Chapter 38: Nightmare Muas stepped through the shadows and walked to the moonlight...
Muas stepped through the shadows and walked to the moonlight. He saw the insect that was talking and asked, "Why are you here?"
Looking over, Muas took in everything. He also saw the tiny drops of water falling on Lin Xi's clothes. He frowned and asked, "How long have you been waiting here?"
Lin Xi patted the dew on his clothes and said, "Not long, only about six or seven hours."
Muas pursed his lips, clenched his hands under his sleeves and asked, "What are you waiting for me to do?"
Lin Xi had been feeling rather melancholy these past few days, but now he had returned to his usual carefree self: "Of course I'm waiting for my muse!"
Muas' heart moved slightly, and his clenched hands loosened. Here it comes again, with the same tone again. He really wanted to roll his eyes.
Muas: "You should have recently gained a better understanding of the importance of male insects to female insects, right?"
Lin Xi raised his eyebrows: "So what?"
Muas said, "When a spirit goes into overdrive, it's not something that ordinary insects can withstand. You're someone who's easily liked by male insects."
Lin Xi put his hands in his pockets and said, "I was born like this. I didn't grow like this to please male insects. They can like me if they like, or hate me if they like. It has nothing to do with me."
Muas: "Marrying a male insect will make the rest of your life much easier."
Lin Xi stood with her hands behind her back, speaking with unwavering confidence, "I'd rather die standing than live on my knees. Marry any of those male insects you want, but don't get involved with me."
"Love is a sacred thing and can never be used as a bargaining chip. You are insulting my character."
Muas: "You never know, you might meet a male insect you like in the future. Female insects all like male insects."
Lin Xi said, "Love is not only sacred, but also wonderful. I don't deny that some insects can fall in love with others. But love has nothing to do with gender. It's not necessary or universal. I also told you that I can't guarantee other insects, but I can guarantee my own promise."
Muas's expression was somewhat moved: "You don't regret it?"
"Regret?" Lin Xi shook his head, looking very disapproving, but the words he said frightened Chong Xin.
"Once I make a decision, I never regret it. I was born with few things, but fortunately I'm not materialistic and don't want much. However, I recently learned a lesson: if I have something I want, I must fight for it. Even if it's rotting in the pot, I can't give it up, otherwise I will regret it for the rest of my life."
If you wait until you truly regret something before you understand this truth, then you will die in vain.
Lin Xi cursed in his heart, fuck him, fuck his ancestors!
In my previous life, I lived for more than thirty years, worked diligently, and became a good person. However, good people have short lives, and they always live for others.
In this life, he just wants to live selfishly.
Chase the bugs you like, fight for the things you like, and hold what you want in your hands.
Next life?
I don’t care about my next life. I just want to live a good life in this one!
Lin Xi said: "I think being a bad bug is pretty good. Even though it makes other bugs suffer, it makes me happy."
Muas was speechless: "...Then you are really aware."
Lin Xi chuckled: "I also think I am very aware."
The two bugs laughed and walked back to the dormitory together.
The sky was dark and the night was deep. The tense heartstrings finally relaxed, and the depressing things hidden in the heart were also resolved. Muas lay on the bed, and sleepiness quickly came over her.
Maybe it's because I haven't been so relaxed for a long time, and the things hidden in my mind suddenly popped up.
Muas had a dream. The story in the dream was a memory from long ago, which suddenly appeared today.
It was the first time Muas saw his father so angry.
The female father knelt in the center of the hall, surrounded by female servants and slaves watching.
There were bloody marks on the female father's back, and blood was seeping out bit by bit.
Little Muas had no idea what was happening.
I don’t understand why the male father, who usually smiles at the female father, is so scary, and why he wants to deworm?
I don’t know what the usually gentle female father did to make the male father so angry.
A servant insect saw Muas appear and went forward to carry him away, but he dodged and pounced straight towards the female father.
Muas saw the female father's pupils dilate slightly and saw the panic flash in the male father's eyes, but the punishment was not over yet.
He was still carried away by the attendant insect.
Muas was locked in the room. She kept calling for her father and banging on the door with her little hands, but there was no response. Finally, she cried herself to exhaustion and fell asleep.
After waking up, everything was as normal as before, making Muas feel like it was just a dream.
The wound on the female father's back has healed without leaving a trace of scar. Her smile is still as gentle as ever, and the male father is still as loving as ever.
Everything was still as beautiful as before, but Muas felt different.
The envious words of outsiders and the jealous looks of brothers are all different from the past.
A few years later, my father passed away. The doctor said that he had a serious old illness and was suffering from depression.
In other words, he died in depression.
A female insect died of depression? Isn't that ridiculous?
But Muas only felt heartache.
His heart was trembling, not only because of the death of his father, but also because of the panic he felt, as if he saw his own future.
Fear kept haunting him, and the image in his mind would not go away.
There is the frown that the female father had on his face before his death, the angry face of the male father, the sad and heartbroken expression, and what he called good.
The male father is very good to the female father and to Muas, but the male father wants them to live forever and stay with him forever.
Living is simple, but also difficult.
If you want to survive, you will be trapped in a small space forever.
I watched as one strong steel plate after another was connected to form a huge and safe cage. It protected the insects inside, but it was also like a thorn in their hearts, making them unable to breathe and suffering day and night.
Muas overheard his fifth brother's curse: "Born into the royal family, favored by a powerful father, what's there to be dissatisfied about? You're so hypocritical, why don't you just die?"
Muas was up and down, and he was also thinking, yes, what is there to be dissatisfied with? What is there to be hypocritical about? Is it because he has had too many good days and is too full to eat?
But he refused to accept it. Why did the female insect have to live like this? Why should he accept the future arranged by other insects?
Perhaps it was rebellion, perhaps it was stubbornness, perhaps it was struggle, or perhaps it was something else, but Muas escaped from there...
Muas was awakened from her dream by old memories, and saw a handsome, enlarged face with an expression of concern that could not be concealed.
Muas' eyes widened, and he subconsciously pushed the bug away: "Why are you so close so early in the morning?"
Muas glanced at the door again: "Also, how did you get in?"
Lin Xi said innocently, "I called you at the door, but there was no response. I pushed the door and it opened by itself. When I came in, I saw you lying on the bed, frowning and trembling all over. Did you have a nightmare?"
Having a nightmare?
That was something only a little bug would do, so Muas certainly wouldn't admit it: "No!"
Lin Xi said "Oh", and since she said one thing and meant another, it meant she was pregnant.
Muas was upset by the dream and happened to be bumped into by Lin Xi. Feeling a little embarrassed, he ordered her to leave: "I'm going to get up, why don't you leave?"
Lin Xi sat calmly aside and said, "I just had a nightmare. I stayed here because I saw you were scared. I was kind enough to care about you, but you chased me away?"
Muas is too old to be scared by a nightmare.
Muas subconsciously replied coldly: "Who wants you to care!"
As soon as the words left my mouth, I felt something was wrong and wanted to stop myself, but it was too late.
We just made up yesterday, but we’re fighting today?
Muas curled her little finger slightly and remained silent.
Lin Xi didn't care. He knew that Muas didn't mean what he said, but he still wanted to see the other party regretful and anxious.
"is that so?"
Muas turned his head away, ignoring the other person.
Lin Xi stopped when she saw that things were going well and said with a smile, "Didn't you say you were going to get up? You still have classes today, are you planning on skipping them?"
Muas looked up, and seeing that the other party didn't seem angry, he breathed a sigh of relief, and softened his voice: "You go out, I want to change clothes."
Lin Xi sat there, carefree, with no intention of leaving: "We are all female insects. I have everything you have. Are you still afraid of being seen by insects?"
Muas's face flushed slightly, and he was angry.
Anyone who says this can believe it, except Lin Xi.
Has he forgotten his sexual orientation? !
I just talked about it last night. Lin Xi didn't think he would agree to it just like that, right?
Lin Xi seemed to have just remembered something and patted his cheeks. "Oh, I forgot, I like female insects. A slender and upright insect like you, Muse, is really easy to be coveted by other insects!"
Muas's face was cold, and he looked at Lin Xi with a look that seemed to want to pierce Lin Xi into a hedgehog with a flying knife.
Lin Xi quickly raised his hands in surrender: "Okay, I was wrong, I'm leaving now."
After teasing the bugs, you naturally have to retreat. Otherwise, if you really get beaten, it will not be worth it.
Looking at Lin Xi's receding back, Muas gritted his teeth. He should have taken action just now. He should have vented his anger first.
Lindsey walked out of Muas's room. Parker and Sander saw it with their own eyes and looked at each other in surprise.
Parker asked tentatively: "Boss, you guys...are reconciled?"
Lin Xi raised his eyebrows, his expression fierce. Parker's heart skipped a beat, but he heard the other party say, "What are you talking about? When did we become bad? We have always had a very good relationship."
Parker: “…”
Xander blinked and lowered his head silently.
Lin Xi narrowed his eyes: "You two bugs, what do you mean by that expression?"
Parker waved his hands repeatedly: "No, of course it doesn't make any sense. The two bosses are in perfect harmony and have a strong bond. There's nothing we can do about it."
Lin Xi nodded with satisfaction.
Behind him, Muas opened the door and walked out. He naturally heard Parker's words clearly.
Parker's heart skipped a beat.
It's over, it's over. Why not try to please the boss at any other time? Why say those treasonous words at this time? Right after I finished flattering him, I ended up hitting the second brother's leg!
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