Chapter 576 I want a home, a warm home for her
After Li Jingshen's death, the single noble ladies in J City lost someone to fantasize about. The women who once regarded Li Jingshen as their dream lover would gradually find their next happiness. The appearance of Li Jingshen was like a subway that was missed. It only stayed briefly in their lives and then left quickly. Many years later, two or three good friends gathered together and talked about his young face that was stunning at first sight.
Someone said, "Li Jingshen."
No matter how unforgettable a person is, compared to the vast universe, death is like a shooting star, which flashes quickly and becomes a speck of dust in the universe, so small and pitiful.
Some people remember, and some people forget.
Li Jingshen is a powerful figure in the business community of J City. With such achievements at such a young age, he has a bright future and is bound to become a "legend" in the future.
In the past, Zhao Qian often complained that Li Jingshen was a scoundrel, stubborn, conceited, bad-tempered, and only knew how to exploit his employees. But after seeing the string of numbers on his salary card every month, he couldn't help but sigh that he was a good boss.
People are contradictory. Some are really bad, some are really annoying, and some are admired from the bottom of their hearts. Li Jingshen is very powerful. People around him habitually regard the powerful Li Jingshen as a "god", but what they don't know is that he is also cowardly and inferior, and can also be selfish. He will escape when he encounters something he is helpless about, and he will go back on his word. He will also go around in circles in unsolvable problems, and bleed for a result. Gradually... he gradually loses himself in this colorful world.
A question often asked online: Are rich people happy?
The answer is, the happiness of rich people is beyond your imagination.
Do rich people like Li Jingshen live happily?
Some people spend their money and lose their love, some work hard all their lives just to buy a house, taking a salary of four or five thousand yuan a month, being abused by life and society, and some live on the streets and can't even get enough to eat.
Life is filled with worry, fatigue, resentment, and pain. No one can be completely happy, but in the face of death, the worries and pain of life become less severe.
The same goes for resentment.
Shen Zhichu no longer harbors any resentment towards Li Jingshen, so will she miss him? When she thinks of him, will she feel sad or smile uncontrollably?
When young people are deeply in love, they always think that love will last forever, but they don’t know that the next sentence after forever is that it will end someday.
When Shen Zhichu wanted to marry Li Jingshen, she really loved him. It had nothing to do with childhood memories. People are always attracted to outstanding people.
And with the blessing of that "memory", Shen Zhichu was able to love Li Jingshen for so long, so long that she had been drawing blood for the person he liked for four years, so long that she could endure the stomach disease until she developed stomach cancer, so long that she could not tell him that she was dying and did not want to show any of her weakness, so long that even after the Shen family was gone, all she wanted was to part ways and live happily ever after.
At that time, Shen Zhichu was somewhat mean. She had never been satisfied by love, so when she was extremely lacking in love, she would be extremely nostalgic for anyone who had given her even a little bit of love.
People always think of the bright side, what if he is moved by her? Facts have proved that she only moved herself.
Shen Zhichu is not irrational and cannot distinguish right from wrong, but he is too stubborn and longs for love. He can live rationally, but love can make people happy...
Li Jingshen once told Shen Zhichu that he liked her eyes.
She simply ignored the word "eyes" and thought he fell in love with her.
Until I saw Xia Mingyue, I realized that her eyes were so similar to Xia Mingyue's.
——"Li Jingshen, how about we try to get married?"
"Stop it, I have someone I like."
——"Is it the one called Xia Mingyue? Listen to me, she is not suitable for you."
"I owe her my life. I promised her I would marry her."
——"Did you marry her because you loved her? Or because she saved you?"
At that time, Li Jingshen looked deeply into Shen Zhichu's beautiful eyes and said, "I like it."
Shen Zhichu didn't want to know about the things between Li Jingshen and Xia Mingyue at all, because she would be jealous, sad and uncomfortable, so she didn't ask and he didn't say.
Shen Zhichu only said one sentence: "I will prove that Xia Mingyue is not suitable for you. The person who can be with you should not stand behind you for protection, but stand beside you and be your equal."
At that time, Shen Zhichu was conceited and proud, and then he made the first mistake in his life. He took 50 million to test Xia Mingyue. Xia Mingyue chose 50 million and left. Just when she thought she had won the bet, Xia Mingyue had a car accident.
Li Jingshen found her and asked her to save Xia Mingyue.
Shen Zhichu said: "She arranged the car accident herself. She originally wanted to put the blame on me."
"Do you have any evidence?"
Shen Zhichu had no evidence, and the only witness had escaped. What could she say to make Li Jingshen believe it? No one would risk a life and destroy their uterus to cause a car accident. Besides... Li Jingshen loved Xia Mingyue so much at that time. Xia Mingyue's life was in danger and she needed blood urgently. What could she say to make him believe it?
“You are saying this now only because you don’t want to save her, Shen Zhichu, is it so difficult to save a life and draw some blood?”
"Okay, if you want me to draw blood to save Xia Mingyue, you must do so only if we get married and you become my man."
At that time, Li Jingshen's brain was a little confused because of nervousness. After listening to Shen Zhichu's words, disgust appeared on his face. He looked into Shen Zhichu's eyes and said, "Okay, let's get married. Don't regret it."
Do you regret it?
Yes... She regretted it. Not only did she not win the bet she designed, but she also gambled her entire life away.
If I had known it would be so heartbreaking, I would have never met you in the first place.
After Shen Zhichu died, she heard the voice of the gods, who asked her if she would accept the chance to live her life again.
She replied that she didn't want it.
Being reborn in the past would not change anything for her. Her pretended pride was gone. She was still the "enemy" who was born without a mother and was hated by her father and brother.
She knew clearly that her appearance would only bring misfortune to everyone. If she had not appeared, her mother would still be alive, her parents would be loving, her brother would get what he wanted, and her grandfather would not be so tired and would not die of stomach cancer.
What about Li Jingshen? Li Jingshen is still Li Jingshen. Maybe he will marry Xia Mingyue, but his life has nothing to do with her.
There is no point in her returning to the past.
She shouldn't ask for so little love, why is she so obsessed? Isn't it better to be an ordinary person? Even if she has never been satisfied by love, she has plenty of money and can still be "happy" in the world of feasting and drinking.
But that kind of Shen Zhichu is not the real Shen Zhichu. He has lost himself and is in a daze. But compared to the pain of his previous life, it is much better... much better...
Be content with what you have so that you won’t regret the past.
Shen Zhichu and Li Jingshen have been entangled for most of their lives, and the pain added up exceeds the life of an ordinary person, or even longer.
Shen Zhichu never thought that she would cry because of Li Jingshen's death.
For the regrets of past misunderstandings, for themselves, for the past that has been let go, for the short-lived love they once had, for using the wrong methods, and for the wrong life that should not have been communicated with.
When I hated him the most, I wanted him dead but he didn't die. Now I don't hate him anymore, but he's gone.
——"Li Jingshen, stop smoking."
——"Li Jingshen should smoke less."
——"Li Jingshen, smoking is harmful to your health. I bought you some smoking cessation candy. Do you want to try it?"
"I told you not to smoke before, but you insisted on smoking. Do you really think I was harming you?" Shen Zhichu said self-deprecatingly with tears still on his face.
Li Jingshen's smoking was just like her not eating and having an irregular diet. His stomach problems slowly turned into stomach cancer. He knew it was bad for his health but still didn't change. The result of chronic suicide was his real death.
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When Li Jingshen saw Shen Zhichu, he thought her eyes were beautiful and familiar, as if he had seen them somewhere before.
Later I discovered that her eyes looked very similar to Xia Mingyue's.
He had a preconceived notion. Although he had known Xia Mingyue earlier, he never thought that Shen Zhichu's eyes looked like Xia Mingyue's, but that Xia Mingyue's eyes looked very similar to Shen Zhichu's.
On January 22nd, Shen Zhichu and Bai Qiujing got married.
Li Jingshen watched the live video of the two of them and cried heartbreakingly.
When Shen Zhichu said the oath to the witness, he couldn't help but think of their past.
He could still vividly remember what Shen Zhichu had said to him, as if it had happened yesterday.
She said: "Li Jingshen, the person who is suitable to be with you for the rest of your life is me, Chen Zhichu."
Yes, she was the one who was right for him for the rest of his life. He was the one who lost her first, so she didn't want him anymore in the end.
In relationships, hurt is inevitable. The deeper the love, the heavier the hurt. If you can get through it, you will be transformed. If you can't get through it, you will fall into the abyss. Late sincerity is thinner than paper and cheaper than a mosquito.
God is watching what we do. If we do wrong, we will be punished. God will not let anyone who does bad things off.
During the four years that Shen Zhichu was married to him, the people she sent the most text messages and made the most phone calls were all asking him.
——"Li Jingshen, are you going home today?"
Go home... I want to go home... He has always wanted a home, and now he has it so early...
Why didn’t you “go home” at that time?
She has been waiting for you to come home?
I want to go home, I really want to go home.
If there really are gods, if there really is an afterlife, if he has another life, can we give him another home?
"I want a home, and I also want her to be a warm home. Is that too greedy?"
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Li Jingshen's inheritance was transferred to Shen Zhichu's name. It was a huge sum of money. Even if it was divided into three parts, it was the largest amount she had ever seen. This money was enough for the Li family for several lifetimes.
Zhao Qian asked her to pass the share to the Bai family, and she brought it to Bai's mother.
Bai's mother was stunned for a long time when she looked at the will. It was like when a person has experienced some kind of blow and his soul has temporarily left his body. He feels that what he sees is not real.
Shen Zhichu relayed what Zhao Qian and she had said.
Bai's mother gradually reacted and asked, "What are you going to do with this money?"
Shen Zhichu said without thinking: "Donate to the government, build roads and bridges, provide relief to poor areas, donate to orphanages, build schools..." There are many places where it can be used.
Mother Bai pushed her will in front of her towards Shen Zhichu: "Let's go together..."
(Listen to this chapter, JJ Lin's I Still Miss Her, it's super touching.)
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