Chapter 36
October 18th, today is the fifth day since I got to know Mr. Zheng again. We talked a lot during these five days. I learned about Mr. Zheng’s family environment, current work status, future career plans, his tastes, hobbies, and his enjoyment of future life.
I have to say that Mr. Zheng is a very comfortable person to talk to.
He wouldn't make me guess anything, nor did he require me to inquire about anything from the side. He would just tell me what I wanted to know directly and frankly, as if he could guess what I was thinking before I even wanted to know.
If only he had been the one I met in the beginning.
A faint melancholy arose in my heart.
If I had met him from the beginning, I think I would have fallen in love with him. Moreover, his way of handling things and his emotional intelligence are excellent. He is a veteran cadre who deserves to be working in discipline inspection.
I told my best friend that Mr. Zheng gave me a very down-to-earth feeling, without that vague feeling of castles in the air, and that it was a very pleasant thing to be with him. But for some reason, I always felt like something was missing.
My best friend told me: "Take your time, don't rush into making a decision, control your love brain, and stop thinking about that person."
I understand what she means.
I'm also a slow-moving type, but when it comes to Mr. Shi, I acted completely unlike myself. Sometimes, looking back, I feel like a stranger myself.
I once wondered what changed me, until one day, my best friend and I talked about Mr. Bi, whom I had known for 20 years, and I probably found the answer.
Mr. Bi is a boy from Shandong. He studied in City C and graduated with a master's degree.
As early as 20 years ago when I went to my sister's house in City C, because I had a good relationship with my sister, I always wanted to stay in City C to develop and be closer to her.
But I know my parents will not agree, because although my sister is in City C, she is married after all, and I can't disturb her too much. I don't have any other friends in City C who can take care of each other, so I think if I have a boyfriend who is developing in City C, my parents probably won't object to me going to City C.
That's how I met Mr. Bi.
But for someone like me who often indirectly wants to be in a relationship and continues to enjoy being single, I probably only have a strong desire to have a boyfriend when my hormones are secreted excessively during my menstrual period - I want to be in a relationship.
So I added Mr. Bi as my friend and after chatting for about half a month, he said he wanted to come to City N to see me, but I turned him down.
Later, when I went to my sister's house, I happened to meet Mr. Bi. He was a gentle and refined guy, and we had a lot of fun together. I said to him, "Old friend, if you come to City N next time, I'll take you out."
He smiled and replied to me: "When you come to Ludi in the future, I will take you to play."
After that, we played King of Glory together. Sometimes when I posted something on WeChat Moments, he would like and comment on it. Occasionally, we would chat about future development together. I always felt that he and I should be good friends.
It wasn't until 22 years later that Mr. Bi got a girlfriend. When I found out, I suddenly felt a little lost.
My colleagues said that I might have a slight liking for him. After all, we have been good friends for nearly two years, and I easily develop emotional dependence on people I am familiar with.
Unfortunately, it was not until he got a girlfriend that I realized that I might have a slight crush on Mr. Bi.
When this happened, I was on a business trip with a colleague. Because I have a good relationship with him, he told me, "It's impossible for two single people of the opposite sex to have a pure friendship. Don't expect a good friend to always be there for you. The only person of the opposite sex who can always be there for you, besides your boyfriend, is your future husband."
So if you feel happy with someone, you should think about whether you have other thoughts about them.
Being slow to warm up is not scary, what is scary is not being able to realize your own feelings in time and express them openly.
The regret of missing out will sometimes always accompany a person throughout his life, unless he meets the second person he likes very much.
It was also from that time that I changed my state and could accept a slow life, but if I met someone I liked and felt comfortable with, I would definitely accept its existence openly and try to grasp that happiness.
so--
"Maybe I'm just slow to warm up, but if I look at something or someone for a long time and find them pleasing to the eye, I tend to develop a fondness for them. Maybe it's because I don't want to have any more regrets."
Mr. Zheng has a really nice personality. Although he doesn’t look like my type, I think he’s quite nice after seeing him for a long time. Maybe I will like him too after a long time.
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