Chapter 304 Slowly Adapting to the Darkness
Late at night in the corridor of a private hospital, Wenxi sat on a cold bench in a daze for a long time.
She actually knew that the baby in her belly was not that fragile and would not get hurt if it fell.
But she was still worried, so she rushed from the hotel to the hospital for a check-up.
She didn't go to the hospital where she worked, but instead found a private hospital in a very remote area in northern Beijing.
It would be difficult to explain if her colleagues found out she was pregnant during the examination at this hospital.
She leaned back in her chair, raised her hand to rub her swollen temples, and thinking back on everything she had just carefully planned, she suddenly felt like a clown. It was so ironic.
For Xing Yu's sake, she threw away her self-esteem, crossed her bottom line, and did all those clumsy tricks that only appeared on TV.
Using such shameful means to steal other people's things.
It seemed like she no longer recognized herself...
My stomach suddenly churned. It wasn't morning sickness, but pure, self-loathing...
Suddenly, a light wooden cane rolled to her feet, interrupting her thoughts.
Wenxi lowered his head and saw that the crutch was very new.
He looked up in the direction the crutch was rolling.
I saw a pretty girl walking towards me.
She was wearing a long white coat with several obvious stains on the hem, and her white sneakers were covered in dust and mud, as if they had not been washed for a long time.
Her hair was a little messy, with the strands of hair on her forehead sticking to her pale cheeks, and her face looked haggard as if she had just recovered from a serious illness.
Only her eyes were exceptionally beautiful, with long eyelashes and a round shape, but they were a little sickly red and unfocused, staring blankly ahead.
The girl stretched her hands in front of her, her fingertips trembling slightly, as if groping for something in the air. She took every step with extreme caution, obviously looking for the fallen crutch.
Wenxi then realized that she was blind.
She bent down to pick up the cane, walked quickly towards the girl, handed it to her, and her eyes slid across the exquisite diamond bracelet on her wrist.
"You're looking for this, right?"
The girl was visibly relieved the moment she got the crutches.
She held onto her cane and stood firmly, saying softly, "Thank you... I was in such a hurry just now that I accidentally dropped it."
"Where are your family?" Wenxi looked at her. How could she be disabled, given her beautiful face? Her heart softened for some reason. "It's so late, and you came to the hospital alone. Is there no one to accompany you?"
The girl was silent for a few seconds, then spoke politely, but avoided talking about her family and answered questions irrelevantly.
"My eyes... I just had a minor surgery abroad a few days ago, and tonight my eyes suddenly felt uncomfortable, so I rushed to the emergency room... Now I'm fine, I'm going home."
Wenxi realized that she didn't want to talk about her family, so she didn't ask any further.
He just noticed that the girl's lips were dry and chapped, so he helped her sit down on the bench, then quickly ran to the vending machine at the end of the corridor, bought a bottle of water, unscrewed the cap and handed it to her.
"Sister, drink some water."
The girl hesitated for a moment, then took the water bottle. Her fingertips accidentally touched Wenxi's hand. She quickly retracted her hand and said thank you: "Thank you, sister. You are so kind."
Wenxi was stunned and said with a wry smile: "I'm not okay, not okay at all..."
The girl drank several sips of water, wiped the water stains from the corners of her mouth, and asked after a while: "Sister, are you worried about something?"
Wenxi's heart is indeed a mess. Her parents are always busy with work and lack communication. She has few friends and is too lonely to find anyone to talk to. Some things have been weighing on her heart for years, making her feel entangled and uncomfortable.
But the strange girl in front of her made her inexplicably let down her guard.
"Yes, I do have something on my mind. And it seems there's no solution to this problem..."
"Sister, if you don't mind, you can talk to me." The girl said this with a faint smile: "Although my own life is a mess, but maybe you will feel better after talking to me."
She suddenly felt a little sad when she saw a blind girl trying to comfort others even though she was in trouble.
Wenxi pursed her lips, feeling the tenderness and kindness from the girl. She thought that they were just casual acquaintances and would probably never see each other again, so it would be okay to tell her what was in her heart.
"Actually... it's quite embarrassing to talk about this. I'm already in my thirties, not young anymore, and it's really inappropriate for me to talk to you about the kind of love affairs that only young girls would struggle with. If you think it's ridiculous, just laugh at me."
The girl immediately shook her head and said seriously, "What's the age limit when it comes to love? No matter how old you are, when you meet someone you like, you will feel excited and sad. This is normal. I won't laugh at you. Just tell me, I'm listening."
Wenxi seemed to have unloaded a heavy burden. She looked down at her fingertips and spoke slowly.
"Actually, there's someone I've kept in my heart for a long time, someone I'm deeply unforgettable about. But he's already married, has his own family, and has a wife who loves him very much."
"I know I shouldn't be thinking about him, but I just can't let him go. I'm not willing to give up. During this time, I've thought of many ways to fight for him..."
The more she spoke, the more ashamed she felt, and her voice gradually faded.
"I know these methods are shameful and will hurt others, but I just can't control myself. I can't let go of my obsession, and every day I'm torn and torn..."
As soon as he finished speaking, Wenxi felt the girl's expression change slightly.
She thought the girl would think she was a bad person, and was about to explain, but she saw her lips open: "Sister, to be honest, I have someone in my heart for many years..."
Wenxi was stunned and turned to look at her.
"I've liked him for over ten years." The girl's voice was calm. "I used to be like you. I thought if I liked someone, I had to fight for them. I just had to break free from all constraints, ignore other people's opinions, and go for it bravely."
The girl's fingers stroked the lines on the crutch, then moved to the bracelet on her wrist, and her tone gradually became clear.
"But then, one day, I suddenly realized that love doesn't have to be obtained. He who knows others is wise, and he who knows himself is enlightened. Spend less time trying to figure out others and more time exploring yourself. Only when you understand yourself clearly in this life can you live a clear life and have the ability to approach others."
"Sister, have you ever thought about the fact that you're trying so hard to get him? Is this really what he wants? Doing this will only make his originally peaceful life unbearable. Some things are destined not to belong to us from the beginning. If you continue to cling to them, not only will you suffer, but you'll also hurt others."
"Besides, he already has a family. You shouldn't bother him. Letting go is what you should do now."
She turned to look at Wenxi. Although her pupils were unfocused, they held a clear and resolute look. She sighed softly and continued calmly.
"Sister, there are too few perfect things. Regret is the norm. If you can't get someone, it's like not being able to hold boiling water. It burns your hand and hurts. You might as well put the cup down. Besides, on the road to self-growth, love isn't the only thing that can decorate yourself."
The girl raised her hand and gently touched her eyelids. There was a hint of longing in her voice: "I'm listening to audiobooks every day, learning Braille, and learning knitting from online tutorials. I'm slowly getting used to the darkness."
"I won't give up on myself just because I can't see. I want to make myself better, not for anyone else, but just for myself..."
Wenxi listened quietly, feeling as if her heart was hit by a stone.
No pain, but stuffy.
"But... it's not that easy to give up. I can't let go..."
"I know it's not easy. But 'not being able to let go' is not a reason to hurt others. You can be sad, you can cry, you can give yourself time to slowly move on, but you can't use those dishonorable means to destroy other people's marriages."
"If you keep going like this, you'll slowly lose yourself in the day-to-day doubts and anxieties. It's not worth it, it really isn't worth it..."
Wenxi was completely silent.
She pondered her words for a long time, and her mood began to change.
After a long while, she said, "I understand... Thank you, sister... Let's go, I'll take you out."
Wenxi helped the girl to the hospital gate and tried to hail a taxi for her, but was stopped by the girl.
"Sister, my friend will come to pick me up. He should be here soon..."
"Then I'll wait with you."
"No, it's cold outside, go ahead."
As they were talking, a car stopped at their feet.
Wenxi saw a rough-looking man with a fierce appearance coming out of the cab. He walked straight towards the girl, but was very tactful and did not touch her. Instead, he pulled the girl's crutch.
"Luoluo, get in the car with me."
Luoluo?
It turns out that her name is Luoluo.
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