Chapter 410 Yinzhen
In August of the thirteenth year of the Yongzheng Emperor's reign, Yinzhen, who had been burdened by years of paperwork, fell ill. His condition deteriorated rapidly, and he passed away a few days later at the age of 58.
Even in the moments before his death, he did not relinquish his official duties.
In this life, he had few family ties, was not valued by his father, was not loved by his mother, had few brothers, and had few people who understood him. Only by devoting himself to politics day and night could he find his value and meaning in his existence.
He has always wanted to prove, and has been trying to prove, his legitimacy, that he is actually likable.
In the end, however, he remained a lonely man.
In the first half of his life, he was preoccupied with the throne; in the second half, he worked diligently to prove that he deserved the throne.
Only when he closed his eyes did Yinzhen feel an unprecedented sense of ease. There was no fear of death, no reluctance to relinquish the throne, only relaxation and relief.
It wasn't until he truly let go that I realized he hadn't actually wanted to hold on that much. It was just that he had received so little in the past, so he was afraid to open his fist, afraid to find that he had nothing in his hand.
However, even emperors cannot escape death.
Who doesn't come into this world naked and leave naked?
Yinzhen felt some regret, regretting that he understood too late and that he had been stubbornly confined within his own framework.
Confined to a cold and self-possessed frame by the Emperor's "unpredictable" evaluation, bound by a self-imposed constraint by the unrequited maternal love, and bound by a self-critical frame by rumors of an illegitimate ascension to the throne...
If he could do it all over again, what would Yinzhen want to break free from? To break free from these constraints and not be held hostage by anyone or anything.
But that's not the way to break it!
At the moment of death, Yinzhen did not expect to still be conscious. He felt his soul separating from his body. Amid the wails of the crowd, he passed through the roof of the Hall of Mental Cultivation. He heard the muffled tolling of the funeral bells, but before him was a sky full of cracks.
That one glance was enough to cause Yinzhen to feel an overwhelming sense of fear and sorrow.
The terror was more unbearable than death itself. Although it was only a brief glimpse, that scene was deeply imprinted in Yinzhen's mind, making him unable to let go for a long time and often waking up from nightmares.
Yes, he died, and he came back to life.
Realizing he had been reborn as a child, Yinzhen quickly accepted it. After all, the sky had already cracked, so his rebirth didn't seem like a big problem.
Because the impression of Tianlie was so profound, so profound that after his rebirth, his thoughts were so chaotic that he ignored the people and things around him. After learning that Shisan was born, in order to seek some comfort, he ran to see him without much thought.
Then, Xiao Ba cornered him in the yard.
"Is the thirteenth brother good-looking? He must be a lovely and adorable child, very much to the liking of the fourth brother. Otherwise, the fourth brother wouldn't have left me to go see him."
"..." Yinzhen was speechless for a moment. Memories of Yinsi from both lifetimes intertwined at this moment, making it difficult for Yinzhen to empathize with his former self, including the Yongzheng Emperor of the previous life and the brother-obsessed Xiao Si of this life.
Very good, the "third" Yinzhen has been born.
Seeing that he didn't speak, Yinzhi's expression became even more sour. His lips sank down, and he said sarcastically, "I knew it. You said you were my best friend, but you're just tired of me. Anyway, Fourth Brother has other brothers outside who are better at chatting, better at acting cute, and better at coaxing their older brothers. I'm not staying here; I'm just annoying people."
"Xiao Ba..."
Before Yinzhen could salvage the situation, Yinsi stormed out.
Although Yinzhen's memories were not yet clear, his body's reaction told him that he was doomed and in deep trouble.
...
In the Imperial Study, the throne next to Yinzhi was seized by Yinqi and Yinzuo;
At the training ground, Yinzhi was being trained by Yinzhi.
After school, Yinzhi was supervised in his studies by Yinreng;
On his day off, Yinzhi was entangled by Yintang and Yinzhi.
Having not found an opportunity to explain for half a month, Yinzhen's mood grew increasingly tense, making the servants in the courtyard afraid to even breathe loudly.
Having fully integrated all the memories, Yinzhen, on the one hand, disliked Yongzheng's incompetence and his poor relationship with Xiao Ba; on the other hand, he also disliked Xiao Si's lack of strength, as he was actually affected by Yongzheng's memories.
Only after fully realizing the importance of self-awareness can one become the best version of oneself. Yinzhen completely skipped the agonizing process and focused solely on restoring his status as "the best friend in the world with his younger brother."
Undeterred, Yinzhen had been sitting in Yinsi's courtyard all day. Even knowing that Yinsi, Yintang, and Yinsi had gone out to play, he showed no intention of leaving.
The main point is that they won't leave until they've waited for someone.
When Yinzhi returned to the courtyard and saw Yinzhen sitting in his room, he immediately turned around with a cold face and wanted to leave.
Seeing this, Yinzhen quickly grabbed him and pulled him to sit at the table.
"Xiao Ba, don't go! It's your yard, why are you leaving?"
Yinzhi scoffed, "Then you'll leave?"
With a forced smile, Yinzhen said cautiously, "Don't panic. I'll only say one thing. If you want me to leave after I say it, I will definitely leave."
Yinzhi was angry. He looked up at him, his eyes red-rimmed, and asked, "Just one sentence?"
Yinzhen nodded hurriedly, "Yes."
Yinzhi moved to sit down next to him, leaving a large empty seat between them. "Please."
Seeing his awkward expression, Yinzhen suppressed a laugh and tentatively asked, "Then, how about just two sentences?"
Yinzhi glared at him, then got up to leave: "Say it or don't, it's up to you."
"Okay, okay, I was wrong," Yinzhen quickly grabbed his hand. "I'll talk, I'll talk."
Yinzhi snorted lightly, sat back down at the table, and looked at him leisurely: "Speak, let's see what kind of nonsense you can come up with."
When Yinzhen saw that Yinsi was willing to talk, he knew he couldn't joke anymore. He moved closer to Yinsi and said gently, "Little Eight, we grew up together since we were little. You know me, I care about you the most. We promised to be friends for a lifetime."
"Then why did you suddenly ignore me for several days, but instead went to see the thirteenth brother?"
Yinzhen smiled wryly. He didn't know how to explain. Not wanting to cause Yinsi unnecessary worry, he could only look at him sincerely and say, "I've encountered some things... Xiao Ba, believe me, I just haven't quite figured it out yet, but in my heart, you are definitely more important."
Yinzhi looked at him with tears in his eyes: "Really?"
Yinzhen reached out and put his arm around his shoulder. As someone who had been abandoned by both his birth mother and adoptive mother, he could certainly understand Yinsi's sensitivity, who was in the same situation and even worse off.
He looked directly into Yinzhi's eyes earnestly: "Indeed. We agreed to depend on each other for survival."
Yinzhi stared at him for a while, then awkwardly turned his head away, blinked, and wiped away his tears. He said softly, "I'll reluctantly forgive you this time."
"Thank you so much, Xiao Ba. You're very generous."
Yinzhen immediately broke into a smile, and Su Peisheng, who had come with him, breathed a sigh of relief; finally, the storm had passed.
Yinzhi's ears turned slightly red. He turned around and instructed the servants, "Serve the meal, or someone will say that I'm not even giving him a meal."
Yinzhen sensed his awkward attempt to befriend him, and his heart softened even more. Sure enough, Xiao Ba was his closest friend, even inviting him to stay for dinner! Who else received such treatment?
During the meal, Yinzhi placed a piece of food on Yinzhen's plate, saying somewhat awkwardly, "Although I felt you were acting a bit strange recently, no matter what happened, remember, I'm still here..."
"Xiao Ba..."
"Eat vegetables, eat vegetables."
Seeing Yinzhi blush and change the subject, Yinzhen couldn't help but laugh.
Only then did he realize that Yinzhi had noticed his unease. This feeling of being cared for was warm and comforting, an experience that Yongzheng, in his previous life, had longed for but never received.
This is good, he thought. In this life, he doesn't need to hold onto anything else, just hold Xiao Ba's hand.
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