Fu Changling was stunned by this question. After a moment's pause, he finally reacted and said after a moment's consideration, "Brother, don't overthink it. Ten Thousand Bone Cliff is inherently dangerous, and people are bound to get hurt. If I get hurt, I'll have to trouble you to take care of me."
"But why me?"
Yun Yu turned her head and stared at him, her eyes slightly red: "Why me?"
Fu Changling didn't know how to respond. Yun Yu stood up, looked at him, and sniffed: "You don't dare to say it, so I will say it. Because I'm not good at studying, because I have no ability, because I'm stupid and lazy!"
"I've been in Hongmeng Palace for ten years," Yun Yu said, his voice lowering. "How come everyone is better than me?"
Fu Changling listened carefully to Yun Yu's words, and slowly understood what was going on in his mind.
Yunyu seems cheerful and generous, but in his heart he is just like an ordinary person, he will feel jealous, sad and ashamed.
He was better than Yunyu. Yunyu could still console himself by saying he had spent eight years alone at the foot of Wangu Cliff and had other adventures. But Shangguan Mingyan was also more capable than him, and for his senior brother, it was humiliating.
The closer someone is, the harder it is to accept changes in a relationship. Fu Changling pondered for a moment before slowly saying, "Brother Yun, the path to immortality is long. One cannot compare oneself with others. If one does, one's heart will no longer be in oneself."
"I'm not comparing myself to you," Yun Yu's voice softened. He seemed to feel that his way of thinking was wrong. He spoke with a lack of confidence. "I just feel that as your senior brother, I've not only failed to help you, but I've also become a burden to you."
Fu Changling smiled but said nothing. He knew this was Yun Yu's cover-up, but he didn't expose it. However, after a while, Yun Yu still said, "Besides, I feel like I'm going to be left behind."
"Big Brother is your senior brother," Yun Yu looked up at Fu Changling and said seriously, "Senior Sister Xie is Shangguan Mingyan's senior sister, and I am the only one. I am nothing."
"Brother," Fu Changling stared into his eyes and said calmly, "Big Brother is not my brother, and Sister Xie is not Shangguan Mingyan's sister. They are themselves, and you are yourself. As a cultivator, you must belong to yourself."
"After eight years under the Ten Thousand Bones Cliff," Yun Yu laughed, "you've actually learned something. What about you? Does your heart belong to you?"
"It doesn't belong to me." Fu Changling laughed along with Yun Yu, looking nonchalant. Yun Yu thought he was joking and rolled his eyes. "Don't try to fool me. With your personality, if your heart doesn't belong to you, who else does it belong to?"
"Do I need to guess?" Fu Changling opened his fan, covering half of his face, threw a coquettish glance, and said in a pinched voice, "Of course it's my senior brother. He doesn't belong to me, but I belong to him."
Yun Yu seemed to be provoked by him and shivered. He hugged his shoulders and wiped his arms, trembling and said, "You are so disgusting. I don't want to talk to you."
Fu Changling put away his fan and said nothing more. After Yun Yu finished speaking, he seemed to feel tired. He lay down, giving half of the bed to Fu Changling and sighed, "I've been holding it in for several days. It feels much better now that I've said it."
"Just don't take it to heart."
As Fu Changling spoke, he went to the cabinet next to him to find the quilt, then carried it to the small couch.
Yun Yu opened his eyes and asked doubtfully, "You don't sleep in the same bed with me? This bed is quite big."
"No," Fu Changling said calmly, "I can just sleep on the small couch."
"That's so hard," Yun Yu urged him, "Don't be polite with me, my senior brother has slept with me before."
Fu Changling paused in making the bed, and Yun Yu continued, "Don't torture yourself. It's hard to sleep without a mattress. We're all brothers from the same sect. Sleeping together more will make us closer."
Fu Changling listened to his words and straightened up. He turned to look at Yun Yu and smiled, "Senior Brother has also slept in the same bed with you?"
"Yeah." Yun Yu nodded. "When we went out before, if there wasn't enough room, we would sleep together. We're all men, so don't be so particular."
"Ah, I suddenly remembered," Fu Changling suddenly remembered something, "Do you need acupuncture?"
"Acupuncture? What kind of acupuncture?"
Yun Yu was a little confused. Fu Changling took out a needle bag from his spirit bag, held it and walked to Yun Yu. He said gently, "I've been too busy recently and forgot to give you acupuncture. A few needles will make you heal faster. Don't be afraid, Brother Yun, I'm very gentle."
Yun Yu swallowed and watched Fu Changling twist a long needle. His heart beat faster.
He had a hunch that he had done something wrong, but he didn't know what it was, so he could only discuss, "Why not let it take its time?"
"No, the sooner Senior Brother Yun's injuries heal, the less he'll have to worry about them. It'll hurt a little," Fu Changling pinched the needle between his fingers. He quickly pulled open Yun Yu's clothes, pressed down on him, exposing his entire back, and said with a smile, "Just bear with it."
As soon as he finished speaking, needles rained down on Yun Yu's back, swaying gently under the light. Yun Yu screamed, and Fu Changling covered Yun Yu's mouth with his hand. Yun Yu slapped him and struggled. Fu Changling continued, "Don't be afraid, calm down, there are still a few more needles!"
The sound of Fu Changling and Yun Yu fighting reached the next room. Qin Yan listened quietly. He couldn't help but smile. He turned to the side, closed his eyes and fell asleep.
When they woke up the next day, Shangguan Mingyan came to see them again in the afternoon. Fu Changling was arguing with Yunyu, and Qin Yan was sitting on the side meditating. Shangguan Mingyan, wearing a golden crown and gorgeous clothes, really looked like a wealthy young man. He came in and saluted the three people. Yunyu muttered, "Where were you this morning? Why didn't you come to see us earlier?"
Shangguan Mingyan smiled, and he was good-tempered. He ignored Yunyu's nagging and explained, "This morning, His Majesty asked me to visit the garden with Senior Sister. I told Senior Sister about our discussion yesterday. She agreed to our arrangement and said she would do her best to help us."
"We didn't talk much yesterday," Yun Yu rolled his eyes, "Can you and Senior Sister talk for a whole morning?"
Shangguan Mingyan's face flushed when he heard this. He smiled bitterly, "Brother Yun, if you have any anger, just vent it on me. I feel uncomfortable when you talk like this."
"I'm mad at you, aren't I?" Yun Yu said directly. "I'm extremely jealous of you right now. At a time like this, marrying Senior Sister and saving everyone should be the one for me. I married earlier than you, I'm taller than you, I'm more handsome than you, and my cultivation is a little higher than yours, and now you're the one stealing the show. How can I be happy?"
Everyone laughed at Yun Yu's scolding. Qin Yan glanced at him and said, for the first time in his life, "Next time, I'll let you shine."
Yun Yu threw a peanut into his mouth and said reluctantly, "Alright. Senior brother has spoken, so I won't say anything more."
After saying that, Yun Yu retreated to the side. Shangguan Mingyan glanced at Qin Yan with gratitude and continued, "I have already discussed this with Senior Sister. I will pretend to agree to Xie Shen's conditions so that Senior Sister can please Xie Shen. Xie Shen seems to love Senior Sister very much. If we follow his wishes, there shouldn't be any problems. Tomorrow I will ask him to ask everyone to assist the Ministry of Rites in organizing the wedding banquet. Brother Chen, please let me know what you plan then."
"good."
The two sides exchanged information and discussed the specific procedures and plans for the wedding banquet. When it was time for dinner, Shangguan Mingyan glanced at the sky and said, "Senior Sister and I have agreed to feign affection in front of Xie Shen. I must now go to Fengyi Hall to dine with Senior Sister and Xie Shen. I'll be leaving first."
Qin Yan nodded, and Shangguan Mingyan retreated. The three of them ate their meal by themselves. Fu Changling and Yun Yu were about to return to their room when they heard Qin Yan call him, "Changling, wait a moment."
Fu Changling turned around, bowed respectfully and said, "Senior Brother."
Yun Yu looked at Fu Changling, then at Qin Yan, and knew that Qin Yan had something to say to Fu Changling. He coughed lightly and said, "Well, I'll be leaving first."
With that, Yun Yu returned to his room, leaving Qin Yan and Fu Changling alone. Qin Yan quietly opened the barrier, and then he looked up at Fu Changling: "The plan may need to change."
"Um?"
Fu Changling was a little confused. Qin Yan looked at him quietly: "You and I will stay here in place of Mingyan and Senior Sister. After they leave safely, we have to stay in Wangu Cliff."
When Fu Changling heard this, he suddenly understood something and blurted out, "Seal?"
Qin Yan nodded, thought for a moment, and then explained, "If you don't want to, I can send you away from Wangu Cliff first."
"And leave you here?" Fu Changling laughed, "You can even think of such a thing."
Qin Yan remained silent. Fu Changling leaned against the long pillar beside him, his hands folded in front of his chest, his head lowered. After a long moment, he hesitated and said, "Um, Senior Brother."
Qin Yan looked at him when he heard the sound. Fu Changling said slowly, "Why did you... leave me alone?"
"Master said it would be more appropriate for you to reinforce the seal."
Fu Changling's eyes lit up with disappointment when he heard this answer. He smiled and said reluctantly, "Is that so? But if Senior Brother kept me here so that I could reinforce the seal, that might not be a good idea. I don't have my Golden Core anymore. Small fights are fine, but reinforcing the seal..."
"Under the Wan Gu Cliff, there is a flower of rebirth," Qin Yan said in a light voice, "I will get it for you."
Fu Changling was stunned for a moment, and after a moment, he felt a sense of bitterness and absurdity rising up.
He suddenly felt that fate was like a circle that you could not get out of. No matter how much you changed, it seemed that everything would go around in circles and at that point, return to the beginning.
He opened the Xuanji Secret Realm just like in his previous life, and Qin Yan also wanted to obtain the Rebirth Flower for him just like in his previous life. Even though the reasons were very different, the results seemed to be the same.
"You are most proficient in formations. Recently, in addition to arranging the escape process for the wedding, you also need to pay attention to finding the location of the seal."
"I understand." Fu Changling lowered his head, "But there is one thing I'm confused about."
Fu Changling looked up at Qin Yan and stared at him: "Brother, you didn't mention where to find the Rebirth Flower. It seems like you already know where it is?"
He had searched almost everywhere in Wangu Cliff for the flower of rebirth, but there was absolutely no such thing, at least in the suburbs.
Qin Yan had just arrived at Wangu Cliff, and now when he mentioned the Flower of Rebirth, it was something he should have been eager to find, but he didn't even mention it.
Fu Changling had a feeling that something was wrong. He looked at Qin Yan, waiting for an answer. Qin Yan's expression remained unchanged. There was no trace of emotion on his usually calm face.
"Master told me." Qin Yan explained calmly, "So I know where it is."
"Then why don't you go get it?"
"The flowers haven't bloomed yet," Qin Yan shook his head, "I can't pick them."
"Where is it?" Fu Changling stared at him. Qin Yan hesitated for a moment before slowly saying, "You'll know when it opens."
Having said that, Qin Yan changed the subject very abruptly: "Do you know how to find the seal specifically?"
"When he shows up, you'll know."
Fu Changling directly replied with the same words Qin Yan had said before. Qin Yan's expression froze slightly. Fu Changling felt a little annoyed and bowed, saying, "If there is nothing else, Changling will take his leave."
Fu Changling turned and walked out. He walked to the corridor with a cold face. After a few steps, he heard the voice of the senior: "What are you angry about?"
"He doesn't tell me anything," Fu Changling said irritably. "It was like this in the past, and it's still like this now. Does he think I'm a fool? He must be hiding something from me about the Rebirth Flower."
"Then you didn't tell him either?"
The senior said in a low voice, "I've seen this young man for quite some time now. He's not the kind of person you say, someone who keeps his words to himself."
Fu Changling paused, and the senior said calmly: "Changling, sometimes, there are some things that you don't want to say, but you can't say them."
"What can't be said?" Fu Changling slowly calmed down. "If it's something that concerns both of us, why can't we talk about it and face it together?"
The senior was silent for a moment. After a long while, she said, "When he first came to Wangu Cliff, he said something to Tan Xin."
"What?"
Fu Changling looked back bewilderedly. The senior's voice was tinged with laughter. "Back then, you and he had an argument. He said he would wait until he found your senior sister and have her send you out, and he would stay. You asked him why he stayed, but you interrupted him before he could say anything. Then you said he came for the seal. Do you remember?"
"I do remember a little bit." Fu Changling sat on a chair in the corridor. "Later... I think I kissed him and ran away."
After saying this, Fu Changling felt a little embarrassed. He hurriedly explained, "I was too angry at the time."
"After he came back, I asked Tanxin to ask him," the senior said in a gentle voice, "what he originally wanted to do when he stayed. He told Tanxin that he wanted to get the Rebirth Flower for you."
Fu Changling was stunned. The senior continued, "He took the Rebirth Flower and allowed you to recover your Golden Core. His plan at the time was to reinforce the seal himself. But now he's letting you stay. Why do you think that is?"
Why?
Back then, Qin Yan was used to thinking of going alone when doing everything. Even though Jiang Yebai told him that Fu Changling would do it better, he still decided to go alone.
Because deep down, he is always alone.
But now he is willing to keep Fu Changling, and he himself may not even realize that this decision has changed anything.
Fu Changling sat there in a daze. The senior said gently, "A person's true transformation is always difficult to detect. It's like water dripping on stone, like grass breaking through the soil. Changling, you should understand that waiting isn't just about giving someone what you like. What's more important is truly understanding who they are and what kind of person they are, and letting them know what kind of person you are. Only then can two completely different people have a chance to be together."
Fu Changling listened quietly for a long time, and then he couldn't help laughing: "Senior, you really know a lot."
The other party was silent for a long time. After a while, her voice became a little gentler: "Because, there was once someone who waited for me like this."
"I understand." Fu Changling took a deep breath, stood up, and walked back. "I'll go talk to him."
Having said that, he went back to the room.
Qin Yan was still sitting there, having gotten a jug of wine from nowhere. Unexpectedly, Fu Changling returned. He was slightly startled, then feigned composure, intending to return the wine to his spirit bag. However, Fu Changling was quicker, and the moment Qin Yan grabbed the jug, he also grabbed it.
His hand was folded on the back of Qin Yan's hand, and Qin Yan's hand trembled slightly. Fu Changling laughed: "Brother, drinking alone is not a good habit."
As he spoke, Fu Changling let go of his hand, took the wine jug from Qin Yan's hand, took a cup from the side, poured himself some wine, and sat down in front of Qin Yan calmly: "I'll drink with you, senior brother."
"Why are you back?" Qin Yan lowered his eyes when he saw the wine glass in front of him. Fu Changling smiled and said, "I reflected on myself on the way. I was too rude to my senior brother."
Qin Yan didn't say anything. He drank his wine and listened to Fu Changling say, "Brother, you kept everything from me. I couldn't do anything for you. I was upset and my tone was not good just now. I will drink a glass of wine as a penalty. I hope Brother will forgive me."
Fu Changling drank the wine in one gulp, then he looked up at Qin Yan and said seriously, "I want to ask you, Senior Brother, why didn't you tell me?"
"This is the path I chose," Qin Yan said calmly, "I don't want anyone to interfere."
“Does this road have anything to do with me?”
"It's nothing."
"The Flower of Rebirth has nothing to do with me?"
"It's nothing."
Hearing this, Fu Changling couldn't help but laugh: "You got the flowers of rebirth for me, how can you say it has nothing to do with me?"
"I am willing to take and give. This is my business, so it has nothing to do with you. The only thing that concerns you in this whole matter is one thing," Qin Yan looked up at him with a calm expression, "that is, the moment I give it to you, whether you are willing to take it or not. At that moment, it has nothing to do with me."
Fu Changling listened, and for the first time in his life, he finally understood Qin Yan's logic.
He had always thought that Qin Yan was not good at speaking, and kept everything in his heart, not telling anyone. But now he understood that he was not hiding what he should say, but when he chose not to say it, it was a decision he had already made that he should not say.
Fu Changling once thought that Qin Yan hated him.
In his previous life, Qin Yan had shattered his love in front of him and blew up his own sea of consciousness. This was his revenge on him. Before he died, he might have been full of regret, hating that he should not have fallen in love with such a person.
But now he suddenly understood.
Qin Yan wouldn't hate him. His final words, "If the True Lord is no longer troubled, neither am I," weren't just words spoken in anger. He truly felt that doing this would be better for Fu Changling.
He never thought that Fu Changling would like him, and Fu Changling would never have the chance to tell the person who had devoted half his life to him in his previous life that he liked him.
Fu Changling poured the wine down his throat, took a deep breath, and nodded: "I understand. You do things on your own and make your own decisions. Others can't interfere. It's just right." Fu Changling smiled. He looked up at Fu Changling, "I feel the same way. We are really brothers."
Qin Yan looked at his smile, speechless. Fu Changling raised his glass and toasted with Qin Yan, saying, "Come, drink."
Qin Yan was not vague, but whispered: "Don't let Yun Yu know."
"I understand," Fu Changling smiled, "You still have to take care of them."
When Qin Yan heard this, a faint smile appeared in his eyes. The man in front of him didn't seem to be his junior brother at all, but a close friend. He drank two glasses of wine with him.
Fu Changling relaxed. He felt that he and Qin Yan had never been so frank. When he talked to Qin Yan before, there was always a layer of separation between them. But now he felt that they seemed to have let go of something. In the future, he could say anything to Qin Yan, except that sentence, of course.
They drank from inside the house to outside. Qin Yan sat on a chair in the corridor, and Fu Changling sat on the ground. He turned his head to look at Qin Yan who was sitting against the pillar, and couldn't help asking him: "You love drinking so much, why do you control everyone else from drinking?"
“That’s not good.”
"Then you still drink?"
"I don't mind."
Fu Changling smiled: "Then it seems I have to take care of you from now on."
Qin Yan glanced at him sideways, and Fu Changling took a sip of wine: "You don't care, but I do."
"It's none of your business."
"Whether you can be controlled is your business, but whether I control you or not," Fu Changling smiled, "is my business."
Qin Yan frowned, as if thinking seriously. Fu Changling saw that he was deep in thought and quickly said, "Don't think about it. Be happy. I'll give you a flower."
Qin Yan was dissatisfied when he heard this and scolded him softly, "How dare you."
Fu Changling smiled, and with a push of his hand on the ground, he leaped towards the courtyard, and then the long sword turned into light and fell into his hand. Qin Yan turned his head and saw the young man under the moon raise his eyebrows and smile, then spun in the air, leaving a beautiful sword light.
"I smell the sunset flowers in Chang'an, with a phoenix crown on my head and colorful clouds on my head."
Fu Changling's sword, like him, was magnificent and beautiful, a testament to his romanticism. Even more remarkable, he seemed to possess an indelible youthfulness, a youthful aura fresh and passionate, yet devoid of the reckless ignorance of a true youth. He had weathered the ravages of rain, snow, wind, and frost, tempered by countless trials and tribulations, and finally, through the years, transformed into a jar of mellow, fragrant wine, which flowed down Qin Yan's stained lips.
This kind of beauty that is worldly-wise yet unworldly, and has experienced vicissitudes of life yet remains a fatal attraction for most people in this world.
Especially for those who have been cold all their lives but yearn for heat.
"I am willing to cut through thorns and travel thousands of miles," Fu Changling's sword passed through the branches, and a pear blossom fell intact on the tip of his sword, and then as he turned around, it was sent all the way to Qin Yan.
The wind from the sword blew through Qin Yan's long hair, and the tip of the sword, carrying pear blossoms, stopped in front of him. Qin Yan lowered his eyes, watching the moonlight flowing on the pear blossoms, and listened to Fu Changling's low voice: "Take the flowers and bring the wine, and then return home."
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