Chapter 77 The reserved 77th day greets...
After learning the whole story of the spring outing, Shan Yin was indeed confused for a long time.
Looking at Pei Yunhe again, there seemed to be a layer of deep affection and loyalty behind his laughter. Shan Yin could not ignore that deep affection, and his feeling of helplessness gradually became greater than surprise.
Pei Yunhe didn't care and still said the same thing.
"I married the person I had a crush on. Why do you feel bad about it?"
Having said that, every time she thought about how they were together now, she always felt that she had wasted many years and that Pei Yunhe's love for her was misplaced.
Pei Yunhe comforted her: "I didn't tell you that I liked you at that time. It was my own choice. You can't blame me."
Shan Yin couldn't help but ask: "Then why didn't you tell me?"
"I……"
Pei Yunhe really couldn't say this.
He tried to change the subject, he was full of ambition when he was young, but when he came to his senses he tried to swallow his pride, but it was too late.
Later that night of the spring outing, it rained heavily again. The rumbling thunder covered up many of his worries, just as he used his casual tone to cover up the heaviness in his heart.
He didn't mention the confession, and Shan Yin thought he had fooled her.
But she always had a feeling that this was a hurdle in Pei Yunhe's heart. Although it may have been smoothed out by him now, it was still not as smooth as the original state.
I probably hurt his feelings unintentionally.
She occasionally remembered what Pei Yunmiao had said before, and found a time when Pei Yunhe was not around and called Pei Yunmiao.
"Miao Miao, it's me. I want to ask you something."
Pei Yunmiao joined the group again and was not in Nanqiao, but he answered her call quickly and chatted with her enthusiastically.
Shan Yin said, "Miao Miao, when we were chatting at Songlingju before, you mentioned that your brother...was he going to confess his feelings to someone in high school?"
Pei Yunmiao didn't expect Shan Yin to ask this. She was silent for a few seconds and answered in a low voice: "Sister-in-law, why do you suddenly ask this?"
She loved to argue and complain with Pei Yunhe in front of her parents. When she told Shan Yin about Pei Yunhe's childhood love history, it was just a joke and she didn't really want to hurt the relationship between Pei Yunhe and Shan Yin.
She was a little nervous, but she began to speak well of Pei Yunhe: "Sister-in-law, that happened many years ago, and I accidentally discovered it when I was a child. My brother hasn't mentioned it to anyone over the years, which shows that he may not take it seriously. Don't worry about it..."
"I don't care."
"Brother, he hasn't actually confessed his feelings yet. He hasn't even sent the letter yet. Besides, the innocent feelings of adolescence can't be counted. He may have forgotten that girl a long time ago. You don't have to..."
Hearing Pei Yunmiao's increasingly nervous tone, Shan Yin smiled lightly and comforted her, "Miaomiao, I really don't care. I just want to ask, is it possible... that girl is me?"
"Ah, ah?"
Pei Yunmiao was confused by Shan Yin's words, but Zhou Yan, who was taking care of her, heard some meaning from her few words.
"I found that confession letter in the study of the old house some time ago, but I don't know if it has been taken away by my brother now. You can go there and take a look."
Pei Yunmiao told Shan Yin the clue and hung up the phone. She looked at Zhou Yan in surprise as he gestured for her to confess.
Zhou Yan hugged her, thinking of the sparkling light in Pei Yunhe's eyes when he looked at Shan Yin on the balcony that day, and also of the sarcasm in Pei Yunhe's words about the past and the obscurity in his heart.
Zhou Yan scratched Pei Yunmiao's nose and said, "Your brother likes to take on everything himself, but your sister-in-law is also a sensible person. He should know that if he doesn't shoulder everything head-on, he might get a better result."
Just consider it as a thank you for helping me once, you're welcome.
With Pei Yunmiao's reminder, Shan Yin went into the study again for two consecutive days to look for the confession letter.
God helps those who work hard. After tinkering with it for a long time, she finally found the two pages of confession letter in a pile of old test papers.
It was Pei Yunhe's handwriting, but it wasn't as elegant and bold as the one he used to write in calligraphy or when doing homework.
Every stroke was extremely steady, as if the author had made a great decision to write this letter and was afraid of making mistakes, so he wrote it carefully.
Without Pei Yunhe's permission, the contents of the letter cannot be read carefully.
She was just looking for the letter, and when she was checking it, she caught a glimpse of the first few lines.
The sentences were not so formal, it was as if he was narrating his thoughts, telling them slowly and leisurely, restoring everything that she didn't know about that night of the spring outing.
It turned out that on the night of the spring outing, after she received the message from Shan Zewu and ran away, Pei Yunhe came to find her.
But Pei Yunhe was not the only one looking for her. Another boy from the next class had also been secretly fond of her for a long time. When he saw her displaying her talents by the bonfire and failed, he chased her out at the instigation of his classmates and planned to confess his love to her.
She could no longer remember what the male classmate looked like, let alone what he said that night.
She only remembered that the news of Shan Zewu's arrogance and domineering behavior made her angry and depressed. She wanted to fly back to Yunsu and be by Su Daosheng's side immediately. Even if she was young and wanted to fight Shan Zewu to a bloody end, she didn't want to hide in Nanqiao like a turtle anymore.
The male classmate seemed to be constantly saying how much he liked her, how good she was, and how much he would take care of her.
But she doesn't need this kind of verbal care. She doesn't have so much time or blessing to enjoy those love affairs at this time.
Later she rejected the boy, but he kept pestering her and tried to pull her over several times. She had no choice but to lose her temper and yell at him.
Because of these roars, the bitterness and anger that had been suppressed in her heart burst out in an instant. She couldn't imagine how fierce and heartless she was at that time.
She said she would not fall in love, not in Nanqiao, and not with any of them.
She didn't like anyone here, and she would leave Nanqiao immediately and never come back.
It was probably these words that finally drove away the boy, and also drove away Pei Yunhe, who had been hiding in the dark and was already feeling uneasy.
"So you know now?"
Pei Yunhe's voice suddenly sounded from behind him. Shan Yin was startled. Before he could put away the letter in his hand, he fell into a broad embrace.
Pei Yunhe hugged her, not minding at all that the secret he had hidden for many years was revealed in front of her.
He just gently combed Shan Yin's long hair, and then reached out to her back and stroked it gently.
"That's why I didn't confess to you. I don't blame you, I blame myself for not being firm."
When he was young, he was very ambitious. He did a lot for Shan Yin but never told her. However, he always thought that he was interested in others and others could always notice it. He never thought that one day he would hear such decisive words from Shan Yin.
She said she didn't like anyone here and she never wanted to come back here again.
He automatically put himself in the same category as that boy, into the category of "anyone".
A loud thunder sounded and heavy rain poured down, completely extinguishing the arrogance and making the people wilted.
It was the weekend when he returned home. He was angry with himself for two days. He didn't ask about Shan Yin's news and didn't care about Shan Yin's affairs. Meng Chuan was eager to gossip with him, but he was too lazy to listen.
But the more he thought about it, the more he felt reluctant to let her go. Shan Yin was the first girl who made him feel some different emotions. He only wished her well and that everything went well for her. Why should he care about what she said?
If she doesn't want a relationship, then let's not have one. After all, we are both still students, so it doesn't matter if we wait a few more years.
If she doesn't like them, then so be it. It's his business if he likes her, and it's his ability to make her like him.
As for her leaving and never returning to Nanqiao...
How could she not come back? Aren't there still relatives here?
It must be all just words spoken in anger.
Pei Yunhe comforted himself in this way. In order to appear serious, he even wrote several drafts of confession letters overnight, thinking of going to school the next day to solemnly express his feelings to Shan Yin.
But unexpectedly, when I arrived at school the next day, Shan Yin really left.
Without leaving a word, she disappeared from his life as if she had never been there.
Everything she said was true.
I really don't like any of them.
I really want to leave and never come back.
Is there nothing here worth her staying?
That day, Pei Yunmiao came from the elementary school to find her brother and first found Meng Chuan. Meng Chuan led her to find Pei Yunhe in the secluded garden behind the school.
At that time, he was unusually distraught, holding two pieces of paper in his hands, and had not yet digested the fact that Shan Yin was gone.
But Meng Chuan was such a tactless guy that he went up to him and slapped him, then yelled, "What are you hiding here for? Your sister's been looking for you for ages. If someone didn't know you, they'd think you were chasing after that Shan... Shan Yin from our class. Yeah, you chased her and she transferred to another school! Eh? What are these two pieces of paper? 'I like you'? A confession? Who confessed to you? Or who are you confessing to... Eh!"
"It was me who failed to confess my feelings to you, and it was also me who was arrogant and conceited. I always thought that everything I thought and did was natural, and that there were no failures or mistakes."
Pei Yunhe's chin rested lightly on Shan Yin's shoulder, and the loose hair on her temples gently stroked the tip of her ear. The slight tickling sensation made Shan Yin want to reach out to comfort her.
He held her fingertips.
"Later, I always felt like a joke. I wouldn't call myself sad, I just felt a little ashamed. Gradually, I also felt that maybe what I thought was love wasn't true love, but just the budding of puberty. So I deliberately didn't pursue your whereabouts and deliberately buried this matter deep in my heart."
"It's not your fault. I can only blame myself for not being so lucky that I couldn't say it earlier so that I could stand by your side sooner."
After Pei Yunhe finished speaking, he gently held Shan Yin in front of him.
Her eyelashes were thick and feathery, casting a shadow over her shallow pupils, a shadow so deep and bottomless that it contained thousands of words and endless love.
What he regretted was, "If I could have stood by your side earlier, you wouldn't have to suffer alone for so many years."
After all, he was only thinking about her, without any regard for his own joys, sorrows, anger or happiness.
Dan Yin's heart couldn't help but soften.
Her eyes softened as well.
She wanted to comfort Pei Yunhe, but when the words came to her lips, no matter how much comfort she offered, her guilt and heartache would become his own fault in his mouth.
Shan Yin didn't know what to say.
Suddenly remembering something he often said, she reached out and stroked his cheeks, resting her forehead against his.
"It's okay, we're together now."
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Friday is the 70th anniversary of Nanqiao No. 1 Middle School. Xiaohan is the sponsor of many scholarships and grants of Nanqiao No. 1 Middle School. He also makes donations to Nanqiao No. 1 Middle School and other educational systems in Nanqiao. Naturally, Pei Yunhe received an invitation from the alumni association as an outstanding alumnus.
It was difficult for him to refuse such activities, but that day was also an important day, and he was reluctant to leave Shan Yin and wanted to take Shan Yin with him.
Shan Yin wanted to refuse at first. After all, she was not an outstanding alumnus and she had only studied at Nanqiao No. 1 Middle School for one year. It was really shameless for her to take advantage of this honor.
But Pei Yunhe said, "No. 1 Middle School hasn't moved for so many years. Maybe we can still find some traces of our classmates there. Don't you want to revisit the old place and relive it?"
"But those are not very beautiful things to you..."
Looking at Pei Yunhe's lowered eyes, Shan Yin kept silent.
That night, he intentionally left traces on her body that were difficult to ignore, and she unexpectedly learned from the suddenly lit screen of his mobile phone while he was washing up why he was so determined to take her to the school anniversary.
Friday was not just the day for Nanqiao No. 1 Middle School’s 70th anniversary celebration.
It was also the ninety-ninth day of his marriage to her.
Pei Yunhe had probably been making plans for a long time. After discovering that she had seen through all his past, he simply discussed with Meng Chuan, Lan Cen and others to plan a warm and touching celebration for her so that she would not always feel sad for him.
It is obvious that two people getting married is a beautiful and happy thing.
However, the school anniversary coincided with the date, and Pei Yunhe couldn't refuse, so he decided to hold the celebration at No. 1 Middle School. The old teaching building and the small garden area were still in their original state, so after the event, he could borrow the venue from the school, which shouldn't be difficult.
Meng Chuan, Lan Cen and others naturally became his planning assistants, but no one expected that Shan Yin would inadvertently see the light-up screen of Pei Yunhe's mobile phone at that time.
He also recorded her facial unlocking, and Meng Chuan's news was clearly displayed on the screen, with no surprise at all.
Shan Yin had originally planned to pretend that she saw nothing and pretend to be surprised and go to the appointment as scheduled, but it was not just that some love thread suddenly came to her mind. She had an idea and while Pei Yunhe was still in the bathroom, she secretly created a small group of three for Meng Chuan and Lan Cen.
As soon as Friday arrived, Pei Yunhe was wearing a dark gray suit. Shan Yin tied his tie for him and pinned a magnolia-shaped brooch on his chest.
She was dressed to suit him perfectly, in a crescent-white cheongsam with graceful and delicate patterns embroidered on it with silver-gray thread. She was as beautiful as a magnolia, and he pinned her to his heart.
"You still have an award ceremony and a speech to attend. I don't want to sit there all the time. Go walk around first. Call me when you're ready."
Shan Yin parted with him very naturally. Pei Yunhe was still thinking about the surprise celebration he had prepared for Shan Yin after the event, so he didn't think much about it. He just told her not to run too far, as the school was big and he was worried that she would get tired.
But when the ceremony was over, he had finished speaking and making his speech, and was walking out of the auditorium, he couldn't contact her.
Pei Yunhe frowned. He was not worried that Shan Yin would get lost, but he felt a little uncomfortable because he couldn't contact her for the time being.
It seemed like since some time ago, he was like a sticky piece of tape, wanting to stick with Shan Yin all the time and couldn't leave her for a moment.
Besides, he was afraid that Shan Yin would go to the small garden and turn around to ruin the surprise he had prepared, which would lack a sense of ceremony.
Just when he was feeling worried, Meng Chuan called.
"Ahe! Come to the garden quickly! I saw your wife coming here!"
Pei Yunhe no longer cared about the students around him who wanted his autograph. He apologized with a smile and said that he had something important to do and had to leave first. He even skipped the dinner with the school leaders. His leather shoes clattered on the blue brick and stone floor, and he even ran towards the small garden without caring about his image.
He had been to that small garden several times when he was in high school and was deeply impressed. He had also been there before, so he was naturally familiar with the place and ran very quickly.
In the blink of an eye, he had reached the depths of the small garden, but when he turned around and looked around, he did not see Shan Yin at all, nor did he see the things that Meng Chuan and the others had prepared according to his arrangements.
He was just wondering and was about to complain to Meng Chuan for being unreliable, when suddenly, a breeze blew from afar, rustling the trees, and the fragrance of magnolia flowers reached his nose.
He was stunned for a moment.
There were no magnolias planted in the small garden, and the flowers he prepared today were only a bouquet of magnolias for Dan Yin. Logically, they should not have such a strong fragrance.
Before he could figure it out, there were a few rustling sounds not far ahead. He didn't understand what was going on, but his feet moved towards that direction.
After passing several half-human-high shrubs, the road ahead suddenly became empty. Pei Yunhe saw that the green shrubs on both sides turned into white blooming magnolias.
It blooms twice in midsummer. The flowers are not large, but small yet still beautiful and charming.
From a distance, it looks like tiny dots of light on a green curtain, swaying and shining in the wind, spanning light years and evoking people's colorful memories.
"Single chant?"
Pei Yunhe's heart was pounding. He suddenly had a premonition, but he still called Shan Yin cautiously.
Then the only answer he got was the photo hanging by the magnolia tree, rustling in the wind.
He also took a closer look and realized that those things that were also shining with dazzling sunlight were actually small developed photos.
He recognized the one hanging in the front at a glance; it was his childhood self.
From babbling to toddling, he grew from a cradle to walking on his own pushing a stroller. He has been a little adult who can take on responsibilities since he was young.
Then, he walked a little further along the path, the scene in the photo changed, and Dan Yin suddenly appeared in his life.
Suddenly, there was a girl in the small photo. She was even smaller than Pei Yunhe when she was a child. Her face was still full of baby fat, and when she smiled, a crescent moon could be formed.
They were clearly in different time and space, and the people around them were also different, but I don't know what editing technique was used in this photo, the two people were cut together so perfectly.
The little people grew up to be a boy and a girl, graceful, gentle and elegant. Soon, they met in high school. Various photos that not only Dan Yin could not remember, but even Pei Yunhe could not remember, accidentally recorded them in the same frame.
Some of them were taking physical education classes on the playground. He was playing football with great enthusiasm, while she was sitting on the steps, supporting her chin and reading quietly.
In some cases, during the break in class, two boys and girls who were close to each other took a photo together, but accidentally included two people who were taking a nap in the back row in the photo.
Some were in the library, some were on the boulevard, and some were even in the bustling crowds of strangers outside the school...
It turns out that they had so many intersections, and they had already left an indelible mark in each other's lives.
Pei Yunhe's nose suddenly felt a little sore, and what made his eyes even more sore was that after Shan Yin left Nan Qiao, there were still silhouettes piecing their lives together.
Until they met again in Nanqiao, the photo was frozen at the wedding, and the kiss he gave her on the lips.
Pei Yunhe walked over, touched the photo lightly with his fingertips, and stroked it carefully, his eyes already moist.
He wanted to call Shan Yin, he knew Shan Yin must be nearby, but the moment he looked up, a blindfold was tightly covered on his head, and everything in front of him was dark. Only a little light shone through the gaps, reminding him of the reality of these touching moments.
Meng Chuan's voice rang in his ears, both inappropriately and appropriately.
"I heard there's a new sister coming today. If you don't hurry up, you'll miss out on the new one!"
His memory suddenly went back to the beginning of the school year of his sophomore year in high school. He was pushed forward, and a smile unconsciously appeared on his lips.
After walking a few more steps, Meng Chuan suddenly shouted again: "Look! I was right!"
The soaked blindfold was torn off in one piece. The sunlight was so bright that it was hard to tell whether what was in front of him was real or fake.
But he tried to look forward, and everything in front of him gradually became clear, just like those photos that would eventually converge on that kiss at the wedding.
In the light, he saw Shan Yin in school uniform, just like a few years ago, smiling and welcoming him and their future.
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The author has something to say: Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh! Who understands how I felt when I typed those three words in the main text?
Our Yinyin must move Mr. Pei to death!!!
I'll calm down [Please][Please][Please]
Ahem, the main text of "I Can't Hold Back Anything" ends here. There will probably be a while before the extra chapters are updated. I guess the smart kids should have guessed how many chapters there are [pat on the head]
If nothing unexpected happens, the extra content will be to deal with the aftermath of the recent chapters, and then there will be the daily life of President Pei and Yinyin, Yinyin's growth in learning to manage the company, and the full support and companionship of our President Pei!
There will also be a few chapters about having a baby and raising a baby, as well as guest appearances by some new characters. The if line is about Mr. Pei who has a mouth in high school (not
Anyway, thank you so much for your support! Since it's not the end of the story yet, I won't go into too much detail! I look forward to seeing you in the final chapter!
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