wan Qiu was angry.
"Then will you change it?"
“…”
"Aren't you going to change?"
Because of his silence, Wan Qiu's bright eyes stared at him.
Chu Yigui lowered his eyes, as if he was facing a superior, too timid to dare to look at him.
"I..." Chu Yigui never wanted to reveal his incompetence in front of Wan Qiu.
"Tell the truth, be honest!" Wan Qiu pretended to have a vicious voice, but it had an extremely cute ending.
It seems out of place in such a depressing atmosphere.
“I don’t know how to change it.”
Under pressure from Wan Qiu, he honestly expressed his thoughts.
I like Wanqiu.
But I don’t know how to like someone.
In the conflict caused by love, Chu Yigui was clueless and at a loss for the first time.
Chu Yigui's eyelashes trembled slightly.
The feeling of powerlessness and incompetence gnaws away at me, bringing me pain.
But I can’t say I don’t know…
Chu Yigui should be the excellent Chu Yigui. He will be responsible for guiding Wan Qiu. This is his responsibility alone and he doesn't want to give it to anyone else.
"I'm ready to adjust myself, it just takes some time." Chu Yigui said.
There has to be a better way.
"How do you want to adjust your state?" Wan Qiu asked.
Wan Qiu's question left Chu Yigui unable to answer.
Wan Qiu turned his head away: "What is the right thing to do when you like someone?"
As Wan Qiu thought about it, he seemed to be in a dilemma.
"When you like someone, is it always the right thing to do?"
Chu Yigui raised his eyes and saw that Wan Qiu was also completely confused and lost in thought. He didn't seem to know how to judge the current situation.
Perhaps because Wan Qiu was also in distress, Chu Yigui looked at Wan Qiu and forgot to think.
"This seems to be a difficult question. Yigui, you have never been in love." Wan Qiu sat on the bed, stroking his chin and thinking, "In the novels I read, everyone's love is different."
Chu Yigui was speechless, and Wan Qiu didn't seem to particularly want him to answer.
"What exactly do you want to give me, Yigui?"
Chu Yigui's face wrinkled as he listened to Wan Qiu thinking over many complicated issues over and over again.
There were still red marks in the corners of Wan Qiu's eyes from crying in anger, but he had completely forgotten what he was angry about.
He was still sitting peacefully on his bed, no different from before.
Vaguely, Chu Yigui remembered some of the words Chu Jianshu said before he left.
"Boys are hot-blooded and prone to quarreling and fighting. When they were young, Chu Zhang and Yang Ze often fought with each other."
"Don't put too much pressure on yourself. If you think about it carefully, things in this world are actually not as complicated as you think."
"It's not necessarily a bad thing to do something that suits your temper occasionally."
Follow your temper.
Wan Qiu expressed his concern for him through his anger.
When he was confused, Wan Qiu could always accurately catch his shadow in the fog.
Wan Qiu grabbed Chu Yigui.
Chu Yigui tilted his head and met Wan Qiu's eyes.
It is a bright gaze that cannot be eroded by darkness or light.
Wan Qiu looked away and turned his head, leaving only half of Chu Yigui's profile visible.
It seems that she doesn't want to forgive him for doing something wrong.
But Wan Qiu sat closer to him in this posture.
"Let's think of a solution together." Wan Qiu hesitated and pouted, seeming a little unhappy. "If you agree, do something to show your appreciation."
Even after being angry, Wan Qiu still sat next to him.
Chu Yigui looked at Wan Qiu without looking at his white neck.
At this moment, he had to face up to his own greed and selfishness.
Even if there is nothing.
Even if I can't give Wan Qiu anything.
But the despicable, abandoned blood longs for the beating of the heart and the unceasing transportation.
He chose to live like this.
Maybe it's impossible not to be selfish.
At this moment, Chu Yigui gave up his repression and rationality.
He moved closer to Wan Qiu's neck, opened his mouth, but ended up biting Wan Qiu's clothed shoulder.
Even though he wanted to bite that delicate and white part, in the end, the restraint written in his body made him give up the place he desired most.
"Yi... Yigui? Why did you bite me?" Wan Qiu's voice sounded very surprised and at a loss.
Chu Yigui seemed to refuse Wan Qiu from escaping. He tightly wrapped one hand around Wan Qiu's waist and clasped the other hand around Wan Qiu's shoulders, refusing to let go of his mouth.
He didn't use very much force because he was afraid that Wan Qiu would feel pain.
But he refused to let go, because this restraint brought him much more than just pain.
He selfishly wanted to take revenge on Wan Qiu.
Chu Yigui bit Wan Qiu's shoulder, but frowned tightly.
He realized that perhaps he shouldn't define this action as revenge.
This may be...
She is just acting coquettishly.
Wan Qiu returned to his room.
He took off his clothes and looked at his shoulders in the mirror.
Looking at the round tooth mark on the shoulder, it doesn't hurt, but it looks very strange. The red color and the purple dotted deep in the tooth mark are intertwined together.
Wan Qiu remembered the appearance of various scars. He had also been bitten on his calf by a dog, and scars like these looked very strange.
Is this some new way to respond? Itchy teeth?
Wan Qiu felt that Chu Yigui's condition was getting weirder and weirder.
After washing up, Wan Qiu sat on the bed.
No matter what he thought, he was still angry.
How can it be so infuriating?
Wan Qiu thought about it. If Chu Yigui had someone he liked in the future, he could watch them dating from the sidelines...
How cruel this is.
What on earth is Chu Yigui thinking?
Wan Qiu couldn't understand it at all. Chu Yigui's brain must be broken.
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