Chapter 1293: Feelings will only become your weakness, don't touch them, women will only be stumbling blocks, the Li family only has interests but no feelings
As for when they can meet again, He Tian did not give a number. The more unspeakable the number is, the longer it proves to be.
Maybe we won’t be able to see it during next year’s Spring Festival.
Thinking of this, the brothers' eyes turned red, but they were strong and did not cry.
He Tian picked up Gu Sui and patiently gave instructions to Si Yan and the others.
"As brothers, you must protect your sister and don't let her get hurt. As for your father... I still say that he loves you. Although he rarely comes to see you now, he has always kept his love in his heart. So, don't blame him. He has too much responsibility and a lot has happened recently."
"A lot of things?" Si Yan thought of the woman in Qiule Manor.
He understood what Uncle He said. He always knew that his father was very busy, but he was so busy with his love life that he had no time to come here to see them.
When my mother was still alive, didn’t he also go to work every day, accompany my mother, and help them with their homework?
Uncle He, let them understand their father. They also want to deceive themselves and comfort themselves, but the reality is too cruel.
"Uncle He, does Dad really love that person, even more than Mom? Because he loves her, does that mean he can't share any extra love with us? Are they getting married soon?"
He Tian was stunned for a moment before realizing that they didn't know that Jiang Yun was dead.
Yes, the two children rarely go online, and their family members deliberately concealed the truth, so they had no idea what was happening outside.
He Tian also thought about hiding it from them, but sooner or later they would know what had happened. Instead of letting them find out on their own, it would be better for him to tell them as a preventive measure.
He Tian put the child in his arms back into the stroller and said to Si Yan and Si Xu, "That person is dead."
"Dead?" Si Yan's eyes widened in shock, and his heart beat faster for a moment. "Why did she die? Is she sick?"
There was a hint of worry in his voice. Children are children. The emotion of "disgust" will not last long. They are kind by nature. Once they hear that someone they disliked before is dead, they will feel pity for that person.
He Tian shook his head: "It was because of an accident."
The two children suddenly became silent and said nothing.
That woman died, and Dad must be very sad, right? He finally liked someone.
If I had known this, I wouldn't have hated that person in the first place.
He Tian touched their heads and said, "When we are not around, you should take good care of yourselves and try to understand your father. Don't let him worry about you. He is very busy every day and may not be able to take care of you, but he always has you in his heart."
Si Yan blinked his sore eyes, feeling that after He Tian's departure, they would never see each other again, just like they would never see their mother again.
"Uncle He, can you spend more time with Dad? He must be very sad right now."
He Tian said in a gentle voice: "I have been with him for a long time. I can't always be with him. Don't worry, he is stronger than you think. He will be fine."
Si Yan also realized that He Tian was determined to leave, so it was not easy to persuade him any further.
He Tian had little to leave for his children. Born in such a family, the three children lacked nothing. He took out three amulets from his shirt pocket, which he had personally obtained from the temple on the mountain. He gave one to each of his three children.
"This is for you, to keep you safe." He Tian hung the amulet around their necks.
He couldn't help but think of what Gu Wanqiu asked him to do when she left, hoping that he could help her take care of the three children while she was away.
He agreed at that time, but now he is going to break his promise. Asking for a talisman is just asking for peace of mind.
As soon as the amulets were put on, the two children's eyes turned red, their eyelashes trembled, and their eyes were wet.
He Tian is leaving, and so is Zhou Yi. They are reluctant to let go of these two people.
The things Zhou Yi gave them were more practical. He prepared communication watches for them that could not only make calls but also locate them, ensuring their safety. If they encountered any problems and contacting Li Jinxing was useless, they could find him. He would also buy them whatever they wanted.
As for Xiao Sui, he was too young to wear a watch, so he was given two gold bracelets. Xiao Sui was well taken care of, chubby like a soft glutinous rice ball, with a pair of round arms.
After meeting them, everything that needed to be said was said, and He Tian and Zhou Yi left together.
After getting in the car, He Tian couldn't help but have tears in his eyes. Si Yan and Si Xu grew up under their care, and to him they were like his godsons.
I always feel irresponsible and sorry for them when I leave.
Si Yan and Si Xu stood at the door and watched the car leave. They stood in the cold wind, their hands and feet were cold, but no one left first. In the end, it was Butler Sun who came over and took their hands and led them in.
They were in first grade and six years old. The adults who had promised to stay with them had gone back on their word and left.
Although I know that people have joys and sorrows, how can I not be sad when I really say goodbye?
Little Sui, who was only a few months old, didn't know the difference and was smiling foolishly in the rocking chair.
"Brother, I want to see my mother and my father."
"We can't see Mom anymore, but we can go see Dad."
Thinking of his father, Si Xu's eyes showed a hint of fear. He had not forgotten what happened last time.
"Let's go see Dad during the weekend. Remember, never mention Mom in front of Dad." Si Yan reminded.
Si Xu uttered a muffled “hmm.”
He Tian and Zhou Yi left very quickly. They submitted their resignation papers on the same day and did not go to the company the next day. The employees in the company who had a good relationship with them had originally planned to prepare a farewell ceremony for them, but unexpectedly, they did not come and left in a hurry.
The trouble was resolved quickly and the stock market recovered. During this period, Li Jinxing cooperated in several businesses. The land he had bought was developed and an oil field was directly dug out. After the report came out, Li Jinxing once again topped the financial list.
Li Jinxing's business grew bigger and bigger, involving more and more things. Various things piled up together. He thought he was so busy that he had no extra energy to think about other things, but loneliness was always there, especially when he stopped to rest, it almost swallowed him up.
He looked sickly and haggard, and his temper was getting worse. He used to have a bad temper, but he never showed his emotions on his face and was very introverted. Even when he got angry, he would suppress it deep in his eyes. In the company, he rarely had outbursts and was very friendly when discussing business, which made outsiders think that he was actually a very kind person.
But now, he is becoming more and more out of control, like a manic patient who cannot tolerate any mistakes.
The secretary brought him a cup of slightly hot coffee, but he dropped it on the ground before he even touched it.
The anxiety and pain in his heart had tortured him to the point where he was neither human nor ghost, and he could not force himself to smile.
This mood continued until the weekend, and in one week it would be the Spring Festival holiday.
He returned to Qiule Manor and watered the camellias in the yard as usual. Roses did not bloom in this season, but the gardeners took good care of the roses, and they still stood tall and graceful in the cold winter.
During his rest time, Li Jinxing would smoke and drink at home and get himself drunk. He actually hated drinking and smoking before. Firstly, Gu Wanqiu didn't like them, and secondly, he was self-disciplined and hated anything that destroyed his rationality. Tobacco and alcohol were both addictive, and addictive things were not good things.
But now, he can only numb himself with the help of alcohol so that he can dream about Gu Wanqiu when he falls asleep.
Gu Wanqiu must have resented him very much, because after he learned that she was dead, she never appeared in his dreams again.
He tried many ways and found that he could only see Gu Wanqiu when he was paralyzed by alcohol. Perhaps, it was not a dream, but an illusion.
Even if it's an illusion, at least I can see her. The more I see her, the more I will never forget what she looks like.
There were several times when he got drunk and ran around the house, trying to find the things that Gu Wanqiu left behind, the paintings she had drawn, the piano she had played, and the dance costumes she had worn. But no matter how many rooms he went to or how many cabinets he searched through, he couldn't find them. He suddenly remembered that he had burned those things a long time ago. Even the only painting Gu Wanqiu had drawn for him was torn up by Liu Zibo.
He did pick up the remaining debris and pieced it together based on the traces, but no matter how he tried, there were still a few parts missing.
Numb yourself with work during the day and alcohol at night.
The servants in Qiule Manor have started preparing New Year's goods again. Every year, Li Jinxing would give them a long vacation. In previous years, they would have returned to their hometowns at this time, but this year, Li Jinxing never said a word and no one dared to ask.
Si Yan and Si Xu returned to Qiu Le Manor. They arrived at an unfortunate time. When they arrived, Li Jinxing had just drunk some wine.
As soon as Siyan and Sixu entered the house, they smelled alcohol. Sixu was already afraid of her father, and she was even more afraid of him when he was drunk.
Only Si Yan mustered the courage to speak: "Dad, please stop drinking. It's bad for your health."
In the dark room, there was a wine bottle on the floor and the curtains were closed, preventing the smell of alcohol from escaping.
Siyan went over to open the window, and just as he was about to pull the curtains, Li Jinxing grabbed him and dragged him over.
"It was you...you opened the window and she jumped down. If you had chosen her, she would not have left..." The drunk Li Jinxing fell into madness and was out of control. The suppressed extreme thoughts suddenly burst out at this moment.
Siyan was pressed to the ground, his head fell heavily, his entire back felt a dull pain, and his little face turned pale instantly.
Siyan was so frightened that she couldn't even cry.
"dad……"
"Don't call me dad. It's all your fault. You hurt her, and I hurt her too... Why couldn't I protect her? If it weren't for you, she wouldn't have left." The drunk and crazy person spoke without logic. He himself didn't know what he was saying, let alone the people who were listening.
Si Yan didn't understand what he was saying at all. Was the "she" referring to Gu Wanqiu or Jiang Yun? The one who jumped out of the window was his mother, so who was the one who couldn't be protected?
Although Sixu was timid, he rushed over to protect his brother as soon as he saw him in danger. He hugged Li Jinxing's hand tightly and said, "Dad, you're hurting my brother. Let him go."
How could he compare to Li Jinxing with his little strength? Li Jinxing exerted force and Sixu fell backwards, with the back of his head hitting the coffee table behind him.
The two children are usually well protected. They are always watched wherever they go. They are very precious. Si Xu leaned back and felt a heat on the back of his head, deafness in both ears, blackness in front of his eyes, and he fell to the ground unconscious.
When Si Yan heard the noise, he looked up and saw his brother lying on the ground bleeding. He could no longer control himself and burst into tears with his mouth wide open.
Li Jinxing's head ached from the noise. He didn't look back, but continued to stare at Siyan. He rubbed his face sickly, making his crying face red. "Siyan, you have to remember, if you can't protect someone, don't touch them. The Li family no longer needs emotions. Emotions will only become a weakness. Become an emotionless machine, so that no one can threaten you or hurt others. Become strong, stand tallest, and everything will be yours in the future..."
Li Jinxing was like a pathological drug addict, repeating the same sentence over and over again. Si Yan was frightened by his appearance, and worried about Si Xu who fell to the ground. He couldn't understand what Li Jinxing said at all. He just felt that Li Jinxing was too scary now.
Si Yan's loud crying attracted the servants outside. When they rushed in, they saw Si Xu lying in a pool of blood, and Si Yan being strangled by Li Jinxing and pressed to the ground.
Li Jinxing looked like he wanted to kill his son. The housekeeper didn't dare to delay at all. He quickly called a group of people, held Li Jinxing down, rescued Siyan, and then picked up Sixu and sent him to the hospital.
Siyan was very frightened and kept crying in the butler's arms.
As for Li Jinxing, after being held down, he did not move, but just kept repeating the same sentence.
Emotions will only become weaknesses, and people can only become strong if they are ruthless.
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Originally, he believed that only when he became strong could he protect his beloved woman from getting hurt.
But for some reason, it has been twisted into not getting involved in feelings. When you are not capable enough, it will only become a weakness that will kill you. Then when will you become strong? There is no such thing as being strong for Li Jinxing.
Can his two sons do what he himself couldn't do?
In order to prevent them from getting hurt, there must be no existence that threatens them, and they must not end up like him.
I believe this is what Gu Wanqiu wants to see.
Sixu was sent to the hospital in time. There was a cut on the back of his head, and his hair was shaved and wrapped with gauze.
Siyan stayed by his side all the time, his eyes red and swollen from crying. He regretted that if he had not brought his brother here, perhaps his brother would not have been injured.
Si Yan is still too young. Although he is much smarter than other children of the same age, his brain capacity is not enough to accommodate those words. He still doesn't understand what Li Jinxing meant.
I just feel that Li Jinxing is very scary now, he has become a different person.
He wanted to go back and didn't want to see his father again, but his younger brother still had to be hospitalized. Fortunately, his father had not come to the hospital to see them recently.
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In Qiule Manor, Li Jinxing did not repent after sobering up. Instead, he dismissed all the servants and housekeepers in the manor.
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