Cloud Girl Chapter Eleven
Undeniably, an unexpected and wondrous situation occurred to Xu Xiaomeng.
Because of the drama troupe's activities, Xu Xiaomeng realized that his life, which had never intersected with Chen Nanyi's, seemed to finally have some potential for development.
This is quite gratifying.
Xu Xiaomeng has always been an optimistic and positive person. Although he is somewhat sensitive and fragile by nature, the way of dealing with things that his mother has carefully nurtured for more than ten years has made him grateful for this sudden "arrangement" from heaven, which has made up for his shortcomings.
Otherwise, he would never have been able to get close to Chen Nanyi in his entire life.
That's exactly what Xu Xiaomeng least wanted to see.
The situation is alright now; at least he knows Chen Nanyi, and there's still a possibility of further development.
This made him realize that perhaps this unrequited love wouldn't necessarily end without a trace.
After realizing this, Xu Xiaomeng, like a young girl experiencing her first love, secretly found out about Chen Nanyi's class and ran around the playground at the foot of Tu Luo Mountain every day, just to create some so-called "chance encounters".
Xu Xiaomeng had persisted for most of the semester, but one day, while he was pretending to exercise, the teacher called him over to help record the race results.
When Chen Nanyi's name was called, he looked up nervously, only to see a strange girl.
He was stunned for a moment, but after that, a strange anger welled up inside him.
He didn't know why, and he wondered if she had some reason for asking someone to take the exam for her, but he just couldn't help feeling disappointed.
He had assumed she was also the kind of meticulous, genuine, and perfect person...
But that incident made him realize that she might not be as good as he thought. Perhaps she was just like the other girls he knew, two-faced...
This terrible idea inevitably causes distress and hesitation in people who were originally determined to dedicate themselves entirely.
Because of this incident, Xu Xiaomeng quieted down for a while and stopped appearing frequently around Chen Nanyi.
He then began to struggle with himself, reflecting on his life and getting caught up in an exaggerated thought—whether to continue to follow his mother's teachings or to go along with her life.
He also suffered from insomnia at night, instead of waking up early as usual.
He started thinking about the past, present, and future—things that happened to himself and others—and even frantically recounted his experiences with Chen Nanyi…
Excessive thinking makes those who are not very brave to begin with timidity even more timid and suffer from mental anguish.
The worst part is that he didn't even dare to muster the courage to change his mind.
He felt incredibly selfish, judging the people he loved by his own standards.
But he couldn't convince himself to ignore this problem—he feared that if he backed down, everything he had previously insisted on would gradually fade away.
If things were to fall to that point, would he still be the same person?
However, no matter what Xu Xiaomeng had gone through, in Chen Nanyi's eyes, who always lived alone, this person always looked exhausted from overworking her brain and did not attract her attention.
After all, Chen Nanyi didn't like interacting with people, and she always felt that Xu Xiaomeng seemed to have some ulterior motive towards her—although it was later proven that the ulterior motive was indeed there.
But at the time, she was completely unaware of her own charm, so even if she guessed a little, she was completely in the wrong direction.
Thus, the awkward scene became that the two of them were like two animals guarding their own territory.
As soon as Xu Xiaomeng made a move, Chen Nanyi would be on high alert and ready to act.
When Xu Xiaomeng remained motionless and did nothing, she had no particular thoughts.
After all, she didn't know his true intentions; everything was just speculation. In any case, as long as Xu Xiaomeng didn't take the initiative, they would remain at peace.
Chen Nanyi is good at enduring loneliness.
Such a solitary life might be very difficult for others, but it was nothing for Chen Nanyi.
For the first ten years or so of living alone in the dark corner of that villa, she survived entirely on the world in her mind, so she didn't like anyone intruding into her world—it would be best if Xu Xiaomeng herself "knew when to back down," which would be a blessing for her.
What followed was that, because each college had a different schedule, and Chen Nanyi had specifically applied to live at home and didn't participate in any other club activities, coupled with Xu Xiaomeng's deliberate avoidance, they didn't see each other for quite some time.
When Chen Nanyi saw Xu Xiaomeng again, it was a month later in the lobby of Tu Luo Hospital.
It was quite a coincidence that Xu Xiaomeng had just finished playing badminton on the playground at the foot of Tu Luo Mountain that day—he didn't even realize that coming here had become a habit.
On his way back, he met Yao's sister, Grandma Yao, who was on her way to the city hospital for a check-up.
When Xu Xiaomeng first signed up for the one-on-one assistance program in Tu Luo Community, it was because of Chen Nanyi. Although she was now considering backing out, and Sister Yao didn't really need help, Xu Xiaomeng still packed up and accompanied her to the hospital.
As they entered the city hospital, they saw Chen Nanyi walking by with her head down and a sorrowful expression.
Xu Xiaomeng tightened her grip on Grandma Yao's hand without realizing it, but Grandma Yao called out to her, "Hey, Nan Yi!"
Chen Nanyi seemed to be in a mess. She stopped, looked up slightly at them, and greeted them in a daze.
Sister Yao asked, "What are you doing here?"
Chen Nanyi touched her nose and coughed lightly. "Uh, Yijing... is sick, but it's not serious, just a fever. I came to the hospital to pick up her medicine. Um... I'll be going now."
Chen Nanyi, never one to speak much, nodded slightly to Sister Yao, ignoring what Sister Yao was saying halfway through—"Hey, wait for me then, I just need to get the medicine. We can take the last bus back to the community together later, I have..."
Chen Nanyi turned and left hastily before listening to what Yao Jiajie had to say.
This seemed both impolite and rude to Xu Xiaomeng, making her even more dissatisfied, as she already felt the woman was being perfunctory.
Even though he knew he shouldn't be so harsh on her, he still felt he had misjudged Chen Nanyi and had no idea she was so rude!
Perhaps that's just how people are; they only see everything in the world based on what they think in their own hearts.
Previously, Xu Xiaomeng would have thought that this was a graceful refusal that Chen Nanyi could do but he couldn't, but now she felt that this action was unusually cold.
He had actually thought about it. According to Chen Nanyi's way of thinking, why would she stay to accompany the last bus when she was about to leave?
But perhaps Xu Xiaomeng's knowledge and reason are ingrained in her bones. Although she can understand, she still finds it hard to agree. How can someone, no matter how sad she is, no one owes her anything, and how can she project her emotions onto others, ignoring them so completely and so carelessly?
After offering some words of comfort to the somewhat dazed Yao, he helped her into the hospital.
Concealing the sadness in his eyes, he decided to give up on this unrequited love that was no different from his own.
Unaware of this, Chen Nanyi walked along the crowded street, watching the video continuously playing on the large television screen, with a constant stream of cars around her.
The bustling and lively atmosphere made the colors of the entire sky bright and eye-catching.
It was just a beautiful and unique afternoon in the world.
Chen Nanyi felt as if she had fallen to the bottom of an abyss.
She has always been a sensitive and upright person, and she believes that she has many beliefs and a strong sense of justice, so she has never done anything wrong in her life and will never do anything wrong.
She could bear the hardships she had endured before, considering them as lessons learned.
But why must she suffer this misfortune again after finally making it this far?
Life always seems to play these kinds of jokes, doesn't it?
Once upon a time, her father—a kind and gentle father who seemed perfect in every way in front of others—forced her mother to give birth to her because he was childless in middle age. This caused her mother, whose health was already poor, to remain weak even after several years of recuperation.
Moreover, her health deteriorated further when she gave birth to Chen Yijing.
Her mother was nearing the end of her life and was about to die, which is why Chen Yijing was born with a mental disability and was disliked by others, just like herself.
But her father doted on Chen Yiwen.
Indeed, compared to her younger daughter, Chen Yiwen is more sensible, more outstanding, and more presentable; she is worthy of love and is presentable.
Her mother, because her eldest daughter was pampered by her father and her second daughter was capable of taking care of herself, cherished Chen Yijing even more—after all, her youngest daughter's situation was more pitiful and heartbreaking…
Even if I continued to live in that neglected state, that would be one thing.
But what about now?
Just when she was about to gain freedom and independence, her heart, her whole world, had already been scarred by her unscrupulous father and her exhausted mother—even so, it was only mental anguish.
But this time, it was real; she couldn't alleviate the pain.
Her blood seemed to have been permeated by a force from the depths of the earth from the very beginning, until it gradually consumed the flame of her life through her ruptured heart.
She had always lived her life very earnestly and diligently, upholding her beliefs in solitude, and earnestly following her mother's last wish to take good care of Chen Yijing—she had thought that this was how her life would end.
But what the doctor said at the hospital shattered her already strained will to live.
"You were born with a weak heart, it's already very good that you've held on until now until it flared up..."
"If surgery isn't performed soon, not only will the colic worsen, but it could also jeopardize your life..."
Unable to bear thinking about those terrifying words, Chen Nanyi wandered aimlessly through the streets, filled with utter regret.
If I had known my lifespan was so short, I would have preferred to die of a heart attack on the road when I was young, so I wouldn't have had to worry about so much.
She was already worried about Chen Yijing's condition, but now she had to spend even more time and energy on this extra matter.
Even now, the words the doctor said to her still feel somewhat vague.
Because those words seem to have no meaning at all, only serious in their literal sense, but everything they represent has a great significance, a significance so great that it can overturn life.
For a naive young girl, that would be enough to destroy the world.
I recall that I've disliked physical activity since childhood because of some unknown cause of asthma and discomfort.
Therefore, she always subconsciously avoids strenuous exercise and does things slowly and methodically—for fear that one day she might suddenly experience a sharp pain in her heart and be unable to breathe.
She did try to talk to someone about it, but after talking to someone once and being scolded and bothered the second time, she never talked to anyone again.
So many things happened afterward, but she always held onto the idea of raising Chen Yijing well, and struggled to keep going. It was alright with her not-so-healthy body, and she thought that the dawn was in sight, but she never expected that such a bad thing would happen.
Although Chen Yiwen is indeed her older sister, they are far apart in age and have never been close.
It's already so difficult to even pay for Chen Yijing's medicine, let alone such a large sum of money for her surgery.
Strictly speaking, if it weren't for Yi Jing's health, Chen Nan Yi, who felt even laughing was unnecessary, wouldn't have kept her head down, joking and asking Chen Yi Wen for pocket money.
If it were her, she wouldn't even have the desire to speak.
I couldn't help but look up at the sky, trying hard to hold back the tears that were about to fall.
Chen Nanyi really couldn't understand why, in such a prosperous city, the encounters between people were so unpredictable.
Why doesn't she deserve even the slightest bit of happiness?
A chilly wind whistled through the street corners and transparent glass buildings, seeping into the depths of countless mountains and forests, disappearing into the silent, over-civilized atmosphere and the spiritual essence of the mountains.
A series of crisp coins rang out. The old beggar raised his cloudy eyes, squinted at the piercing sunlight, and stared for a long time before he noticed a girl in long clothes and trousers disappearing into the flowerbed around the corner.
That day, Chen Nanyi walked back to her community from the city center with tears streaming down her face.
It's truly remarkable that even in such a sorrowful state, she still remembered which side of the road had fewer people and which side had more, prioritizing her own reputation.
The dense forest world, like a huge green mist covering the sky, is accompanied by rising smoke and drifting wind, and some faint sounds falling.
With a gentle sway, the leaf swirls in an arc before gracefully falling.
Unfortunately, those fallen leaves, which are romantic in the eyes of lovers and dreamy in the eyes of children, were disturbed little by little by her with sadness.
Mini-Theater: Baozi's Educational Episode
Xu Xiaomeng said earnestly, "Baby, you have to study hard and not skip classes. Only then will you be able to earn money to support women in the future, you know? Do you know how much money every woman needs?"
Little steamed bun (⊙o⊙)??
Xu Xiaomeng ( ▔, ▔ )ㄏ, “See, you don’t understand, huh? Okay, let me explain it to you. Just look at girls’ clothes, for example, pants: there are capri pants, cropped pants, leggings, safety shorts, skinny jeans, leather pants…”
"Clothes include vests, blazers, hoodies, leather jackets, cashmere sweaters, cotton-padded coats, and long coats..."
"The skirts should come in various styles, at the very least including punk, ladylike, pastoral, Mori girl, floral, cotton, and denim skirts..."
"Shoes include Dr. Martens, lady shoes, canvas shoes, high heels, wedge heels, patent leather shoes... plus a huge pile of tissues for when it's inconvenient, hand warmers, brown sugar tea, all kinds of moisturizing and exfoliating gels... and that doesn't even include makeup or lip gloss! Hey, tell me, how are you going to get married if you don't work hard to earn money, right? So you can't skip class, understand?"
Little dumpling~, "But Daddy, then, then, are we very poor? Mommy doesn't have any clothes to wear..."
Xu Xiaomeng →_→, "That's what your mom didn't want, really! I'm the one who feels wronged. She doesn't even learn from other wives to wear pretty clothes to seduce me, or she doesn't wear anything at all. But she just covers herself up completely so I can't see her. Humph!"
Little dumpling (⊙x⊙;): "Mommy's afraid of the cold, okay?"
Xu Xiaomeng (。ˇεˇ。), “I can hold her to keep her warm, and then, we can do some wonderful exercises…”
Chen Nanyi ←_←, "Are you sure the baby can understand what you're about to say?"
Xu Xiaomeng (⊙ω⊙`), "You brat, it's all your fault! You made me go off-topic!"
Little bun(つд)eng!
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