Chapter 505 I am unwilling to love you or give up on you
After hearing that Bai Qiujing was out of danger, Father Bai breathed a sigh of relief and turned his full attention to his wife. He held her in his arms, gently patted her shoulders and rubbed her hair, coaxing her softly, "It's okay, don't be afraid."
Mother Bai hummed softly and was taken to the ICU.
Shen Zhichu looked at the figures of the Bai family and stopped abruptly. Qin Mo looked at her and asked casually, "Don't you want to go in and take a look?"
Shen Zhichu didn't reply to him, but turned his head to meet his eyes and said five words: "Qin Mo thank you."
Qin Mo paused for a moment, then smiled dumbly. "You look a lot like a friend of mine. Not only do we have the same name, we look alike too. But she wasn't as lucky as you... When she was your age, she got stomach cancer. She took medicine every day but was abused by her husband. In the end, she was burned to death, and I didn't even get to see her for the last time."
It's been a long time since it happened, but every time I think of it, I can't help crying. Qin Mo's eyes were already red due to fatigue, and now they were filled with bloodshot, making his face look paler and paler.
Shen Zhichu pursed her lips, but she didn't say what was in her heart. To her, the past self was already dead. To Qin Mo, that Shen Zhichu was also freed in the fire. Now everyone has a new life...
Shen Zhichu was distracted for a moment, then calmed his voice and said, "For her, it's her luck to have you. She can still be remembered by so many people. She suffered so much in her previous life, and God will definitely treat her well in the next life. You don't have to be sad about the past. You have done very well, especially well."
After she finished speaking, her heart twitched uncontrollably. Shen Zhichu smiled, slowly turned around, and took a few steps. Qin Mo suddenly called her from behind.
"Zhi Chu." Qin Mo's eyes were red. He looked at the thin back of the woman. How could they be so similar? Just like before, he felt distressed just by looking at her.
Qin Mo tried hard to suppress his boiling emotions, but his choked voice still leaked out, and he asked uncontrollably.
"Zhichu, are you going home?"
In fact, I already knew it.
Shen Zhichu's lips trembled uncontrollably, and her breathing became heavier. She suddenly remembered that several years ago, Uncle Qin stood behind her and said the same thing.
——"Zhichu, are you going home?"
By that time she had no home.
Shen Zhichu looked back, her beautiful eyes regained their brilliance. The words that came out of her throat after crying were dull. She shook her head gently: "I have found my home again, and I won't go back..."
After she finished speaking, she didn't dare to look at the expression on Qin Mo's face. She moved her stiff legs again and staggered into the ICU room.
Bai Qiujing lay quietly on the bed. The light in the ICU was so bright that even the blue veins under his skin could be clearly seen. He was wrapped in a quilt, and his exposed face was pale as if he had lost blood, and his lips were dry and blue.
Shen Zhichu had never seen him so weak before, as if he had already stepped into the palace of Hades.
Perhaps, Bai Qiujing had already stepped in, but he couldn't bear to leave her, so he turned back with a breath.
The whole family was tired. Bai Qiujing was still in a coma and there was nothing to take care of. They just had to keep an eye on him until the medicine was finished dripping and the blood was restored. Besides, the ICU was not short of care. Nurses would come to check on him at any time, and there were also caregivers in the hospital.
Mother Bai looked at Bai Qiujing distressedly. She turned back and glanced at Shen Zhichu: "Zhichu, you haven't rested for too long. Go and have a good rest. I will hire a nurse to take care of Qiujing."
Shen Zhichu shook her head: "I'm not tired." This was not a lie. It was not that she didn't want to rest, but her nerves were simply unable to calm down, and she couldn't rest even if she wanted to.
"Aunt Li, you and uncle should go back and rest. I'll be fine here."
"But you..." Father Bai was stopped by Mother Bai as soon as he opened his mouth. She shook her head at him.
"Then take good care of Qiu Jing. You should be the first person he wants to see when he wakes up." Just like they had been talking in his ear for more than ten hours, their saliva was dry, but they couldn't resist the voice of Shen Zhichu on the phone.
Bai Wanwan thought the same as her mother: "I haven't showered in the hospital for several days. Now that my brother is fine, I'll go back and shower too. I'll leave Sister Chu here to you. If there's anything, call us. We'll come back tomorrow."
"Yeah." Shen Zhichu stood at the door of the ICU and watched them go. She sighed and turned around only after she saw them enter the elevator and could no longer see them.
Bai Qiujing's lips were originally beautiful, but now they have lost their color and are dry. Shen Zhichu reached out and touched his dry lips, then moistened them with a cotton swab dipped in water.
"Are you stupid? I'll come back to find you after I get the award that belongs to us. Why didn't you wait for me? Why did you have to walk so far to find me? You're such a fool."
No one knew how overwhelmed she was when she heard Bai Qiujing's voice in the noisy crowd and saw his figure in her sight.
But if that was what Bai Qiujing paid for with pain and his life, then she would rather not have it.
Shen Zhichu held Bai Qiujing's hand and rubbed it against his face, his eyes red as he said, "Thank you for loving me so hard, thank you for not abandoning me, thank you for keeping your word..."
Shen Zhichu recalled that year when Lu Tingchuan raised his gun and shot Bai Qiujing in the chest right in front of her.
He fell down at that time, just like he is now, his face was pale and drained of its light and heat.
The whole world was spinning, and she was lying on the ground, with 28 steel needles stuck in her fingers. She wanted to find him, but she couldn't even move her fingers. She could only bite Lu Tingchuan's trouser legs desperately and beg him to give him back to her.
Bai Qiujing was her white moonlight and her lifelong dream. During those more than ten years, there were several times when she couldn't hold on, and she relied on the memory of "the scene of him carrying her home" to get through it.
She recalled being scolded by her father and brother.
She recalled that on the day her grandfather died, the burden of the Shen family fell on her.
She recalled the time when her rivals and shareholders looked at her with strange eyes.
When Li Jingshen treated her coldly and slapped her in the face for domestic violence, she also had memories.
Until she got stomach cancer and had no energy to recall the past, she always wondered whether the big brother she met when she was seven or eight years old, who carried her home on his back and gave her candied haws to eat, was just an illusion?
He clearly said that he would come to find her when he grew up, but why didn't he recognize her when they met?
She also said these things when she mistakenly identified Li Jingshen, and Li Jingshen scolded her for being crazy and having delusions.
I was alone in the quiet ward. The room was so quiet that I could only hear the sound of the medicine dripping. No one disturbed me. As soon as my mind was empty, I couldn't help but think of the past.
Thinking of the joy and sorrow, happiness and pain of those years.
When she found out that marrying Li Jingshen was a mistake from the beginning to the end, it was too late. Bai Qiujing fell to the ground with blood on his chest, and he didn't have time to say more to her.
Just said one sentence.
——"Little crybaby, I can't carry you home this time..." Even facing death, the first thing he thought of was to carry Shen Zhichu home.
Think about why Li Jingshen hypnotized and brainwashed her later. If she woke up and remembered everything... she would follow Bai Qiujingyi to die.
Li Jing knew this very well, so he erased "Bai Qiu" from her memory.
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In a ward on another floor, a TV was connected to the internet, repeatedly playing the live broadcast of Shen Zhichu from seven hours ago.
In the video, Shen Zhichu stood on the stage and announced her retirement from the entertainment industry. She used her own way to prove to him that no one could stop her and Bai Qiujing's relationship. Even though the reporters and netizens around her asked all kinds of unpleasant questions, thinking that she had harmed Bai Qiujing, she still did not show any retreat or weakness.
Li Jingshen once praised Shen Zhichu for her beautiful eyes, but then her eyes suddenly dimmed, and now... He could see that Shen Zhichu was very tired, but her eyes were still bright and full of hope, and the source of this hope was not him, Li Jingshen, but belonged to another man.
Until Bai Qiujing appeared behind her, she lifted her skirt, broke through the crowd, and threw herself into the man's arms without hesitation.
Li Jingshen couldn't describe how uncomfortable he was feeling. He only knew that he was in pain, the kind of invisible pain that turned into needles piercing his whole body. He wanted to pull them out, but when he moved his hands, he couldn't even see where the needles had penetrated him. He was powerless to struggle and the pain was excruciating.
He understood that a cup of hot water did not cool down suddenly.
Watching the two of them hugging each other on the screen, Bai Qiujing's public declaration of "fiancée" instantly shattered all his psychological defenses.
He lost before he had a chance to prove himself, but he was unwilling to accept it... He really was unwilling to accept it.
Shen Zhichu, before he had the chance to possess her, he felt like he had lost her thousands of times. He was unwilling to love her or give up on her.
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