Chapter 1230: A belated love with a regretful ending
Gu Wanqiu didn't want to sleep, but her eyelids were getting heavier and heavier. Gradually, her vision began to blur and she saw double.
Gu Wanqiu sniffed her red nose and said to He Tian, "I don't want to fall asleep... I want to see him more... Why, I just realized now, he is so important to me. I remember how good Sister Liu was to me, but why didn't I remember that he was the one who treated me the best since I was a child? I took his kindness to me for granted..."
Li Jinxing treated her very well every day and regarded it as a responsibility. Gradually, she got used to his kindness and accepted it as a matter of course. She also played with his feelings and used him as a tool to entertain herself in her boring time.
No matter how much He Tian hated this person, he felt soft-hearted towards her now. Gu Wanqiu's willingness to save Li Jinxing was enough to break his long-held opinion of her.
In fact, Gu Wanqiu is not a bad person, she is just a little willful. Living in such a family, she doesn't know how to be nice to someone. People around her always indulge her, which makes her become a person who does her own thing. No one corrects her mistakes, which makes her go further and further astray on this smooth road.
He Tian looked at the ring and watch that he had taken off Li Jinxing and placed aside. These were prepared by Li Jinxing for Gu Wanqiu. Gu Wanqiu didn't like them, so he put them on himself. He had worn them for more than ten years, and He Tian had never seen him take them off.
Seeing things reminds me of people, these were Li Jinxing's thoughts.
If Li Jinxing had taught Gu Wanqiu how to love someone, if he had not used "hate" to make Gu Wanqiu remember him, if he had not forced Gu Wanqiu when he was eighteen, if they were both softer towards each other, if Gu Wanqiu could trust Li Jinxing more, would this ending not have happened?
Gradually, Gu Wanqiu became deaf and could no longer hear the sounds around her. She could vaguely see He Tian's lips moving. She tried hard to hear his voice clearly, but she couldn't.
It was very strange. Although her ears were in trouble, she could still hear her own heartbeat and the sound of her blood pumping. Gu Wanqiu's face was getting paler and paler. Her face after plastic surgery became very stiff, like a mask covering her face. She tilted her head and looked in the direction of Li Jinxing. Her pupils were dilated and becoming more and more empty.
Gu Wanqiu forced herself to cheer up and tried to maintain her willpower. Now her spirit had been broken into a string and could break at any time. She wanted to look at Li Jinxing more and reminisce about their past.
Things that she had repeatedly ignored and thought were not worth keeping have now become precious.
It turns out that only when you lose something will you understand its value.
She no longer had the pride she once had, but even so, during the few months she spent with Li Jinxing, he still treated her like a treasure.
He would carry her on his back and walk slowly on the street, would squat down to tie her shoelaces in the middle of a crowd, and would get up in the middle of the night to make her food. When she was in the early stages of pregnancy, he took good care of her and was even too worried that she would develop "pregnancy-associated syndrome"
He searched the whole world for her and finally found a red rose that would not make her allergic. The water he sent her was always at the perfect temperature, and he would notice immediately when she was feeling unwell.
When she left home for Country M, he hated her while taking care of her father and guarding her home in North City.
Everyone could see that Li Jinxing liked her very much, so much so that he didn't care about the years she hurt him.
Gu Wanqiu couldn't imagine how Li Jinxing managed to hold on during the five years when she disappeared and the news of her death came. He Tian said that Li Jinxing had become a madman at that time, a madman imprisoned by love.
Gu Wanqiu has now experienced the feeling of being a mother, and she still regrets one thing: if she had helped Li Jinxing and saved his mother...
With her ability at that time, she could have saved his mother, but she chose to stand by and watch.
If Li Jinxing's mother were still alive, she would definitely be a gentle person like Mrs. Liu.
She had lied to Li Jinxing too many times, hurt him, and exhausted all his expectations.
Her heart seemed to be beating so fast that it blocked her airway, making it increasingly difficult for her to breathe, like a balloon that was about to burst.
Gu Wanqiu was already covered in cold sweat. She was having difficulty breathing, like a dehydrated fish stranded on the shore. She could only open her mouth wide and breathe in deep gulps, biting her lower lip tightly with her teeth, and did not let go even if it bled.
She wanted to use the pain to keep herself awake.
The summer solstice had passed and the hottest season of the year had arrived, but now she felt like she was standing in a snowstorm in the dead of winter, shivering from the cold.
It’s so hard…
The feeling of suffocation became stronger and stronger. Gu Wanqiu has always had a weak willpower. She is afraid of pain and has to rely on painkillers to get through her menstrual period every month. She can't sleep if she feels any pain.
But now, her body was in severe pain and she wanted to sleep so much that she felt like she would fall into a deep sleep as soon as she closed her eyes.
But she knew she couldn't sleep. She had too little time and didn't have much time to see Li Jinxing.
I'm sorry, Li Jinxing... Ah Jin... I'm sorry for all these years... I didn't know the medicine would poison you. Actually, I love our children very much. I like Siyan, Sixu, and Xiaosui. I didn't mean to abandon Xiaosui. I also want to hold her in my arms every day and accompany her as she grows up. I want to see the children go to school, watch them grow up and become more and more outstanding. I also want to grow old. I hope that when I am old and gray, you can always be by my side...
Because I lack love and feel insecure, I always feel that no one really cares about me, so I can only throw a tantrum in front of you. I want to be the person you care about the most in your heart. I want someone to love me and coax me well, and stay with me no matter how unreasonable I am. Only when I see you always by my side trying to please me can I feel that there is someone in this world who cares about me. I'm sorry for making you suffer over the years.
In my next life, I want to be a normal person who knows how to love, try to love everything around me, go to the north to see the snow, to the south to see the sea, fly kites, have picnics, go on spring outings with the one I love... and finish all the things that I haven't finished in this life.
Forget it in this life, I
She's such a mean person that she ruins the fun wherever she goes.
She hid these thoughts in her heart and placed them in the urn, but she didn't know who would help her collect her body on the day she died. She was afraid of insects. If possible, she could be cremated. There was no need to find a place to bury her. She could just be scattered by the wind.
Tears flowed from the corners of her eyes. Li Jinxing had always protected her, but this time it was her turn.
You have to bear the consequences of your own actions, no matter how bitter it is.
She raised her fingers towards Li Jinxing. He was so close yet so far away. Gu Wanqiu had never wanted to touch his face before.
It turns out that I am one of the mean people.
——Miss, the moonlight is so beautiful tonight.
——You like roses, so I will definitely find red roses for you that won’t make you allergic.
——I like camellia, and I give camellia to you. How can you despise my love for you?
——Roses are not the only thing that represents love.
——Various studies have shown that humans are not long-lasting creatures, and everlasting love is against nature, so I will go against my instincts, defy my nature, and fall in love with you again and again.
——Once you are in danger, I will be the first one to rush to rescue you.
——You are my moon, my lady.
——Let’s go fly a kite.
—Gu Wanqiu, have you ever loved me over the years? Even a little bit?
——I give you a watch to let you know that I love you.
Perhaps only when it becomes a regret will people remember it forever. Along the way, she knew better than anyone what she had lost, what she had lost, and what she regretted, but now she could do nothing about it.
Gu Wanqiu didn’t know how long she had been in a coma. She had many dreams. These were clearly things that happened in this life, but when she recalled them now, they seemed like dreams from the past.
The past is like a long drizzle, dripping into dreams.
The summer in Haicheng is extremely hot and sweltering. It doesn't rain for more than ten days. Once it rains, it is a thunderstorm with raindrops as big as stones falling down with a crackling sound. Outside, the wind is howling and the leaves are rustling.
Gu Wanqiu was awakened by the weather. When she woke up, her face was still covered with cold moisture. She wanted to reach out and wipe it, but her hands felt very heavy, as if she had lifted a dumbbell weighing more than ten pounds and had muscle soreness the next day.
She looked around, the pain bringing her back to her senses a little.
She didn't die, which proved that the blood transfusion was successful.
The blood in her body was exchanged with the poisonous blood in Li Jinxing's body.
After the poisonous blood in Li Jinxing's body was diluted, the antidote developed by the doctor was able to cure him.
As for her, there is a large amount of poisonous blood in her body. The antidote can delay the onset of the poison, but it cannot completely eliminate it.
She was sleeping in the bedroom now. After leaving the operating room, she couldn't see Li Jinxing, and she didn't know how Li Jinxing was doing, whether he was still asleep or awake.
Gu Wanqiu thought that Li Jinxing should not have woken up yet. If he had woken up, why would he allow her to sleep in the bedroom? The iron chain on her foot was still there, and she would be taken to the pet room.
In Haicheng, after a rain, the sky was washed clean by water, the air was cold, and there was a small crack in the window. Gu Wanqiu stared outside in a daze, and the tears in her eyes could not be contained and flowed quietly from the corners of her eyes.
After lying quietly on the bed for a while, Gu Wanqiu finally regained some strength. He raised his hand and looked at the obvious needle hole on his arm. The blood vessels on it were clearly visible and black in color. Waves of pain came from all around the needle hole.
Gu Wanqiu moved her body slightly and felt weak all over and dizzy.
She simply stopped moving and lay on the bed, trying hard to breathe.
She was the only one in the room, and it was particularly quiet. She could clearly hear her own heartbeat, and the sounds outside were also very obvious.
Someone slowly approached here and pushed open the half-open door. It was He Tian who walked in with a bowl of medicine. It was a bowl of black Chinese medicine. This kind of Chinese medicine had a strong taste and was bitter and difficult to swallow.
He Tian just held the bowl of medicine with a look of disgust on his face.
Gu Wanqiu has now temporarily lost her sense of smell, and no matter how bad the smell is, she can't smell it.
"Are you awake? Are you feeling unwell?" He Tian walked in slowly with the bowl of medicine.
"I have a headache and my body aches." Gu Wanqiu spoke with difficulty, her throat felt like it was cut by a blade. Her voice was already hoarse, and now it was so hoarse that she couldn't utter a complete sentence.
He Tian probably heard it clearly.
"After all, so much blood was drawn, and you're carrying poison in your body now. It's normal to feel pain. I've asked the doctor to give you a painkiller injection in advance."
It's hard to imagine that she still feels so much pain even after getting the painkiller injection. If she hadn't gotten the injection, it would be a question whether she could hold on and get through it.
"How long did I sleep?"
"Including today, that's three days. To be specific, you slept nearly 65 hours."
He Tian put the medicine he brought on the table beside him. At first, Gu Wanqiu slept in the observation room like Li Jinxing. There was a room full of medical equipment, and Gu Wanqiu's vital signs could be seen from the medical equipment. After ensuring that she was out of danger and would not die for the time being, she was transferred to an ordinary bedroom.
Gu Wanqiu asked, "Where is Li Jinxing?"
He Tian said, "The boss is in the hospital."
"Why is he in the hospital? Could it be that he is still in danger?"
Seeing Gu Wanqiu's anxious expression, He Tian quickly explained, "He's out of danger. It was me who decided to transfer him to the hospital. Think about it, if he woke up here and saw you like this, he would definitely think too much. It's best to separate you now so that you can both take good care of yourselves."
After hearing what he said, Gu Wanqiu finally breathed a sigh of relief. As long as Li Jinxing was fine, it was fine.
She didn't expect that she had been in a coma for so long. What Gu Wanqiu didn't know was that her heartbeat was very abnormal at the time. Her heart stopped beating twice during this period and she almost died. At the beginning, the doctor had been trying to save her. Her condition was much more dangerous than Li Jinxing's.
"Drink this medicine."
The medicine was like ink. Gu Wanqiu knew it was bitter just by looking at the bowl of medicine.
"This medicine is for your health. It tastes a bit bitter, but it's very effective. You don't want to arouse the boss's suspicion, so take good care of yourself. I've been thinking about how to get you out of here lately."
Gu Wanqiu frowned as she looked at the bowl of medicine. No one likes to take medicine. Western medicine can be swallowed directly with water, but this Chinese medicine is so bitter that it makes one feel nauseous.
He Tian thoughtfully prepared a straw and helped Gu Wanqiu rise up a little.
Just sitting there made me feel dizzy, as if I would pass out at any second.
She closed her eyes, and after relieving the severe dizziness, she opened her mouth and put the straw in. There was a strong smell of medicine, but it was not as bitter as she thought.
"Is it bitter?"
"fine."
He Tian frowned. It was obvious that Gu Wanqiu had begun to lose her sense of taste.
After drinking the medicine, Gu Wanqiu looked at He Tian's solemn expression, and saw some reluctance and regret in his eyes. She also knew that her health was very poor now.
Gu Wanqiu did not avoid the issue of death: "How long can I live?"
"It's hard to say. The doctor said he can live for a year at most."
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