Chapter 74 Chapter 74: Heartache "Let's go home, Amiya..."
After Jin Er finished dealing with the documents brought by Wendy's assistant, he immediately returned to the villa with the takeaway box from Youshanfang.
When he entered the villa carrying his things, the villa was in a mess and the door was not closed. A cold wind blew in, faintly leaking out a bit of cold rose-scented pheromones.
It was pitch black.
As soon as I opened the door, the rose-scented pheromones hit me in the face, sinister yet gorgeous.
Jin Er frowned slightly.
Without much effort, Jin'er quickly found Amiya, who was lying on the spacious sofa in the living room, curled up like a cat, revealing her snow-white knees and thighs. She was naked, covered only by Jin'er's clothes.
The ground was a mess.
Various wine bottles were lying scattered around, some of which were completely shattered with glass shards scattered everywhere. Wine overflowed from these broken containers, interweaving into a mixed liquid, deep red like blood, crystal clear, reflecting strange light and shadows under the light.
The air was filled with a strong smell of alcohol, and traces of the wine meandered until they disappeared at the foot of the sofa and intertwined with the stains on the carpet.
"Amiya."
Jin Er frowned as he looked at the broken glass all over the floor, his gaze falling on the curled up Amiya.
Amiya huddled in the corner of the sofa with her knees hugged, holding Jin'er's clothes tightly in her arms, burying her head in them, as if she could only breathe with the help of these clothes.
Amiya's exposed skin was covered with shocking bloodstains.
Upon closer inspection, one can see that it's the same name, spread all over the arms, chest, and legs, and Amiya is holding a sharp shard of broken glass in her right hand.
There were drops of blood hanging from the tips of the broken glass, so he held it tightly in his hand, and blood was also dripping from his palm.
Seeing this scene, even Jin Er almost laughed out of anger.
She is really crazy. Not only did she hurt herself, but she also carved Jin'er's name all over her body, as if Amiya wanted to find a sense of belonging through this useless effort.
Hearing the sound, Amiya seemed to wake up suddenly, raised her bloodshot eyes, which were filled with love and hatred, stumbled off the sofa, and was about to run over barefoot on the broken glass.
"Heroic Lord...Heroic Lord..."
"Don't move!"
Jin Er raised his voice, which was rare for him to do. He quickly strode over the broken glass on the floor and walked to Amiya. He put the things in his hand on the coffee table, then pulled Amiya back to the sofa, pulled the blanket from the sofa and spread it on the floor.
It seemed like it was always like this, Amiya always had a way to break through Jin'er's calm mask and disguise.
It was clearly not life-threatening, and Amiya didn't even cut her wrists.
However, looking at the painless bloodstains all over Amiya's body, Jin'er's breathing stagnated. He felt as if these wounds were deeply engraved on his own bones, causing severe pain.
"Hero?" Amiya looked at Jin'er infatuatedly and smiled, his eyes full of paranoia, but Jin'er pushed him back onto the sofa. He could only say, "Hero, you're back..."
Jin Er felt a headache. When he touched Amiya's body, he found marks all over it, which were caused by the glass pieces held in Amiya's right hand, and they were all bleeding.
As I got closer, the rose-scented pheromones became stronger, so strong that it seemed to be burning, and the strong smell of blood and roses mixed together.
The pheromones of Amiya in the air were so thick that they were almost suffocating, trembling like tiny drops of blood swimming in the air, smelling fishy.
Jin Er looked at his own name written in blood on Amiya's body and felt it was extremely eye-catching and harsh.
Some of the wounds were shallow, while others were very deep. Amiya was even holding the sharp piece of broken glass tightly, and blood was dripping from the palm of her right hand.
There were blood stains on the sofa and a pool of blood on the floor, making it look as messy and disheveled as a crime scene.
"Ami, look at me!"
Jin Er slowly squatted down, reached out and touched Amiya's smooth back as if he was stroking a sick cat.
He was trying to comfort her, but was suddenly pounced on by Amiya.
The sub-female bit his collarbone fiercely while whimpering pitifully:
"My Lord... why are you leaving..."
"hiss--"
Jin Er took a breath.
Amiya bit very hard. It didn't cause bleeding directly through two layers of clothes, but it bit the flesh tightly.
Like a dying beast unwilling to let go of its strong prey.
Jin Er didn't struggle. He took off his windbreaker and wrapped it around Amiya's cold and smooth body.
Then he snatched the broken glass that Amiya was holding from the sub-female's hand and threw it to the ground with great force as if in anger.
He grabbed Amiya's knees with one hand and held her back with the other, then lifted Amiya up horizontally.
Jin Er lowered his head and asked softly, "Ami, can we go to the treatment room?"
In fact, Amiya really dislikes the healing cabin.
Like drowning, he was immersed in the treatment fluid and unable to breathe, and had to endure the cold treatment device invading his nose, mouth and ears. The extreme feeling of suffocation and coldness always reminded Amiya of the place where he was young.
"don't want……"
Amiya opened her mouth and reached out to hug the male insect's neck tightly.
His voice was thick with hoarseness and even nasal sound.
At this moment, Amiya could hardly distinguish between fantasy and reality.
He just started to get confused. How could Jin Er appear at this time? How could he come back?
Amiya thought it was her own hallucination.
After all, he had already had countless hallucinations in just a few hours.
If this were reality, Amiya would never bite Jin'er so hard, as if she wanted to tear off a piece of flesh.
Amiya has had many hallucinations.
There were times when he felt as though he were crawling with maggots, buried in mud, and soaked in filthy ditches.
Or maybe he would suddenly see some faces he hated, some of them died miserably, some were grinning, their faces covered in blood and stains.
Skulls and bloody heads floating in the air.
He loves Jin Er too much.
He loved her so much that he couldn't control his desire to kill Jin Er. He wanted them to die together so that there would be no uncertainty.
Flesh, blood and bones are mixed together, inseparable.
Amiya thinks this is love.
But he knew Jin Er wouldn't like it.
He was also sure that no one would like it.
In Amiya's countless hallucinations, he was killed countless times. He longed to see Jin Er's reaction. Would the Lord be sad? Would he cry? Would he sigh for him?
But Amiya couldn't see it.
He couldn't see Jin Er's expression, which was as thick as a black mist.
Amiya couldn't see it.
Could hallucinations be so real?
Amiya smelled the scent of cedar on Jiner.
"Amiya..."
A long sigh came from above.
Amiya blinked her sore eyes and suddenly broke free from the countless illusions.
He finally realized that this moment was not an illusion, but real reality.
At least Jin Er is real.
"My Lord..." Amiya asked tentatively.
"You are covered with wounds. If you don't want to go to the treatment room, at least let me bandage you." Jin Er tightened his jaw and took two deep breaths before speaking.
Amiya's bloodshot eyes looked at the male lord stubbornly, as if trying to see through the calm expression on the male insect's face.
For a moment he couldn't tell whether this was fantasy or reality. Amiya actually saw the distress on the male insect's face.
It hurts.
It's so obvious that I feel heartbroken.
At this moment, Amiya didn't know what to say.
He didn't expect that Jin Er would show such an expression, or, he didn't expect that he deserved such heartache.
Even his blood relatives didn't feel sorry for him, but Jin Er did.
He should have found it ridiculous, he should have found it ironic, but Amiya suddenly burst into tears—he didn't even realize he was crying.
Amiya said, "Lord...even if you want me to die now, I will feel very happy."
Jin'er carried Amiya all the way up the semi-open spiral staircase step by step, went upstairs, entered their bedroom, and found the emergency medicine kit in the room.
Amiya clutched the clothes on Jin'er's chest tightly and refused to let go. Jin'er had no choice but to hold Amiya with one hand and open the emergency medicine box with the other hand to search for the things inside.
This emergency medicine kit is a square white box that Jiner had prepared in the room earlier.
This wasn't the first time Amiya had shown abnormal behavior.
He was extremely fond of pain in bed, he liked to suffocate by pinching the neck, liked to be slapped, liked to play with whips and paddles - the things that Amiya prepared herself were really too much, and Jin'er hardly ever used them on Amiya.
Before the rigidity potion, Amiya had also interfered with the cooperation with Xingzhou. At that time, Jin'er was not angry. This level of disruption was completely within Jin'er's acceptable range.
Amiya likes to be punished, so Jin'er will also play games with him.
Amiya has always been very cruel to him, and even Jin'er couldn't stand it and wanted to stop Amiya.
Jiner discovered that Amiya had a tendency to self-harm on the night of the rigidity drug incident.
Amiya went crazy and had a big fight with Jin'er. She smashed everything in the house and ran away.
After Jin'er found the unknown pills in Amiya's coat pocket, he felt very uneasy and chased after her while holding Amiya's coat.
Late at night, Jin Er drove the aircraft and searched for three hours.
In the end, he couldn't find it anymore, so Jin'er had to call Xirui to crack Amiya's terminal positioning.
The final positioning is displayed on the seaside.
Amiya was so afraid of water that he didn't even want to enter the treatment chamber, but that night, he insisted on running to the beach.
Jin Er was so scared that he broke out in a cold sweat. He drove the aircraft with the accelerator pressed to the bottom, ran through several red lights without caring about anything, and rushed directly to the beach.
The sea breeze was cold and salty. It was late at night and everything was silent. The only sound was the sound of waves hitting the rocks.
So cold,
So quiet,
It was as if death had already arrived, as if the world was nothing but a coffin.
Jin'er searched along the dark coastline, becoming more and more frightened as he searched, and finally found Amiya on the highest reef.
Amiya sat on the rocks with his back to the shore, the sea breeze blowing his long black hair, like an absurd and fluttering butterfly in the dark night.
It seems that a gentle wave will wet the butterfly's wings, causing the butterfly to die instantly and no longer move.
When Jin Er went over, he didn't have time to think. He rushed over and pulled Amiya from the edge of the reef to the middle of the reef. They rolled together, and Jin Er trapped Amiya in his arms.
After hugging Amiya, Jin Er discovered that all ten of Amiya's fingers were bleeding from being bitten by him, with the flesh and blood exposed, which was very scary.
They say the fingers are connected to the heart, I don’t know how painful it must be.
But Amiya seemed to feel nothing, just staring at Jin Er with her eyes wide open.
He smiled and said:
"My Lord is so amazing that he even found me. But why does he look like that? Haha, do you think I'm going to jump into the sea?"
This expression?
Jin Er no longer cared about what expression he showed. He frowned fiercely and held Amiya's wrist, not daring to let go at all.
"Ami, come home with me."
"Home?" Amiya leaned in Jin'er's arms and repeated thoughtfully.
He added, "Master, you know what? Even if I were to die, I would definitely take you with me. Will you agree to that?"
Jin Er frowned even tighter, "What nonsense."
Amiya smiled again, with a look of realization in her eyes.
"When I was a child, I was pushed into a ditch in winter. The ditch was not deep, but my head was stepped on and I couldn't breathe air. When I felt like I was going to die, I could breathe a breath of air, and then they stepped on me again."
“So every time I walk to the water, I feel like I’m back to that day, as if I’ve never walked out.”
"If such a small ditch can cause me so much pain, how much more pain must the endless ocean hide."
"My Lord, I'm not scared, I'm excited."
But even though Amiya said that, when Jin Er looked down, there was no excitement on Amiya's face.
Jin Er's face was cold, and he gritted his teeth and asked, "Who dares to do that to you?"
Amiya chuckled and looked very happy:
"Why are you asking this, Lord? Do you want to help me get revenge?"
"It's okay."
Amiya said, with a look of pity on her face.
"That guy is already dead. I drained all his blood. It turns out he could only bleed so little that I couldn't even take a bath."
"Maybe I should keep him alive, drain his blood little by little, and then replenish his blood little by little. That would be very interesting."
"Amiya."
Jin Er hugged the sub-female tightly in his arms.
"Let's go home."
On the way back that night, Jin'er didn't dare to let go of Amiya at all. Even when he went to the pharmacy to buy an emergency medicine kit, he took off his coat, hugged Yaci, and brought Amiya in with him.
That emergency medicine kit has been kept until now.
There are tweezers, cotton balls, bandages, gauze, hemostatic tablets...
The memory of that night made Jin Er vague. He frowned, quickly checked the contents of the medicine box, took out a cotton ball dipped in iodine, put Amiya on the bed, and carefully wiped off the blood on Amiya's body bit by bit.
Amiya quietly wrapped herself in the male insect's windbreaker, stretched out her feet, and placed them in the palm of the male insect's hand.
Jin Er looked down and asked, "Why is my name written on it?"
There was no emotion or fluctuation in his tone.
Amiya tilted her head and thought for a moment, then moved closer to the male insect, breathing softly:
"My Lord, don't you know? I like you, so I wrote your name."
After saying this, Jin Er didn't say anything else. Instead, he lowered his head and concentrated on treating the wounds on Amiya's body.
Disinfect, apply medicine, bandage or apply hemostatic patch.
Everything was done in half an hour.
"Heroic Lord,"
Seeing that Jin'er was completely silent, Amiya felt a little embarrassed and wanted to break the silence and talk about something.
But as soon as she said that, Amiya's eyes suddenly widened and she looked at the male insect in extreme surprise.
"My Lord! What are you doing?!"
Jin Er silently took out a pair of pointed scissors from the medicine box, lifted up his sleeve, and cut his arm, and blood gushed out.
"Hero!"
Ami finally reacted, rushed over in panic, and grabbed Jin'er's right hand tightly.
"My Lord! Don't do this! Don't do this! I was wrong! I really know I was wrong! My Lord!"
But Amiya's strength was no match for Jin'er, and he could only watch as Jin'er seemed to write a name on his arm.
Amiya felt as if the blood in front of him had turned into pieces of knives, cutting open his brain and making him unable to think at all. After he finally calmed down, everything in front of him became clear.
——Amiya.
This is the blood-red name that Jin Er carved on his arm.
The male insect wrote with such force that the force penetrated the back of the paper, and now he showed no mercy at all.
Blood continued to flow out.
"Amiya,"
Jin Er raised his head, and there was no trace of pain on his face.
"Do you know how many times you have my name written on you?"
Suffocated by the male insect's gaze, Amiya subconsciously looked away: "No... I don't know..."
"Thirty-five."
Jin Er looked straight at Amiya and spoke word by word.
He asked, "Aren't you in pain?"
Does it hurt?
Amiya opened her mouth blankly, wanting to say something, but just shook her head.
He lowered his head in panic, constantly looking at the wound on Jin Er's arm. The wound was bleeding so much that he could no longer see the name, only a pool of blood.
"My Lord, the wound..."
Amiya's hands were trembling, and she didn't dare to touch the wound on Jin'er's arm at all.
He wanted to get the cotton balls and medicine from the medicine box, but Jin Er pulled him back to the bed, and suddenly the scissors were stuffed into his hand.
Jin Er held Amiya's hand with one hand, pointed the sharp end of the scissors towards himself, and
He unbuttoned his shirt, revealing his muscular chest.
He squeezed Amiya's hand as the scissors got closer and closer to his chest.
"Write." Jin Er ordered.
"What?"
Amiya was shaking violently, not because of fear, but because he was trying too hard, using all his strength to resist Jin'er's hands.
“Write your name.”
Jin Er explained, his tone was very calm, so calm that it even revealed an abnormal madness.
"No!"
Amiya glared at Jin Er desperately, "Lord! What are you doing! Don't do this!"
But his strength was no match for Jin Er's, and he could only watch with his eyes wide open as his bloody name appeared on the male insect's chest.
"Heroic Lord! Heroic Lord!"
Amiya's eyes were filled with astonishment, her eyes were wide open, almost cracked, staring intently at the scene in front of her.
Amiya's name now looked so glaring and bloody on the male insect's chest.
But Amiya's eyes widened, and she almost collapsed in pain.
He could only tremble his hands as he was pulled by the male insect and wrote his name on the other's chest.
In a moment,
Amiya's tears came out.
It was not his subjective intention to cry, but he could not control it.
Amiya cried quietly, tears shed from extreme pain, almost physiological, and she was completely unaware of it.
"I'll ask you again," Jin Er said, his expression unchanged, "Does the wound on your body hurt?"
“It hurts!”
Amiya bit her lip hard, her eyes filled with anger and pain.
"It hurts so much! It hurts so much!"
He wanted to curse Jin Er, but the pain in his heart made it almost impossible for him to speak.
"Do you still remember how many names you have?" Jin Er asked again.
Amiya shuddered subconsciously - he had already understood what Jin Er had left unsaid.
"Wait a moment, Lord, please wait a moment, I, I was wrong... Lord... I know I was wrong... There won't be a next time... I was really wrong, I was wrong, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'll listen to whatever you say..."
Amiya apologized desperately in panic, and tears fell from her long eyelashes one by one and dripped onto Jin'er's hands.
He was in such a state of embarrassment that he kept shedding tears, but Amiya was completely unaware that he was crying. He could only keep begging:
“My Lord… I’m sorry… Please punish me… Please punish me… You can even hit me, please, I really know I was wrong… I really know I was wrong… Please don’t do this, please… Wuuuuuuu…”
By the end of the story, Amiya couldn't even control her sobs, and she cried miserably and pitifully.
"Thirty-three more."
Jin Er held Ami's shaking hand tightly.
"You have thirty-five names on your body, and I still owe you thirty-three."
“No, don’t… don’t do this…”
Amiya was panicked, her eyes full of pleading, and every fingertip was trembling.
But Jin Er remained unmoved.
Not moved at all.
At this moment, Amiya even hated Jin'er's indifference and calmness.
How could Jin Er be so calm with such a deep wound and so much blood? That was his own body!
Seeing Amiya crying so miserably, Jin Er sighed silently.
"Do you want me to keep carving, Amiya?"
"No!" Amiya answered almost the next second.
"Why not?" Jin Er asked again.
"Because... because..." Amiya bit his lips nervously. He knew how important his answer was at this moment.
"Because, because of me, because I'm in pain..."
"Are you really in pain?"
Jin'er pressed his forehead against Amiya's. They were so close that their breaths blended together, making Amiya tremble.
"I really, really feel pain. My heart feels like it's about to break..."
Amiya pleaded in a low voice, her attitude couldn't be lowered any more.
"Okay, I hope you remember what I said today."
Jin Er released Amiya's hand and no longer restrained her.
He watched as Amiya threw the blood-stained scissors into a far corner as if she was throwing something extremely terrifying.
Jin Er lowered his head and skillfully treated his wounds. He said:
"If you still want to hurt yourself, those wounds will appear on my body one by one, plus the thirty-three names that I haven't finished writing today."
"Remember that?"
Amiya approached Jin'er little by little with trembling hands. He wanted to help Jin'er treat the wound, but was rejected by Jin'er.
Jin Er looked at Amiya and asked again:
"Do you remember this, Amiya?"
"I remember... I remember..." Amiya whispered, repeating it over and over again.
Jin Er treated the wound quickly. After applying a hemostatic patch, he sighed and reached out to touch the tear marks on Amiya's face.
The male insect's eyes are serious and gentle:
"Just stay here and be nice, okay? I'll go clean up the living room."
Amiya was stunned for a moment, and he unconsciously wrapped himself tightly with the male insect's windbreaker.
"Hero..."
Jin Er said:
"It'll only take half an hour. I'll go clean it up. Otherwise, if you step on it when you go downstairs tomorrow, you'll have to go to the hospital or the treatment chamber."
Amiya could only nod and curl up in bed.
The male insect's figure disappeared in the room, and Amiya now felt a little dazed.
Jin Er really... brought too many surprises to Amiya.
When they met for the first time, Amiya felt that she had found the hero she most admired.
They had been married for a year, and the male insect was very busy. Amiya felt extremely uneasy and used extremely extreme means to attract the male insect's attention to herself.
On the night they quarreled over the rigidity drug, Amiya thought that Jin Er would not and could not come to find her, but in the end, Jin Er still found her.
And today, Amiya thought everything was over.
But Jin Er came back.
He seemed to see the love hidden beneath the male insect's calm appearance - seemingly calm, but actually turbulent.
Is this love real, or is it just another illusion of Amiya?
Amiya felt dazed again.
Even he himself was not sure, it all seemed like a dream.
Amiya wrapped Jin'er's windbreaker tightly around her body, and like a little animal, she lowered her head and kept sniffing the cedar scent coming from the clothes.
Now that the male insect is not with Amiya, Amiya feels less uneasy.
Because he seemed to have discovered that Jin Er also loved him.
I don’t know whether this love is true or false, or how deep it is.
But it is enough to seduce Amiya.
Amiya grabbed Jin'er's windbreaker, but suddenly felt a square, hard object.
Suddenly, I felt confused and took it out from the male insect's pocket. It was a business card.
At this moment, there was silence all around.
Amiya seemed to hear the sound of her own heart stopping.
The expression on Amiya's face instantly turned cold.
His burning heart was pressed down by this thin piece of paper, as if a basin of ice water was poured over it from head to toe.
My throbbing heart felt like it was being cut open.
Yeah, just a business card.
It's just a business card.
But... this business card...
It was a business card with the contact information of a divorce lawyer.
divorce.
divorce.
Divorce,
Jin Er actually wanted to divorce him.
The black words on the white paper were like twisted termites, corroding Amiya's sight bit by bit.
He clutched the business card tightly, his fingertips turning white. He couldn't believe it and didn't want to believe it, but no one knew better than him that this was the fact - the male insect also wanted to abandon him.
It seems that no matter when or where, Amiya is always the option that is abandoned.
This light business card and these few words were like an ice-cold slap in the face, slapping Amiya hard and mocking her wishful thinking.
Maybe... everything that just happened was just a show by the male insect, and he just needed to calm Amiya down.
That's ridiculous.
Amiya actually fell for it.
He actually, he actually believed it.
Amiya knew that after accepting the ridiculous illusion, he was finally faced with the cold reality.
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