Chapter 12
Sometimes when a person wants something, he can’t get it no matter what, and when he doesn’t want something, it happens to him.
For example, right now——
I thought I had eaten the melon for a few days, and I even announced in my circle of friends that I had given up, so everyone should go home.
But I didn't expect that I have such a good popularity these days. Even though I am like this, there is still a group of persistent onlookers who are diligently waiting for my follow-up.
Tai! Can you guys, can you eat a melon instead?
You guys almost ate the skin off my melon.
…
In the afternoon, Mr. Bi came towards me again with his girlfriend.
The young lady asked me about my follow-up, and I told her that the boy had left me a message this morning, but after I replied, he disappeared again. I felt a little helpless. The young lady and Mr. Bi said they wanted to chat with me about some private topics for girls, and Mr. Bi left the WeChat voice chat.
Actually, I know what she wants to say to me because I have heard it too much in the past two days.
Mr. Shi knows nothing about the situation and only knows some superficial information. If all the information is true as he said, it would be fine, but if it is false, it would be easy to get into trouble.
Even if it is true, judging from the boy's current behavior, he is either raising fish or he is really busy. If it is the latter case, it only means that the boy has no time for it.
No matter which of the above situations you encounter, you will eventually get hurt, so it is better to stop the loss in time.
Listening to the young lady's words and looking at my chat page, for some reason, I couldn't help feeling sad and suddenly burst into tears.
The young lady said, "It's okay if you cry. Girl, next one. This boy is really no good. He won't tell you anything, and he doesn't want to chat with you. Even if everything he said is true, even if you finally win him over, will he cherish you?"
I asked myself, I don’t know the answer to this question, but human hearts are unpredictable, so I tend to lean towards “no”.
I know that the unexpected error in the settings of the Moments led to the onlookers. Although I smiled and said that I would just lie down and not care, and that I would get used to the embarrassment, I knew that it was not the case at all.
I am not a girl who is so open-minded, but there seems to be no other way except to smile and say that I don’t care.
Even if I plan to give up, as I decided last night, sometimes external circumstances don't allow it.
I am very clear-headed, even if they are asking me why I suddenly like someone so much just because of a face, and think I am love-brained.
But I clearly knew that this was doomed to be fruitless.
"As a guy, I also think that guy is most likely not interested in you. The reason he didn't reject you outright is because he currently has no more suitable options. Once he has a more suitable option, he will definitely disappear completely. Just like my girlfriend said, he's just raising fish."
"This boy is actually quite a scumbag, it's better to stay away from him."
Everyone keeps telling me this, and I understand it in my heart.
Alas, I finally experienced firsthand how uneasy and troublesome it is to like someone.
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Sometimes I really appreciate my friends' concern for me.
For example, my college classmate J was following my mood diary all day today. After I posted the first few chapters, she saw them and now she comes to me and says, "Holy mother, I know you're obsessed with looks and voices. Let me introduce you to some handsome guys with nice voices. As long as you can change men quickly, there will be no sadness, only love."
I am very grateful for this, but thank you very much. My aesthetic tastes are different, even very different!
In fact, people are easily influenced by their surroundings. Amidst the pessimism of people around me, I am now in a state where I want to give up but don’t want to give up at the same time. This contradictory mentality makes me very uncomfortable.
I took another look at the chat box and found that Mr. Shi still hadn't replied.
My pen pal said, "You either wait or give up."
I am very grateful to her because she is the only one among everyone who did not let me give up directly.
Well, after all, I am still a little reluctant to give up Mr. Shi. Even though I know it is impossible, I still want to give it a try.
“It’s actually very simple to firmly choose one of them.”
"Please elaborate."
"Open his profile picture and look at it carefully for a while, then you will make a firm choice."
As expected, there is someone who shares the same hobby as me and can see through my true nature at a glance.
I was wrong, I was superficial, I just had a thing for beautiful women.
…
Because everyone around me was pessimistic about me, I gave up and left him a message saying that I just liked his face and asked him if he thought I was superficial.
I thought he wouldn't reply to me, but he did and told me that the profile picture was photoshopped.
When I saw this sentence, it was like a bolt of lightning that hit me straight on the top of my head. So, what I like is an imaginary face?
I remembered that my classmate J told me a few days ago that this avatar looked like it was photoshopped from TikTok. I didn’t expect to find it confirmed.
My pen pal told me that Douyin can turn a 200-pound fat person into an 80-pound thin person, so I should cherish it while I can.
I was a little sad. But luckily, I liked not only his face but also his voice, so I told myself, it doesn’t matter, as long as his voice is nice.
I opened Mr. Shi's homepage again, and this time, I discovered something new: his hands are so nice! He even has abs!
Damn, I feel like my love brain is back.
I want to hold it and touch it.
But I have no identity!
So sad!
I felt like I had discovered a new world when I saw the video of my pen pal Mr. Anlishi playing guitar, but my pen pal told me that this kind of video can be synthesized.
But now I feel like I can't really listen to it. Who has nothing to do after eating a full meal and would come up with so many technical synthetic things just for this little broken vine?
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