Chapter 188 What’s the point of him being affectionate alone?
By the end of his speech, Feng Shuo's eyes were completely red, and he could only murmur: "I thought it was for your own good."
The pain of childbirth is not an option.
All of this can be avoided as long as you don't have children.
At that time, Feng Shuo had experienced a sudden mountain flood. In order to save his soldiers, he had already escaped death and was covered in wounds. He was relying on the hope of being able to return to the compound to see Zhu Yunyao to hold on to his last breath.
After meeting Zou Mei, he fought hard with the lone wolf and gave the red ginseng water left by Zhu Yunyao to Zou Mei.
If he couldn't return safely, he would lose his only hope.
It was a blessing from heaven that Zhu Yunyao was found in the forest.
She was like a fairy in the legend, descending from the sky to save Zou Mei and her son, and also to save him...
Feng Shuo was exhausted both physically and mentally, and the time he had to wait for her to wake up seemed even longer and more agonizing.
Yang He knelt and kowtowed in front of the operating room, while Xiao Linsheng cried loudly in the ward...
Although they were not on the same floor, he seemed to have super hearing and could hear everything clearly. He was so frightened that he had no time to think.
The only thought in his mind was that his concubine must be alive!
As long as she is alive, nothing else matters.
It's also his fault that he doesn't have children!
It is he who has no descendants, and you cannot force it.
It is better to not have a child than to be carried out of the delivery room with basins of blood and life hanging by a thread.
Until now, Feng Shuo still thinks that if he could choose, he would rather wish Yun Yao was not pregnant...
He lowered his eyes and his gaze fell on Zhu Yunwei's still flat belly. His lips were tightly drawn together and he suppressed the corners of his lips in a restrained manner.
His mistress probably doesn't know yet that she is pregnant.
This was a really bad situation and time. How should he tell her?
Feng Shuo was in a dilemma, wanting to say something but stopping himself several times. Finally, he clenched his fists and wanted to think about it carefully.
"Have you asked me?"
After listening to his impassioned speech, Zhu Yunying looked at him stubbornly, opening and closing her mouth, speaking in a restrained tone, her lips trembling slightly.
"You never asked me, never discussed it with me. Once you made a decision, I could only be informed; once you had doubts, I could only be questioned... Feng Shuo, I am your wife, not your soldier, nor your property. It is up to you to decide whether to stay or leave. Just because I was the one who fell in love first, I cannot always be at a disadvantage."
"Aiya, I'm not..."
Feng Shuo wanted to defend himself, but he couldn't open his mouth. His Adam's apple moved up and down, and he finally had to give up.
He softened his stance, walked forward cautiously, bent his knuckles, and slowly wiped away the tears on Zhu Yunwei's face.
There is no point in making excuses.
What she said was not false.
She was the first to say that she liked me, she was the first to join the army, and she was the first to say that she wanted to have a child with me.
Zhu Yunwei bravely took the lead in every step.
I followed suit, still calculating, speculating, and hesitating.
When fighting against enemy spies, the resolute and decisive Captain Feng, however, was like a rookie when facing his lover, timid and hesitant until he pushed the person out completely.
"Feng Shuo, do you really love me? Did you chase me all the way to the capital just because you loved me and were worried about me? Isn't it because I suddenly ran away that you lost control and your possessiveness took over and you came here to accuse me?"
Zhu Yunying dodged Feng Shuo's hand, wiped her tears, raised her chin, and looked up at him.
Feng Shuo's hand was suspended in the air, and he felt the blood rushing to his fingertips and then flowing back frantically.
He eagerly defended himself: "Of course it's because I love you and I'm worried about you..."
"Then do you know why I came to Jing City? Why don't you care at all? Aren't you curious at all?"
Zhu Yunying had never mentioned to Feng Shuo that she planned to personally apply for the title of martyr for her mother Zhu Qingyin.
But she told Old Lady Feng and Political Commissar Zhang.
The letter of introduction to Beijing was issued by Political Commissar Zhang, and when she arrived in Beijing, it was Old Lady Feng who took her in.
As long as Feng Shuo cared about something, he would just ask and the two of them would tell him.
Even if... even if no one tells Feng Shuo.
But his wife came to Beijing all of a sudden and all alone. Didn't he want to know the reason at all?
When we meet, all I can do is be jealous, jealous, jealous...
When you become jealous, you think you are affectionate!
What’s the point of him being affectionate alone?
Love that is not felt by the other person is not love at all.
Zhu Yunyao is tired.
I didn't want to be entangled with him anymore, so I took back my love for Feng Shuo.
But Feng Shuo kept saying that he was worried about her, loved her, wanted to repent and apologize, but he couldn't even show a simple concern.
Zhu Yunying looked at the confusion and uneasiness in Feng Shuo's eyes, and guessed that he had no idea why he came to Beijing at all, and she felt relieved immediately.
"Feng Shuo, that's enough."
She stepped back and glanced toward the window. "You'd better not leave my room. I don't want Grandma and Xiaoqin to misunderstand."
“…”
Feng Shuo's eyes were gloomy, he clenched his fists as if in stress, and walked away with heavy steps.
Walked out through the window.
After he left, Zhu Yunying turned the latch inside out and closed the curtains.
I went back to bed, wrapped myself tightly in the quilt, and bit my lips to prevent the tears from falling.
Falling in love is so stressful!
If I had known this earlier, I wouldn’t have joined the army!
I'm so angry.
…
I tossed and turned all night and didn't get a full night's sleep.
Zhu Yunwei had no choice but to go into the space and rely on the spiritual spring water to relieve her fatigue.
If you are pregnant, you cannot soak for too long. Get up as soon as you feel better.
I made some lily porridge with spiritual spring water, without adding sugar, and it was a little bitter.
It coincides with her mood at the moment.
"Zhu Yunwei, cheer up! You're willing to die for a man! What a loser!!"
She stood in the center of the space courtyard with her hands on her hips, looking up to the sky and howling.
The only responses from her surroundings were the breeze caressing her cheeks and the rustling of silkworms in her ears.
She sighed.
During this period, I neglected to manage the space, but cotton and mulberry silkworms continued to be produced and had piled up into a large area.
Don’t think about men!
I had such a big fight with him yesterday, I guess I won’t be able to go back to the compound anymore.
It would be better to find a job in Beijing and gain a foothold first.
When this idea came to her mind, Zhu Yunying finally felt motivated.
All you have to do is find a fabric factory and negotiate a supply cooperation.
It requires some brainpower but is not difficult.
After making up her mind, Zhu Yunying adjusted her mentality and left the space.
She woke up very early, and the sky was slightly bright.
He brought out a portion of lily porridge from the space and prepared some sesame oil cakes and placed them on the dining table.
She carried her backpack and the address list given to her by Director Jiang and walked out of Feng's house.
Feng Shuo did not leave the whole night. He stood under the window of Zhu Yunyao's room, facing the wall and reflecting on his mistakes.
He thought about it all night and had to admit that Zhu Yunying was right.
He was used to making decisions, always ordering her to do things in a high-handed manner, without any discussion, just making decisions and expecting her to obey...
There is no equality between the two of them at all.
That's why they become hostile whenever there's a disagreement.
He clenched his fists and tried hard to restrain himself from following her when she left.
Instead, he waited until the others left the yard before turning back into the house and pretending to have just returned.
Zeng Xiaoqin helped Old Lady Feng, who had also been tossing and turning all night, out of the room. As soon as they walked into the living room, they bumped into Feng Shuo.
Zeng Xiaoqin exclaimed: "Cousin?! Why are you back?!"
Feng Shuo thought about the blind date Zeng Xiaoqin mentioned last night, and his heart was choked up. He replied unhappily, "Isn't this my home? I can't come back? Or did you do something bad behind my back?"
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