Su Qingzhu (Part 1)
28 The subconscious was stunned for a moment after hearing this, and then laughed strangely: "Really, ignorant, fearless and arrogant!"
Bian Senlin frowned when he heard what he said. He considered himself to be a cautious and a little timid person. Sometimes he would even hesitate to the point that he couldn't bear to watch himself.
So, how is he arrogant?
When Bian Lin was observing 28's subconscious mind and came to the conclusion that he was dissatisfied with the status quo, in fact, 28's subconscious mind was also observing him.
28 My subconscious mind doesn’t quite understand. I have already explained it so clearly, so why is my past self still so stubborn?
He seems to be soft-hearted and kind, but in fact he is extremely stupid!
Doesn't he know that these are the lessons he learned from his own experiences?
It was not until he heard Bian Senlin's last words that he understood the biggest difference between his present self and his past self.
On the surface, Bian Senlin would make you think that this person is a bit cowardly.
But his words all revealed that as long as he wanted to and was willing to do something, he could do it.
How ignorant and fearless, and how arrogant!
But on the other hand, isn’t this also a kind of beautiful expectation and confidence for the future that comes from the heart?
He is different. He has been through a lot in the past few years.
He tried hard and struggled, but failed in the endless suffering. He stepped into countless pits and hit countless walls!
He was already riddled with scars and had lost the innocence he had when he was young.
28 He subconsciously struggled to stand up, causing the chains on his body to rattle; the chains instantly straightened, causing the end connected to his flesh to begin to bleed.
28 His subconscious mind ignored the wounds. He lowered his head and smiled. His laughter gradually changed from hoarse and low to a loud laugh.
The shrill laughter was mixed with a desolation that Bian Senlin could not understand.
From Bian Senlin's perspective, he tried to persuade 28 Subconscious with kind words, but the man mocked his arrogance and then laughed like crazy.
Bian Senlin felt that this man who claimed to be 28 Subconscious was completely unreasonable. He retreated cautiously, thinking about his escape route.
28 The subconscious laughter stopped abruptly, and he walked towards the edge of the forest regardless of the tearing of the chains. Blood seeped into the ground through the torn wounds, and emitted hot green smoke.
He stared fiercely at Bian Senlin, his words sounding like questions, yet also like expressions of resentment and anger:
"Do you think that as long as you want to do something, are willing to do it, and work hard, you will get what you want?"
As he spoke word by word, the ground suddenly shook and the rocks cracked!
"Hehehehe..." The low laughter was hoarse and weird.
"Then let me tell you, for many years, I have been committed to being kind to others, sticking to the moral principles in my heart, believing in people, believing in things, and believing that the world is beautiful!
In the end, I found myself to be just a hopeless fool!
I never make malicious assumptions about others, but what I get in return is unscrupulous tricks and deceptions!"
28 The subconscious face was distorted, the chains that pierced his body turned red, burning his flesh and blood, and his body began to distort.
"Tell me, why?
Why do I follow the rules and cautiously obey all the rules I was told, but in the end I get hurt by the so-called rules!
All the voices are telling you that as long as you work hard and diligently, you will be able to move towards a better future. But in reality, the road ahead is full of traps and thorns!
Tell me, why?!
Why do I work hard but end up with the opposite of what I want?
Why did all my hard work go to waste!
Why? Why?! Why!!”
28 Part of the subconscious body began to mist and merged into the sky and earth that had turned blood red. He roared to the sky, and the whole space echoed with his painful questions.
Bian Senlin knelt on the ground with his hands covering his ears. Every question from his subconscious mind seemed to become real and pierce his eardrums, and then transmit to his mind, causing severe pain.
What's even more terrifying is that dark red and hot magma began to burst out of the cracked ground.
As the ground shook, a small stream of lava splashed out and landed on Bian Senlin's arm, which was covering his ears.
“Ughhhh!!”
His skin and flesh were burning, and Bian Senlin fell to the ground in pain, covering his arm!
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On the other side, Su Qingzhu followed the scavenger back to the village where he lived.
"Old He, why are you doing this?
You can't even take care of yourself, and yet you picked up a baby to raise, and it's a girl!"
"Well, what can we do? We can't just watch this kid freeze to death outside."
The old man who picked up rubbish was named He. After he brought little Layue home, he wanted to find a good family for the little girl.
But they live in a remote and poor area, and every family has difficulty taking care of themselves, so how can they have the energy to raise another girl?
After much deliberation, Old He finally decided to adopt Little Larou himself. As long as he had something to eat, the poor little kid would never starve.
Su Qingzhu was watching from the side. She now understood that the abandoned baby girl was herself back then.
Distant memories churned up, and my vision began to distort.
"Well……"
Su Qingzhu half-supported herself on the ground, she drove away the dizziness in her mind, and the scene before her eyes had changed.
Old He staggered into a house in front. His face looked even older. He carefully held a small black bag in his hand and carefully protected it in his arms.
"Old He, are you here to buy meat for your little Layue again?" A man came out of the family and greeted Old He with a smile.
Whenever someone in the village slaughters a pig, Lao He will come to buy some leftover meat to take back. Everyone is used to it.
Old He's old face wrinkled with laughter: "Yes, the little girl is still growing, make her some meat soup to replenish her fat and water."
Su Qingzhu looked around and compared it with the memories in his mind, judging that this was probably when he was almost 7 years old.
Thinking about what happened this year, Su Qingzhu's breathing stopped for a moment, but soon returned to normal.
The old man returned home carrying the meat he had just bought and a small black bag.
This is a small old wooden house. You can hear the creaking sound when you open the door, but it is enough to shelter an old man and a child from wind and rain.
Soon, hearing the noise, Xiao Layue ran out and pounced on Lao He.
"Ouch, slow down," Lao He smiled and caught Xiao Layue.
He took out the black bag he had been carefully protecting: "Look, what is this?"
After opening the black bag, little Layue jumped up in surprise: "Ah~ doll!"
Last month, several children in the village played house with their dolls, and Xiao Layue watched for a long time.
Although Xiao Layue is young, she is very sensible and has never spoken to Lao He.
But Lao He took this matter to heart. This time when he went to the town, he brought one back specially for Xiao Layue.
Xiao Layue has red lips and white teeth, and her clothes are old but clean. It is obvious that she is well taken care of by Lao He.
Lao He used the meat he bought to make a pot of meatball soup and gave Layue a full bowl.
Layue was drooling, but seeing that Lao He didn't touch the meatballs, he pushed the bowl to Lao He and said, "Grandpa, eat too."
Lao He smiled and touched Layue's hair: "Grandpa had already eaten it when he made it, and these are left for Layue."
Little Layue believed it and started to eat the rice with the bowl in his little hands.
After Xiao Layue had finished her meal and ran out to play with her baby, Lao He took a bowl and scooped out the remaining meatballs in the pot and put them away.
Heat it up in the evening and it will be enough for another meal in the twelfth lunar month.
Afterwards, Lao He ate some vegetable leaves with the remaining soup in the pot and finished his meal.
After dinner, Lao He began to sort out the cardboard boxes and bottles and jars he had picked up. He classified the paper boxes and various bottles and put them in order. When they accumulated to a certain amount, he would sell them.
Ever since he adopted little Layue, he has tidied up the originally messy house.
Although he is a garbage collector, he also has to ensure that Xiao Layue lives comfortably and cleanly.
When Xiao Layue saw Lao He busy, she ran into the house to put her baby doll away, and then ran out to help Lao He.
I saw her take a plastic bottle from the bamboo basket and put it on the ground. She stepped on the bottle with her two little feet until it was flattened, then picked it up and put it skillfully in another bamboo basket.
Old He touched her little head with praise, and little Layue smiled sweetly.
At night, Lao He sat on a small stool and counted the income from selling cardboard bottles today by the light.
Looking at little Layue playing with her doll beside him, Lao He smiled with satisfaction: "Our little Layue is almost seven years old. By then we will be able to go to school in town."
Little Layue pouted and said, "But I heard from the village chief that if I go to school in town, I'll need to rent a house, which will cost a lot of money."
Old He was stunned for a moment, then realized that the last time he asked the village chief about his child's schooling, he might have been overheard by the kid.
Nowadays, children can go to school without paying tuition fees, but the nearest primary school is in the town.
The school does not provide accommodation, so if you want to go to school you can only rent a house in town. The cheapest one will cost at least three or four thousand yuan a year, which is a considerable expense.
Lao He rubbed Layue's little head and said, "Don't worry, Grandpa has money. We, Layue, have to go to school. Only by going to school can we have a future."
Su Qingzhu stood in the shadow of the light, staring at this heartwarming scene in a trance.
But she knew that little Larou never lived to see the day when he could go to school in town.
That day, Xiao Layue was playing with her doll in the house as usual, waiting for Lao He to come home, but until it got dark, there was no sign of Lao He.
Su Qingzhu standing aside had a very ugly expression on her face, even though she couldn't influence the development of events in this space at all.
But today, when Lao He went out, she subconsciously wanted to follow him, but for some reason, she couldn't leave Xiao Layue even a hundred steps away.
Once she exceeded this distance, she would be teleported back to Xiao Layue. She tried all kinds of methods, but the result was always the same.
At this time, little Larou no longer had the heart to play with the doll. She moved and sat on the doorstep, staring blankly at the path leading home.
After an unknown amount of time, several figures appeared in the distance, accompanied by urgent voices:
"What's going on?"
"Hurry! Go find a doctor, something's happened to Lao He!"
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