Chapter 366 Shen Zhichu I am sick, can you save me?
"Li Jingshen, you bastard, how have I ever wronged you? I've already given you my life, what else do you want? Do you have to let me die again before you're satisfied?" Shen Zhichu beat and scolded him in his arms. She wished she could bite to death this man who had tortured her for most of her life.
There was a sharp sting on the back of his hand, and Li Jingshen reflexively let go of Shen Zhichu. He took a half step back, staring blankly at the two sharp bloodshot eyes on the back of his hand.
Time seemed to be slowed down. He stared for a moment and then raised his head, first looking at Shen Zhichu's red eyes, then slowly moving his head down to look at the cat in her arms. Both the man and the cat stared at him with hatred, as if his hug just now was an unforgivable thing.
Sometimes words are more hurtful than physical pain. Li Jingshen felt as if his heart was bleeding. Tears kept falling from the corners of his eyes, staining his pale cheeks.
It hurts, it really hurts.
Even when I had lung cancer and was rushed to the emergency room, the pain was not even one ten-thousandth of this.
Shen Zhichu is so cruel, he really has no mercy on him.
In the past, she would feel distressed for a long time when he smoked and coughed, but now he is crying in pain and blood is flowing from the corners of his mouth, but she will not change her expression at all.
He wanted to tell Shen Zhichu that he had lung cancer and was dying.
"Chen Zhichu, my chest hurts so much..." He covered his chest and knelt on the ground, "Chen Zhichu, do you really not want me? Shen Zhichu... Shen Zhichu, Shen Zhichu, Shen Zhichu..."
He repeated these three words over and over, his voice trembling and choking, and his body spasming with pain.
Chen Zhichu held the cat and looked down at him. After a long while, he said, "I never wanted you, so how can you say I don't want you anymore?"
This time, Li Jingshen really couldn't control himself and vomited blood. He covered his mouth and wanted to swallow the blood back, but the blood couldn't stop flowing out, wetting his palms and overflowing from between his fingers, which was sticky and uncomfortable.
Perhaps it was due to excessive stress reaction, the tears in Li Jingshen's eyes flowed more and more violently.
Li Jingshen said in a hoarse voice: "Chen Zhichu... I'm sick..."
Shen Zhichu looked at Li Jingshen spitting blood with a cold gaze. She said in a cold voice: "Sick? How could you be sick? You have always been in good health. I have never seen you sick. It's just spitting some blood. Take some medicine and it will be fine, right? Li Jingshen?"
Li Jingshen listened to the familiar words and his eyes were dazed for a moment.
It turned out that this was what happened. All the harsh words he had said to Shen Zhichu were now rebounding on him. He knew that he was not worthy of Shen Zhichu to be with him again, but he was about to die. His only wish was that Shen Zhichu could spend more time with him to prove that they had really loved each other. But even for this wish, Shen Zhichu refused to give him a chance.
He wanted to tell Shen Zhichu that he was dying, that he only had two years left, that he was really going to die, and that there would never be a man named "Li Jingshen" to bother her again.
Li Jingshen choked up and said, "Chen Zhichu, give me a year to live... Save... Save me..."
"If you want someone to save you, you should find a doctor instead of me." Shen Zhichu looked outside. The wound that had been scarred for three years was now torn open. She thought of the past again. She struggled in despair, wanting someone to save her. The appearance of Li Jingshen made her mistakenly believe that he was the person who could come to save her, but she didn't expect that his arrival would shatter her last candle of hope.
Shen Zhichu carefully considered what Li Jingshen had just said. He said that he was sick and had chest pain, and asked her to give him a year to live.
One year...
Shen Zhichu couldn't understand why Li Jingshen was so obsessed with one year. In her opinion, Li Jingshen was selfish and greedy, and if he caught her, he would trap her for life.
In her previous life, she tried to escape from him many times, but in the end he chained her ankles and locked her in a cage, crippling her legs.
One year would not be enough for Li Jingshen.
Maybe he was pretending to be pitiful in order to let her down her guard. If she was really stupid enough to pity him and agree to his request, something bad would definitely happen in a year.
The blood spitting out of Li Jingshen's mouth did not look fake. Shen Zhichu touched Nian Nian to comfort it, then took out the mobile phone from the bag and called Zhao Qian.
Shen Zhichu picked up the phone almost as soon as it was connected. He didn't beat around the bush and said directly, "Zhao Qian, your boss is vomiting blood. If he is not sent to the hospital, he may die."
Compared to when Li Jingshen coldly watched her vomit blood, what she did could be said to be the utmost in benevolence and righteousness.
She had made her words clear, and without waiting for Zhao Qian to answer, Shen Zhichu hung up the call.
Li Jingshen, who was kneeling on the ground, staggered to his feet. He grabbed the clothes on his chest, leaned forward slightly, his face was as pale as paper, and his lotus-green hair and lips were stained red with blood, making his pale face look even more sickly.
Li Jingshen felt a nagging pain in his chest after listening to Shen Zhichu finish the call. He wiped the blood from the corner of his mouth fiercely, his face full of pain.
"Chen Zhichu, are you really so cruel?"
Cruel? Shen Zhichu laughed out loud when he heard this word. Is this considered cruel?
"Li Jingshen, do you know what you looked like to me before?" Shen Zhichu asked calmly.
"What?"
"It's the stars."
Li Jingshen's heart was filled with bitterness. He always believed that Shen Zhichu loved her. Even if Bai Qiu was not there and she had not recognized the wrong person, Shen Zhichu would still love him.
Chen Zhichu blinked his dry eyes and continued, "I used to think you were a very bright star, but later I felt that one more or one less didn't matter. I only blamed myself for being too narrow-minded and mistakenly thinking that you were my only one. Now I think it's really ridiculous."
Time can really consume all of a person's emotions. No one suddenly stops loving you, it's just that you suddenly discover it.
Li Jingshen listened to Chen Zhichu's words, paused for a moment, and his haggard face lost all its former arrogance.
In fact, the saddest thing is not that she doesn’t like you anymore, but that you clearly got her in the first place, but she gave up on you because of the hurt.
Li Jingshen didn't know what to do with this relationship. What should he do? Who could tell him?
If you are far away, you will feel stranger; if you are close, you will feel annoyance; if there are fewer people, you will feel indifference; if there are more people, you will feel entanglement. Leaving will bring regrets, and staying together will be torture. Love is so difficult.
"I'm going home."
For Shen Zhichu, the shabby little apartment forty minutes away was her home, but what about him... Without Shen Zhichu, he would be a wanderer wherever he went.
Chen Zhichu walked around Li Jingshen from a distance, holding the cat. The sun was shining brightly outside, and she walked towards the light without stopping for a moment.
Li Jingshen was devastated, staring blankly at Shen Zhichu's heartless back.
What he was sure of was that even if he fell to the ground and died vomiting blood, she would not turn around.
He couldn't help but think of Shen Zhichu six years ago. At that time, Shen Zhichu had not yet been diagnosed with stomach cancer. She was obedient to him and always greeted his impatience with a smile. She would prepare three meals a day for him no matter how busy she was. She knew that he had a problem with mysophobia, so his clothes were never passed through the hands of the maids. She washed them by hand, and every time after washing, she would specially use incense to fumigate them and hang them neatly in the closet.
In fact, her health has always been poor, but he never asked about it and never thought about it. She felt uncomfortable when he forced her to go to bed with him, but she never refused. She endured the pain and swallowed the blood.
She is such a strong-willed person, but he always calls her a coward.
Shen Zhichu was not a coward at all, but it was a pity that he realized it too late.
The reason I was so soft-hearted and never refused him before was simply because I still loved him. But now that I don’t love him anymore, I naturally won’t be timid.
Shen Zhichu's figure gradually became blurred in his eyes, and he stretched out his hand and walked forward with unsteady steps.
He didn't want to miss her...but fate was not as he wished.
“Chen Zhichu, Bai Qiujing is not who you think he is. Bai Qiu is dead!”
Shen Zhichu paused and continued to move forward, but his calm heart was still in turmoil.
She was clearly prepared in her heart that Bai Qiujing was not Bai Qiu, but she still felt pain when she heard the "truth" from Li Jingshen's mouth.
It turned out that she had recognized the wrong person at first sight in this life.
…….
Zhao Qian kept watching upstairs until Shen Zhichu called him and then he came downstairs.
He took the anti-cancer drugs and went downstairs to get a glass of water.
Li Jingshen had just been discharged from the hospital and his body was not well yet. He could not bear any hardship.
He stood leaning against the door, the blood on his fingertips had dried, and his body was trembling slightly.
Zhao Qian walked over to him and handed him the medicine. Li Jingshen coughed twice and said, "I don't want to take it."
"You'll die if you don't eat it."
Li Jingshen took the two pills from Zhao Qian's hand with trembling hands and threw them into his mouth.
Zhao Qian handed him the water, but he stretched out his hand to push it away and chewed the medicine and swallowed it directly. He had just vomited blood and his throat felt sticky and uncomfortable, making it difficult for him to swallow it for a while. The medicine did not go directly into his stomach, but got stuck in his throat, and the bitter taste slowly evaporated.
Li Jingshen frowned uncomfortably, his facial features twisted together. It turned out that anti-cancer drugs were so bitter. How could Shen Zhichu, who was so afraid of bitterness back then, take them for three years?
It's too bitter... The medicine slowly dissolved, and the bitterness at the root of the tongue made him nauseous. Li Jingshen couldn't control himself and kept dry heaving, almost vomiting out the medicine.
He covered his mouth, and tears kept flowing from the corners of his eyes.
He didn't do anything, just took some medicine, but he broke out in a cold sweat, his head felt dizzy, and the scene in front of him became more and more blurred.
It was so cold. Besides my body, the coldest part was my heart. It felt like a big hole had been cracked in my ribs, and the cold air was rushing in, freezing my internal organs. My whole body was aching from the cold.
Zhao Qian helped Li Jingshen sit on the sofa with one hand. As soon as he touched the sofa, he collapsed. His tall figure curled up on the sofa, trembling all over.
Li Jingshen was in so much pain that he was dazed. He had handcuffed Shen Zhichu to the balcony before and punished her to kneel on the broken glass for a whole night. Was Shen Zhichu at that time as cold and painful as he was now?
Shen Zhichu is right.
At the beginning, he took advantage of the fact that she liked him, so he bullied her unscrupulously and pushed her further and further away.
He once had everything in Shen Zhichu, but now even if he was dying, she would not look at him again.
Li Jingshen didn't know how much longer he could hold on. The doctor said that he could live for two to three years in his condition. Now, his body was alive, but his heart was dead. He didn't know whether he would die first or go crazy first.
……….
It normally takes 40 minutes to get back to the apartment from Yuyuan, but if there is a traffic jam on the way, it will take about an hour.
Unfortunately, on the way back, Shen Zhichu encountered a traffic jam. The driver was obviously a novice on the road, and he drove the car in a stop-and-go manner, which made his stomach churn.
In addition to feeling a little unwell, Chen Zhichu felt a little carsick. He held Nian Nian in one hand and supported his forehead against the car window with the other.
The driver glanced at the woman behind him in the rearview mirror. Perhaps he felt that his driving skills were a bit poor, and an embarrassed look appeared on his face. He thought about talking to her for a while to improve her favorability so that she wouldn't give him a one-star bad review when he got out of the car.
"Hey, where did you pick up this cat? Why is it all bald?"
“I didn’t pick it up.”
"Did you adopt it from a pet rescue center?"
Shen Zhichu didn't say anything. Because she was not feeling well, her eyebrows were furrowed and her eyes were closed, making it difficult to see her expression.
Seeing that she didn't respond, the driver muttered to himself in front of her: "If you adopted this cat, you made the wrong choice. Look at all the scars on it. It's obvious that this cat has been abused and has many diseases. It won't live long."
Shen Zhichu opened his eyes: "Can you drive properly?"
The driver quickly shut up when he heard her unpleasant tone, but he couldn't help but glance at the cat and muttered in his heart: "It's so ugly."
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