After the meal, there were seven people at the table, except Lian Jun, who were all drunk.
The first person to get drunk was Li Jiuzheng, who drank too much liquor at once and fainted. The second person to get drunk was Rong Zhouzhong, who also drank a lot when he and Li Jiuzheng were drinking, and fell asleep on the table not long after Li Jiuzheng fell down.
After that, it was Shi Weichong and Fei Yujing, who drank a lot while eating and chatting. The remaining two seemed to be eating seriously, Shi Jin and Xiang Aoting, who were too happy to talk about the ingredients. Shi Jin was in a good mood and insisted on dragging Xiang Aoting to taste the wine. The two drank a sip of wine here and there, and the alcohol slowly took over. When Lian Jun realized that something was wrong, they had already leaned back in their chairs and became confused.
Lian Jun pulled Shi Jin, who was leaning on a chair and talking nonsense, into his arms, gently touched his face, and called Gua Yi.
Gua Yi turned in from outside the restaurant and waited for instructions.
"Take them to the guest room and let Uncle Long take a look at them. Don't let them get drunk. Remember to give them hangover medicine." Lian Jun ordered, then he stood up with Shi Jin in his arms, and walked towards the room with Shi Jin, who was not completely drunk yet.
Gua Yi responded with a "yes", took out his cell phone and called for help. Shi Jin
followed Lian Jun out, and when he was about to leave the restaurant, his eyes cleared for a moment, and he turned back to look at the Shi brothers who were lying in a mess at the table.
"They got drunk on purpose." He whispered, not knowing who he was talking to. "Even if they wake up tomorrow and find out everything is empty, they can still deceive themselves and say it was all a dream... Cunning and cowardly guys."
Lian Jun also glanced at the Shi brothers and agreed with what they said in his heart - these people got drunk at the same time, they must have done it on purpose.
"They are all cowards." Shi Jin turned his head and leaned on Lian Jun, "Me too... but I still have you, Lian Jun, don't leave me, I will die."
Lian Jun also retracted his gaze, hugged him tightly, leaned over to kiss his forehead, and continued to lead him forward, saying: "No, I will always be with you."
"That's great." Shi Jin put all his weight on him, rubbed his shoulders, was quiet for a while, and suddenly said, "Lian Jun, my name is Shi Jin."
Lian Jun looked at him sideways.
"My father's name is Shi Lei and my mother's name is Lan Xiao. They live in a town called Huaiyang and run a small supermarket. I was adopted by them when I was born... My father is a good man with a soft heart. My mother is a bit more assertive, but actually has a kind heart... They are very nice and will definitely like you."
Lian Jun suddenly stopped moving forward and looked at him in a daze.
"I actually have a very rustic nickname, Dazhuang. My mother gave it to me. She said that children with rustic names will grow up well. Until I went to elementary school, I thought my name was Shi Dazhuang. Later, in order to make me get used to my real name, my father actually changed the name of the supermarket at home to Jinjin Supermarket. They are cute, aren't they? These are my parents...completely different from Shi Xingrui."
Lian Jun's fingers trembled, and he turned sideways and hugged him tightly in his arms.
Shi Jin leaned in his arms, rubbed him affectionately, and said: "Don't worry, I'm not schizophrenic or hallucinating. What I said is true. Those are things I have experienced... Believe me, okay? I'm really not crazy."
"...I believe you." Lian Jun said harshly, stroking his back soothingly, "I know you're not crazy, you're very good, I know." Shi Jin
hugged him back, as if drunk and sober: "I knew you would say that, you're always so good... In fact, it doesn't matter if you don't believe it. I'm a drunk now, and it's not surprising that I can say anything. Just forget it after you've heard it..."
Lian Jun tightened his arms even more.
The two hugged each other quietly for a while, and then continued to walk towards the room.
Perhaps because of the alcohol, Shi Jin's words began to be scattered and incoherent.
"I'm actually the same age as you... I really am a policeman, I'm not lying to you, I've been one for many years... If you count carefully, I think I have died twice... My memory was fuzzy at first. I don't remember Shi Weichong, Li Jiuzheng, or Shi Xingrui. They were all strangers, just names written in ink in a book, without any meaning... It's really strange. My parents didn't really want me to be a policeman, saying it was too hard, but why did I insist on taking the police academy exam..."
The two finally reached the room. Lian Jun helped Shi Jin to the bathroom, stripped off his clothes, put him in the bathtub, and used the shower to wash the smell of alcohol off him.
Shi Jin stared blankly at the pouring water, his eyes seemed to be clear again, and he said: "I remember now, it was me who was asking for help, constantly asking for help, whether it was pain or resentment, someone come to save me, someone come to pull me out, these things are too terrible, how can I, who grew up in a honey pot, bear it... No, is that me? No, that shouldn't be me... I am that Shi Jin, not this Shi Jin, it can't be this Shi Jin..."
Lian Jun slowly tightened his hand holding the showerhead, so tight that his knuckles turned white.
"But why didn't anyone come to save me... No, fourth brother saved me once, he was very powerful... Then if I become like him, can I save myself... I tried very hard, right, to save myself so hard..."
Lian Jun took a deep breath, reached out to wipe away the tears flowing from the corners of his eyes, threw away the showerhead, and leaned over to hug him tightly.
Shi Jin leaned against him, tilted his head, looked at the hazy mist rising in the bathroom, his eyes became confused again, and whispered: "Dad is gone, my brothers have changed, I don't really care about money, just take it if you want it, but how can people's hearts change? In the past, when I smiled at them, they would smile at me, but later when I smiled at them, they would only look at me coldly, hate me, sarcastically, look at me with hesitation, look at me with murderous intent... Crying is even more forbidden, I will be hated... I am still me, but why do everyone treat me differently? What went wrong, did I do something wrong?"
"No." Lian Jun finally spoke, his voice was low, suppressed and tense, "You've done very well, so far, you've done very well."
"Then did I save myself?" Shi Jin raised his hand and grabbed his clothes.
"Save, not just yourself, you also saved me, you are very powerful."
Shi Jin let go of his hand again, with a relieved smile on his face, and said: "That's good... In fact, I am also a coward. I don't dare to talk about some things unless I'm drunk..."
Lian Jun touched his back and said: "You are not a coward, you are very brave, braver than anyone else."
"Really... it's so good." Shi Jin's eyes had been closed, and the corners of his eyes were reddish from the alcohol. His lips moved, and before he fell asleep completely, he murmured: "Xiao Shi, stop crying, it's so noisy..."
Lian Jun's hand caressing his back stopped, and then slowly continued. After a long time, he said softly: "Good night, Shi Jin."
...
Shi Jin slept until noon the next day. When he woke up, Lian Jun told him that Shi Weichong and his friends had already gotten up early to catch the earliest flight. He was stunned for a long time, and finally raised his hand to rub his head which was a little aching after the hangover, and said, "I understand. It's the end of the year and everyone is busy."
"They left a gift for you. Do you want to see it?" Lian Jun asked.
Shi Jin shook his head and was stunned for a while before finally coming to his senses. He looked at Lian Jun and asked, "Should we set off to the island? You've been stuck in the house for so long, you need to go somewhere warm and get some fresh air."
Lian Jun touched his messy hair and asked, "When do you want to go? Gua Liu has already tidied it up, we can go anytime." Shi
Jin gave a rare willful answer, "Today, I want to leave today." After the reunion, of course, they went their separate ways. Everyone left, and he didn't want to stay there alone.
"Okay." Lian Jun leaned over and kissed him, saying, "I'll make arrangements."
...
Even Lian Jun, who decided to leave that day at noon, could only arrange a special plane at 11 pm, barely fulfilling Shi Jin's wish to leave that day.
"It's time to rest on the plane." Lian Jun helped Shi Jin pack his luggage. Half of the box was filled with textbooks.
Shi Jin pretended not to notice, rubbed his chest, and said, "You must sleep longer during your nap today."
"You accompany me?" Lian Jun put down his textbook
and looked at him. Shi Jin looked at him and said, "Of course I will accompany you."
...
After waking up from his nap, Lian Jun found that Shi Jin became a little restless after receiving a text message, and turned his head to look out the window from time to time. He wheeled over and asked, "Do you want to go out and make a snowman? The snow should have melted by the time you come back next time." Shi
Jin frowned and thought for a moment, then said, "Let's make a snowman. Let's make a smaller one this year."
The two of them came to the lounge where they had made a snowman last year. Shi Jin wrapped Lian Jun tightly, and then wrapped himself tightly, and then led Lian Jun out to a corner where the snow was thickest. He pulled Lian Jun to squat down together, and asked him to make snowballs with him.
"You make a smaller one, and I make a bigger one, and then put them together and it will be a snowman." Shi Jin said his plan.
Lian Jun asked, "Don't you want to build a fancy one?"
"Wait until next year," Shi Jin replied, smiling at him, "Let's do it the traditional way this year."
Lian Jun knew that he was concerned about his physical condition, smiled, and said, "Okay."
In the end, the two of them built a mini snowman outside that was only as high as Shi Jin's calf, and it took less than 20 minutes in total. Shi Jin was very satisfied, and took Lian Jun to take a photo with the snowman, then took Lian Jun back to the house, and hurriedly took him to wash his hands and face to warm up his body.
Lian Jun looked at Shi Jin trying hard to take care of himself, and felt a little distressed.
This person should be taken care of carefully by everyone, and he unconsciously reached out and hugged Shi Jin in his arms.
Shi Jin was puzzled, looked at him sideways, and asked, "What's wrong?"
"Just do it if you want to." He said, kissing Shi Jin's ears that were red from the cold wind, "Don't worry about me, I just want you to be happy." Shi
Jin lowered his head and hugged him tightly, thinking of the messages from Rong Zhouzhong and Xiang Aoting, saying that Li Jiuzheng looked bad and looked a little strange when he left in the morning, and didn't say anything.
...
The sky gradually darkened, and the departure time was getting closer. Shi Jin kept turning his head to look out the window. Finally, when the clock reached seven o'clock, he couldn't help but stand up, looked at Lian Jun and said, "I'm going out for a while, and I will definitely be back before half past nine."
"It's too late, the flight is at eleven o'clock, and we have to leave for the airport at nine at the latest." Lian Jun shook his head.
Shi Jin was stunned. He raised his hand and patted his forehead, saying, "I actually forgot how terrible the traffic in City B was before the New Year... It's okay, then we..."
"But if we set off now, maybe I can let you turn somewhere halfway and stop for a while." Lian Jun supplemented, sliding out a wheelchair, holding his hand, and asked, "Do we want to set off now? Gua Er and the others have already moved all the luggage into the car, and the fleet has been assembled." Shi
Jin looked at him stupidly, then shook his hand tightly and said, "Let's go. I want to go to University Town... Is it okay?"
"Of course." Lian Jun replied, taking his hand and kissing it.
...
The car was speeding on the street. Outside the car was the increasingly familiar scenery of the university town. Shi Jin reached into his pocket and held the key inside - it was the key to Li Jiuzheng's apartment. He was on his way there.
And why was he going there... He took out his mobile phone, opened the text message page, skipped the text messages from Rong Zhouzhong and Xiang Aoting, and looked at the last message Li Jiuzheng sent this morning: Thank you, I understand, please continue to hate me, I will continue to love you, you are a gift from God, I will cherish you, see you in the next year [love].
It was still the messy style of a teenage boy's painful text message, but the words in it were so familiar that they seemed to be engraved in his soul, but he really couldn't ignore it as before.
The word "gift" is really...
"Your fifth brother should have returned to Rongcheng." Gua Er, who was sitting in the passenger seat, suddenly spoke up, looking at the deserted university town outside, and rubbed his arms exaggeratedly, "The students have all gone home for the holidays, and this place has become an empty city. It looks scary at night." "
He didn't return to Rongcheng." Shi Jin came to his senses and looked in the direction of Li Jiuzheng's residence, "The place where his mother and grandparents are buried, he will not go back on a day like the New Year." At this time last year, Li Jiuzheng also stayed in City B, and after receiving his call for help, he immediately rushed over to save him.
Yes, save, no matter what Li Jiuzheng did later, judging from the situation at the time, Li Jiuzheng saved him. In his previous life, Li Jiuzheng actually saved the original owner. Putting aside the mess of mental damage, at least physically, Li Jiuzheng fulfilled his responsibilities as a doctor. Not only did he rescue the original owner from the serious car accident, he also took the original owner to his own hospital to take care of him personally.
And those mental damages... Shi Jin thought of what Li Jiuzheng said in front of his mother's grave last year and pursed his lips.
He suddenly understood some of Li Jiuzheng's thoughts and the meaning of his actions. That person was really like a child, pure good and pure evil, and he couldn't express his emotions and feelings at all.
Maybe... just maybe, maybe the terrible words that Li Jiuzheng said when he stood by the original owner's bed in his previous life, and the behavior of holding a knife and saying that he would help the original owner, were not so malicious, and might even be well-intentioned. He was sick, just like Shi Weichong, and was quietly crushed by the pressure and emotions imposed by his parents.
A doctor cannot treat himself. Maybe there is no real or fake mask. All the split emotions shown by Li Jiuzheng are just symptoms of a patient.
When he is in pain, he wants to drag everyone to hell together. When he comes to his senses, he wants to try his best to grasp the warmth that has not slipped away... It's the same, all the same. Moreover, with the same family environment, the original owner still had the false happiness and fatherly love for the first ten years, but Li Jiuzheng has nothing. Whether it is his mother, father, or brother, everyone gave him only cruel reality and a lot of indigestible negative emotions.
What a young genius, those halos that were worn on his head by hard work are just the only way a child who was forced into a desperate situation can think of to save himself. Sometimes children's ideas are really simple. They always think that if they know more and grow up faster, the current predicament will become simpler and everyone's problems will be solved.
[But if you die, what should I do? ]
Suddenly, the words Li Jiuzheng once said flashed through his mind. Shi Jin's divergent thoughts suddenly converged, and he tightly grasped the key in his pocket. His brain has never been as clear as it is now.
In his previous life, Li Jiuzheng had already gone crazy. He lost his father and mother, and he only had a relationship of use with his brothers. The only younger brother who was considered special because of his mother's brainwashing was about to be taken away by the god of death. All the people who gave him pain and hope are dead. What should he do? What can he do? What will happen to a mad and sick person who has never really grown up?
This is the first time that Shi Jin thought of something - after the original owner died like that, what happened to Li Jiuzheng, who had shown murderous intentions to the original owner countless times but never really did it, and was still trying to snatch the original owner back from the hands of death?
The car stopped, Shi Jin came back to his senses, and found that they had arrived at the community where Li Jiuzheng lived. He looked at the floor where Li Jiuzheng lived, and an impulse came to his heart.
- Li Jiuzheng in the last life could no longer see hope, so in this life, even if it was just for those actions in the name of rescue, let's try again.
For the first time, he rationally took on all the emotions overflowing in his chest, and used Shi Jin's thoughts, who had lived for more than 20 years, to analyze and digest everything that Shi Jin, who was dying at the age of 18, could and could not understand.
Don't let emotions control reason, you can do it.
He stretched out his hand to open the car door, got out of the car and walked towards the building where Li Jiuzheng lived. His speed was getting faster and faster, and finally he just jogged, pressed the elevator button and rushed in.
"Mr. Jun, is it really okay?" Gua Er looked at Shi Jin's back and asked with a frown.
Lian Jun leaned back in the chair, touched the place where Shi Jin had just sat, and replied: "It doesn't matter, he knows what he is doing."
...
The elevator opened, and Shi Jin strode to the door of 3602. After adjusting his breathing, he took out the key and opened the door.
The room was pitch black, without heating, and it didn't look like anyone was there. He walked straight in and came to the sofa. Sure enough, he saw a curled-up figure on it. He said, "I can only stay here for ten minutes at most, otherwise I will miss the plane leaving here."
The person on the sofa did not move, as if he had fallen asleep.
"To be honest, I am very afraid of you. I can't let go of the fact that you want to kill me." Shi Jin paused and his voice slowed down a bit, "But you are right. Among the brothers, you and I are the most similar."
I don't know if it was an illusion, but the figure on the sofa seemed to curl up tighter.
"I'm going to Lian Jun's island to spend the winter, and I'll celebrate the New Year there." Shi Jin said as he turned sideways, squeezing his fingers in his pockets tightly until they turned white. "If you want to come with me, pack up and come down quickly. I'll only wait downstairs for five minutes... Fifth brother, I don't want to continue hating you. It's too tiring, and I want to be free."
He turned around after he finished speaking, without looking at whether the person on the sofa was awake or asleep, and left this deserted apartment without looking back.
The opportunity had been given. This was the hand he stretched out again with the last bit of reason, overcoming the rejection and fear brought by the memory. He no longer had the energy to care whether the other party wanted to grab it or not.
...
Five minutes later, Shi Jin looked at the door of the building where no one came out, retracted his gaze
and said, "Let's go, don't miss the plane." Gua Yi started the car immediately, but Gua Er suddenly exclaimed and said, "Wait, someone is running out."
Shi Jin looked up and saw Li Jiuzheng rushing out of the building wearing only a shirt, with his mobile phone, ID and other items in his hands in a mess. It was winter, but his forehead was covered with sweat. He anxiously scanned the doorway, and seeing the car leaving, he hurried over and stood at the front of the car, panting and saying, "Xiao Jin, I, I'm with you. I'm looking for my ID. I forgot where I put it. Don't leave me. I'm with you. Let me be with you." Shi Jin looked at him
through the car window, as if he saw himself trying his best to ask for help. He closed his eyes and reached out to open the car door.
"Come in, you're going to miss the plane."
Li Jiuzheng's eyes burst into great surprise, and he hurriedly came around to hold the car door and got in the car, sitting down next to him, his body shivering from time to time, not knowing whether it was because of the cold or something else. Shi Jin
took out a blanket and wrapped him up, and found that he had actually run out without wearing shoes. At this time, his socks were already soaked by the water left after the snow melted, and the mat in the car was soiled.
"Sorry, I made the car dirty." Li Jiuzheng saw him looking at his feet, and his expression became a little embarrassed.
"It's okay." Shi Jin took out another towel and motioned him to take off his socks and wipe the water off his feet.
Li Jiuzheng hurriedly did as he was told, and his movements were a little anxious, like a child who was afraid of being abandoned by his family because of making a mistake. Shi
Jin looked at his anxious expression and slightly pale face, and suddenly he felt a sense of returning to peace in his heart - it felt like as long as he said something harsh, this person would burst into tears. Is there any need to be afraid of such a person?
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