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Xiao Li was very tired, the weariness seeping from the soles of his feet into his skin and bones. The moment he made his bed and lay down in his clothes, he sighed, "Comfortable..."
"It's a bit too luxurious." Xiao Li smiled bitterly. He had been sleeping in the wild for the past few years, covered with a hard, dirty quilt and relying on the body temperature of his comrades for warmth. He had forgotten how long it had been since he had slept in a bed and covered himself with a soft and thick quilt.
He never imagined that one day quilts would become a luxury for him.
"One sheep~two sheep~three sheep~I can't sleep!" Lying on the clean hard bed, covered with a new army green quilt, Xiao Li, who was originally too sleepy to open his eyes, suddenly lost all desire to sleep.
The sound of enemy artillery fire from afar was no longer in his ears. When he opened his eyes, he found that there were no familiar comrades around him to rely on. Xiao Li felt a little lonely.
The deep sleep he longed for didn't happen. Instead, it felt like countless ants were crawling all over his body, making his breathing become a little rapid...
Nine o'clock in the evening.
"Comrade Xiao Liu."
A hurried voice came from inside the room. Liu Mianli, who was standing guard outside the door, heard it and asked through the door, "Captain Xiao, what can I do for you?"
"Is there any wine? I want to drink."
"This..." Liu Mianli thought he could let the day pass peacefully, but he didn't expect that Captain Xiao, who had said he wanted to sleep, would wake up and clamor for a drink. He was a little hesitant for a moment, "Captain, our army has regulations that prohibit drinking."
"Military regulations: Soldiers are strictly prohibited from drinking alcohol. Those who seriously violate the rules will be dismissed from the military." Xiao Li's voice came from inside the room again. He had no intention of embarrassing Liu Mianli. He shouted to the outside, "I know all this. I'm so upset I can't sleep! Go ask your leader and see if they can make some concessions."
"Even a bite is fine!"
Liu Mianli didn't dare to make a decision on his own. After thinking it over, he trotted to the regiment commander's office. At this time, several soldiers were standing in the office and reporting the situation to him.
"Report!"
"Come in." The team leader seemed a little surprised to see Liu Mianli coming over, and asked directly, "Are you here for some wine too?"
Liu Mianli felt that his captain was amazing. He rubbed his head, gave Captain Wang a thumbs-up, and grinned, "Captain, you already knew what I was doing before I even told you. You're truly amazing!"
"Get lost! Stop messing with this useless shit." Captain Wang pointed at the soldiers standing nearby and continued, "See these people? They're all just like you. Tell me honestly, what's Comrade Xiao Li's current condition like?"
"Ah~" Liu Mianli then realized that the people standing in the regiment commander's office were all soldiers like him, standing guard for the frontline soldiers who were not injured and were locked up in the small dark room in the army.
These people said they were standing guard, but in fact they were observing the enemy, fearing that they would become too bloodthirsty on the battlefield and behave uncontrollably after returning.
"Commander, Captain Xiao is fine. He's in good spirits. He said he was going to sleep when he got in, and nothing happened since then. He just woke up suddenly and said he couldn't sleep and was clamoring for a drink."
"Gone? Nothing has changed?"
Liu Mianli looked at the regiment commander as if to ask if he had omitted something. After thinking carefully, he said, "To be more specific, I initially thought that Captain Xiao was just like what was written in the newspapers, a well-mannered and cultured man. But I just discovered that Captain Xiao is just like the regiment commander..."
He kept calling me "I" and even cursing my mother.
Wang Tuanzi understood. He pointed at Liu Mianli angrily and was speechless for a long time. He felt that sooner or later he would be driven to death by these incompetent Mo Xiaobing bastards. He waved his hand and said, "Forget it, go to the logistics department and get a few bottles of wine. Keep a close eye on them for the next few days. Report any problems at any time."
"yes."
After getting the wine, Xiao Li opened it and took a few gulps very boldly. Under the numbness of alcohol, he fell asleep soon.
In a deserted forest, Xiao Li thought he saw a mad wolf. He kept chasing it, running and running. The two of them ran under a big rock. He produced a box of dumplings from nowhere and said, "These dumplings are fresh from the pot. Eat them while they're hot."
Mad Wolf took the dumpling and ate it in two or three bites. After finishing it, he burped, patted his belly and smiled with satisfaction: "I haven't eaten dumplings since I came to this godforsaken place. You are so good that you can even get dumplings. They are really delicious."
"Hey, this is something I captured from a group of American soldiers after I killed them. I couldn't bear to eat it myself, so I'm giving it to you. How about I treat you well?"
"Hey~ These American soldiers are eating our Chinese dumplings."
"Of course not, let me tell you..." Xiao Li hadn't finished speaking when he saw the person who was eating dumplings and talking to him just now fell silent, "Mad Wolf, Mad Wolf?"
He stretched out a finger and placed it under the mad wolf's nose. Still no breath, the person who had been alive just a moment ago had turned into a pile of bones...
"W-why?"
"Don't you know that you can't eat the enemy's food on the battlefield? Those things are all coated with poison..." Why did you still give it to him?
Yeah, why.
At this moment, the person lying in bed sleeping soundly opened his eyes quietly. Thinking of the scene in the dream, the last line of defense in his heart jumped. Xiao Li covered his eyes, and tears flowed uncontrollably...
Mad Wolf is dead, killed by his own hand grenade.
Since when, the death of Mad Wolf has become an untouchable wound in Xiaoli's heart.
If you touch it, you will hurt...
Feeling a little uncomfortable, he stood up and wanted to walk to the window to get some fresh air. After taking two steps, he found that he was dizzy and wanted to vomit, and his body was becoming more and more uncomfortable.
"What a great guy!" Xiao Li always thought that he was a strong and carefree person, and he would not suffer from the so-called "post-war syndrome" like other comrades.
He even felt that the army shouldn't have locked him up, but in the following days he found out that he was wrong, extremely wrong.
During the day, he seemed normal, and even the army doctor couldn't find anything wrong with him. But in the dead of night, as soon as he closed his eyes, those images, those sounds, those lost lives would reappear in his dreams...
Xiao Li couldn't sleep.
War seems like a huge monster that will distort all normal people, drive them crazy and pervert them. No matter what the original intentions of the people who participated in it were, as long as they participated, it was over.
"It's over..."
Xiao Li knew that he was sick and had serious mental problems.
He didn't talk about his situation with anyone, but from that day on, Xiao Li became more and more talkative. He wanted to try to adjust his mentality in his own way.
When he was free, Liu Mianli would chat with Xiao Li at the door. When the soldiers were resting, especially the new recruits who had never been to the battlefield, they especially liked to chat with Xiao Li and other soldiers who had just come down from the battlefield. They were full of idealized ideas about the battlefield.
"Captain Xiao, I also wanted to go to war. At that time, I even imitated others and wrote a blood oath to ask for battle. Later, our squad leader called me in and scolded me."
"Why do you want to go to the front line? Aren't you afraid of death?"
"Of course they want to defend the country and make great achievements. We join the army to fight, so if there's a war to fight, of course we have to actively participate."
"Yes, as long as we fight bravely on the battlefield, maybe we can become a general or something in the future."
Xiao Li curled his lips. He had thought so before. He simply believed that as long as he went to the battlefield and earned military merits, he would be able to become a superior person in the future. But when he really entered the real battlefield, he found that all the illusions were shattered by reality. The cruelty of war was far from as simple as people imagined.
"Once you're on the battlefield, you'll have to face blood and death. You could be shot at the next second. Your comrades might be talking to you one minute and killed the next. They might tell you to pee one second and be blown to pieces by a grenade not far away the next."
"With a loud bang, your comrades were blown to pieces," Xiao Li said, even making a flower-shaped gesture with his hands to describe the scene of the explosion. He then continued, "Their limbs, organs, or other body parts will hit you. The warm blood might just drip onto the corner of your mouth, and you might even subconsciously lick it."
"Do you know what the blood of your comrades tastes like?" Xiao Li licked the corner of his mouth with his tongue, and smiled sinisterly at the young soldiers around him. He deliberately lowered his voice and said in a hoarse voice: "Do you want me to tell you?"
The violent aura that erupted from Xiao Li in an instant scared many of the new recruits around him so much that they retreated one after another.
They knew that this kind of violence could only be possessed by those who had actually been on the battlefield.
Xiao Li is usually approachable and has a very deceptive face. As long as he restrains his hostility and does not hurt anyone, no matter from which direction you look at him, you will think he is just a weak scholar.
The new recruits all knew that he came from the battlefield. The veterans also said that among this batch of returning volunteers, Xiao Li seemed harmless but was actually the most dangerous. If he got out of control, the consequences would be unimaginable.
At first they still remembered what the veterans said, but as they communicated with Xiao Li, they gradually forgot what they said.
The Xiao Li they knew was harmless and kind, and everyone liked to gather around him and ask him questions. Who would have thought that he, who was so low-key, actually had such a strong sense of hostility.
At this moment they suddenly remembered what the veterans said, Xiao Li is dangerous!
"What? Are you scared now? I haven't finished speaking yet." As Xiao Li spoke, the aura on his body slowly subsided, and he turned back into the thin man who looked harmless and would fall down at the slightest breeze.
"This... Captain, are we just going to let Comrade Xiaoli act like this?" Not far from Xiaoli and the others stood Captain Wang and the military doctor who was responsible for Xiaoli and the others' psychological condition.
"Nonsense, this is absolutely nonsense. Commander, this is not good for the soldiers' psychology. What if..." What if these recruits are scared to death and become afraid of war in the future!
"These new recruits have been very restless recently. It would be good for them to hear more about what's happening on the battlefield." This would save them from having nothing to do all day and having to send blood letters to his office every day.
He was not sent to the battlefield this time, but these new recruits were even more anxious than him, clamoring to go to the battlefield and die every day!
"But didn't you realize that Captain Xiao was just trying to scare them?" The violent aura that filled the air just now was so intense that not only were the new recruits frightened, but even he was shocked.
"Everything Xiao Li said is true. How can you be so intimidating? Do you think there is any point for Comrade Xiao Li to stay here any longer?"
"Comrade Xiaoli seems to be in very good condition, and I didn't find any problems when talking to him. It's just that..." Compared with other soldiers, his condition is too good, which makes people feel a little uncomfortable.
The military doctor hesitated, then gave up. Perhaps he was overthinking it. "But isn't it a bit early to release him now?"
"Since there is no problem, let him go." Going home early on leave can save the old leader from calling over and over again to give instructions on work.
In this way, after being locked up in the small room for 7 days, Xiao Li finally passed the test and was released.
"This military doctor's skills are not up to par. He needs to continue his studies."
Xiao Li, who was released, was filled with frustration. He wondered if he had behaved too well, which was why the military doctor misdiagnosed him as "mentally healthy, without any psychological problems."
In short, he is in a very complicated mood now.
"Forget it, let's take it one step at a time!" You can't just run to the team leader's office and tell others that you are sick. That would be the real sickness.
I'm sick but I dare not speak, Xiao Li is worried...
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