Chapter 104 Chapter 104: Destruction before construction. He deliberately revealed...
Hearing this, He Shengnian was stunned again.
Xu Qinghu's remarks far exceeded his expectations.
The scene he imagined, where the two of them would reconcile after he apologized, did not happen.
He was even forced by Xu Qinghu to reveal his true thoughts deep in his heart.
She is so perceptive.
This sensitivity is like a sharp thorn growing out of her body, making her look particularly sharp and dangerous, but at the same time it also makes her seem more real and more formidable.
In that instant, He Shengnian's feelings towards her were extremely complex. He stared at Xu Qinghu intently, as if trying to see into her heart through her beautiful peach blossom eyes.
Xu Qinghu didn't avoid his gaze. Instead, she said, "I told you when we first met that I wanted to enter the entertainment industry. If you want to find a partner who is completely compatible with you, you shouldn't have chosen me out of pity."
The entertainment industry is a big melting pot, full of good and bad people, and full of decadence and extravagance. If you want to stand out in it, you can’t do without the blessing of money and power.
This is also one of the reasons why she decided to join a dating variety show after breaking up with Wu Xuan.
She needs fame, which can allow her to take shortcuts. She also needs a well-known boyfriend, who is her apparent umbrella and can reduce other people's coveting of her.
Sometimes having a relationship can make you live in a safer environment than not having one.
The person she chose was Gu Jingchen, who had a gentle personality and was easy to control. However, it turned out that her choice was completely wrong.
He Shengnian said that she wanted to use him to get to the top, and she scoffed at such a statement.
If she doesn't need him, why would she try to please him? Is she bored?
He Shengnian came back to his senses, and his mentality completely changed. "Xu Qinghu, are you sincere to me?"
Looking at her clear eyes, he finally asked the most confusing question in his mind.
Did Xu Qinghu really like him? If so, how could she become a completely different person overnight?
He wanted to know what she really thought of Wu Xuan, and also wanted to know if she was just playing around with him.
This question made Xu Qinghu silent again.
She looked at He Shengnian's stern face. They stood face to face, and she could easily see the micro-expressions on his face. He could say such words, of course he had expectations of her.
Otherwise he would not have temporarily abandoned his status and dignity.
His eyes were like a deep pool, staring at Xu Qinghu quietly, unwilling to miss any changes in her emotions.
Xu Qinghu laughed, with a hint of self-mockery in his eyes, "Do you think I am sincere?"
She asked, "Is your family background as good as Wu Xuan's? Do you value me as much as Wu Xuan does? If I didn't like you, I could have pursued Du Yanting or approached You Zhi. Why would I choose you right after dating you? How are you better than them? Are you ignoring me, weighing the pros and cons for me, or just turning a blind eye to my situation?"
"You think I'm using you," Xu Qinghu said, "just because you helped me with a few lawsuits? If you didn't help me with this kind of thing, I would have found another law firm. Or do you think I'm coveting your background and connections? Then tell me, do I need your connections to achieve my current popularity? Or have I ever asked you for anything for my own selfish desires?"
She hit the nail on the head: "If it's about money, have I ever asked you for a gift? If it's about power, what can you bring me?"
"He Shengnian, don't take yourself too seriously, and don't take others too lightly. I can give you my sincerity, but I can also take it all back if I find it's not worth it."
"It has nothing to do with what you have, it's just about wanting it back, that's all."
He Shengnian should have been angry when he heard this, but he finally let go of his worries.
"Where's Wu Xuan?" he asked, "Why did you secretly meet him on the rooftop?"
This was the trigger that made him suspicious of her.
"Can't I meet him?" Xu Qinghu sneered, "What's your relationship with me? How can you control my social interactions?"
"Xu Qinghu," He Shengnian said in a more serious tone, "Don't be angry with me."
He said: "No matter where our relationship goes in the future, I hope we can make things clear to each other."
"If we continue with this misunderstanding, it will be a pity for both you and me." He said gently, "That's why I came here to see you."
The mockery in Xu Qinghu's eyes faded, and he said calmly, "There's nothing between him and me."
He Shengnian's eyes suddenly changed.
"As for why we met on the rooftop, what else could it be?" Xu Qinghu said expressionlessly, "He came to the dating show to ask me to get back together, and I disagreed. Isn't it okay for me to negotiate with him?"
"Why didn't you tell me?" This was the question that bothered He Shengnian the most. "If you had told me in advance, I wouldn't have disbelieved you."
"Why would I tell you?" Xu Qinghu asked, "So you can discover my shameful past? Being told off by the boy's parents when we were dating—is that something worth bragging about?"
Xu Qinghu didn't show any emotion, but He Shengnian still noticed the trembling in her voice.
She cared a lot about the reason why she broke up with Wu Xuan, otherwise she would not have spoken so harshly to him when they broke up.
All of this stemmed from her lack of self-confidence. She was worried that after he learned the truth, he would be dissatisfied with her in every way, just like Wu Xuan's family.
This discovery made He Shengnian's heartbeat freeze, and the obvious pain made it almost impossible for him to suppress his true thoughts, "How is this possible?"
His eyes were filled with heartache, and he blurted out: "How could I possibly make the same choice? You said I don't trust you, but how much trust do you have in me?"
He said in a deep voice: "If I cared about these things, why would I contact you?"
He was heartbroken and angry. "Xu Qinghu, you said I was cruel to you, so how could you be any better to me?"
"The facts have proven that my choice was right," Xu Qinghu looked at his extremely handsome face and turned his head away. "I just hid it from you temporarily to test how arrogant you were towards me."
He Shengnian's pupils contracted violently for a moment.
Xu Qinghu: "This is not a bad thing for me."
She whispered, "I almost believed you would treat me well and be willing to hold my hand, but in the end you were no different from everyone else."
She sighed softly, as if finally letting go of their relationship. "It's still embarrassing to say it now, but it feels like a relief."
"He Shengnian, let's stop here."
She continued, "We are not suitable for each other at all. I was too delusional in the past, thinking that I could still find true love, but now, my dream has been awakened."
"I accept this reality and will move on."
She waved again, this time there was no resentment or unwillingness in her eyes, but she said goodbye calmly.
He Shengnian looked at her face and thought of all the malice she had suffered. His heart felt like it was hit hard by a sledgehammer, and unprecedented bitterness and self-blame surged in his heart.
If he had been willing to understand Xu Qinghu better, if he had been able to control his anger and communicate with her properly after the incident, if he had been more patient with her, they would not have reached this point.
"Xu Qinghu," he called her, "This is not the end."
He said without a doubt: "This is a new beginning for us."
He walked over to her, looked down into her eyes, and lowered his voice: "I don't want to regret what I didn't do before."
"You can try to trust me, and I will never let you down again."
He stared into her eyes, his voice trembling slightly, and it was obvious that the previous exchange had touched the pity deep in his heart.
Not only did it not make him choose to stay away from her, but it made him feel even softer and fonder towards her.
The thorny wild rose also has a weak side.
Such weakness moved him more than any feedback.
"From now on, you can be your true self." He said slowly, "You don't have to act bright and sunny in front of me, and you don't have to care about what I think. Just do whatever you want, as long as you are happy."
Xu Qinghu suddenly raised his head.
I only heard him say: "This time, let me get closer to you."
The two looked at each other. There was obvious astonishment in Xu Qinghu's eyes, but He Shengnian was very determined. "The past cannot be changed, but I can prove to you that I will not make the same wrong choice again."
"This time, let me pursue you."
The emotion in his eyes was so strong that Xu Qinghu couldn't help but take a step back. "Mr. He, haven't we made everything clear?"
She seemed to not understand why He Shengnian did this.
"It's not over," He Shengnian said, no longer hiding his true feelings. "Xu Qinghu, my feelings for you have never changed."
He has a crush on her.
Maybe he was the first one to shake her hand on the day they first met.
Or maybe it was the day they went to the jewelry exhibition, and she was like a happy butterfly, easily making him happy.
These feelings of affection were too subtle, so when faced with her advances, he subconsciously chose to reject them.
Xu Qinghu said they were not suitable, didn’t he know they were not suitable?
But in their subsequent contacts, he still unconsciously paid attention to her situation.
He had restrained these irrational emotions and treated her with extreme indifference.
But all this was in vain.
Perhaps before today, he still had some scrutiny of Xu Qinghu in his heart, but from now on, he only wanted Xu Qinghu to feel happy and free.
He Shengnian finally realized that liking someone is not about making her become someone you are satisfied with in every way, but about letting her be her true self.
This made him feel more moved than asking her to please him.
Xu Qinghu stood there, thinking he was hallucinating. "Did you make a mistake?"
She said subconsciously: "We are over, don't you understand?"
Seeing her reaction, He Shengnian relaxed. "It's over for you, but it's nothing for me."
"Xu Qinghu, from now on, I will be a competent suitor."
"Are you crazy?" Xu Qinghu seemed a little afraid of his current appearance. He turned around and ran downstairs. "If I say it's over, it's over. You'd better not bother me!"
After saying that, he disappeared at the stairs.
He Shengnian did not chase after her. He looked at the night sky above his head, and the depression in his heart finally dissipated. He thought that he could give her a night to calm down.
Tomorrow is their new beginning.
When Xu Qinghu returned to the room, Ruan Xiaoyu was taking a shower in the bathroom.
The sound of the shower was a bit noisy, but Xu Qinghu's eyes were calm, without any of the panic he had on the rooftop.
He Shengnian.
She murmured the name.
After a moment, the corners of his mouth slowly curled up, and his eyes sparkled in the dim light.
It’s really not easy.
She was able to force the male protagonist to say those words and even take the initiative to approach her. How difficult her journey must have been.
What about negotiating with Wu Xuan on the rooftop, deliberately concealing the relationship between herself and Wu Xuan, and deliberately mentioning his cold observation of herself in public opinion, and his many accusations and disappointments towards him, were all these just to expose his true face and break up with him completely?
Of course not.
If she just wanted to break up, why would she reveal so many flaws and let him guess her true thoughts?
She could have stated openly that she no longer had feelings for him, instead of going around in circles and continuing to pester him.
All the retreats to advance are just to make him like me more.
To see him lower himself and put himself in a more important position.
Otherwise, why would she try so hard to please him? Was it just to break up him and Qiao Wanshu? Don't be ridiculous.
Xu Qinghu walked to the balcony and looked at the lights of thousands of houses on the opposite bank that were gradually going out, his eyes shining frighteningly.
She gripped the railing tightly with her fingers, and a buzzing sound came from her throat, like laughter, but also like self-mockery.
Gusts of night wind rose from the garden, rolling up the rose petals that had fallen during the day. The rich and cool breath gradually calmed Xu Qinghu's eyes.
It was as if the real emotion at that moment was just an illusion that had never existed.
"Hulu," Ruan Xiaoyu's voice came from behind, "Are you back?"
"Yeah." Xu Qinghu turned around and said in a normal voice, "Have you finished using the bathroom?"
"Okay," Ruan Xiaoyu said with a smile, "It's getting late, go take a shower, you still have to go to work tomorrow."
Xu Qinghu walked over from the balcony and asked, "Hasn't the production team received any news about Teacher Gu yet?"
Ruan Xiaoyu shook her head. "Ruoxi wanted to go to the hospital to visit, but the director said Teacher Gu hasn't woken up yet and needs to be hospitalized for observation."
Xu Qinghu nodded and went into the bathroom with his spare clothes.
It was late at night and most people in the cabin had fallen asleep.
In a hospital in the city center, a young man lying on a hospital bed had a frown on his face, as if he was having a nightmare from which he would never wake up.
Gu Jingchen had difficulty breathing and a splitting headache, but he was conscious and knew he was dreaming. This feeling of dreaming within a dream made him feel extremely confused.
But what happened in the dream made him even more horrified.
He dreamed of Xu Qinghu and everyone in the cabin, including Qi Song and Wu Xuan.
His previous dreams were discontinuous, making him feel like he was walking in a fog, unable to understand what they were trying to express.
But this time the dream was coherent.
Ever since he participated in the dating variety show, every frame has appeared exceptionally clear.
But what happened in the dream was very different from reality.
On the day he arrived at the cabin, he fell in love with Qiao Wanshu at first sight. He got a date with her earlier than others and had further contact with her.
They soon developed an ambiguous feeling, and just when he thought he and Qiao Wanshu would move forward step by step, Xu Qinghu appeared.
She came to the dating show as a catfish, and expressed her clear affection for him at the restaurant where they first met.
She said he was her favorite type and she hoped to get to know him better in the future.
Gu Jingchen in the dream was a little flattered. After all, Xu Qinghu was very beautiful, a rare beauty. She chose to choose someone like Du Yanting and He Shengnian, but paid so much attention to him, which satisfied his male vanity very well.
Xu Qinghu always kept his word. After arriving at the cabin, he immediately used the extra date card to invite him out. The two of them had very compatible personalities during the date. Although "Gu Jingchen" had already determined his target, he still couldn't help but develop a good impression of Xu Qinghu.
This kind of good feeling came with great force, but it did not make "Gu Jingchen" lose his mind. Instead, he restrained the thoughts deep in his heart.
He is a very realistic person. Although Xu Qinghu is very attractive, he will not give up a better choice because of impulse.
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