Chapter 559: Accepting Defeat
"Li Jingshen, I wish you a safe and sound life, with the warm sun in winter and the gentle breeze in summer. May you have a bright future, be free from illness and disaster, meet your soulmate, and grow old together... From now on... we will never see each other again, and may you be safe and sound forever..."
Not all mistakes deserve to be forgiven, and of course... not all mistakes need to be held in grudges.
May you be safe every year.
When Chen Zhichu said he let go, he really did. In the end, she didn't hate him or curse him.
He met his true love and grew old together. But his true love doesn't want him anymore...does he still have time to grow old together?
The night wind was getting colder and colder, and it felt like needles pricking his body. It penetrated into his body through his pores, making it feel as if all his internal organs were frozen. Li Jingshen knelt on the ground, watching the figure in front of him gradually disappear.
He curled up on the ground like a wounded trapped animal, licking his wounds alone.
It was not known how long had passed before Li Jingshen slowly took a deep breath. He awkwardly propped himself up, his feet becoming stiff from kneeling on the ground for too long. When he stood up, the numbness from his calves instantly took over his legs. He crawled back to the rocking chair where Shen Zhichu had sat before.
The fireworks in the sky were still being set off, and they lasted for a full half hour. In addition to the fireworks, he also prepared firework sticks. He took them out and lit them, and they looked like blooming dandelions.
Li Jingshen took it in his hand and looked up at the starless sky. The fireworks burned out, leaving only darkness.
——Maybe this life is the next life you prayed to meet in your previous life.
The person you failed to cherish, the person you have been torturing, the person you once despised, may be the person you wanted but could not get in your previous life and you silently beg God to get in this life.
So don’t talk about meeting someone in the next life. If you can cherish someone in this life, cherish them well.
Chen Zhichu was able to come back because he was greedy. He still wanted to use various means to keep her by his side, like using a hook to catch a fish, a cage to lock a bird, and a kite to keep the string.
When Shen Zhichu died, he went crazy for a while, always feeling that she was still by his side, alive in front of him.
But now… he really felt that Shen Zhichu had disappeared, disappeared from his life.
The moment of losing the one you love most will not be heartbreaking, on the contrary it will be very calm. Then one night after the calm, you will find that you cannot fall asleep, and you will stay up until six in the morning when the breeze blows across the windowsill.
When I thought about having no future with that person, a huge feeling of emptiness instantly surrounded me, my heart ached suddenly, and tears filled my cheeks unconsciously.
Li Jingshen sat in the rocking chair all night, with countless burnt-out firework sticks on the ground. Watching the sun rise over the horizon, Li Jingshen closed his eyes and tears rolled out. He cried louder and louder, like a child who had lost something important for the first time.
Li Jingshen cried with tears streaming down his face, coughing up blood with his mouth open, and felt a burning pain in his throat.
Not only did his throat hurt, his chest also hurt, his hands were shaking with pain, and even his scalp was aching from the cold. Even though his whole body was in so much pain that he was numb, he still felt pain, especially the left side of his chest, which seemed to have been stabbed, leaving a hole. The cold wind blew in, freezing his internal organs. He hunched over, and besides the fireworks sticks in his hand, he also had the "wish list" in his arms.
More than twenty wishes were ticked, the paper was wrinkled and crumpled into a ball by him. It was obviously finished and there were no regrets, but he still felt empty in his heart.
He bent over, took out his cell phone from his pocket and made a call.
Five seconds after the phone rang, the other party picked up the phone and it was silent.
Li Jingshen paused, his voice hoarse: "Zhao Qian, I finally understand what you said, loving someone does not necessarily mean you have to be together... I waited for her again, but missed her. She married me for four years, and I waited for her for six years, as if it was only for the intersecting tracks to reconnect, and watch her be happily with someone else." After saying this, he sighed, and his mouth became more and more bitter.
There was still no sound on the phone, but Li Jingshen knew that Zhao Qian was listening inside.
Now, only Zhao Qian is willing to be the listener, patiently listening to him talk over and over again.
"Zhao Qian, come back. You don't need to do those things anymore..."
Zhao Qian, who had been silent the whole time, finally reacted after hearing this. He said, "Okay."
He was the one who hired someone to retaliate for the accident at the amusement park, he was the one who paid someone to loosen the brakes, he was the one who sent the text message to Shen Zhichu, he was the one who told her that Li Jingshen had advanced lung cancer, and he was the one who "threatened" her.
Zhao Qian has followed Li Jingshen for too long. Apart from the fact that Li Jingshen is his boss, the two of them are more like friends and relatives. If you count, the person who has followed Li Jingshen for the longest time over the years is not Xia Mingyue, nor Chen Zhichu, but him.
Li Jingshen did a lot of stupid and bad things, but if he hadn't been indifferent and watched, and deceived him for his own benefit, perhaps this result would not have happened.
Li Jingshen was dying. He was diagnosed with lung cancer and it was he who took him to the hospital. As the lung cancer progressed from the middle stage to the late stage, Li Jingshen gave up treatment and relied on taking medicine to survive, living one day at a time.
Zhao Qian wanted him to live, but "living" was not something that could be achieved just by thinking about it. His condition was serious and death was only a matter of time.
At least... let him be happy during this time, Zhao Qian thought, he couldn't do it, only Shen Zhichu could do it.
But it is impossible for Chen Zhichu to return to Li Jingshen.
The only other option left is to wait for Li Jingshen to figure it out himself.
Unfortunately, Li Jingshen was stuck in a dead end and couldn't get out. He couldn't figure out whether he could let go of Shen Zhichu.
That day, Zhao Qian and Li Jingshen had an argument. Li Jingshen wanted to drive him away, and he did leave. He also thought about leaving. He had worked for so many years, and if he left Li Jingshen, he could find a job that was easier to take on.
But when he thought about how Li Jingshen couldn't let go until his death and died in depression, he decided to help him.
Therefore, he designed a series of events, without intending to kill anyone, but just wanted to scare Shen Zhichu.
Having followed Li Jingshen for so many years, he not only understands Li Jingshen but also Shen Zhichu.
It is impossible to make Shen Zhichu come back on her own initiative by using soft tactics. Even if she kneels down in front of her until she dies, she may not even look at her. The only way is to use the old methods as in the past, threats and intimidation.
Things turned out just as he thought, proceeding step by step according to the plan. Even after Shen Zhichu went to Li Jingshen, Zhao Qian did not let go and continued to pay the detective a high price to inquire about the situation at any time.
Li Jingshen always knew that it was Zhao Qian who did this, but he didn't say anything or explain, allowing Shen Zhichu to misunderstand.
He knew that everything Zhao Qian did was for his own good.
Let him understand that if he keeps Shen Zhichu by his side, it will never be possible for him to achieve what he fantasizes about, and Shen Zhichu will only hate him more.
He also understood that letting her go was the best option.
I finally understood what Zhao Qian once said.
Loving someone doesn’t necessarily mean you have to be together.
Compared to him, the Bai family was a better choice. At least they had no interests in giving up Shen Zhichu. When Bai's mother used all the Bai family's property to exchange for people, from that moment on, Li Jingshen knew that he had lost the bet.
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