Chapter 53: Die to Live, Live to Die

Chapter 53: Die to Live, Live to Die

"Want a cup? Absorbing sugar is good for happiness." Xing said seriously and stuffed the slightly iced fairy happy tea into my hand.

The transparent plastic cup is filled with light-colored milk tea. The pearls at the bottom are round and plump, the cream on the top is light and fluffy, and there are even some chopped nuts sprinkled on it. It really looks like it can make people happy.

——It would be better if the three of them weren't staring at me the whole time.

I took a sip as a gesture, then put it in my hand and thanked them first, "Thank you for worrying about me."

"No trouble, no trouble." Xing put his hands on his hips with great pride, as if the fact that I used them had never existed.

But just because they don't care doesn't mean I can just ignore it. "I'm sorry about the prison. If you need any compensation from me, please let me know."

"Compared to that, I want to know what exactly you are chasing after?" Dan Heng folded his arms and said rationally, "You could have taken a more cautious approach."

He paused at the right time, waiting for Jingyuan's explanation. But what he didn't say in his heart was: If not, do you have a certain tendency to self-destruct?

This was the question that Dan Heng thought about repeatedly last night. It was hard for him to imagine what could be going on in Luofu that required Jing Yuan to take such actions in order to advance the cause.

......It was as if Jing Yuan had no resources to mobilize, and didn't even feel qualified to ask others for help, so he resorted to such unscrupulous means.

Thinking of this again, Dan Heng looked deeply at the silent "Jing Yuan", "What on earth have you been through?"

"Jingyuan" tightened his grip on Happy Tea, as if he wanted to use the coolness to calm himself down a little.

"They are just some past events that don't need to be explored. If you must tell me..." He didn't seem to want to answer this question, but because of his guilt he gave a certain expansion, "Just understand it as what "Yanqing" and the others said just now. Of course, the reality is far less exaggerated. ”

He placed the stress on the last word for emphasis.

But that might not be an exaggeration at all. Dan Heng was judging in his heart. Just as "Yan Qing" said: He has been walking alone for too long.

However, all his efforts only resulted in a dead end... No one could accept such an outcome, even the seemingly gentle and indifferent General Shen Ce would have his obsession.

"I'm very sorry for leaving without saying goodbye when I boarded the Starry Sky Train last time. I also need to apologize to Mr. Walter. Please convey my apology to me. If I have the opportunity to board the train again in the future, I will apologize to Mr. Walter in person."

"Jingyuan" probably really didn't want to discuss himself, and even changed the subject particularly abruptly.

San Yueqi, who arrived a step behind, just heard this. She took the milk tea handed to her by Xing and said cheerfully, "Uncle Yang and the others should have left by now to fulfill Ms. Ruan Mei's commission. But it's nothing, and it was Uncle Yang who asked us to pay more attention to you."

...The attention Mr. Walter mentioned should only be about being careful and vigilant, right?

I thought helplessly, and because there was nothing else to say, I could only continue drinking the cup of Shaobingxianren Happy Tea in my hand to cover up.

But Danheng obviously knew more, so much so that he looked at me with a strange look at this moment.

After a while, he took a deep breath and asked in a strong tone: "When you were imprisoned in the prison, were you cut off from all contact with the outside world except for official business?"

Therefore, they have no way to ask anyone for help, and are even unwilling to ask anyone for help because of their own "sins".

......Why did the topic suddenly jump here? "Yanqing" They didn't mention the Prison either!

However, Dan Heng showed an aggressive attitude at this time, revealing all the speculations that should have been groundless: "Is your demonic body also caused by drugs? Did you encounter more in-depth experiments after triggering a series of events?"

After asking those questions that were originally about the past, Dan Heng did not finish yet, and even continued to ask: "Did you expect Jing Yuan to be sent away before the drug-induced demonic body? Did you deliberately replace him and do everything afterwards in order to prevent him from following your path?"

To the end, he spoke almost in an affirmative tone.

But these things were not something Dan Heng would know. Perhaps out of caution, Mr. Walter told him some speculative words, but why did Jing Yuan choose to let Dan Heng know all this?

......I suddenly felt a little regretful. I should have asked Xing directly on Yuzhao. Even if it seemed inhumane, it was better than facing those non-existent problems here.

Dan Heng knew that his different attitude would attract the surprised gazes of Xing and Sanyue, but he had to ask this question, otherwise "Jing Yuan" would always find a way to evade the question.

——Only in this way can you show your attitude of questioning.

But when these questions were really asked, "Jing Yuan" seemed to be relieved. Although he did not answer, he did not evade the question. He just asked first: "Are these questions what you want to ask, or did Jing Yuan ask you to ask?"

"As for the specific questions, that's what I want to ask." Dan Heng answered truthfully.

So "Jing Yuan" smiled helplessly, "Although we are not the same, he always understands me."

If Jing Yuan asked these questions, he would be destined to get no answers, or a complete rejection.

In Jingyuan's opinion, even if I really did all this, I would never tell anyone, especially him. Just like what Jingyuan did for me, he never told me.

Neither he nor I want our relationship to turn into a transactional one.

But what I don’t understand is why Jing Yuan thinks I can confess to Dan Heng?

I don’t know if my emotions were too obvious, so Dan Heng directly answered the question in my mind: “Because Jing Yuan said that you may need my help for some things. In order to convince me, you have to give a reasonable explanation.”

......Although what he said was not complete, it was enough for me to understand Jingyuan's thoughts.

Jing Yuan's general meaning is: "Jing Yuan" may give some seemingly reasonable reasons to ask for your help. I will tell you my information. At that time, you must be careful to distinguish the truth from the false and don't be fooled. Of course, if you are curious, you can ask. Although he may not tell you, it would be better if you can ask what really happened.

"I'm sorry, I have Dan Heng here, I should..." I stopped suddenly and remembered something.

We once encountered an unidentified attack at the Yichen Inn. "Dan Heng" and "Ren" have been investigating the matter. Although they have not been able to find any concrete evidence, they have finally confirmed that those creatures that quickly rotted and turned into a pool of liquid after falling to the ground are indeed related to Chi Ming.

Except for those who go out to work, the Chiming people generally live deep in the ancient sea. If you want to understand deeper things, it is not enough to rely solely on the exploration of "Dan Heng".

But Dan Heng is different. Master Long did something to him when he was reincarnated, so he can always recall some different memories.

Jing Yuan probably didn't know all this, but he still guessed some of my purpose from the fact that I had planted an insider in the Chiming tribe.

"......Jingyuan is right, I do need your help." I was almost laughing at myself. I hadn't thought clearly about what I was going to do, but Jingyuan paved the way for me and Danheng gave me a reminder.

The cold hand on my forehead brought me out of my previous emotions. I took a deep breath and said solemnly, "If I deny those questions, will you believe it?"

I have to admit that what Danheng said is logically reasonable. If I were not the person involved, I would probably have to guess whether this is really possible.

That is why my denial is of no use at this point.

But what can I admit? Could it be that I should do as they said and pretend to be General Luofu who has gone through countless hardships and still remains true to his original aspirations?

...Forget it. I had already changed my mind when I was in the Scale Abyss Realm.

Even though I have warned myself never to do that kind of thing again, as the saying goes, once there is a first time, there will be a second time. I warned myself deeply precisely because I might do it.

I can't be as tough as Jingyuan, and any difficulty may make me cross that line.

Therefore, I cannot agree to these things in order to gain their deep trust.

For no reason, Xing felt that Jing Yuan seemed to be a little distant in silence, even more distant than when they first arrived in Luofu and met Jing Yuan.

Xing looked at Dan Heng silently with a questioning look: Are you saying that this person is autistic?

San Yue Qi started to ponder it, and finally shook his head, signaling to them: This feels more like an escape after the scar has been revealed.

However, Dan Heng, who knew everything, had a completely different idea from them: Perhaps, this was the truest form of "Jing Yuan" now.

In the future, he was forced to fall into the devil's body and kill his colleagues, leading to irreversible consequences. After regaining his sanity, he was unable to completely cure the disease, so he had to be imprisoned in the prison to continue working.

After experiencing a long period of losing his mind and being reborn in death, it would probably be difficult for him to have those pure emotions again. Not to mention that after that, he would most likely undergo another experiment and become a being capable of completely suppressing his loss of control to the point of not resisting at all when facing death.

There is no joy, no fear, only dying to live and living to die.

......In this case, can he really be considered a normal person?

"Don't worry." Dan Heng said soothingly, "You don't need to pretend to be who you were before, and you don't need to force yourself to give a reasonable response to everything. You just need to show your true self."

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