Chapter 190 The Repentant Master
"Teacher...Master...no, um..."
Jiang Jiu looked at Ji Chen's back not far away with a troubled look. He was too thin. Even after such a long time in modern times, he showed no signs of recovery. From the back, his waist seemed to be even thinner than hers.
Sometimes she didn't know how to face Ji Chen, especially after what happened in the long river of time.
"Um?"
Ji Chen seemed to have heard her voice as well. He turned around and looked at Jiang Jiu. Their eyes met in the air, and Jiang Jiu felt inexplicably embarrassed.
The wind blew the hems of their clothes fluttering in the wind. After a while, Jiang Jiu walked over and approached the fence.
This is a pavilion on a mountain top. From here you can see the city road below, but the distance is not far.
"You're here."
Ji Chen's voice has always been light, and not much emotion can be heard in it, but Jiang Jiu is already very familiar with him. Although nothing can be seen on the surface, his emotions actually change a lot, but they are all suppressed under his cold appearance.
Jiang Jiu still had a faint lingering impression of Ji Chen's paranoid look in her mind, as if he would not give up unless she agreed to never leave.
"Um."
She withdrew her distracted mind and followed Ji Chen's gaze to look into the distance. The distance between the two was neither far nor near, and no one took the initiative to approach or move away.
After coming back from the long river of time, Jiang Jiu didn't know how to face Ji Chen. Although Ji Chen had been her master before, the master-disciple relationship established under that situation always made Jiang Jiu feel illusory, as if there was a layer of fog between them, not so real.
But during that period of time, Ji Chen actually served as her teacher for a period of time.
To be honest, when Jiang Jiu faced Ji Chen, he couldn't help but feel a sense of guilt. This is probably the instinct engraved in the bones of modern people. It can be fun in the game, but in reality, teacher-student love is a taboo.
Even though the previous self who had not yet recovered his memory had accepted it, Jiang Jiu would still feel ashamed if it happened again.
This is indeed not fair to Ji Chen, but she still feels awkward, so much so that she doesn't know how to get along with Ji Chen during this period of time.
Maybe this is not fair to Ji Chen either, as if he is being ignored, and he feels full of guilt.
Jiang Jiu was thinking with mixed feelings when he heard Ji Chen's questioning voice in his ears.
"Are you still blaming me?"
There was never much emotion in his words, but Jiang Jiu was still able to keenly detect the melancholy in his voice.
"Why do I blame you?"
Jiang Jiu was stunned. He didn't expect Ji Chen to suddenly say this.
In fact, Ji Chen had done very well, but she just couldn't overcome the barrier in her heart.
"Blame me for not protecting you."
Ji Chen lowered his eyes. In the world of cultivation, he was the immortal who protected all living beings, and Jiang Jiu was the goddess who was destined to sacrifice herself for the world. It was like two lines that were destined to travel far, intersecting and then getting farther and farther away.
Now he forced all of this.
Even if Jiang Jiu didn't accept him, Ji Chen had no way of letting go.
But he still didn't dare to go against Jiang Jiu's wishes too much, which would make the distance between them even greater, especially after Jiang Jiu recovered his memory.
He admitted that he was despicable and asked for a promise before Jiang Jiu recovered his memory.
But now he dared not fulfill his promise.
He always felt guilty.
Hearing this, Jiang Jiu first had a huge question mark in his head, and it took him a long time to figure out what Ji Chen meant.
I didn't know whether to laugh or cry for a moment.
It turns out that the two of them were worried about different things.
Ji Chen was actually still dwelling on the things that happened before her death, while she was dwelling on such a minor and immoral issue as a teacher-student relationship.
To be honest, if I have to say something, life and death are more important. The problem she is facing is actually a very small one. I am afraid that if I tell Ji Chen about it, he will not understand what she is struggling with.
However, this also shows that this period was her "neglect", which made Ji Chen really think too much.
"No, I never blamed you."
Jiang Jiu sighed deeply. She shouldn't have bothered about such a trivial matter. Instead, it made Ji Chen more and more obsessed. It was her fault.
"I know, but you don't want to say it."
Ji Chen obviously did not believe Jiang Jiu's words. He thought Jiang Jiu was comforting him. There was sadness in his clear and indifferent eyes, but he did not want Jiang Jiu to see it, so he had to lower his eyes and try his best to cover it up.
Jiang Jiu turned to look at Ji Chen and remained silent.
I didn't expect that Ji Chen was the type who would waste time on internal conflicts instead of taking the initiative. What happened before was probably just because he pushed the child to a corner.
Now that he had some breathing space, he began to fall into his own world again.
Why Jiang Jiu knew it so clearly? Because she was just that type of person, but she had changed a lot now. Although she would indulge in it occasionally, she would not stay addicted for a long time. But Ji Chen obviously could not do that.
Jiang Jiu felt that she needed to do something.
The person who tied the bell must untie it, and she has to untie Ji Chen's knot.
"So what do you think I think?"
Jiang Jiu did not answer Ji Chen directly, but crossed her arms and spoke in a slightly serious tone. At first glance, it seemed as if she was the teacher and the roles were reversed.
Ji Chen paused noticeably before turning to look at Jiang Jiu.
"you...."
Meeting Jiang Jiu's eyes, he hesitated.
He wanted to say something, but didn't dare.
"Nothing. Let me know what you think so that we can open up. I will only speak out if you tell me."
Jiang Jiu knew that Ji Chen needed a push. This was the first time she treated someone as an emotional guide, and it was Ji Chen, her master.
The sound of the wind was whistling in my ears. The wind in the pavilion on the mountain was always very strong, and it was easy for others to hear each other's voices when talking here.
"Although you didn't say it, you should blame me. In this vast fairy world, I should have been your support. But not only did I fail to protect you, I also made you a target of public criticism, and ultimately caused your death. Even if you blame me, you should hate me."
"Even if you are still standing before me now, it's only because of my selfishness. You could live a normal life and enter reincarnation normally without having to face the pain of eternal life."
Ji Chen took a deep breath and began to count his sins, like a repentant sinner.
But every time he spoke, Jiang Jiu became more speechless, and even wanted to laugh.
Every one of them was groundless. I don't know where Ji Chen came to this conclusion, but he put all of it on himself. He was obviously trying his best to protect her. Even at the end, Ji Chen thought about... going to sacrifice to the heaven on her behalf.
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