Chapter 181 Li Jingshen, I am dying of advanced stomach cancer
"The person who saved you sixteen years ago, Chen Zhichu, is dead. I am Li Jingshen, and you can only remember me, understand? No matter what happens, you are mine." Since I was wrong from the beginning, I will be wrong to the end.
He held her in his arms and coaxed Shen Zhichu like a child: “It’s late, go to bed.”
Shen Zhichu had a splitting headache and her eyes were burning with pain. She clutched the quilt tightly and said, "Li Jingshen, sooner or later you will drive me crazy."
"You've already gone crazy once in the hospital, so what are you afraid of? Even if you go crazy, I will still take care of you."
This man doesn't care about her at all, and may not even care whether she lives or dies. Shen Zhichu let out a long breath, and then said in a hoarse and weak voice.
"Li Jingshen, I'm dying..."
Li Jingshen's steady breathing didn't even pause.
"I have stomach cancer and I may not live for more than a year."
Li Jingshen opened his eyes: "You cheated me once in the hospital before, are you going to cheat me a second time? The same trick once is enough, I won't be fooled again."
Shen Zhichu smiled, his voice unnaturally soft: "What if I say I never lied to you from the beginning?"
Li Jingshen turned a deaf ear to it: "Chen Zhichu, I won't believe you. You just want to lie to me and say you have stomach cancer so that you can get away from me."
The smile on Chen Zhichu's lips grew deeper and deeper, but the upward smile did not reach his eyes. His eyes were pitch black, but looking deep into them, one could seem to feel something crystal clear flowing.
"Li Jingshen, you are really smart. You really didn't give me any chance to be fooled. You... just believe this for the rest of your life."
Li Jingshen didn't listen to Shen Zhichu's words, nor did he take them to heart.
How could Shen Zhichu really have stomach problems as she said?
If it was stomach cancer, why didn't she tell me at the beginning? It could have earned her a little sympathy, but she went to such great lengths to hide it, which was a thankless task.
Moreover, he knew what the late stage of gastric cancer was like. If Shen Zhichu really had late stage gastric cancer, he would have been lying in bed unable to move.
"Li Jingshen, do you still have any feelings for me after all these years?"
"Yes." Li Jingshen answered without any hesitation.
"Yeah, even if you're feeding a dog, you should have some feelings."
"Chen Zhichu, I like you." At first he thought he was treating Shen Zhichu as a pet, but as time went on, he became more and more unable to let her go.
If he was just treating her as a toy, why would he have gone to such great lengths to lock her up in Repulse Bay? His scheming was all about keeping her from leaving him. He actually knew what he wanted all along.
"Li Jingshen, your love for me is only temporary. It's just to satisfy your own selfish desires and show off your superiority."
Shen Zhichu knew clearly that Li Jingshen locked her here because of her rebellious nature and because she suddenly disliked him.
Li Jingshen, who has been in a high position for a long time, simply doesn't like the feeling of things being out of his control.
…….
Neither of them spoke. Shen Zhichu's breathing gradually became steady. Li Jingshen's dark eyes carefully depicted Shen Zhichu's facial features in the dark night. Shen Zhichu was clearly in her arms. He could feel her body temperature and his breathing. They were pressed tightly together, so close.
But Li Jingshen felt that there was a huge distance between them, an endless chasm. Even if he pulled her over by the chain, he couldn't reach her.
Li Jingshen hugged Shen Zhichu's waist, listened to Shen Zhichu's steady breathing and said, "My love for you is more than just love."
Shen Zhichu turned over in Li Jingshen's arms, with his back facing him.
Maybe it was because he slept for more than ten hours yesterday, or maybe it was because he was psychologically resisting sleeping in the same bed with Li Jingshen, but Shen Zhichu couldn't fall asleep.
Watching the light outside the glass gradually dissipate the darkness.
Li Jingshen extinguished her hope of living. Su Miao had just warned her a few days ago not to stop taking the medicine, but now she had stopped.
Will the cancer spread faster than before?
Li Jingshen was sleeping very soundly. Shen Zhichu knew that he was really asleep. She turned her head to look at his face and whispered something.
Li Jingshen, I'm dying. I could have lived like a normal person, but you deprived me of the motivation to live.
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