Chapter 242: There is fish every year, and today is the day every year
Li Jingshen paused while applying the medicine. His throat was dry and hoarse, and his voice seemed to be squeezed out from inside: "Yes, I was not as good to you as you imagined. It can be said that I was not good at all, but it was true that you liked me back then, and now I love you too and want to take care of you for the rest of my life."
Shen Zhichu has no memory of the past. She is still stuck in the lie that Zhao Qian and he made up. She also thinks that she and Li Jingshen were very much in love. She can't wait to remember the past, just so that she can love Li Jingshen better now and spend the rest of her life in his favor with peace of mind.
But now Li Jingshen told her that their past was not good at all.
Shen Zhichu didn't know what the point of recovering his memory was.
"Do you want to know about the past?" Li Jingshen asked very carefully.
Shen Zhichu hesitated for a moment, and finally shook his head: "Let the past be the past."
Li Jingshen secretly breathed a sigh of relief. If Shen Zhichu kept chasing after the past, he really didn’t know what to say.
"But Li Jingshen, even though I've lost my memory, it doesn't mean I don't understand anything. I can't tolerate even a grain of sand in my eyes. If you treat me like this again, it's the end of us. I'd rather die than humiliate myself by your side."
Li Jingshen panicked and opened his mouth subconsciously, but before he could say anything, Shen Zhichu interrupted him.
"Don't give me any promises. I understand the principle of crying wolf. We know each other well."
"good……"
Shen Zhichu turned around and went to the bathroom to wash her hands. The smell of Huoluo Oil was very strong. She used hand soap and washed for a long time before getting rid of the smell.
While washing her hands, she stared at herself in the mirror, unable to conceal the uneasiness in her eyes. She said those words to Li Jingshen and also to herself.
If she can get over it, she will get over it. If she can't, she won't get over it. She can forget the past and not care about it, but she can no longer forgive Li Jingshen so easily in the future just because he said "I'm sorry". After all, she is not a saint.
After Chen Zhichu washed his hands and went out, Li Jingshen had already packed up the medicine box and put on his pajamas. He stood quietly at the foot of the bed like a wooden man.
Shen Zhichu felt a little cold, so he went straight to bed and covered himself with the quilt: “There is one more thing.”
"What's up?"
Shen Zhichu looked at Li Jingshen's somewhat dim eyes and asked, "Don't you like children?"
Li Jingshen said, "I like it." How could he not like it? He dreamed of Shen Zhichu giving birth to his child.
But Chen Zhichu cannot get pregnant. She may never be able to have children due to her cancer.
"Then you..." Shen Zhichu bit his lower lip and paused before continuing, "Then why did you ask me to take aphrodisiacs this afternoon?"
Li Jingshen lowered his eyes: "That's not an aphrodisiac..."
"No? What is it?"
Li Jingshen couldn't tell the truth. Even though Shen Zhichu said that they would start over and not care about the past, could she really let it go as long as she thought about the past?
He knew how much Shen Zhichu hated him. If he really thought of the past, he would probably stay away from him.
So Li Jingshen didn't dare to gamble and could only continue to make up lies: "That's the medicine you take every night, didn't you notice?"
Shen Zhichu only then realized that they were all small white pills, and she felt a little embarrassed.
"I thought you didn't like the baby I gave birth to?" Shen Zhichu said with some longing. She liked children very much, and both she and Li Jingshen were good-looking, so the baby they gave birth to would definitely be very cute. Shen Zhichu had already thought of a name.
"I think the best thing would be to have a boy and a girl. I've already thought of the baby's names. The boy will be called Jinzhao and the girl will be called Suisui. 'Suisui and Jinzhao' have a good meaning, right?"
Shen Zhichu tilted her head slightly, the soft light shining on her face, beautiful like a painting.
Li Jingshen's mouth was bitter, "Chu Chu, we will not have our own children in the future."
Shen Zhichu suddenly felt like she was splashed with cold water. She asked blankly, "...Why?"
"It's my fault." Li Jingshen's brows were shrouded in sorrow, as if he had something to hide. "I can't..."
Chen Zhichu's pupils shrank slightly, and he felt a huge gap in his heart. It felt like he had finally found a candle in the dark and lit it, but it was extinguished as soon as he saw a glimmer of light.
All the beautiful things she had just imagined disappeared.
"It's okay..." Shen Zhichu said dryly, forcing a smile, "Actually, I'm not the best prepared to be a mother. If you can't have children, we can adopt. I came from an orphanage. When the time comes, we can go to the orphanage and adopt a pair of cute babies. The names will be the two I just thought of. How about it?"
Shen Zhichu tilted her head and looked at him like a lovable cat. Li Jingshen reached out and rubbed her hair.
"Would you like to get a cat first if you stay at home?"
"Is it okay?" When Shen Zhichu's mood was at its lowest, her eyes suddenly lit up at Li Jingshen's words. Her cunning and round eyes like a cat made her look pure and innocent. Li Jingshen could imagine the warm scene of her hugging a cat in the future.
"Of course, if you like."
Shen Zhichu has always liked furry pets and has wanted to have one for a long time, but she never had the chance. Moreover, seeing Li Jingshen being meticulous all day long, she guessed that he might not like it, so she never mentioned it.
"But cats shed, do you really not mind?"
Li Jingshen choked and said, "I don't mind. Someone will take care of the cat's fur."
"Okay then."
Li Jingshen was mentally planning to have someone go to the pet market to bring back a cat tomorrow, while Shen Zhichu had already laid down wrapped in a quilt.
After finishing a bunch of things, she was so sleepy that she looked at the time and it was almost two o'clock.
She murmured softly in a hoarse voice, "The cat's name is Nian Nian, which means there will be fish every year and peace every year..."
Li Jingshen felt a little distressed when he saw her tired look. He stood beside the bed and wanted to go to bed and hold her in his arms but he didn't dare to because Shen Zhichu hadn't asked him to go to bed yet.
Seeing that the lights were still on and there was no movement in the room, Shen Zhichu wondered for a moment what Li Jingshen was up to. She half-closed her eyes and saw that Li Jingshen was still standing by the bed. She asked lazily, "Why aren't you sleeping yet?"
"You didn't ask me to have sex."
Shen Zhichu almost laughed out of anger. He originally wanted to ask him to sleep on the sofa, but the sofa was so small and hard. Thinking of Li Jingshen's injuries, he finally couldn't bear it.
She lifted a corner of the quilt and said, "Come up and sleep."
Li Jingshen's face lit up with joy. He climbed onto the bed and covered himself with the quilt like a cheerful husky, then took advantage of the situation and took Shen Zhichu into his arms.
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