The sentimental farewell at the end of summer in the ivory tower reached its peak at the graduation dance.
Some were calmer, believing that even after leaving this ivory tower, everything they had gained in this school would not disappear. Others were quite sentimental, crying uncontrollably on the spot, as if they were experiencing a heartbreaking separation from their loved ones.
In fact, for this school, countless generations of students have come and gone, and the alma mater has witnessed these students blossom and then pass by. The memories will not fade, but this experience will never be repeated, it is a unique one in life.
People come and go. This is the last lesson this school can teach children.
Sadness and regret, pain and anger, sincerity and passion, friendship and love only happen once. People have countless next times, but next time, they will learn how to defend themselves so as not to experience this kind of heartbreak again.
This is what growing up is.
So tonight is the last time they will be the protagonists here.
Chen Tinghan held his heroine's hand and danced on the dance floor.
She was wearing a white dress, with her hands wrapped in gauze, so dazzling and soft.
When the dance reached the end, Li Zishan stopped, her chest heaving slightly, and then she cried.
Chen Tinghan was at a loss as to what to do. He could only clumsily wipe the tears from her face like a fool and asked, "What's wrong?"
"I don't know." Li Zishan sobbed, but couldn't tell why she was crying.
So Chen Tinghan took her hand and walked out of the crowd and the venue. He didn't look up to see the curious eyes of others, nor did he respond to their concerns for the time being.
Only after all the excitement faded away and the two of them were walking in the school illuminated only by dim street lights did Li Zishan slowly stop crying.
Chen Tinghan patted her back gently, neither asking nor urging her. The only thing he did to comfort her was to accompany her and hand her a tissue when appropriate.
After a long time, she suddenly spoke with a heavy nasal voice: "I may be reluctant to do so."
Chen Tinghan listened quietly.
"I'm about to graduate, and there's still a lot of things I haven't done." Shanshan sniffed and said, "There will be things to do in the future, and I won't be with my current classmates anymore."
"Don't laugh at me, I just suddenly feel very uncomfortable."
"How could I laugh at you?" Chen Tinghan pinched her little hand as a gentle response: "I'm going through the same thing as you, but the feelings are different. Because this is not the first time I've experienced something like this."
Li Zishan tilted her head to see his expression.
Chen Tinghan continued, "I didn't feel anything last time because I didn't know anything at the time. I was confused about school, my classmates, and my own childhood. I even hated it.
When I left, I felt more relieved, like I was finally free.”
"For more than a decade, I didn't think my campus life was anything worth remembering. But as luck would have it, a jerk like me got a second chance, started all over again, and met you, Xu Jingwen, and Wu Jiaju."
Chen Tinghan smiled and said, "Thinking back on the past two years since I came back, at least nothing thrilling or memorable has happened on campus. But I still find it unforgettable."
He paused for a moment and said very seriously: "It's because of you."
The two walked into the school garden. Today was a holiday, and the place where students usually took a break was deserted, so he and she sat down and had the entire small garden to themselves.
After sitting down, Chen Tinghan put his arm around her shoulders, kissed her hair, and said, "Look, I'm the same person, in the same school, but how I look at the past is so different just by changing my perspective.
Leaving is not the end, forgetting is."
"I'm just afraid that after graduation these guys will forget me and I will forget them." Li Zishan said in a low voice.
"How could that be? You can't forget them even if you want to." Chen Tinghan said with a smile, "These memories have long become a part of you, and have become my favorite Shanshan."
Li Zishan held her chin in her hand and thought for a long time, then suddenly said, "Is she really the favorite? Compared to the other sisters?"
Chen Tinghan was stunned for a moment and immediately broke out in a sweat.
He changed the subject very abruptly and said, "Even if you really don't remember, why don't you turn around and look at me? I've always been here."
Li Zishan looked at him, suddenly sneered, and then kissed his lips.
After parting their lips, she said affectionately, "Thank you."
Li Zishan said: "Can you tell me about your past? If it's inconvenient, forget it."
The girl has always been curious about his "past", but she has always had some concerns. She is a very considerate girl and would not ask Chen Tinghan to say anything he doesn't want to say.
If he had said this before, it would have been a little difficult to bring up, but now it was okay. After all, the matter was mostly resolved. Chen Tinghan smiled and told her about his miserable high school life in his previous life, the turning point in his life, and Wang Jinling.
Chen Tinghan would not lie to Li Zishan, nor would he avoid talking about this issue.
He then talked about the regrets of his previous life and how he would make up for these regrets in this life.
This was the first time he had discussed these matters with Li Zishan. Only after the dust had settled did he dare to bring it up.
Then he also talked about how he had let Li Zishan down in the past.
"I'm a coward, a loser," Chen Tinghan said softly. "At that time, I didn't have the courage or the ability to face so many failures, let alone the losses. I was afraid you would get hurt, so I pushed you away."
"It's not just you. So many people were waiting in my previous life. All because of my obsession." Chen Tinghan laughed at himself and said, "I still can't let it go in this life. I mobilized so many people and spent so much effort.
Many people love to say thank you to me, but what are they thanking me for? It's just paying off a debt. And this debt repayment is the most unfair to you."
Of course Li Zishan understood what he meant. She stroked Chen Tinghan's cheek and suddenly felt jealous.
She had always retreated in order to advance, never asking anything of Chen Tinghan, nor interfering in his many decisions, let alone asking or questioning. In the end, what she got was an injustice?
"Is it just unfair?" Li Zishan said firmly.
"I know I'm a worthless person, so..." Before Chen Tinghan could finish his words, Li Zishan pinched his mouth.
Her eyes flashed with anger: "Who allowed you to belittle the person I like?"
Li Zishan could feel through his palms that the air coming out of his mouth was half a beat slower.
"And since you mentioned fairness, I have to be fair with you." Li Zishan said firmly: "Wang Jinling is a year older than me, and she ran away for so long, so I will do something she has never done, and make you compensate her."
"Compensation?" Chen Tinghan was a little confused.
"There's no one else here." Li Zishan's face suddenly turned red, spreading all the way to her ears, but she still insisted: "Then I want to do something she has never done, and something we will never be able to do again after we leave school!"
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