Chapter 674: Suspicion is a disease that even the Virgin Mary cannot cure
Shen Qing stared out the window. The doctor said that she should look at green more often, which would be good for her eyes.
The cherry blossoms outside bloom and wither all night long. They come quietly and leave quietly, as if they had never appeared.
At ten o'clock in the morning, the sunlight shone in from the window, and a beam of light fell on the bed. Shen Qing stretched out his hand, wanting to catch that beam of light, but light...how could a person catch it?
Shen Qing doesn't like the night, but only at night does that ray of light appear so dazzling. But if light is just light, giving hope but not taking any action to redeem, then is that light a sin?
Now Shen Qing no longer looks forward to the light. She was born in darkness and is accustomed to despair.
Lu Tingchuan had the wound on his forehead bandaged simply in the hospital and then came to see Shen Qing.
He deliberately revealed the gauze on his head, wanting Shen Qing to pay attention to him, but Shen Qing had never looked at him directly since he came in.
As it approached noon, the sunlight outside became increasingly dazzling, and the light reflected through the glass windows was extremely blinding. Shen Qing was still staring out the window, and Lu Tingchuan went over to close the curtains, worried that she might hurt her eyes.
"Shen Qing, I know you won't be able to forgive me no matter what I do now, but you have to know that there is no parent who doesn't love their own child. If I knew that the child was mine, I would definitely not do this..." Lu Tingchuan knelt on one knee beside the bed, reached out and held Shen Qing's cold hand, his voice almost pleading.
"I was so furious at the time. Seeing you go to such lengths for Jiang Yiming, I felt so angry and heartbroken. I was holding you while you were unconscious. Do you know what Jiang Yiming said? He said the child you were carrying wasn't mine!"
He was suspicious by nature. When he knew that Shen Qing and Jiang Yiming lived together, proposed to each other, and were called husband and wife, how could he not have any doubts?
Plus Jiang Yiming's ambiguous words.
——"Lu Tingchuan, what if I say that the child in Shen Qing's belly is not yours?"
Hearing this, his already confused heart became even more agitated, and he had no time to think calmly. When he arrived at the hospital, the doctor changed the diagnosis and said the baby was five months old instead of six months old.
In addition, Shen Qing's condition was critical at the time and the doctor repeatedly emphasized that forcibly saving the child might result in two deaths.
The anger and tension had already made him panic and numb, making it impossible for him to pay attention to the details of the matter.
In fact, if Lu Tingchuan were given another choice, considering the possibility of "one corpse, two lives", he would still let the doctor save the adult and lose the child. He did not regret aborting the child. What he regretted was not trusting Shen Qing, stuffing their child into the specimen instrument, and pressing Shen Qing's head to look at it.
Suspicion is a disease, a disease that even the Virgin Mary cannot cure. What else can Shen Qing say? She couldn't even breathe. She just felt depressed and uncomfortable in her heart, as if she was about to die.
After closing her eyes for a moment, Shen Qing looked up at her flat stomach. "Lu Tingchuan didn't expect you to still be shirking responsibility at this time. You don't even dare to admit your mistakes. What right do you have to beg me to forgive you?"
"I admit my mistake and I apologize." Lu Tingchuan's eyes were red. He took two heavy breaths and spoke reluctantly, "But I'm not the only one who made the mistake. I want to make amends too. I will kill the doctor who operated on you. What do you think?"
He asked the last few words carefully, his eyes fixed on Shen Qing, trying to find different emotions on her face.
However, Shen Qing didn't react at all. With her disfigured face, she stared at Lu Tingchuan silently for a moment and said, "You're the one who deserves to die. If you want to make amends, go ahead and die."
Lu Tingchuan staggered back two steps under her cold gaze.
"I won't die. Our future is still very long. I won't die at this moment." He and Shen Qing hadn't even started yet, so how could it end?
Lu Tingchuan was very sad, and the saddest thing was that he couldn't express this sadness.
Future? Does she still have a future?
Shen Qing: "Lu Tingchuan, I don't want to see you again."
Lu Tingchuan saw that Shen Qing's eyes were starting to turn red again. He turned and walked to the door. He wanted to open the door and leave for a while, and then come in after Shen Qing calmed down a little. He put his hand on the door handle, but found that he couldn't open the door.
Lu Tingchuan didn't want to leave. After his hand stayed on the door handle for a few seconds, he suddenly turned around, walked two or three steps to Shen Qing, lifted her chin and kissed her mouth.
Shen Qing's lips were very dry, almost chapped. He kissed her so roughly that she could taste blood.
He was reluctant to leave Shen Qing and didn't want to go. He wanted to stay by her side and watch over her all the time.
During the more than half a month that Shen Qing was in the hospital, he had been with her, staying by her side and rubbing her hands and feet whenever he had time. He seemed very close, but in fact he was so far away.
He was so afraid that Shen Qing would never wake up again. Now that she finally woke up, the first thing she did was to drive him away.
How could Shen Qing be so cruel? They have been together for so long.
He still remembered that it was Shen Qing who fell in love with him first. How could she just say she didn't like him anymore after liking him for so long? And she wanted to marry another man?
After a brief pause, Shen Qing's eyes showed disgust. He opened his mouth and bit Lu Tingchuan's mouth. The smell of blood in his mouth became stronger and stronger.
Lu Tingchuan was unwilling to let go even after a piece of flesh was bitten off. He was worried about hurting Shen Qing's face, so he carefully supported the back of her head with both hands and deepened the kiss.
He hadn't kissed Shen Qing for a long time, so long that he almost forgot how close they had once been.
Lu Tingchuan wanted to eat her alive, chew her up bit by bit and swallow her into his stomach. Then, this person would not try to leave him in any way.
"Pa--" Shen Qing raised her hand and slapped Lu Tingchuan hard. The slap she gave with all her strength was just a tickle to Lu Tingchuan.
However, this slap brought Lu Tingchuan back to his senses. He looked at Shen Qing and didn't recognize him for a moment.
The once "rabbit with red eyes" now looks like a wolf covered in blood.
"Lu Tingchuan, you are a lunatic!"
Lu Tingchuan wanted to tell her that he had gone crazy a long time ago. For her, he and his grandfather made a decision. For her, he even gave up such a big Li family. For her, he gave up the goal he had been fighting for for twenty years.
Lu Tingchuan didn't say anything in the end. He just smiled nonchalantly and said, "During the time you were unconscious, I said I would take you to the prison to see Doctor Su. Do you want to see him?"
"What do you want to get from me?" In Shen Qing's heart, Lu Tingchuan would not be nice to her for no reason. He would not give her something and then take it from her. Shen Qing thought carefully about what else on her body was worthy of Lu Tingchuan. After thinking about it, she only had one life, but what Lu Tingchuan didn't want most was her death.
"I said I want your heart, will you give it to me?"
"If you want, dig it out with a knife."
Lu Tingchuan explained: "You know that's not what I meant..."
Shen Qing said sharply: "I don't know, and I don't want to know."
Lu Tingchuan was yelled at so hard that he was speechless. He just lowered his head, like a student being scolded by the dean.
Shen Qing was too lazy to even look at him. She felt sick just by looking at him. She felt irritated for no reason, her eyes were hot, and she wanted to cry but couldn't. It seemed as if all her tears had already fallen.
"Where are my children?"
"I'll have someone bring it here."
After Lu Tingchuan knew that the child was his, he asked someone to take the child back from the specimen area and send him to the crematorium to be burned into ashes.
Shen Qing was malnourished when she was pregnant, and the baby also did not get enough nutrition. The six-month-old baby looked like a five-month-old baby, floating in a small ball in the glass container.
After burning, the ashes are only a small handful, not much.
Shen Qing didn't expect that when she saw her child again, only a handful of ashes were left. The little ashes were placed in a small blue and white porcelain vase.
When Shen Qing saw the blue and white porcelain vase, his heart was touched and he knew what was inside.
She didn't even have the chance to look at her child a second time before he turned into ashes.
Shen Qing gently stroked the bottle and said in a hoarse voice: "Baby, mommy finally picked you up."
When Shen Qing was in the hospital, he kept holding the urn and wouldn't let go. He took it with him wherever he went, whether he went for a walk or to eat, he even held it when he slept. It looked very weird no matter how you looked at it.
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