Chapter 1267: A single glance, the world is suddenly dark, the mountains and rivers are already autumn
Watching Gu Wanqiu eating the pear, the female nurse always felt that it was not auspicious.
The word "pear" represents separation, and "parting the pear" means separation.
Gu Wanqiu is in such poor health that eating pears before her birthday is very unlucky.
The nurse could only think about it in her heart and dared not say it out loud. If Chen Yan knew about it, he would definitely say that she was feudal and superstitious, and then scold her for her bad mouth.
The nurse couldn't help but look at Gu Wanqiu's face. Looking at her current appearance, he felt a sense of pity in his heart.
Every morning, when she went to help Gu Wanqiu wash up, she would see her coughing up blood. Recently, she had been vomiting more and more. Every time she vomited blood, her face would turn pale and her two thin lips would be stained with blood, as if they were smeared with lip balm, and her whole body seemed to be falling apart.
When she thought Gu Wanqiu couldn't hold on, she endured day after day. After vomiting blood, she still had the energy to comfort her and told her that she didn't feel any pain.
He also asked her not to tell Chen Yan that she had vomited blood again. They all knew that she had vomited blood, but she still deliberately wanted to hide it from Chen Yan. If Chen Yan knew that she had vomited blood more often, he would probably be even more worried.
As if sensing the nurse's gaze, Gu Wanqiu opened her mouth and asked, "Auntie, are you there?"
"I am here."
"Chen Yan picked a lot of pears, come and eat with us."
When Chen Yan heard Gu Wanqiu say this, he handed the pear on the plate to the nurse.
"Thank you." The nurse picked up a small piece of pear with a toothpick and put it in his mouth. It was not a very sweet pear.
"Is it delicious?" Gu Wanqiu asked.
"tasty."
It doesn’t matter whether it tastes good or not. What matters is seeing Gu Wanqiu happily eating it. Don’t think too much about whether the pears can be divided or not.
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It’s Gu Wanqiu’s birthday tomorrow, and Chen Yan promised to give her a surprise. Even though she can’t see it, he wants to decorate the place and make it lively. He also discussed with the guards what delicious food to make tomorrow.
He has already called to order the cake, and he can pick it up at nine o'clock tomorrow and bring it back after ten o'clock. He will also prepare a few hot dishes, which will be just in time for lunch.
Knowing that Gu Wanqiu's birthday was in advance, the arrangements were not rushed. Chen Yan had already bought everything he needed, including ribbons and fireworks. It was like a proposal scene, even with balloons and colorful lights.
The nurse laughed secretly while arranging things, as if she knew Chen Yan's hidden thoughts, but then, she thought of something, sighed and shook her head in her heart. So what if she liked him? Gu Wanqiu had become like this. If they developed feelings at this time, it would be a huge cruelty for both parties.
Chen Yan also felt that Gu Wanqiu's complexion seemed to be a little better in the past two days. It might be because she was thinking about celebrating her birthday happily. Once the mood is good, the body will feel better too.
Chen Yan didn't think about it as a "last gasp of life". He just hoped that Gu Wanqiu could stay like this and get healthier day by day.
September 30th, 7:00 in the morning.
Chen Yan got up early in the morning, made breakfast, and left with his car keys. He had a shopping list in his hand, which was what he had discussed with the guard yesterday about buying.
There is no flour at home, so I have to buy some flour to make hand-rolled noodles, and then cook a bowl of longevity noodles for Gu Wanqiu. I also need to buy apples to symbolize peace and safety. There are not many vegetables in the refrigerator. Chen Yan knows that Gu Wanqiu has lost her sense of taste, but he still subconsciously wants to buy her favorite food.
Gu Wanqiu’s favorite dessert, after learning about her taste, Shen Yan chose a cake shop with the highest reviews and customized a strawberry ice cream cake.
Before leaving, Shen Yan asked the nurse to take good care of Gu Wanqiu, then he came to the door of her room, hesitated for a moment, and still did not push the door open to go in.
He stood outside, looking at the closed door in front of him, and said softly: "Gu Wanqiu, happy birthday. I hope a miracle will happen and your body will recover."
Actually, he said "Happy Birthday" to the wall in the early hours of yesterday morning.
At that time, Gu Wanqiu had already fallen asleep. There was a wall between them, so Gu Wanqiu probably didn't hear the blessing he whispered so quietly.
Not long after Shen Yan left, Gu Wanqiu was awakened by the pain. Hearing coughing coming from the room, the nurse hurried in.
She is now used to taking care of Gu Wanqiu. When she knows she is in pain, she immediately looks for the bottle of painkillers and increases the number of pills from two to three.
Gu Wanqiu didn't take it immediately, but asked, "How many pills?"
"Three."
"I don't feel like taking medicine today."
"But your body..."
She didn't know how much pain Gu Wanqiu was enduring, but looking at the cold sweat on her face, the blue veins on her neck, and the protruding bones, she knew it must be very difficult to endure.
A common cold and fever were uncomfortable enough for her, let alone Gu Wanqiu's condition, whose internal organs were rotting one by one and her five senses were slowly disappearing. She used to be able to roll around in bed when in pain, but now when in pain, she can only bite the quilt and sob.
"I'll bear it for now..." Gu Wanqiu was panting, her eyes tightly closed. In order to suppress the pain, she kept frowning. Her ears were buzzing again, and she could not hear the nurse's voice clearly.
If the nurse had not been holding her, she would have thought that she was standing very far away, so far that her voice could not be heard.
Perhaps, her hearing will disappear today.
God, I've never made any wishes for you in my life. Today is my birthday, and I only ask you... please don't let my hearing disappear today...
There was a trace of water at the corner of his eye, and he didn't know if it was cold sweat or tears.
Gu Wanqiu couldn't hear the nurse's voice clearly, but she could roughly guess what she would say.
After taking a breath, Gu Wanqiu pressed down the quilt under her body, buried her head and said in a muffled voice: "I'm afraid that after taking the medicine, I won't be able to wake up today... I'm afraid that I will miss my birthday today... I don't want to take medicine... I haven't finished my birthday yet..."
People can feel when they are about to die.
Life has come to an end, that last candle finally burning out. How could one not be afraid of death? Even though Gu Wanqiu had prepared for death months in advance, when death finally came, she still didn't want to die. She would rather live like this than sleep for a long time with her eyes closed.
"Ah...Auntie..." Gu Wanqiu raised her elbow.
The nurse quickly grabbed her hand to show that she was by her side.
"Where's Chen Yan?"
A faint sound came from my buzzing ears.
"He's gone out."
"My phone..."
"Here." Gu Wanqiu's cell phone had been placed on the bedside table. It had been playing news about Li Jinxing all night yesterday. Now it had run out of battery and turned off. The nurse quickly charged it, and when it had enough power, he turned on the phone.
"Help me... Help me... I want to hear his voice, Li Jinxing..."
The nurse quickly said, "Okay, I'll search it now, don't worry."
Gu Wanqiu felt cold, so she first covered her body with a blanket, and then took out her cell phone to search.
Recently she has gotten used to it, and Gu Wanqiu listens to the sound on the phone every day.
The history records in the search bar only show "Li Jinxing". How deep must the feelings be, how great is the obsession, that when she was about to die, she would keep reading his latest news to find his voice, as if to engrave his voice in her soul.
There was no latest news about Li Jinxing today. All that came up were popular news, such as the time when he took Jiang Yun to various events. She picked one at random and placed it next to Gu Wanqiu's pillow, closest to her ear.
Gu Wanqiu had heard this story before, about Li Jinxing and Jiang Yun. Every time she heard news about them, her heart would ache uncontrollably, even more than when the poison took effect.
Li Jinxing took her to various events and brought her to Qiule Manor, where he replaced the red roses there with the champagne roses that Jiang Yun liked. He chose a ring for her, and Jiang Yun gave him a new watch.
Everything he was wearing on his hands now matched with Jiang Yun's. Even if she couldn't see, she could still imagine it. In the comments, there must be many people saying that they were a good match.
"Auntie, can you... read to me the comments below..."
"Do you really want to hear it?"
Gu Wanqiu's silence was a sign of her agreement. She was actually very stubborn.
It can be seen that Gu Wanqiu likes Li Jinxing very much. Since she can't meet him, she can only search everything about him on the Internet. Even though she knows that he already has a girlfriend, she still endures the pain and listens. It seems that as long as she knows that this person is living well, her physical pain will be alleviated.
The nurse flipped through the comments and read them carefully to Gu Wanqiu, sentence by sentence.
As she expected, the comments were full of people praising this beautiful relationship, saying that the two were a perfect match, a talented man and a beautiful woman, and a perfect match.
A fishy-sweet taste came from her throat, and she couldn't swallow it. She coughed a few times and spat it out.
Although Gu Wanqiu would cough up a little blood every day, the people who took care of her would be scared every time and the nurses would be busy wiping the blood off her.
"Why are you vomiting so much blood, Miss Gu? You'd better not listen..."
Gu Wanqiu shook her head, closed her eyes and smiled gently: "He looks like he's doing well..."
"Yes, very good."
"Are they a good match?"
The nurse was silent for a while before saying "hmm".
"That's good... That's good..." She said good, but her voice was trembling.
"I'm fine..." Gu Wanqiu seemed to be talking to herself, "Auntie, please feed me a pill."
After taking the medicine, the people who took care of her were not so worried about her anymore.
Gu Wanqiu swallowed the medicine and said with all her strength: "You go out and do your work. I'm fine on my own. I'm a little sleepy and want to sleep..."
"Okay." Although he said okay, the nurse did not leave. Instead, he stood quietly beside Gu Wanqiu, watching her brows relax slightly, as if she had fallen asleep.
"Ms. Gu, happy birthday." said the female nurse.
They all wanted her to be happy, but she didn't seem happy at all today. She couldn't even maintain a fake smile on her face.
Gu Wanqiu did not respond, perhaps because she fell asleep, or perhaps because she did not have the energy to respond.
The nurse walked out quietly, and not long after the nurse left, Gu Wanqiu opened his mouth.
The pill she had taken had no effect. She raised her hand and felt around, carefully feeling everything around her. Then she found the bear next to her pillow and slapped it twice. A sound came out, but because she didn't control the strength well, the bear fell off the bed. She didn't know what key she touched.
There came a recording that she had never heard before.
A familiar voice came from inside, and she was suddenly glad that her ears had not completely lost their function.
"Gu Wanqiu, when you hear this recording, perhaps I have already let you go. I have hated you, resented you, and I have also spent my life loving you twice. Unfortunately, I have never understood the true meaning of love.
Gu Wanqiu, do you know? During the time when you first picked me up, I had the urge to kill you several times, but every time you smiled at me, I would just let it go. Even though I knew these smiles weren't sincere, I still hoped you would live a long life.
No matter what I say about your father's death, you won't believe it. In fact, there is nothing to explain. No matter how much you say, it is meaningless. I am indeed involved in his death. I have thought more than once that if I hadn't touched you when you were eighteen, maybe you wouldn't have left so quickly, and he wouldn't have had a car accident because he was in a hurry to find you. You have the right to hate me. You are right. There are too many lives between us.
I used to think that if I had a child or kept you by my side forever, you wouldn't leave me, so I used a lot of despicable means.
However, I didn't expect that you would abandon both the child and me, and you threatened me with death.
You are right. In order to prevent the three children from becoming like you and me, the only thing I can do is to let you go.
Gu Wanqiu, are you reluctant at all?
If, I mean if, there is a next life... Let's be a normal couple, with only love and no hatred. We go to the south to see the sea, to the north to see the snow, to places you have never been to. When you are tired, I will carry you on my back, walking and walking... I hope that in the next life, you will not be allergic to roses, and we can grow old together.
Forget about this life, I will forget you..."
Gu Wanqiu's breathing became more and more rapid.
The weather must be very good today. The sunlight must be shining through the window, and she felt a little warmth on her face.
Gu Wanqiu opened her eyes, and there seemed to be a flash of light and shadow in front of her eyes. The size of the watch on her slender wrist was no longer suitable for her. She touched her neck and felt the two rings along the chain. She tried hard to take off the two rings and held them tightly in her palm.
Li Jinxing, I really don’t want to leave.
Thank you for loving me for so long in this life.
Li Jinxing, this time I paid the price with my life, please forgive me for everything I have done.
I'm sorry I hurt you, I'm sorry I didn't save your mother, I'm sorry I stood by and watched you all those years.
Li Jinxing, can we really meet again in the next life?
I used to love roses the best, but now I love the camellia you gave me the most.
In the next life, Li Jinxing, you can give me camellia.
Take me to see the sea and the snow...
Li Jinxing's voice was hoarse, and if you listened carefully you could hear the trembling and sobbing mixed in it.
Being able to hear this recording, Gu Wanqiu felt fulfilled. At least before her death, she knew that Li Jinxing didn't hate her that much, and they still had an appointment for the next life.
But Li Jinxing, I walked too fast, you definitely won’t be able to find me.
The suffocation in her chest became more and more painful, and a bloody smell came from her throat again. This time, blood even came out of her nose, half of her face was dyed red, and even her eyelashes were stuck with blood. Even if she clenched her teeth, the blood overflowed from between her teeth, as if it wanted to drain all the blood in her body at this moment.
Gu Wanqiu closed her eyes, opened her mouth and breathed with blood in her mouth. She tried hard to recall Li Jinxing's face, but at this moment, she couldn't remember it at all. In these last few minutes, the poison in her body spread to her brain, and she could no longer remember Li Jinxing's face.
When a person dies, the things that happened in his life revolve before her eyes like a kaleidoscope. She remembered how Li Jinxing kissed her eyebrows, and she had always followed behind him, given her camellias, and carried her on her back as they walked forward step by step.
Gu Wanqiu seemed to hear someone calling her.
Gu Wanqiu laughed foolishly, her laughter gradually became weaker, her breathing also became weaker. Before she took her last breath, she vaguely saw the young Li Jinxing walking towards her with a bouquet of camellias in his hand.
The flower language of camellia is, how dare you despise my love for you.
——I never dare to despise you, I know you love me.
Are the camellia flowers outside already in bloom? They smell so good...
The ring in her hand fell to the ground through her fingers the moment her heart stopped.
The little bear on the ground made a screeching sound.
"Goodbye, Wanwan."
Sure enough, the last thing to disappear is hearing.
In a blink of an eye, the world suddenly became late, the mountains and rivers were already in autumn, and Gu Wanqiu died in late autumn at the age of 32.
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