Chapter 1027 Don’t Forget Who You Are
It was impossible to say that he didn't feel disappointed. This was not the first time Gu Wanqiu had rejected him.
He couldn't understand why Gu Wanqiu rejected him. She had clearly said before that she liked him and cared about him, so why would she reject his intimate touch?
He always remembered what Li Jinxing had said.
Gu Wanqiu is his.
They had slept together and done intimate things that only lovers would do in places he didn't know about. He had witnessed Li Jinxing kissing Gu Wanqiu on the lips and saw the ambiguous marks on Gu Wanqiu's neck.
Gong Qing knew how far the situation had developed after Gu Wanqiu drank with Li Jinxing, but he kept deceiving himself and told himself not to care.
But now, the things he didn't want to care about were like a red-hot iron hitting his heart, making a sizzling sound. It not only hurt his heart, but also disturbed his nerves, and his ears were buzzing.
Gong Qing went to bed, feeling a dull ache in his heart. Thinking of Li Jinxing, whom he had met during the day, and then thinking of Gu Wanqiu, whom he had subconsciously avoided just now, he suddenly felt a sense of powerlessness.
He had to admit that Gu Wanqiu still had Li Jinxing in her heart. No matter how much hurt Li Jinxing had caused her, the person she found most difficult to forget was still Li Jinxing. Even the fragments of her memories contained the camellia flowers that Li Jinxing had given her.
And he, Gong Qing, had long been thrown into an unknown corner by Gu Wanqiu.
He laughed at Li Jinxing and said he was his substitute, but he never thought that one day he would be reduced to becoming Li Jinxing's "substitute"
He turned around. Gu Wanqiu, who had just said she was going to sleep, was now staring at him with her eyes wide open. Caught red-handed, Gu Wanqiu's face showed embarrassment. She clutched the quilt tightly. After hesitating for a moment, she whispered, "Gong Qing, give me a little more time. I will definitely accept you in the future."
She didn't want any rift between her and Gong Qing, and she was even more afraid that Gong Qing would leave her.
After saying this, Gu Wanqiu's face suddenly felt hot. She grabbed the quilt to cover her body, leaving only a few strands of hair sticking out.
Gong Qing's lips curled up, and he felt relieved at this moment: "Well, I said I would wait for you, no matter how long it takes. Don't cover yourself with the quilt, or you will get suffocated."
Yes, he has no shortage of time now. He is the only one by Gu Wanqiu's side and the only one she can rely on. They have been together for such a long time. If half a year is not enough, then a year will do. If one year is not enough, then two years will do. He has a lifetime ahead of him. He doesn't believe that it can't compare to the ten years that Li Jinxing has been with Gu Wanqiu.
One day Gu Wanqiu will accept him.
People plant trees for the benefit of future generations. Is there anything wrong with him planting trees for so long and then driving away those who are enjoying the shade?
As spring went by and autumn came, day after day, Gu Wanqiu's face had basically healed, and the next step was to deal with the scars on her body.
Gu Wanqiu originally didn't want to do it. It took more than a year just to have plastic surgery on her face, and now she has to deal with the scars on her body. That would take more than another year, which makes it a full three years. She has already regarded the hospital as her home and really can't live there anymore.
But after taking off her clothes and seeing the wounds on her body, Gu Wanqiu couldn't bear it anymore. Would Gong Qing like such an ugly body?
Gu Wanqiu imagined the scene of marrying Gong Qing, wearing a white wedding dress and walking towards her step by step.
But now that her body is covered in scars, she would look out of place in a wedding dress and would only become a laughing stock.
Gu Wanqiu thought dejectedly, it would be better to slowly have surgery to erase it.
Gu Wanqiu looked at herself in the mirror again. After the plastic surgery, she was indeed more beautiful than before. The deep and ugly scar on her face was gone. After so long, her skin became very white, but this whiteness was sickly and looked very unhealthy and pale. You could almost see the blood vessels under the skin.
Gu Wanqiu raised her hand and touched her face. It looked so strange that she could hardly recognize herself. She raised the corners of her lips and smiled. The girl in the mirror also smiled, with a bitter look on her face.
"who I am?"
"I'm Gu Wanqiu."
Gu Wanqiu touched her face and said to herself: "Even if my face changes, I am still Gu Wanqiu."
Now this face looks more like a mask, and Gu Wanqiu doesn't want to look in the mirror anymore.
When she had scars on her face, she didn't like looking in the mirror because she didn't want to face her ugly self in the mirror.
This shows that whether she has lost her memory or not, she cares about her face.
Now that she has a new face, she is even more reluctant to look in the mirror. Sometimes when she washes her face and looks at her reflection in the water, she will splash water inexplicably frantically.
She would also have nightmares at night, always dreaming of this plastic surgery face, with the skin suddenly falling off and becoming a bloody mess. She often woke up from nightmares, her nerves became sensitive, and she was startled at every turn.
The psychologist advised her to be more open-minded and told her that this was normal. Psychological damage is difficult to cure and depression may accompany her for the rest of her life. It is easy to relapse in this season.
Just take medicine well and get enough rest. Gu Wanqiu's situation is already good. At least he knows to call the doctor and get proper treatment.
Many mental patients are unable to go to the hospital to see a doctor, which eventually leads to their health getting worse and worse.
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When Gong Qing first looked at Gu Wanqiu's face, he was not used to it. He always felt like he was looking at another person. It was obviously the same person, but when the face changed, it seemed that the whole person's temperament had changed as well.
In the past, Gu Wanqiu had an overly delicate appearance, with a sense of impact and an inviolable look.
Today, Gu Wanqiu's appearance has become much softer. She is still beautiful, but without that thorny impact. Now she is like a delicate dodder.
After seeing it for a long time, I got used to it, and slowly accepted Gu Wanqiu's appearance in my heart.
Gu Wanqiu cares a lot about her appearance. After having plastic surgery, she wants to get some affirmation, but she is always conflicted, especially when facing Gong Qing.
On the one hand, she wanted Gong Qing to like her current appearance, but on the other hand, she felt that if Gong Qing really liked her current appearance, it would not be her original self.
She is always trapped in this vicious circle, unable to extricate herself and struggling alone, which is why her mental illness has never been cured.
No one asked her to be a certain kind of person, and everyone let her be herself, but she gradually lost herself and could not tell which one was the real her.
Gong Qing asked her if she wanted to change her name.
Gu Wanqiu refused at that time. If she changed her name to "Gu Wanqiu", she was afraid that she would become even more confused about who she was.
She wanted to keep the name, and this name was given to her by her parents. Although she had forgotten her biological parents, she felt that her biological parents must love her.
A child's name reflects her parents' expectations. If her name is nice, she may live in a very happy family and be born with her parents' good wishes.
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