The disappearance of the progress bar did not bring any changes to Shi Jin's life. Life went on as usual, and then slowly, Shi Jin found that he seemed to... become smarter?
"Did I have such a good memory before?" He held the textbook with a puzzled look on his face. He turned to the chapters that he had not learned, selected an article with many words, read it once, and then closed his eyes and recited it silently. He found that he could recite it completely. He was surprised, "Xiao Si, my brain seems to have changed!"
Xiao Si: "..." Shi Jin
was terrified. He took another mechanical book that used to give him the most headaches and flipped through it. He found that the contents in the book that he thought were like a heavenly book before could now be barely understood through the simple explanations in the book. He was so scared that he almost doubted the world: "Xiao Si, did you give me some strange buff? I can actually understand this kind of heavenly book. Is it possible that the soul of a nerd has drilled into my brain? I have been possessed?"
Xiao Si couldn't help it, He raised his voice and called out, "Jinjin!"
"It's really strange!" Shi Jin also raised his voice and slapped his forehead with his hand, "I used to be so pressured by Mr. Feng to study that my grades were only in the upper middle level, which shows that I'm not a good student. But what's going on now? I can remember everything I saw? Isn't this because my brain has changed?"
"Jinjin, this is... this is a reward. You know, I can't directly buff your brain with a strong buff that affects your mind. You simply become smarter." Xiao Si answered, his voice slowly lowered, "Jin Jin, don't you have anything to ask me? The baby's progress bar has disappeared for many days..."
Shi Jin's expression quickly tensed up, he put down the hand that was hitting his forehead, lowered his head to look at the mechanical book in his hand, and replied stiffly: "No."
Xiao Si was helpless: "Jin Jin..."
"If you dare to say anything extra, I will lock you in a small dark room!" Shi Jin threatened, put down the book and stood up, "The training will start in a week, I have to get my body into shape in advance, I'm going to run, you are not allowed to talk nonsense."
Xiao Si calmed down, and he probably understood why Shi Jin was like this, and felt very powerless.
After Lian Jun's progress bar disappeared, Shi Jin didn't ask anything, didn't say anything, pretending that everything was normal. Xiaosi understood that Shijin was playing dumb and evading because he was afraid of asking too clearly. After understanding everything, he would have to face the final farewell. Those who are left behind are the most pitiful. Shijin has been left behind by too many people. It can understand Shijin's current mood. But what to do? The value of the progress bar is only so low.
When will the baby come back... It feels like crying and feels that it is too useless. It doesn't want to leave Shijin alone. At least when it leaves, it hopes that someone will be with Shijin.
...
The training came soon, and as Shijin was training, he found that his physical fitness and the sensitivity of his five senses were all slowly improving. This was definitely not an effect that could be achieved by training. Obviously, the rewards that Xiaosi mentioned were still coming.
He didn't feel happy, and even felt anxious and depressed because of it. These changes reminded him of one thing every day - no matter how he avoided or ignored it, the footsteps of departure were still steadily approaching. He passively accepted these rewards in exchange for the disappearance of the progress bar, and was pushed slowly closer to the future that was destined to be separated from death, and there was no way to save it.
When he was extremely depressed, a crazy idea came into his mind. Isn't it just a lethal factor? If a little bit is eliminated, then why not get some more? Survival is not easy, but death is not difficult.
He began to think about creating some trouble for himself, such as deliberately increasing the intensity of training to torment his body, taking dangerous routes during training to get himself hurt, and teaching troublesome students a lesson to try to draw hatred from him... He stood out everywhere and was high-profile everywhere, and then he despairingly discovered that the range of rewards was much wider than he thought.
After toiling for a long time, he was tired, but he recovered after a good sleep and was not injured at all, and there was no risk of death. It was even more unrealistic for him to get injured, as he only scraped the skin on his palm when he rolled down the slope. He was truly a lucky man. After teaching the troublesome student a lesson, the student, who was helpless against all the teachers, suddenly repented and decided to train and study hard, and determined to become a good policeman. In the end, he not only received gratitude from the students who had been bullied by the troublemaker, but also received commendations from the instructors and counselors... After all these things, he finally realized that it was useless, as he had been turned into a real winner in life by those rewards, and he couldn't even find a way to make himself suffer. There is an invisible hand pushing him towards happiness, and he can't resist it.
...
When Shi Jin was committing suicide, Xiao Si watched quietly the whole time. When he finally calmed down, it spoke: "Although baby is not my host, he is also the owner of the progress bar. After the progress bar disappears, he will also get some rewards, and then have a safe and smooth life, just like you in the future."
In other words, it's useless. The gifts given after the progress bar disappears are mandatory, and the recipient is destined to have a safe life. Unless Shi Jin has a way to make the progress bar grow back, no matter how he struggles, his life, which is already shrouded by rewards, will not have twists and turns.
"...I told you not to say anything unnecessary." Shi Jin sat in the corner of the playground, raised his arms to cover his ears, trying to block out Xiao Si's voice. After realizing that it was useless, he stood up again and said stubbornly, "I will find a way, I will."
Xiao Si fell silent and stopped persuading him. After so long, he has learned how to hold back his tears.
...
After returning to school from the intensive training, the weather turned completely cold. The school opened a driving course for the third-year students, requiring them to get a driver's license as soon as possible, and those who did not get a driver's license were not allowed to graduate.
Liu Yong, the only one in the dormitory who didn't get a driver's license, was so happy that he went crazy. Shi Jin looked at him with sympathy, but couldn't bear to tell him a cruel truth - it's better to go to a driving school outside to get a driver's license. The instructors in military and police schools are generally two to three times more brutal than those in schools outside.
Sure enough, after being tortured by the police school instructors for a few classes, driving class quickly became one of the classes Liu Yong least wanted to take! Shi Jin and others who got a driver's license felt much more relaxed, because they got a driver's license, so the instructors were not too strict with them. Driving class was just to learn skills and experience, practice driving, which was very easy. Occasionally, when there are not enough training cars, the instructor will directly give the students who have passed the driving test a holiday and let them move freely.
Shi Jin got a lot of holidays because of this. He was too idle to do anything, so he just went to the library, looking for all kinds of books every day, trying to find the answer to the current dilemma in the book. But he couldn't find it, no matter how hard he looked. The existence of small death is too mysterious, and there is no book in the world that can explain its existence.
To leave small death, there must be a lethal factor, and the lethal factor is divided into subjective and objective. Subjectively, no one hates him and wants to kill him now, and objectively, there is no danger around him. And he can't take the initiative to disturb the already stable life of others just because he wants to be unlucky.
It is doomed to be impossible to rely on external forces. In the end, he locked his sights on himself.
When a person wants to destroy himself from the heart, the whole world can't stop him, right? The remaining 20 points of his progress bar, aren't they the result of his unwillingness and self-destructive emotions deep in his soul? Maybe he can magnify these...
"Progress." Xiao Si finally spoke, and said softly, "Baby is thinking of you."
The dead end of his thoughts dissipated instantly. Shi Jin put down the book in his hand, thinking of Lian Jun's desperate efforts to fight for an ordinary and peaceful life for everyone, and his body collapsed little by little on the chair in the library.
No, he couldn't make himself miserable, everyone would worry. He wanted to live a good life with Lian Jun.
"What should I do." He raised his hands to cover his face, his eyes red like a trapped beast, "I can't bear to leave you, what should I do."
Xiao Si didn't say anything. Parting is too difficult for everyone.
...
The more you want to keep something, the faster time seems to pass. Unknowingly, Shi Jin's birthday is coming again.
A week before his birthday, Fei Yujing took time out to pick Shi Jin up and take him home for the weekend. On the way back in the car, he suddenly said, "My brother is sick and he didn't let me tell you." Shi
Jin was stunned and then tightened his fingers.
"Xiao Jin, is the punishment not over yet?" Fei Yujing asked, not to blame him, but simply to wonder, "What is it that you can't get over in your heart? Can you tell me?"
"...I'm sorry." Shi Jin lowered his head, was silent for a while, and asked, "What disease did big brother have? Is it serious?"
"Nothing, just a little fever." Fei Yujing replied. Seeing that he didn't want to say more, he didn't ask any more questions and said, "Big brother is the president of Ruixing. He hasn't shown up in public for so long, and there are rumors outside." Shi Jin
still lowered his head and said again: "I'm sorry."
Fei Yujing was a little helpless and said: "Xiao Jin, I'm not blaming you. I just think that if you really have a knot in your heart, I suggest you go and talk to big brother face to face. It's torture for both of you to drag it on like this."
"I know." Shi Jin hated himself a little bit like this, his voice became dry, "I know... I'm really sorry."
Xiao Si couldn't help but call him: "Jin Jin..."
"I'm sorry." Shi Jin bent over and covered his face, standing at the fork in the road in a dilemma. Shi Weichong shouldn't continue to be punished, but he didn't want Xiao Si to leave. What should he do? Who can teach him what to do. He also knew that dragging it on like this would be torture for everyone, but what should he do? Xiao Si is not like the others. He may come back after leaving, so that he can see and touch him.
Fei Yujing was shocked by his reaction, frowning, and hurriedly drove the car to the side of the road, leaned over to put his arm around his shoulders, patted him gently, and asked, "What's wrong?" Shi Jin
shook his head for a long time, then suddenly sat up straight, looked sideways at him, smiled at him unhappily, and said, "It's okay... Wait a minute, ask your elder brother to wait a minute, I will pick him up, in person."
Fei Yujing looked at his forced smile and lifeless eyes, frowning deeply.
...
On his birthday, Shi Jin did not let any of his brothers come to celebrate with him, nor did he allow them to send gifts. After a normal day of classes, he asked his counselor for leave and took a car to Wanpu Garden alone.
The gate of Wanpu Garden was still locked. He walked along the gate to a blind spot on the street where there was no surveillance, climbed over the wall and went in. Then, he followed his memory and walked towards the villa he had only been to once.
The garden was still bare, and the artificial lake was still not filled with water. It was a desolate and bleak scene everywhere. He looked at them one by one, and finally came to the villa. He stood outside and looked at it for a while, then walked forward, opened the door with his fingerprint lock and went in.
Because of the suspension of construction, the water and electricity in the villa area had been cut off. He stood at the entrance and observed it in the dim evening sunlight. He found that there was a thick layer of dust in the villa, and there was no sign of restarting construction.
His eyes dimmed, he bent down to open the shoe cabinet, took out a pair of slippers that were also covered with dust, shook them twice and put them on, and walked straight to the master bedroom on the second floor.
The furniture in the master bedroom was covered with white cloth. He stood at the door for a while, walked forward and pulled off the bed cover, and found that there was only a mattress on it. He put the cover down again and went to the cloakroom.
The cloakroom was also empty. He wanted to find some bedding in it, but found nothing. This place was tidy too clean, without any trace of his last visit.
It would be nice to leave a pillow...
He sighed in his heart, walked to the French window, touched the drawn curtain, gently untied it and pulled it up, not minding the dirty table and chairs by the window, just sat down in the dust raised by the curtain, and lay on the table in the darkness blocked by the curtain, closing his eyes.
Happy birthday, good night.
Tomorrow will be a new day.
...
When it was dawn, Shi Jin opened his eyes. He stood up and stretched his stiff body, then walked forward to draw the curtains again, stood by the window, looked at the brightening light in the sky, and said, "Xiao Si, am I too selfish?"
Xiao Si immediately replied, "No, Jin Jin you are the best."
"So disgusting." Shi Jin smiled, patted the dust off his body, squinted at the rising sun, and finally gave up, or rather, finally accepted the reality, and said seriously, "Xiao Si, I'm sorry for tying you up for so long and letting you be willful for so long. Everyone should be free, and you and big brother are no exception. I shouldn't have dragged you like this."
Xiao Si realized something, and his voice tightened, saying, "No, Jin Jin you are not."
"How could there not be... I actually wanted to tie you up longer, it's really despicable." Shi Jin lowered his head, turned his back to the rising sun, and stretched his waist. "Thank you for spending my birthday with me. I'm very happy... Let's go and do what we should do. Before the winter vacation comes, you have to tell me everything that you didn't want to tell me before."
After dragging it on for so long, he finally figured it out and accepted his fate. Xiao Si should have been happy, but as soon as the voice came out, it was already crying. It sobbed some ambiguous words that no one could hear, and then it just burst into tears. Shi Jin listened
carefully to its crying, and used his exceptionally good memory to memorize these tones carefully. In the past, he always thought that Xiaosi's cries were too noisy, but now he thinks that these cries are treasures that he should treasure for the rest of his life.
...
When he climbed over the wall to get out, Shi Jin vaguely heard a noise coming from the gate of the villa area. He was puzzled, wondering if someone was climbing over the wall like him. He frowned and quickly climbed over and turned along the wall to the gate.
At the gate, a gray-haired old man was holding a key and concentrating on opening the lock on the gate. Behind him stood several workers wearing safety helmets and holding drawings. Shi
Jin was stunned, then realized something, his heartbeat accelerated uncontrollably, and asked, "Master, are you in charge of this villa area? Are we going to restart work here?"
The master turned his head and looked over at Shi Jin. He looked him up and down. His serious expression suddenly changed into a warm smile. He replied, "Yes, we should have started work yesterday, but the drawings were slow to come down yesterday, so it was delayed for another day. The higher-ups got really mad about it... Oh, let's not talk about that. Why are you here alone so early in the morning, and you're so dirty. Are you lost?"
It was supposed to start yesterday, yesterday...
"Nothing, I just ..." Shi Jin answered the reflex, a little frightened, a little happy, look at the big lock in the hands of the uncle, and look at the workers behind him, the eyes lit a little bit, and suddenly rushed forward and hugged the uncle. , Busy raising
his hand and pushing him away. Seeing that he was like a fool, he laughed unconsciously. He laughed halfway and busy with his face. He raised his hand and patted the gray he was on.
"Yes, to school. I'm going to school." Shi Jin was so happy that he lost his way. He turned around and walked towards the subway station stupidly. After walking a few steps, he turned back and looked in the direction of the gate of the villa area. He watched the workers take off the lock and push the gate open a little bit. He laughed stupidly a few times, and suddenly his nose felt sore again
. "No, no, no, you can't do this. This is a happy thing." He raised his hands and rubbed his face wildly, then stared at the completely opened door for a while, then turned around and ran quickly towards the subway station.
Although he did not contact Lian Jun, he knew that this was Lian Jun's birthday gift to him - he was coming back, his big baby was finally coming back!
"Waaaaa..." Xiao Si's crying suddenly rose a degree.
Outside the gate of the villa, the old man who had already entered the door came out again, looking at Shi Jin's back as he left, as if thinking about something.
…
Shi Jin has developed a new hobby, going to Wanpu Garden every weekend to check the progress of the project. The old man who opened the lock that day knew him well, and curiously chatted with him, only to find out that he was actually the owner of this place, and bought a new house inside, preparing for his wedding.
The old man suddenly realized and teased: "I was wondering why you are so positive, but someone in your family is an employee of Wanpu, right? I heard that this villa area is a welfare community built by the boss of Wanpu for his own residence, and it is not sold to the outside world."
Shi Jin ate the roasted corn bought on the street and answered vaguely: "Well, I guess so, my partner is from Wanpu."
"High-level?" The old man asked. Shi
Jin smiled but said nothing.
The eldest grandfather slapped him in annoyance, and seeing that he couldn't get any words out of him, he simply gave up, lit a cigarette, took a puff, and said, "Actually, my grandson also works for Wanpu, but he is a new employee this year, and he can't officially start working until Wanpu's domestic branch is established. Wanpu's benefits are really good, and I can get this job of janitor thanks to my grandson."
"Branch?" Shi Jin was puzzled.
"You don't know?" The grandfather shook off the ashes of his cigarette and explained, "My grandson said that Wanpu decided to invest in the country in the first half of this year, but the government has been blocking Wanpu for some reason. But Wanpu was very arrogant. While negotiating with the government, he bought a building and hired people to prepare for the opening, as if he was determined to get the government to give in. As expected, the government finally gave in, otherwise all the money Wanpu spent in the country this year would have been wasted."
The first half of the year, wasn't that not long after Lian Jun fled the country?
Shi Jin swallowed the corn, his mouth twitching, and his heart was a little sweet - it seemed that while he was waiting in agony, Lian Jun had also been working hard.
The master suddenly came to his senses, looked at Shi Jin suspiciously, and said, "That's not right. Your target is Wanpu, how come you don't know all this? Although Wanpu is not well-known in China, it makes no sense for internal employees not to know all this. Are you really the relative of a Wanpu employee? You are not lying to me." Shi Jin's
heart sank, and he waved his hands and said, "Why would I lie to you about this? It won't make me grow any more meat... Well, my brother is still waiting for me to have dinner. I'll come to see you next week. Bye!" After that, he stood up and ran away without even looking back.
The master watched him leave, the doubts on his face slowly faded, and he hummed, "This is Jun Shao... cough, the Shi that the boss likes... cough, that little boss, why does he look so stupid..."
"Engineer Zhang!" A worker suddenly ran over and shouted in this direction, saying anxiously, "There is a problem with the artificial lake, please come and take a look!"
The old man's face darkened, and he stood up unhappily, frowned and said, "It's true that the guys outside are not as useful as the ones I cultivate myself... Here they come! Stop shouting! I told you not to call me Engineer Zhang on weekends!"
The cell phone rang suddenly. He stopped, took out his cell phone and looked at it. Seeing that it was a call from an old friend, he smiled and hung up the phone. After answering the call, he said, "Hey, Lao Feng, how's your scientific expedition going... Me? I'm fine. I found a job after my trip... No, no, I didn't go to the school you mentioned before... Hahaha, I really can't hide it from you. I was worried about you, after all, you are... ahem, it's where the boss will live in the future, so I have to come back to take a look... Okay, I'll wait for you to come back and have a drink together."
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