Present in the world, November 5, 2014.
As the scenes of the memory progressed, the scenes of the dream gradually became hazy, making it difficult for Wang Jinling to know what exactly happened afterwards. She could only guess a little from the gradually blurred scenes and the vague emotions that did not belong to her... Anyway, what happened afterwards made both parties very unhappy. She could even guess that after this, "she" and "Chen Tinghan" had completely broken up and there was no possibility of compensation.
This kind of contradictory and confusing experience of having another kind of emotion and memory popping up in the mind would probably make an ordinary person feel anxious all day long, suffer from neurasthenia, and even be unable to distinguish between dreams and reality.
But Wang Jinling was not like that. Apart from being a little uncomfortable at first, she even found it very interesting later on.
This experience of living another life was like a mirror, giving Wang Jinling a rare sense of contrast. She learned a lot from this "Wang Jinling" who was similar to her but made different choices due to some very minor events.
Why do similar or even identical ideas, the same means of doing things, lead to such huge differences in the trajectories of development?
The biggest variable is of course Chen Tinghan. Although the intelligence level of the him she knows now and the him that "Wang Jinling" knows are the same, there is a world of difference in their experience. One can be manipulated at will, while the other can compete with her and even find time to cut off Wang Kai's hands and feet.
This is not a difference that can be explained by foresight. His style of doing things is completely different.
Therefore, Wang Jinling was very suspicious that Chen Tinghan was not just "dreaming".
The subsequent changes were also brought about by him. The biggest difference between reality and dreams was that Wang Jinling did not kill anyone.
Wu Wu's death was causally related to her, but it was not her subjective will. After that, Deng Shi did not die, and Zhang Keqi did not die either.
Wang Jinling has no intention of clearing herself, but objectively speaking, killing and not killing are indeed two completely different paths. Her thinking and methods are very different from what she remembers.
"Should I thank him?" Wang Jinling smiled sarcastically, not knowing whether she was mocking him or herself.
"What?"
The girl standing opposite her put the documents in her hand on the table, then made a puzzled sound, wondering what Wang Jinling was suddenly talking about.
Wang Jinling took a sip of tea and said, "I mean, you really should thank Chen Tinghan for protecting you so well. You were so innocent, so... ignorant."
Li Zishan's face darkened and he said, "Did you come to me just to have a quarrel?"
Of course not...it could be that Wang Jinling didn't know much about Li Zishan in her dream. She had met her a few times, and based on her few impressions, she believed that she was just a flower in a greenhouse and nothing to pay attention to.
But Wang Jinling always had a strange feeling in her heart. This feeling was very strange and hard to explain. She just instinctively felt that she was a threat.
She couldn't understand it, it couldn't be out of jealousy.
"I should thank him, but this has nothing to do with you." Li Zishan raised his eyebrows and said provocatively, "It's better than you not even being qualified to thank me. You might as well apologize first."
"Yes, that's why I really envy you." Wang Jinling crossed her legs, fingers interlaced, resting on her belly. Even though she was sitting, she felt like she was looking down at the other person. She said calmly, "From the moment I was born, from the cradle to school, I breathed the air of freedom and peace, enjoying kindness that seemed to be taken for granted. It was so peaceful that even my brain could stop working."
Li Zishan almost felt like a cross appeared on her head. With a forced smile, she said, "I envy you too. You can use your frantic brain to express such viciousness, meanness, and cruelty without any trace of acting, just like you did in "The Legend of Zhen Huan." It's truly amazing."
"......" The two women fell silent. After a long time, they smiled at each other, but there was no smile in their eyes.
It was basically the same as what she had judged. He had no scheming, no cunning, and was easily irritated. Wang Jinling sighed secretly and didn't want to waste any more time.
Li Zishan also had the same idea. She shook her ponytail and prepared to leave. But before leaving, she suddenly changed her mind, turned around, stared at Wang Jinling and said, "Thank you, thank you."
This surprised Wang Jinling greatly. She stared at Li Zishan and suddenly realized what she was thanking her for. She said, "That's quite new."
"Although you certainly have bad intentions, you did help my family." Li Zishan said a little awkwardly, "One thing for each."
Wang Jinling suddenly smiled. She stood up, moved closer to Li Zishan, and said, "Otherwise, why would he like someone like you? He doesn't even show his hostility completely."
Li Zishan blushed. She didn't understand what Wang Jinling was going to say next.
Wang Jinling cupped Shanshan's cheek with her index finger and thumb and said, "But you still don't understand him well enough. You don't understand his persistence, his twistedness. You're not right for him, and he doesn't belong to you."
Li Zishan's expression gradually became filled with stubbornness. He stared at Wang Jinling without flinching and said slowly, "I know."
"What do you know?" Wang Jinling couldn't help laughing.
"I know what position you hold in his heart, and I know you've helped him, so I hate you." Li Zishan said, "I can obviously do better than you."
"But the fact is, you were in the same class with him and were his classmate for a year, but you turned a blind eye to his plight and did not take any action. How can you say you did better than me?" Wang Jinling sarcastically said.
Li Zishan bit her lip, still looking up stubbornly, and said, "No matter what, I will try my best to dig you out of his heart."
Then Li Zishan fled the student union room in a panic and trotted away.
Wang Jinling laughed silently, the touch of the other person's little face still lingering faintly. Her slender fingers clenched into fists, and she felt that the impact of this dream on her was getting deeper and deeper. Those emotions that did not belong to her were influencing her behavior all the time. At this moment, she was actually angry with such a little girl.
She casually picked up the application form on the table. It was the program that Class 8 had come up with after an evening study session. The finalized content was dancing and painting, which seemed to be two completely unrelated goals. However, after reading the details, Wang Jinling saw what Li Zishan was thinking.
Li Zishan wanted to express her feelings to the boy during the intermission performance at the sports meet.
This is what is called youth, love yourself and dare to love, and say what you think in your heart.
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