Chapter 519 You are the least worthy one
Li Jingshen didn't listen to what Zhao Qian said. He stood up, opened a drawer, took out a pack of cigarettes and a lighter, and regardless of Zhao Qian's dissuasion, he forced himself to light a cigarette and put it in his mouth.
He hadn't smoked for a long time. When he smelled the smoke again, he couldn't adapt and started coughing violently, and the cigarette was stained with blood.
The cigarette fell from his mouth to the ground, and the flickering firework finally went out and turned into a layer of ash, imprinted on the clean floor.
Zhao Qian's voice came from his ears, but Li Jingshen didn't hear a word he said. He watched Zhao Qian hurriedly get the medicine and handed him a glass of water. Li Jingshen raised his hand and knocked the glass of water to the ground. He leaned on the armrest of the sofa and stood up tremblingly with the strength of his hands. His legs were shaking and shaky, as if he would fall to the ground if someone hit him lightly.
When Zhao Qian saw Li Jingshen like this, he would think of Chen Zhichu, who was also suffering from a terminal illness and suffering from stomach pain. Chen Zhichu was even worse off than Li Jingshen.
At the very least... Li Jingshen wasn't forced to kneel in the pouring rain, didn't suffer a miscarriage, and wasn't falsely accused or humiliated...
The pain Li Jingshen is feeling now is not caused by anyone torturing him, but by his own delusional expectations.
commit a sin.
Zhao Qian is Li Jingshen's assistant and work partner. It is neither reasonable nor moral for him to abandon Li Jingshen.
Seeing Li Jingshen standing there swaying, he walked over and supported him: "Boss Li, where are you going?"
"I'm going to the Bai family, to find Bai Qiujing and Shen Zhichu..."
"So what if I find it?"
Li Jingshen suddenly couldn't answer. His head was too heavy and his vision was black and white.
"Boss Li, have you ever thought that your feelings towards Miss Shen stem from your reluctance to let go of the past?"
Yes, he just didn't want to accept it. Li Jingshen met Zhao Qian's gaze, but didn't know how to start.
It was the first time that Zhao Qian stared at him with such a cold look, which made him very puzzled.
"What do you mean?"
Zhao Qian let go of Li Jingshen, placed his hands vertically on his thighs, and said in a calm and composed manner, "You are just disappointed in yourself for losing control of her. You are used to being possessive. You say you will let Miss Chen go, but when have you ever let her go? You always break your promises time and time again, which is why Miss Chen keeps her at a distance."
Zhao Qian decided that even at the risk of being fired, he would speak out what was in his heart.
Li Jingshen pressed Shen Zhichu so hard that Shen Zhichu felt uncomfortable, and so did he. When would this mutual torture end?
Sometimes Zhao Qian didn't understand what Li Jingshen was thinking. He had worked with him for so many years, but it seemed that he had never seen through this person.
He said that he wanted to see Bai Qiujing's choice for Shen Zhichu's sake, but he couldn't stand seeing the two of them actually together.
Like a trapped beast on its deathbed, it let out its last useless wail.
Zhao Qian is also a man in his thirties and is still single. He used to have some ideas about love, but now he keeps his distance from it because after witnessing the relationship between Li Jingshen and Shen Zhichu with his own eyes, he was afraid.
Even he, a bystander, was afraid, so how could Shen Zhichu, who had suffered so much pain, not be afraid?
Chen Zhichu is not a cheap person, and he is not the kind of person who would go back to his ex, not to mention that this ex-girlfriend is covered with thorns and hurts his heart.
Otherwise, why are those involved in the matter confused while bystanders can see things clearly? Zhao Qian finally understood it, but Li Jingshen didn't. He needed someone to scold him and wake him up.
No one else dared, only Zhao Qianlai could do it.
Zhao Qian didn't dare to really curse, he just told the truth.
"Mr. Li, you don't really have to have Miss Shen. Didn't you live well during the three years she was away? Now that she's back and you're pestering her, have you ever considered that it's just your habitual possessiveness towards her, and that you might not love her that much?"
This was the first time Zhao Qian said such words. Li Jingshen's face was gloomy and his breathing was cold. After a long while, he said: "I love her... I know very well that I love her..."
"Mr. Li, please wake up. Can you call that love?" Zhao Qian took two steps back, putting some distance between him and her. He spoke word by word, "Think about all the things you've done in the past. You forced her to do things she didn't like, and now you've caused something bad to happen to the person she loves. You see her sad, heartbroken, frightened, anxious, and crying. Is that love? Mr. Li, love isn't about possession. It's about letting go and tolerance..."
Li Jingshen: "But they don't deserve it!"
"You are the one who is least worthy. How long can you live with your advanced lung cancer? If you really love Miss Chen, you should find someone who can take care of her and accompany her for the rest of her life, instead of driving away everyone around her one by one. Even if Miss Chen forgives you and reconciles with you, what will happen? Can you accompany her until old age? After you die, have you ever thought about what will happen to her?"
"I never thought that I could accompany her until old age..." Li Jingshen's eyes were hot and his face was cold and uncomfortable.
He did like to make decisions on his own, and many people didn't understand, even Zhao Qian, who had always followed him.
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