Chapter 61 Birds and Fish
After returning to school, Chi Jinjin attended classes as usual, but this time there was a pair of affectionate couple beside her.
Chi Jinjin looked at Zhou Zhou and her boyfriend who were feeding each other fruit.
Ever since these two got together, she has been like air and a light bulb.
She used to think that she was bright enough as a light bulb for Tang poetry and Song lyrics, but she didn't expect that she would be even brighter with Zhou Zhou.
This may be the sadness of being single.
Chi Jinjin turned her head and looked out the window.
Thinking that she would be graduating soon, Chi Jinjin felt somewhat melancholy and uneasy about her future, and was also reluctant to leave the campus.
Zhou Zhou had no classes in the afternoon, so she went on a date with her boyfriend.
Chi Jinjin spent the entire afternoon in the library until she felt hungry and left to go to the cafeteria. In order to get there faster, she took a shortcut and walked through a forest.
But as she walked, she suddenly seemed to hear Gao Yi's voice.
Chi Jinjin hasn't seen Gao Yi for a long time.
She followed the sound and actually saw Gao Yi and his girlfriend Yu Wan behind a tree.
Chi Jinjin raised her hand to say hello, but she heard Gao Yi questioning Yu Wan, saying, "Tell me, what did I do wrong? Why did you break up with me?"
separate?
Are these two having a quarrel?
Chi Jinjin realized that she couldn't appear in this kind of scene, so she hid behind a tree.
Yu Wan said nonchalantly, "Didn't I tell you already? I don't like you anymore, I don't love you anymore."
"Why don't you like me anymore? Why don't you love me?" Gao Yi angrily scolded, "Yu Wan, haven't I done enough for you? Think about it, when have I ever asked you to do it? You asked me to be there whenever you called, and I did it. For you, I skipped classes, I smoked, I drank, I did everything I used to not do! Every time you go out with your friends, I follow you like a servant, carrying the belongings of eight or nine people. Have I ever complained once? I've done my best for you, why do you say you don't love me anymore!"
"Why?" Yu Wan sneered, "Because you're not worthy of me. Any single accessory on me would be enough for you to spend for months, right? Look at you, you have no money, ordinary looks, and an average family. What can you bring to me?"
"Yu Wan." Gao Yi knelt on the ground, holding her hand and begging desperately, "I beg you, don't leave me, I really can't live without you. If you still have any dissatisfaction with me, just tell me, I will change!"
Facing his pleading, Yu Wan's eyes showed no emotion, but rather disgust. She said impatiently, "Gao Yi, I've never actually fallen in love with you."
"Impossible. If you don't love me, why did you pursue me and confess to me?" Gao Yi didn't believe it.
Yu Wan admired her newly done manicure and said, "Let's have some fun."
"Gao Yi, Gao Yi, you don't really think I like you, do you? To tell you the truth, you're nothing but a game to me. I've never taken you seriously." Yu Wan sneered, adding, "In this world, what I, Yu Wan, hate most are those men who curry favor with the powerful and easily abandon their future for a woman. Do you think I'll be touched by this? Don't be silly. If you don't even want your own future, how can I be confident in giving you my future?"
Then he let out another sarcastic sneer.
Chi Jinjin wanted to step forward and say something, but she felt that it was too inappropriate for her to appear at this moment.
They are just two lovers having a quarrel, why should you get involved?
No matter how fiercely they quarreled, she had no right to interfere.
After all, that's a couple's business.
Chi Jinjin retracted her steps, turned around and left the forest quietly as quickly as possible.
Although she was very curious about what they would do and what they would say next, Chi Jinjin knew that it was immoral.
She came to the cafeteria and ordered a bowl of pineapple fried rice. The sour and sweet pineapple fried rice was the first food that Chi Jinjin liked since she came to this school.
It’s a pity that such delicious pineapple fried rice is becoming less and less available every time we eat it.
At this moment, the cell phone suddenly rang. Chi Jinjin opened it and saw that it was Nan Xuqiu who sent her another message.
He said: [I just had pineapple fried rice, it tasted good. Does your school have it?]
When Chi Jinjin saw the words "Pineapple Fried Rice", she was immediately choked.
Looking at the food in front of her, Chi Jinjin thought, it can’t be such a coincidence.
Could it be that he installed a surveillance camera on himself?
Chi Jinjin looked around.
As Saturday approached, Chi Jinjin became more and more irritated. Although she told herself again and again that it was just a walk, she still couldn't help feeling nervous.
But no matter how much I wanted time to pass quickly, it was still Saturday. Fortunately, Nan Xuqiu had an appointment in the afternoon.
In the evening, Nan Xuqiu wanted to drive over to pick up Chi Jinjin, but Chi Jinjin refused, saying that she could just take a ride.
The news about her and him had been making a lot of noise in the past few weeks, and it had finally died down, so she didn't want to stir up any more waves.
Chi Jinjin took a taxi to the agreed location as agreed.
She searched the crowd for Nan Xuqiu.
"Chi Jinjin!"
Suddenly his voice came from behind.
She turned around and saw that it was indeed him.
He was wearing a blue shirt, holding a cup of milk tea in his hand, standing against the light.
On her face was the gentle smile that she had been obsessed with countless times.
Chi Jinjin took a step forward, and Nan Xuqiu also walked over. He walked faster than Chi Jinjin and was in front of her in a moment.
"Here you go." Nan Xuqiu handed the milk tea in his hand to her.
Chi Jinjin was really thirsty along the way, and I have to say that this cup of milk tea was really timely.
"Thank you, thank you." Chi Jinjin took it with both hands, lowered her eyes and saw that it was still her favorite flavor.
Nan Xuqiu looked at her from time to time. She lowered her head and drank her milk tea, not daring to look sideways.
The two walked slowly along the beach.
Half of the red sun in the sky has fallen into the sea, and the Klein blue sea water is dyed with a hint of red. Waves rush onto the beach one after another, and then slowly recede.
The sunrise in the city at four in the morning and the leisurely sunset on the beach are the harmony of light and land, and the romance of moon and sea.
On the beach, the footprints of Nan Xuqiu and Chi Jinjin, one big and one small, accompanied each other and extended forward.
"I still remember that we took a walk like this five years ago." Nan Xuqiu sighed.
Chi Jinjin said, "Do you still remember..."
"Of course I remember." Nan Xuqiu said earnestly, "I will remember everything about you."
Some people say that the longest-lasting memory is the one that is constantly recalled, so it is engraved in the mind and will never be forgotten.
Chi Jinjin couldn't help but tighten her grip on the milk tea cup. She lowered her head and drank the milk tea. In fact, she didn't drink the milk tea in the straw into her mouth. She was just pretending to do so to ease the embarrassment.
"Jinjin, there's a fishing platform up ahead. Do you want to go take a look?"
Nan Xuqiu suggested.
Chi Jinjin happened to feel that she needed something to ease the current atmosphere, so she quickly nodded and agreed to go.
Diaoyutai is located far from the shore, with a long walkway connecting the shore and the platform, and a lighthouse in the center of the platform.
Chi Jinjin and Nan Xuqiu walked onto the path. The further they walked, the stronger the sea breeze became.
The girl's skirt fluttered in the wind, outlining the romantic sunset in the sky and also stirring the heart of a young boy.
They arrived at Diaoyutai.
Chi Jinjin lay on the fence, the sea breeze blew in her face, there was a hint of mist in the air, it felt cool and comfortable when it fell on her face.
Chi Jinjin raised her head and closed her eyes to feel it.
Nan Xuqiu looked at her, watching her smile.
"The wind is so strong, it seems like it can blow away everything." Chi Jinjin opened his eyes and looked at the endless sea in front of him.
"Jinjin, have you heard a saying?" Nan Xuqiu asked.
"What?" Chi Jinjin looked at him.
Nan Xuqiu also leaned against the fence like her, lowered his head and said earnestly, "Some people say that you should confess your love when the wind blows, and wherever the wind blows, you will say, I love you..."
"Chi Jinjin." Nan Xuqiu looked at her and said seriously again, "I love you, I like you. This is not a spur-of-the-moment feeling, it has been planned for a long time. This is not a joke, I am serious."
He told her in the wind that he hoped this wind carrying his love could blow into the heart of the girl in front of him.
Chi Jinjin clenched the fence, looked away, and said, "I think my answer is clear to you, senior."
"Gao Yi already has a girlfriend." Nan Xuqiu said.
Chi Jinjin said, "I know."
"So, even without Gao Yi, I can't... right?" Nan Xuqiu's voice trembled slightly, and the last three words were particularly trembling.
"Nan Xuqiu." Chi Jinjin suddenly asked him, "Do you still like Tagore's poetry?"
Nan Xuqiu replied, "I like it."
"Then you must have read 'The Story of Fish and Bird,'" Chi Jinjin said. "There's a passage in it that's very true: the farthest distance in the world is between a fish and a bird. One is in the sky, while the other is deep in the sea."
Chi Jinjin looked at him and said, "You and I are like a fish and a bird. Birds won't go into the water, and fish won't go into the sky. Actually, thinking back on it, I feel that your leaving, your decisiveness, and your decision were lucky things for me."
"At that time, I only learned to love one person, but never considered the future. I trapped myself in the romantic and ignorant dreams of my youth. After entering university, I realized that there is actually a term in this world called 'equal status'..."
Love is a matter between two people, but it is also a matter between two families.
In a family with a huge gap between the two, such love will not last far even if both parties are in love.
That day, she heard the conversation between Gao Yi and his girlfriend and suddenly understood a lot.
She thought that if she had really been with Nan Xuqiu at the beginning, they would probably end up in the same situation.
The furthest distance in the world is not the distance between trees, but the branches that grow from the same root but cannot rely on each other in the wind.
The furthest distance in the world is not that the branches cannot rely on each other in the wind, but that the stars are gazing at each other but their trajectories will never intersect.
"You and I are like birds and fish, branches that cannot depend on each other in the wind, and stars that can only gaze at each other. Since our paths won't intersect, why bother trying? It's better to just gaze at each other like this." Chi Jinjin sighed and said solemnly, "So, Nan Xuqiu, do you understand?"
There were so many things between them: Gao Yi, Lin Shuya, the past five years, and the door that could not be crossed.
Nan Xuqiu didn't say anything else.
Chi Jinjin turned and left the Diaoyutai. After getting ashore, she couldn't help but look back at him slowly.
He grabbed the railing of the fence with both hands, lowered his head, and looked lonely.
Nan Xuqiu......
How can I explain to you that when I want to love you again, the fear is just as boundless. You know, I'm timid and I'm really scared.
A month has passed since we parted.
Gao Yi seems to have really broken up with his girlfriend. He has gone from being in high spirits at the beginning to being listless now.
He was also given a serious warning for drinking and smashing things in the dormitory.
This month, Nan Xuqiu has been quiet and no longer sends her any messages.
Just when Chi Jinjin thought that Nan Xuqiu was finally willing to let her go, her cell phone rang. She took it out and saw that it was him!
Chi Jinjin hesitated for a moment and answered the phone.
"Chi Jinjin, I want to talk to you again." Nan Xuqiu said.
Chi Jinjin opened her mouth to refuse.
But before she could speak, the other party continued, "This is the last time, I promise. Considering that I rescued you from the police station before, please come see me again, okay?"
Thinking of his previous help to her, Chi Jinjin couldn't refuse.
If she refused, she would appear ungrateful, and she herself could not accept it.
It's just a meeting.
The matter between her and him really needs to be properly resolved.
Before, the solutions were sudden and vague.
This time, let's be serious and clear.
Chi Jinjin plucked up the courage to agree to Nan Xuqiu.
Nan Xuqiu once again decided to meet at Diaoyutai.
A few days later, Chi Jinjin went to the appointment.
He had already arrived at Diaoyutai, and it seemed that he had arrived very early.
"You said you wanted to have a good talk with me, so, what else do you want to say?" Chi Jinjin asked directly. She didn't want to beat around the bush. Anyway, she came with the determination to draw a line and end everything.
"Chi Jinjin, I regret it." Nan Xuqiu said to her.
His distinct black and white eyes gradually became moist and red.
Chi Jinjin's heart trembled. She had to admit that Nan Xuqiu's behavior really made people unable to help but feel pity for him.
When a person with a gentle and bright smile turns red in the eyes, it always makes people feel as if the whole world has let him down.
Chi Jinjin couldn't help feeling a little guilty, always feeling like she had become a heartless bad person. She couldn't help but comfort him, "You don't have to regret it, you didn't do anything wrong."
"No, I was wrong, absolutely wrong..." Nan Xuqiu smiled bitterly and said, "Chi Jinjin, you said you and I are like a bird and a fish. You said the bird will always be in the sky. So, what if the bird is willing to go into the sea?"
"How could a flying bird fly into the sea? Doesn't it want to live?" Chi Jinjin questioned.
Nan Xuqiu said, "Maybe."
As soon as she finished speaking, Chi Jinjin looked at him and suddenly opened his arms, smiled at her, and the next moment he fell backwards into the vast ocean without hesitation!
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