Chapter 205 Shen Zhichu's Diary
Shen Zhichu's condition has been unstable. He may be in danger at any moment, or he may remain in a vegetative state.
In a blink of an eye, Li Jingshen has been in the hospital for a month. The ward has become his other studio. He works quietly while taking care of Shen Zhichu and talks to her whenever he has time.
The doctor said that talking to her more might stimulate her brain and wake her up.
Li Jingshen spent a lot of time with Shen Zhichu, playing her favorite violin music and giving her a massage.
A vegetative person has been lying in bed without moving, and his muscles will atrophy over time. Even if he wakes up one day, he will not be able to function like a normal person.
Li Jingshen spends a lot of time every day massaging her legs and exercising her body muscles.
The wound on Chen Zhichu's finger had begun to heal and scar slowly, but once the gauze was removed, the dense needle holes on the fingertip were still there, as if they would never disappear.
This is Shen Zhichu's hand. The once green jade fingers have now turned into small carrot heads. Li Jingshen's pupils shrank when he looked at her bare fingertips.
Li Jingshen's breathing became unstable for a moment: "Can her nails grow back?"
The doctor shook his head: "It can't be restored unless you get artificial nails."
Shen Zhichu is a perfect woman, inside and out, from top to bottom, but now her hands are simply unbearable to look at.
He knew that her hand was seriously injured, and not only would it be disabled for life, but even her nails would never recover.
He always thought that nothing had changed after being with Shen Zhichu for so many years, but in fact, he was the only one who hadn't changed. In recent years, things and people have changed a lot, and Shen Zhichu is no longer the Shen Zhichu of the past.
He had drained away all the affection between them.
…….
Shen Zhichu chose to hide something as serious as stomach cancer from him. What else did she know that he didn't know?
Li Jingshen asked Zhao Qian to take people to clean out the villa in Bancheng, and during the cleanup, some things were also cleared out from the warehouse below.
Zhao Qian carried the wooden box to the hospital and said, "Boss Li, we found this in the underground warehouse. I think it was hidden so well that we didn't open it. It should all be Madam's."
Shen Zhichu's? What could it be? After a while, Li Jingshen stood up and squatted on the ground.
The wooden box was locked, but without a key, they pried it open with force, and the contents inside were revealed.
It looked a bit old. Li Jingshen frowned slightly. He thought it was something else, but it turned out to be a pile of junk.
The wooden box was filled with all kinds of things, including hand-folded paper cranes and stars, a half-knitted scarf, and a dozen or so paintings. The style was rather childish, probably drawn when they were a child, and none of them had faces drawn on them.
After turning to the next few pictures, Li Jingshen froze.
Zhao Qian came over curiously and said, "Boss Li, this painting looks like you."
It's not "as if" the painting is actually of Li Jingshen, Li Jingshen reading, Li Jingshen working, Li Jingshen eating, Li Jingshen sleeping... It's like a photo album recording daily life.
Li Jingshen's eyes suddenly became hot, and his heart felt like being bitten by something, with an indescribable swelling pain.
Ever since he knew that Shen Zhichu mistook him for the man who saved her sixteen years ago, Li Jingshen had always doubted her feelings for him.
If there hadn't been a "mistake" at the beginning, would Shen Zhichu have never liked him at all?
But if there wasn't a trace of emotion in it, would she paint him?
An impulse arose in Li Jingshen's heart, and the heart that had been silent for a month suddenly became active.
After Li Jingshen took out the painting, he saw a notebook at the bottom of the box.
This is a notebook with Shen Zhichu's handwriting on it. The pages in the diary are very damaged and obviously have been torn.
Li Jingshen turned to the first page.
May xxxx
It's almost summer, but the weather has been bad lately. It's been raining all day and it's extremely cold.
It's all work and work. I'm only eighteen. Is this how it's going to be in the future?
My grandfather said that he would give me all the family property and let me manage Shen’s company well. But I don’t want to manage it. My dream is to become a violinist.
Dad scolded me again today for being a money-loser and a son of a bitch. If I am a son of a bitch, then who is he?
June xxxx
I finally met him! I didn't expect him to be so handsome after ten years. I don't know if my red dress attracted him, or if he still remembers me.
He is still the same boy without any change.
August xxxx
I want to marry him, I want to marry him like crazy. Li Jingshen and I have known each other for twelve years. I have been planning to be with him for twelve years. I want to be with him no matter what.
But I found out that he seemed to have someone he liked, named Xia Mingyue.
I don't know what's so good about that white lotus. Is she as pretty as me? Does she have a good figure as me? Is she as rich as me? She has nothing!
…. No, she has Li Jingshen, the Li Jingshen whom I have loved for twelve years.
November xxxx.
It seems like winter came early this year. I don’t know if it’s because of the blood test, but I feel so cold, colder than previous winters.
I finally got married to Li Jingshen as I wished, but he didn't like me.
Sometimes I feel that Li Jingshen has no vision, and at the same time I feel cheap. He doesn’t even like me, but I’m still trying to please him.
There was nothing between us except that marriage certificate. I had prepared the wedding dress for a long time. The media all praised me for my beauty, but Li Jingshen was the only one who said I was disgusting.
Li Jingshen drank a lot of wine at the wedding. At night, he hugged me and called Xia Mingyue's name.
Li Jingshen is a big pig's hoof!
Li Jingshen paused when he saw this. The Shen Zhichu in the diary was completely different from the Shen Zhichu he knew.
During the years of their marriage, Shen Zhichu was obedient and gentle in front of him, which made him think that she had no temper.
Unexpectedly, she was pretending to be obedient and secretly calling him a pig's hoof.
He glanced at Shen Zhichu who was sleeping on the bed, and his eyes became hotter.
He continued down.
November xxxx
Li Jingshen is on a business trip and I don’t know when he will be back. Actually, I know it’s not that he doesn’t want to come back, he just doesn’t want to see me.
I saw the hot entertainment news today that Li Jingshen and Xia Mingyue actually went skiing. I don’t know if he will be cold, so I decided to knit him a scarf.
…
He hasn't been back for three months. Winter is almost turning into spring. He doesn't need the scarf anymore, so he might as well take it off.
…
Li Jingshen is finally back. I planned to cook a few of his favorite dishes, but I accidentally filled the whole table. I am really a little culinary genius.
He hasn’t come back yet at 2:30 in the morning. I won’t cook for him next time!
…
I saw him on the financial channel today. I think I have a good eye for men. He is much more handsome than those young handsome guys.
January xxxx
I had a dream. In the dream, Li Jingshen drained my blood. It hurt so much...
After four years of marriage, I was completely broke and had nothing.
March xxxx.
Spring is supposed to be the season for all things to grow, so why am I almost dying here?
I have stomach cancer. The doctor said that if I don't get treatment I may not live more than two years. I tore up the medical report and threw it into the trash can on the side of the road.
I'm dying, and I won't tell this secret to anyone, including Li Jingshen.
It’s so cold on rainy days. If there is a next life, I will never love anyone again.
Sometimes I wonder what Li Jingshen has left me in these four years besides hurt. He also left me a ring he bought casually on the street, but now I can't keep it anymore.
It is said that only those who have endured hardships can become the best. I have never had any ambition since I was a child, and I have never thought that I would become a superior person one day, but the sufferings of this world... still did not let me go.
Li Jing will probably be very happy on the day I die, so I hope he gets what he wants in the days without me.
In the ward.
Li Jingshen read from beginning to end in silence. The handwriting on the last part was obviously trembling, and there were a few drops of blood.
Li Jingshen clutched the notebook tightly, his Adam's apple trembling as if he would cry at any moment.
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