Chapter 223 Bad Luck
Song Jinxiu was speechless when asked this question. He had never paid much attention to this illegitimate sister, and indeed had never cared about her past, but he was still puzzled.
If Song Qin had been exiled and the Song family had no future because of ignoring the resentment, why did she still want to kill him?
Song Jinxiu looked at her: "I know that the family has treated you badly in the past, and Third Uncle has shown little kindness to you, but he is your father after all..."
"But I never wanted this father."
Perhaps it was the first time she said these words to someone, Song Ru's eyes were a little complicated.
She looked up at her brother who used to be so high and mighty. Seeing his puzzled expression, she suddenly understood why her sister hated him so much.
He is too self-righteous.
I have never put myself in other people's shoes and thought about them.
Song Ru's face was filled with sarcasm. "Brother, you are the eldest son of the Song family, the eldest grandson that grandmother loves so much. You were born into this world with everyone's expectations, but I wasn't. What I heard most since I was a child was my father's complaints and abuse."
"He thinks I'm not presentable, that I'm untalented and unattractive, that I'm just like my lowly mother, who ruined his career and became a stain on him. He thinks my mother died, but I'm the only one who survived."
"But what did I do wrong? What did my mother do wrong?"
The little girl was thin and weak, and her words were very soft, but every word pierced the heart.
"My mother's family suffered a disaster, and to survive she had to go to Yanliu Lane to sing. But she was a prostitute, and she was different from the women there."
"She saved money, hoping to redeem herself and leave the capital in the future, start a small business, marry a man who wouldn't mind her past, and become his legitimate wife. But she met Song Tan instead."
"It was clearly Song Tan who forcibly took my mother. He was drunk and foolish and was caught red-handed. To protect his reputation and silence the gossip, he forcibly took my mother into his family."
"My mother was used as a pawn by a political enemy of the Song family. He used my mother's dying father to force my pregnant mother to have sex with him, turning his beastly behavior into a romantic affair seduced by a prostitute."
"My mother was notorious and died with only a straw mat. But he is still the third master of the Duke's Mansion, living a life of luxury. Why should he live a good life?"
Song Ru has always been timid and cowardly. She dares not speak, dares not talk back, and even dares not look people in the eye. She is like a mouse hiding in the dark, hiding herself desperately in order to survive.
But maybe it was her sister who gave her courage, or maybe she didn't want to endure it anymore.
Song Ru was exceptionally calm as she spoke of those events. "When I was little, I never understood why Song Tan would never even glance at me, even though we were both children of the Song family. It wasn't until I was filled with admiration and wanted to call him "Daddy" like Song Yuanzhi did, but he slapped me in the face and pointed at me, a five-year-old, saying that a lowly creature like me wasn't worthy of calling him "Daddy" that I realized I was different from everyone else in the Song family."
"After that, I couldn't hear clearly for a long time. This offended the old lady, who was rarely kind-hearted. She had me beaten up again and said that the Song family didn't have a lowly person like me. She said I was as lowly as my mother. Then I was bedridden for another three months."
She looked at Song Jinxiu's gradually pale face and chuckled. His little face was very well-behaved, with a pointed chin and big eyes. He didn't look like Song Qin at all.
"When I was little, I was ignorant and was beaten over and over again. Later, I learned my lesson and was beaten less often. I would just go hungry and sneak into the kitchen to warm myself in the residual heat of the stove when I was cold. I would just get sick and then, like an indestructible bug, I would fight to survive."
"Later, I ran into the man who had been with my mother in Yanliu Lane. Only then did I understand why Song Tan hated me so much. Because as long as I was alive, he would have to face his own beastly past over and over again. Because as long as I was alive, he would remember my mother, whom he had killed, and the fury he felt when he was mocked for his one-night stand."
"He's the Third Master of the Song Family, a noble of the Duke's Mansion. How could he be wrong? The only ones who are wrong are my mother, that whore, and the bastard she gave birth to who shouldn't have been alive..."
"Aru!"
Song Jinxiu suddenly let out a low cry, his face turning pale after hearing the word "bastard".
He wanted to say that it was not like that, that she was not as embarrassed as she said, but when he looked at Song Ru's big eyes, which were clearly black and white, his throat was dry and he couldn't say a word.
He never knew these things. He only knew that his third uncle did not like this illegitimate sister and that her background was not so glorious. He only knew that Song Ru was timid and did not like to appear in front of others.
He rarely saw Song Ru in other places in the mansion. She was not seen during the holidays. Even if he asked about her, his uncle would just say "Don't bother with her" and send her away.
"You...can come to see me..." Song Jinxiu's voice was hoarse.
"I looked for it."
Song Ru laughed. "That year, on my brother's birthday, I came to you with a gift I had carved with great difficulty. You gave me a jade ring and casually gave the little tiger I carved to Song Yuanzhi. As a result, she fell and scratched her head on the wood carving. The Third Madam punished me by making me kneel in the yard for two days and two nights."
"Then you came to look for Song Jinnan and passed by the courtyard and saw me kneeling as punishment. Song Jinnan said I had hurt Song Yuanzhi, so you frowned and scolded me, telling me to keep the sisters harmonious and not cause trouble, and then you left with Song Jinnan."
Song Ru's smile was particularly glaring: "You are the precious legitimate son, and I am a filthy bastard. If I go looking for you, I will pollute your eyes and dirty your place."
Song Jinxiu's throat was churning and his face turned paler. He wanted to say something, but he felt that whatever he said would be wrong.
He vaguely remembered that he had indeed seen her kneeling as punishment. The little girl tilted her head back with tears in her eyes, looking extremely pitiful. But Song Jinnan said that she had hurt Song Yuanzhi, so Third Aunt punished her to kneel for a while.
He didn't know that the so-called little kneeling lasted for two days and two nights.
"I don't know. If I knew..."
"What if you knew?"
Tang Ning looked at Song Jinxiu, who seemed to be hesitant to speak and was on the verge of collapse, and felt that it was unlucky.
Every time he would just say that he didn't know, but even if he knew, what could he do? Would he punish Song Yuanzhi and the others for Song Ru, or would he quarrel with the third room for a concubine's daughter?
All he would do was to give her a few words of advice, and then gently persuade Song Ru to endure the grievance and keep the peace, just like he had done to him and Song Shulan in the past.
His heart is biased.
Tang Ning looked at Song Jinxiu with a mocking look: "Sir Song has always been aloof from worldly matters, but isn't it a little funny that Sir Song is talking about blood relationship with Aru?"
"You can even send your parents and relatives into exile, stepping on them to stay in the court. Aju is just using some silver to buy off this blood relationship. In terms of cruelty, she is not as cruel as you, Lord Song."
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