Chapter 557: Don’t look back after Shen Zhichu leaves. I’m afraid I can’t help but snatch the marriage.
But is life only about suffering? No, life is full of hope and can also squeeze out some happiness.
It’s hard to say whether Li Jingshen’s memory is good or bad now. Sometimes he is so good that he can clearly remember a small thing from a long time ago, but sometimes he is so bad that he forgets where he put his phone in the blink of an eye.
He actually remembered Shen Zhichu's affairs most clearly, probably because he thought about them a lot.
When people can't sleep at night due to insomnia, their brains can't help but recall bad things from the past. Some people feel so embarrassed that their scalps go numb, while others feel so painful that they clench their fists and scream.
It was difficult for him to think of happy things, but when he thought about it carefully, there was nothing happy worth thinking about in his life.
Shen Zhichu was willing to stay with him, not because of their old relationship, but because of his threat.
Now that the threat is gone, she naturally leaves without looking back.
He had used countless methods to keep Shen Zhichu, such as locking her up at home, threatening her with her relatives, tying her ankles with chains and locking her in a room with surveillance cameras all around her to keep an eye on her at all times, and indirectly breaking her legs and trapping her in a wheelchair.
He can keep a person, but he cannot keep a person who is determined to die.
He was so crazy and cruel. Whenever he was scared and thought about his past self, he couldn't help but break out in a cold sweat, his back would go cold, and he couldn't sleep all night.
Think about it, he and Shen Zhichu had been entangled for so many years. During the four years when Shen Zhichu had just married him, it was the time when he was most likely to fall in love with Shen Zhichu, but he wasted the time and ended up in a life of unfulfilled desire.
Li Jingshen thought he could make amends. As long as he changed his bad habits and treated others sincerely, he would be treated with empathy.
But reality is cruel after all. Shen Zhichu fell in love with someone else, the person she should have loved from the beginning.
Thinking of Shen Zhichu's gentle expression when she spoke to another man, her soft tone, lying in his arms, cooking for him, and wearing a wedding dress for him.
When he thought about Shen Zhichu transferring all the kindness he had once given him to another man, an inexplicable dull pain suddenly collapsed from his heart.
He thought about those scenes blankly, and the pain from his heart continued to spread to every corner of his body, even his scalp felt numb.
If I had known this would happen, I wouldn't have done it in the first place. This was said not only to Shen Zhichu, but also to himself.
Shen Zhichu said: "I hope you are alive. If you are alive, the sufferings of this world will not let you go."
When Li Jingshen heard Shen Zhichu's words, his expression changed slightly: "Then I will assume that you want me to live."
The topic of "life and death" was a bit too heavy, so Li Jingshen changed the subject, "Today is Christmas Eve."
It was dark, and all the lights in the villa were on, even the lights in the storage room were on. If you looked from the outside, you would find that this was the brightest place, and you could see it at first glance from a distance. The various colored lights installed these days had not yet taken effect, and the night outside was illuminated by street lights.
Li Jingshen asked: "Chen Zhichu, would you like this kind of wedding without me?"
Shen Zhichu shook his head: "Li Jingshen, you really don't seem to have tried to understand me. You think that my love is just your imagination, and you force your thoughts on me. Other women may be moved by such preparations, but I won't."
Her favorite wedding is a Chinese-style wedding, and her favorite color is not white but red. She wants to wear a red veil and a wedding dress and wait for the person she loves to pick her up.
Li Jingshen's eyes showed loneliness, not even a bit warmer than the weather outside.
The heater was on inside, so Chen Zhichu didn't feel cold even though she was wearing a wedding dress and barefoot. However, after sitting for a long time, she felt a little uncomfortable with the heavy wedding dress pulling on her.
This wedding dress doesn't belong to her, and it feels like handcuffs and shackles when she wears it.
Fortunately, she will be able to take it off and leave soon.
Shen Zhichu stood up and said to him, "Li Jingshen, thank you for handing your weakness over to me. If it weren't for these things, I might not have been able to get out so quickly. I don't care about anything you give me. As long as I and the people around me are fine, I guarantee that the Li family will be fine too."
After all, Shen Zhichu was too kind. Li Jingshen smiled lightly: "You now have control over the important documents of the Li family. You can completely swallow them up. The Li family is now more valuable than the Bai family. You can save decades of hard work."
"I'm not you. I've learned my lesson and know that what's mine is mine, and I won't take what's not mine. Even if I lose this money, I can still do it." Shen Zhichu lifted the hem of her wedding dress and threw it behind her, then stretched her legs.
Li Jingshen lowered his head to glance at his watch. At this moment, he heard the sound of a car driving outside and paused.
Shen Zhichu also heard the noise outside, but she didn't take it seriously. Many people came here in the past few days, including workers and doctors, so it was not surprising to see a car approaching.
Li Jingshen suddenly said: "Thank you for jumping into the water to save me on Christmas Eve." He had only said this until now. He had always owed Chen Zhichu a "thank you". He had repaid the life he owed Bai Qiujing when he blocked the bullet that day, but he could never repay Shen Zhichu's debt.
Speaking of the past, Shen Zhichu also said: "I didn't know it was you who fell into the water on Christmas Eve that year, so I would have saved you even if it was someone else."
What Shen Zhichu didn't know was that her unintentional act of saving someone had amazed Li Jingshen for many years, and the corners of Li Jingshen's mouth rose slightly.
"Chen Zhichu, I'll give you one last gift." As soon as the words fell, there was a "click" sound, as if the current was cut off, and the surroundings fell into darkness.
Chen Zhichu was a little afraid of the dark. Her heart skipped a beat but she quickly calmed down. She tried to breathe and calm herself down, with her hands crossed on her chest. This was a self-protective and defensive mentality, and she didn't feel very safe.
She didn't know if it was because she was too nervous, but Shen Zhichu felt that the surroundings were too dark. She adjusted herself for several seconds but couldn't see clearly. It was dark and silent, so quiet that she could hear her own heartbeat.
Li Jingshen seemed to have long been accustomed to the darkness, and accurately found Shen Zhichu's position. He stretched out his hand in her direction. At this distance, he could definitely reach her and pull her into his arms for a last hug, but he didn't, and his outstretched hand fell down.
He counted down silently in his heart.
10, 9, 8, 7... 4, 3, 2... The colorful lights from inside to outside began to flash one by one, and a white light swept vertically from the carpet to the outside.
A car stopped outside the door at some point. The door opened and Bai Wanwan came out first, followed by Bai's mother. Bai's mother bent over and helped Bai Qiujing out of the car. The driver also got out and pushed Bai's father who was sitting in a wheelchair.
All four members of the Bai family came here to take Shen Zhichu back.
For a moment, Shen Zhichu thought she was hallucinating. Her eyes were red and itchy. She resisted the urge to rub them, fearing that if she did, these people would disappear from her sight.
She just pinched the back of her hand lightly. It hurt, but it wasn't a dream.
Suddenly, Shen Zhichu regained consciousness. His heart, which had been warm just a moment ago, was suddenly filled with fear. Why were the Bai family members here? Did Li Jingshen threaten them with something again? Or did they exchange something to appear here? Was there a trick or a trap?
In just a few seconds, Shen Zhichu thought of a lot of things, even explosives. She remembered that many workers had come here to renovate recently, and they brought in boxes of all sizes without showing them to others, with labels indicating that they were flammable.
Shen Zhichu tried to open his mouth to say something, but his throat seemed to be blocked by a sharp stone at this time. He couldn't utter a single word. It was stuck there and even breathing was a little difficult.
Shen Zhichu just looked over with a pale face, meeting Bai Qiujing's pale face and deep, warm eyes.
Her eyes ached inexplicably as she recalled the phone calls and text messages Bai Qiujing had sent her.
The distance between them was less than thirty meters, but she felt that there was a huge distance between them.
Li Jingshen lowered his eyes and smiled aimlessly, but this smile was like a cold knife in Shen Zhichu's eyes.
Shen Zhichu's vigilant expression undoubtedly made the scar on Li Jingshen's heart worse. It was bleeding and painful, and he could hardly control his coughing. Recently, every time he coughed, he would cough up blood.
Li Jingshen raised his hand and placed his cold palm on Shen Zhichu's head. This was the first time they had been so intimate in all these days.
Shen Zhichu's alert heart calmed down instantly. She felt the gentle warmth on her forehead and watched Li Jingshen open his lotus-green lips and utter a few words hoarsely.
"This is my last gift. I'm giving you freedom." He put down his hand, placed it on Shen Zhichu's back and gently pushed her.
Shen Zhichu staggered forward two steps. She looked straight ahead, then glanced back at Li Jingshen at a loss, her eyes changing from suspicion to disbelief.
"Chen Zhichu, I'll let you go. Remember to keep going forward... don't look back." He was afraid that if Shen Zhichu looked back, he would not be able to resist snatching the bride.
"Chu Chu." Bai Qiujing called out from the opposite side.
Shen Zhichu finally moved. Her thoughts were in a mess and she didn't know what she was doing. She walked forward barefoot, and the soles of her feet didn't feel cold at all when they stepped on the carpet.
Her thoughts were so confused, but one thing was clear: she couldn't stop here. She lifted her skirt and walked out step by step. The diamonds on her skirt reflected the colorful light, like stars.
Li Jingshen stood behind her, looking at Shen Zhichu's back with red eyes. He pushed her away with his hand still stretched out in the air without falling.
Pushing away the person you love most is like tearing your heart in half.
The warmth of Shen Zhichu's hair still lingered on his fingertips. He seemed to have briefly touched his "sun" and then returned her to the sky that belonged to her.
He owed Shen Zhichu a grand wedding, a suitable ring, a wedding dress, two children, a lifelong companionship, a lifetime of love, and now someone had given it to her on his behalf.
His reluctance eventually turned into willingness.
"Chen Zhichu, I love you." Li Jingshen spoke. His voice was not loud, and it just blew into Shen Zhichu's ears with the cold night wind.
When he talked about the things between him and Shen Zhichu, he felt full of regret, but when he thought about them, he felt deep love.
Even though he knew that he and Shen Zhichu would no longer have any connection in the future, he still couldn't help but want to tell her over and over again how much he loved her.
"Chen Zhichu...Chen Zhichu..." He called her name, wanting her to look back at him, but at the same time not wanting her to look back.
He was afraid that she would look back, so he really couldn't bear to let her go.
As he said, Shen Zhichu did not look back, but walked towards Bai Qiujing with firm steps.
"Bang——" The fireworks rose and the Christmas Eve fireworks bloomed.
So this is what it feels like to lose someone. Seeing her and Bai Qiujing hugging each other, it felt like all the ribs in his chest were pulled out. Li Jingshen seemed to have lost his strength and could only stagger to find something to support himself. He clenched one hand tightly and covered his heart with the other hand while coughing, each cough becoming more heartbreaking than the last. Blood dripped onto his black suit, and in the dim light, it seemed to be fading away.
Li Jingshen looked up at the fireworks in the sky. Tonight's fireworks were no worse than those on New Year's Eve.
As the sound of fireworks continued to ring out, hot tears continued to flow from the corners of Li Jingshen's eyes. The tears fell into his mouth and tasted bitter. He choked and said in a hoarse voice:
"I wish you a happy wedding and a long life together."
Li Jingshen closed his aching eyes. It was such a pity that he lost the love of his life in the last moments of his life, and he personally sent her to the arms of another man.
He remembered what Bai's mother had said to him in the teahouse that day.
"Depth of Field, the Li family's cold gene can be changed. In my eyes, interests are not as important as people. I am willing to exchange all the Bai family's property for Zhichu. Please return her to us."
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