Jiang Can gradually straightened his expression and looked at her in surprise: "You can really calculate it?!"
Josh smiled and said, "Of course."
Jiang Can also laughed, with a hint of bitterness in his eyes: "What good does it matter if I can figure it out..."
He looked at Qiao Xi: "Everyone always has a lot of explanations for other people's suffering, but when it really comes to oneself, there is nothing to say."
Josh did not refute, indeed many people were like this.
Jiang Can looked at the sunset in the distance with a somewhat lonely look in his eyes: "When I was in the ancient castle copy, I saw the memory of Ceci. His father has always been very strict with him. He beat and scolded him since he was a child, and made him learn this and that. He didn't give him any time to breathe or rest, just to make him more capable of protecting his people. At that time, I even thought that this was an illusion created by the copy knowing my childhood experience, in order to resonate with me and then find my shortcomings..."
A hint of understanding flashed across Qiao Xi's eyes. No wonder she noticed that Jiang Can was weird when she saw him in the copy.
He seemed to be immersed in memories and continued, "In the castle, I dream every night. In my dreams, I go back to the past, and my father always severely admonishes me, telling me to work hard to improve my skills. My shield is not for protecting myself, but for protecting the entire village."
"I inherited my father's turtle spirit. You know, people with turtle spirits have a characteristic. They like to take on things. Just like on the battlefield, no matter how severe the attack is, we have to rush to the front line to resist the damage and protect the output."
"My father was like this. He took on responsibilities that didn't belong to him for the sake of so-called justice. My mother also paid the price of her life because of his stupidity."
"But you know what really hurts me?"
Josh shook his head and looked at him quietly.
Jiang Can was shrouded in melancholy. "What hurts me the most is that I avenged my mother, but my father didn't understand me. He never even thought I was right and even drove me out of the village because of it."
"He thinks I'm a monster. I killed people in the village and I don't deserve to stay in the village anymore."
"Even until the last moment, he didn't think it was his so-called 'righteousness' that killed his mother. Sometimes I don't know whether he is selfless or selfish, but I don't regret avenging my mother."
"He felt that it was because he didn't discipline me well and I wasn't strong enough that my mother died. It was because my shield couldn't hold more people. If it could hold more people, my mother wouldn't necessarily die..."
"It was obviously his stupidity that killed his mother, but he blamed everything on me. Just like in the castle, the prince's father even killed him, but he still didn't think he was wrong. He thought he was just disciplining his son and didn't think there was anything wrong with his behavior. These ignorant and pedantic fathers will never admit that they are wrong."
"But as I gradually gained experience and gained more knowledge, I realized that my father might not be completely wrong. Could it be that I was the one who was wrong? If I had practiced harder, my shield could have accommodated a few more people, and maybe my mother would not have died."
Qiao Xi looked at him strangely: "Why do you have such a strange idea? Life and death are personal destiny. From birth, our destiny and life span are determined. It is difficult for ordinary people to influence the destiny of others."
Jiang Can smiled somewhat bitterly: "Really..."
Josh knew he didn't believe it.
She thought for a moment and said, "You actually wanted to hate your father, but you suddenly understood that everyone has a hard time, so you were PUAed by him and took all the blame on yourself, right?"
"It's not PUA, family is family after all, how can I get away with it? Helping my family is one of my responsibilities, and what my father said is right." Jiang Can rubbed her head: "When you grow up, you will understand your family."
The corner of Qiao Xi's mouth twitched slightly. She has lived in the world of immortal cultivation for thousands of years.
She patted Jiang Can's shoulder and said, "If I had the same idea as you, I would have jumped into the river and committed suicide a long time ago."
Jiang Can looked at her in confusion: "Why?"
Josh shrugged. "You should have heard of it, right? I grew up on a garbage planet. When I was in the dungeon, whenever I met someone who knew Susanna, they would all look down on me because I came from a garbage planet."
Jiang Can didn't pay attention to this.
He has a carefree personality and rarely pays attention to online feuds with contestants.
But I did hear that Josh was a garbage star before.
Josh looked at the dusky sky in the distance and said, "My parents don't like me. They think I'm a useless waste who can't bring honor to the Augustine family. So they don't want me anymore and threw me to a garbage planet to fend for myself."
Jiang Can looked at her in surprise: "Abandoning a baby is a serious crime!"
Josh smiled and said, "Yes, of course they knew. That's why they said I was lost and kidnapped. Later, they asked me to come back just to play the emotional card, to canvass votes for my father's election, and to let the people of Graner City know what a kind father he is. After I returned home, everyone disliked me. They all said that I was a stain on the Augustine family. They tied me up at home and didn't allow me to go out and embarrass myself."
Jiang Can's brows gradually furrowed: "That's too much."
Josh: "I've thought about this before, are people from a garbage planet really unlovable? Is my existence really a stain on the Augustine family? You see, if I was PUA'd by my family like you, I might have really jumped into the river and committed suicide a long time ago."
Jiang Can looked at her with some pity. No wonder she looked pale and thin when she first came. She didn't look like a child that could be raised in an earl's family. She looked like she had just been rescued from a refugee camp.
Qiao Xi looked at him and said, "I'm not telling you this to gain sympathy. I'm telling you that I'm not being easy on myself. I've also experienced PUA from my family. The influence of the original family is really important. If we want to get rid of the PUA and negative influence from the original family, sometimes it takes us a lifetime to heal."
Jiang Can looked at her bright eyes and suddenly asked, "Then how did you heal yourself?"
Josh smiled: "I found my family."
"Found your family?" Jiang Can was puzzled by her words.
Qiao Xi patted him in a carefree manner: "Silly you, what is family? People who have the same values, the same goals, and can support and accompany each other are family! Who stipulates that only blood relatives can be family?"
Jiang Can looked at her in astonishment.
Josh looked up at the gradually darkening sky and said, "We have so little time in our lives. Who has the time to spend it on those who hate us but like to PUA us? Who are they? What are they?"
"Jiang Can, we have a lot of things to do. We are very busy. Don't waste your time on boring things like whether dog shit is sour or smelly. Look forward. If you want family, find new family. If you want friends, find new friends!"
Jiang Can's eyes became brighter and brighter, and the haze in his eyes gradually dissipated: "You are right!"
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