Chapter 1265 Spend my last birthday with me
It is not worth it to feel sad for someone like her.
Chen Yan squatted in front of her and reached out to touch her right leg, increasing the strength from light to heavy. Gu Wanqiu did not react at all. His expression was stiff. Then he touched her left leg and put his hand down. Gu Wanqiu shivered as if she was frightened.
A bitter look appeared on Chen Yan's lips as he realized that Gu Wanqiu's left leg had lost sensation. No wonder, she could grope her way out of bed and walk two days ago, but now she had to rely on him to hold her.
A trace of embarrassment appeared on Gu Wanqiu's face: "Was that your hand just now?"
"Yeah." Shen Yan's hand was still on her right knee, but she had no feeling. The only thing she could feel was her left foot.
"I'd like to give you a massage. Your legs can get stiff easily if you keep moving them, especially your right foot."
"I'm not used to it..." It's not that she's not used to someone touching her feet, but that she's not used to "this person" touching her.
Although my eyes can't see, my perception of the outside world seems to be more sensitive.
"Gu Wanqiu, I take care of you because of the agreement we signed. I am doing things according to the agreement. This is what I should do. Don't feel any pressure."
"I know."
"If you're not used to me touching you then I won't, but if you say you're not worthy of me doing this then this is definitely wrong. After all, I took your money."
Gu Wanqiu didn't know what to say for a moment.
Shen Yan pressed her right leg: “I’m pressing your right leg now.”
Gu Wanqiu felt her whole body stiffen, and she seemed to hear Shen Yan's sigh.
"You said your health is getting worse. Has your right leg completely lost all feeling now?"
Gu Wanqiu's life was like the sand in his hand drifting in the wind. He watched it slip through his fingers. No matter how hard he tried to hold on, no matter how tightly he held on, he could not stop it and was powerless.
The warm yellow sunlight shone on her, so peaceful, as if a golden edge was inlaid on her body.
Chen Yan said that Gu Wanqiu's past had nothing to do with him, but in fact, he cared very much about her past.
What exactly did Gu Wanqiu go through? What did she mean by "a life for a life"? Why was she able to face death so calmly?
In the first week, Gu Wanqiu lost her sight and became blind. On the second day, she also lost her sense of taste.
In the second week, as she lost sensation in her right foot, she became increasingly unable to control her limbs. She needed Shen Yan and the female nurse to help her with even simple things like eating and drinking, and she was unable to take care of herself. She was not used to the care of Shen Yan and the nurse, even though they did the same thing to her every day, but she would always say thank you.
In the third week, Gu Wanqiu lost her sense of smell.
When Shen Yan was driving to buy something again, he passed by a flower shop. Looking at the bright red roses blooming inside, he stopped the car and walked in involuntarily.
He could smell the fragrance of flowers before he even walked into the flower shop, but when he stepped in, the doorbell rang and the young boss came out and asked him what kind of flowers he wanted to buy.
There are all kinds of flowers in the flower shop, and every bouquet is very beautiful, but the most attractive ones are undoubtedly the bright red roses. He thinks Gu Wanqiu is very suitable for such roses.
It looks delicate and attractive to everyone, but in fact it has thorns all over its body and does not allow people to approach it easily. Shen Yan pointed to the red rose.
"Sir, do you want roses?"
Shen Yan nodded.
"How many do you want? We can tie them up for you for free. It won't take long."
"No, I just want this bouquet." He wanted to go back early and didn't want to wait any longer, even for a short ten minutes.
The bouquet he chose was the one he saw outside the window, with eleven roses in total. He thought that women generally like flowers, and Gu Wanqiu was probably no exception. He wanted to make her happy.
The store manager wrapped up the bouquet and asked, "Sir, are you giving this to your girlfriend?"
Shen Yan asked in return: "Can flowers only be given to girlfriends?"
"Of course not." The store manager clearly sensed the tense atmosphere at the moment, so she explained, "As long as you want to give it to someone, you can give it to anyone."
The store manager was a little nervous, fearing that Chen Yan would regret not buying the flowers, causing her to lose an order today, but fortunately the man in front of her didn't say much.
He just said "hmm" and asked her to pack the flowers quickly.
Chen Yan paid the money and double-checked whether the rose bouquet was damaged. Each flower was very bright and was decorated with baby's breath.
Chen Yan put the flowers in the trunk and drove back in a hurry.
Gu Wanqiu was still basking in the sun in the yard, holding the plush toy in her arms, listening to it over and over again patiently, and even Chen Yan could recite it.
Gu Wanqiu is very light now, and even the female nurse can easily pick her up like a princess and carry her up and down.
There must be something wrong with Gu Wanqiu's hearing, because she only heard him when he walked in front of her.
"Chen Yan, are you back?"
"It's me, how did you guess that?"
"There's a slight difference between your pace and Auntie's."
"I brought you something. Guess what it is." When Chen Yan decided to buy flowers for Gu Wanqiu, he was also thinking that Gu Wanqiu's sense of smell had not disappeared yet.
Gu Wanqiu tilted her head and turned her face towards Chen Yan. She thought for a moment and said, "I can't guess."
"Okay." Chen Yan didn't embarrass her anymore. He stuffed the flowers into her arms, grabbed her stiff hand and gently stroked the petals.
"Can you feel it?"
She felt the soft touch on her fingertips, and judging by the outer packaging, she guessed: "Is it a flower?"
"Well, do you know what flower it is? I won't remind you this time. You need to use your brain more." In fact, there are only a few common flowers in the flower shop. You can guess it by guessing a few more times. Roses are the easiest to guess because of their fragrance.
Gu Wanqiu touched the flower, put her nose close to it and sniffed hard, but she couldn't smell anything. It was impossible for the flower to have no fragrance at all, which only meant that her sense of smell had disappeared.
When her sense of taste disappeared, she had guessed that the next to disappear completely would be her sense of smell.
Once her sense of taste disappeared, eating anything felt like chewing paper to her, as she had no appetite to begin with. Now that her sense of smell was gone, it was no different from drinking plain water.
After the sense of smell disappears, the nose will become blocked, just like a rhinitis attack, causing difficulty in breathing and forcing you to breathe through your mouth.
Gu Wanqiu held the flowers and wanted to make something up to fool people, but her neck gradually started to itch. It seemed that there was no need to guess about this symptom.
"You gave me roses, didn't you?"
"Do you smell the fragrance?"
Gu Wanqiu shook her head. "I'm allergic to roses. I originally thought that as long as I couldn't smell the fragrance of the flowers, I would no longer be allergic. I didn't expect my body to react so quickly. My neck is a little itchy..."
She tilted her neck back, and even though she was allergic to roses, she did not drop the rose in her hand.
However, Shen Yan, who was giving the roses, was extremely nervous and snatched the roses away.
"I didn't know you were allergic to roses. If I had known you were allergic to this flower, I wouldn't have given it to you."
"My favorite is roses. You don't have to say sorry to me."
Chen Yan held the bouquet of flowers and finally thought of a way to make Gu Wanqiu happy, but he didn't know that he got into trouble. Chen Yan looked at Gu Wanqiu's neck.
"Is your neck itchy? Can I take a look for you?"
Gu Wanqiu shook her head: "No, as long as you don't touch it, it won't happen. Just bear with it for a while."
Gu Wanqiu has become accustomed to the word "endure". When the pain made her whole body twitch and she broke out in cold sweat, she said to endure it. When her legs couldn't walk and her hands were stiff, she also said to endure it... When her eyes were blind and her sense of taste disappeared, she also said to endure it and it would pass. Now, what else can't she endure?
Shen Yan threw down the flowers and went to check Gu Wanqiu's neck. He saw a small red spot but no obvious rash. He was still a little worried: "Do you want to apply some medicine?"
"No need to wipe it. My allergies were much worse before, but it's okay."
What she said was about when she went to look for her watch and ring a month ago. She had a habit that once she was lost in memories, she would subconsciously touch either the ring on her neck or the watch on her wrist.
Shen Yan had noticed this habit a long time ago and wanted to ask her several times who gave her the watch and ring, but he swallowed the question back when it came to his lips. He tried his best to suppress the impulse.
It was also at this time that he realized belatedly that he had missed a sentence in what Gu Wanqiu said.
"You said you can't smell the flowers?"
"Yeah." Gu Wanqiu lowered his head, his fingers shaking uncontrollably, "Chen Yan, I have lost my sense of smell."
She spoke calmly, as if she was talking about something very ordinary, such as what the weather was like today, what she had eaten for lunch, and she mentioned that she had lost her sense of smell as if she was chatting with her family.
For Chen Yan, today was really a bad day. Not only did he buy the wrong flowers, he also chose the wrong time and bought them too late. If he had bought them yesterday, Gu Wanqiu would have been able to smell the fragrance of roses for the last time.
As if she could sense Chen Yan's sadness, Gu Wanqiu tried to raise her hands. Her hands were as stiff as a puppet, unable to hold Chen Yan. She could only gently find Chen Yan's position, touch him, and carefully touch the corner of his clothes and said.
"Thank you for the roses you gave me. I didn't lie to you. I really love roses the most."
"But what if you like it? You can't even smell the fragrance of the flower." Not to mention being unable to see it, you're also allergic to it.
Chen Yan said hoarsely: "Gu Wanqiu, I'm afraid that you will disappear suddenly, leave here suddenly. Every night when I separate from you, I am very scared when I go to the bedroom to sleep. I don't even dare to sleep. I'm afraid that when I wake up, you won't be able to wake up."
Gu Wanqiu couldn't see it, and she didn't know that Chen Yan's complexion was getting uglier and uglier. He had lost several pounds, and his beautiful eyes were bloodshot and had faint dark circles.
The female nurse carried Gu Wanqiu on her back and often advised Chen Yan to have a good rest and not to ruin his body like Gu Wanqiu.
Chen Yan also knew that he should prioritize his own health. Only when his body was healthy could he take better care of Gu Wanqiu.
He regarded Gu Wanqiu as a major responsibility of his and could not abandon her.
Therefore, at night, he leaned against the wall, listening carefully to the noises coming from the next room. When Gu Wanqiu cried out in pain, he would rush to her room and watch over her. Even if he couldn't do anything, just watching her quietly from the side was fine.
When he went out shopping, he was thinking about buying things as soon as possible so that he could go back to see her earlier.
"Chen Yan." Gu Wanqiu sighed, "I'm getting used to my body, and you have to get used to it slowly too. I will disappear one day, and you will leave here and live a normal life. By then, you will definitely be happier than you are now."
"Keep the card I gave you. There's still over 900 in it..."
"I can't have it!" Gu Wanqiu was interrupted by Shen Yan before she could finish her words. Gu Wanqiu frowned. She couldn't see Shen Yan's face, but from his tone she could imagine how ugly his expression was, and his eyes were full of rejection.
"Take it. I'm dying anyway. If you don't use the money in this card, it will be handed over to others for profit. I might as well give it to you. You can use it for business or donate it. It's up to you to use it however you want, as long as it's used in a legitimate way."
I've agreed that I'm used to not caring about it, but when Gu Wanqiu said this, a bitter taste rose in her throat.
Shen Yan stretched out his hand and wanted to hug her tightly in his arms, but just as his hand reached out, he suddenly pulled it back.
Gu Wanqiu's smile with her eyes closed, her forbearance, her strength, kept lingering in his mind. He wanted to hug her and not let her go, and wanted to beg her not to die.
But Gu Wanqiu knew better than anyone that she would not live long, and his words "don't die" were cruel to her.
Perhaps for Gu Wanqiu, who is enduring pain, death is the only relief.
He was now begging her to live longer, to hold on a little longer, more like a villain torturing her.
Chen Yan burst into tears, crying for the first time in front of Gu Wanqiu, sobbing in pain.
Fortunately, Gu Wanqiu's hearing had not disappeared, and after hearing his choked cry.
"Chen Yan, come closer."
Chen Yan walked closer obediently, and Gu Wanqiu reached out and touched his arm: "Squat down."
Chen Yan didn't know what Gu Wanqiu was going to do, but he still listened to her and squatted in front of her obediently.
Gu Wanqiu raised her hand with great effort, touched it high and then gently put it down, and then she felt something furry, which was Chen Yan's hair. She put her hand on the top of his head and patted it.
"Chen Yan, have you ever heard of this saying? True death is when no one remembers a person after they die. This money can play a big role in your hands, and perhaps it can also make many people remember me, so that I won't be truly dead. Okay, enough talking. My body is aching again. Carry me in and feed me the medicine. I need to take two pills today."
"Every time you take the medicine, you will sleep for a long time."
"It's very comfortable to sleep. Don't worry, I will definitely wake up. My birthday is in a few days. I didn't tell you that my birthday is at the end of September. On the 30th, I am still waiting for you to accompany me to celebrate my 32nd birthday."
Her symptoms have become increasingly severe over the past few days, with her sense of smell and taste disappearing rapidly. It is not ruled out that the medication has caused her condition to worsen, but she cannot survive without it.
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