Jian Jinwen's information was not long, only two pages.
The first sentence at the beginning of the information was that Jian Jinwen was Jian Chenghua's adopted child.
This...
Shi Jin paused while flipping through the information, a little surprised, but also felt that this seemed to be more reasonable. Although Jian Chenghua was also fat, his facial features were very ordinary, and he had no similarities with Jian Jinwen. Judging from their appearance alone, the two of them did not look like father and son at all.
The information was really too short. After a brief pause, Shi Jin only took less than ten minutes to scan the contents of the two pages.
Jian Jinwen, an orphan who was abandoned at birth, had no father or mother. He grew up in an orphanage until he was two years old, and was later adopted by Jian Chenghua, who was infertile. He grew up healthy until he was twelve years old, and then suddenly fell ill and was admitted to the hospital.
His disease was very troublesome. It would not kill him immediately, but it could not be cured. He had to be hospitalized for a long time and take hormones regularly. The
originally beautiful boy quickly gained weight due to hormones. He could no longer go to school or do any intense sports. He could only stay in the hospital every day and endure the boring and painful life of treatment.
Jian Chenghua was very good to this adopted son. He tried his best to provide Jian Jinwen with the best treatment environment. He also acted as a teacher himself, giving Jian Jinwen lessons every day, reading books and newspapers, and guiding Jian Jinwen to study on his own.
This situation lasted for many years. Jian Jinwen's physical condition had not improved, but he was very optimistic. He not only actively studied on his own, but also developed a hobby of writing. Occasionally, when his body could bear it, he would participate in the charity activities organized by Jian Chenghua to help children in orphanages or mountainous areas, tell stories to those children younger than him, and teach them to read and write.
It must be said that Jian Chenghua was a very good educator. Under his teachings, Jian Jinwen, who was tortured by illness, not only did not become depressed and withdrawn, but grew into a very gentle and kind person. He would donate his pocket money to buy stationery for the children in the orphanage, write comforting letters to the abused children that Jian Chenghua had reported, and play with other sick children in the hospital to encourage and comfort them.
He was like a warm little sun, treating everyone around him gently.
Unfortunately, such a gentle person was not treated gently by fate.
When Jian Jinwen was 19 years old, his condition suddenly worsened and he had to transfer to a large hospital in City B. In the same year, Jian Chenghua quit his job at the city newspaper and went to a large newspaper in City B.
After going to City B, Jian Jinwen had a major operation and stopped using hormones. Under the torture of illness, he lost weight rapidly. After enduring for a few more years, Jian Jinwen finally exhausted his vitality and died with regret, ending his short life. Shi Jin
withdrew his hand from flipping through the information, feeling a little depressed and a little confused.
Jian Jinwen must be Shi Xingrui's white moonlight, there is no doubt about that, but after looking through Jian Jinwen's information, he could not find any trace that Shi Xingrui had ever had any contact with Jian Jinwen. Putting aside the possible correspondence, the two people's life trajectories are like two completely parallel lines that have never intersected.
This is too strange. With the degree of obsession that Shi Xingrui has shown for this white moonlight, he thought that Shi Xingrui would have a tragic love story with his white moonlight. But from the information currently known, Shi Xingrui and Jian Jinwen, let alone being in love, it is even a question whether they have ever met formally.
What's going on? Doesn't Shi Xingrui love this white moonlight very much? Why has he never contacted this white moonlight? Jian Chenghua's employment information is so transparent. Even if Shi Xingrui had temporarily cut off contact with Jian Jinwen because Jian Chenghua took Jian Jinwen to City B for medical treatment, didn't Shi Xingrui also go to City B later? With his ability, it should be easy for him to find Jian Jinwen according to Jian Chenghua's information. Shi Xingrui didn't
go to find someone when it was so easy to find him. No matter how he thought about it, there was only one possibility - Shi Xingrui himself didn't want to find Jian Jinwen, and even deliberately avoided contact with him.
But if this is true, the situation becomes even stranger. Liking each other, but avoiding each other? What a strange logic.
Fear-based crush? Is Shi Xingrui so afraid of love?
Shi Jin was confused. The more he thought about it, the more confused he became. He felt that there must be some hidden secrets that were not written in the information. After all, Shi Xingrui's behavior of desperately looking for a substitute to bear the child in the later period was too crazy, which was too different from his earlier behavior of restraining himself from looking for Jian Jinwen.
"Someone must know all the truth." Lian Jun suddenly spoke up, drawing Shi Jin's attention back.
Shi Jin looked at Lian Jun, and suddenly an idea came to him. He said, "Are you talking about Jian Chenghua?"
Lian Jun nodded, took out his mobile phone, and asked, "I remember that Jian Chenghua settled in City B after retirement and invested in an orphanage. Do you want to go and talk to him?" Shi
Jin instinctively raised his hand and touched his face. After struggling for a while, he nodded and replied, "Let's talk... But don't let Jian Chenghua see me. Jian Jinwen and I look too much alike. I'm afraid that he will think of Jian Jinwen when he sees me and feel sad."
Lian Jun reached out and touched his face, nodded, "Okay."
After lunch, the two went out together and went straight to the orphanage opened by Jian Chenghua.
After more than half an hour's drive, the car stopped at the gate of a relatively small orphanage. Gua Er, dressed in an ordinary white-collar outfit, straightened his collar, said hello to Lian Jun and Shi Jin, got out of the car with his bag, and entered the orphanage. Shi Jin
watched Gua Er leave, and sat in the car waiting for news from Gua Er.
About half an hour later, Gua Er actually returned empty-handed.
"Jian Chenghua is inside, telling stories to the children. I talked to him in the name of donating books, but he probably didn't want to talk about the past. No matter how I guided him, he didn't respond. I was afraid that if I talked too much, he would become suspicious, so I found an excuse to leave. What should we do now? Should we let someone else go in?" Gua Er turned around and asked, with a helpless expression.
Lian Jun frowned and looked at Shi Jin.
"I'll go." Shi Jin hesitated and spoke, reaching out to open the car door.
Gua Er quickly took out the "props" from his bag and said, "Wait, I'll give you the donation form, you can pretend to be my assistant..."
"No need." Shi Jin waved his hand to refuse and pushed open the car door, "My face is the best door knocker."
Lian Jun moved to the side of the car and said, "Call me if you have anything." Shi Jin
nodded at him, exhaled lightly, and walked towards the orphanage.
...
The orphanage is not big, with only one building. Shi Jin entered the building and followed the guidance of the orphanage staff to the small classroom where the children usually played games. He saw Jian Chenghua sitting at the front of the classroom.
Jian Chenghua is already over 70 years old, with white hair, but he is very energetic and in good condition. When he smiles, he looks like Maitreya Buddha and looks very kind and amiable. The children must have liked him very much. They sat in a circle beside him and listened to his stories with admiration in their eyes.
The staff member who brought Shi Jin over called Jian Chenghua, who turned his head to look over. His casual, smiling expression immediately changed when he saw Shi Jin. His smile froze, and his eyes widened a little. Then he almost lost control and dropped his book, stood up, walked around the children, and reached out to grab Shi Jin's hand, saying in a trembling voice: "You, you are..."
"President Jian, I'm Shi Jin." Shi Jin introduced himself, calmed himself down, and said honestly, "I'm Shi Xingrui's child. I have some questions for you about his relationship with Jian Jinwen."
Jian Chenghua was stunned, as if he suspected that he had heard something wrong. The expression on his face gradually withered, his eyebrows slowly wrinkled, he looked at Shi Jin's appearance carefully, and unconsciously tightened his grip on Shi Jin's hand, and asked with difficulty: "Who are you talking about? "Whose child are you?"
Shi Jin sighed in his heart, held his hand soothingly, and replied: "Shi Xingrui, my father is Shi Xingrui."
Jian Chenghua's expression can almost be described as dumbfounded. He looked at Shi Jin stupidly for a long time, and suddenly came to his senses, grabbed Shi Jin's hand with his backhand, looked at the orphanage staff next to him with a serious face, told him to take good care of the child, and then led Shi Jin towards the director's office.
Shi Jin looked at him holding his hand tightly, without pulling it out, and obediently followed his pace.
The two sat down in the dean's office. Jian Chenghua was reluctant to let go of Shi Jin's hand. He looked at Shi Jin for several times, then personally took a cup and poured Shi Jin a glass of water. He sat opposite him and said with a complicated expression: "You...you look so much like Xiao Jin. By the way, you just said your name, Shi, Shi..."
"Shi Jin." Shi Jin continued.
Jian Chenghua stopped talking, his expression changed, and suddenly he sighed and said: "I didn't expect it to be like this...If you have anything to ask, ask, I'll tell you everything. The person who wanted to donate books before was also someone you knew, right?" Shi
Jin nodded awkwardly, and said embarrassedly: "I'm sorry, I asked him to talk to you, I was afraid that you would be sad if I showed up directly, after all, my face..."
"He looks too much like Jinwen." Jian Chenghua changed the way he addressed Jian Jinwen, sighed again, and didn't know what he was thinking of. He was stunned for a while, then suddenly came to his senses, looked at Shi Jin, and said, "I think I know what you want to ask... Jinwen and your father do know each other. They exchanged letters for a long time when they were young, but their relationship is definitely not what you imagined. I don't know why Shi Xingrui gave you such a name, and your appearance is... Alas."
"I came to you this time just to find out this." Shi Jin looked at Jian Chenghua, considered his tone, and said, "If possible, can you tell me in detail how my father and your son met? I know this request is a bit presumptuous, but I..."
Jian Chenghua waved his hand to interrupt him, looked at his face, and said, "I understand, you look like this, it's normal to be curious about these things, in fact, I don't really understand... Forget it, these are all old things, it's nice to have someone to talk to me."
He poured himself a glass of water and got ready for a long talk.
Just as Shi Jin guessed based on various materials, Shi Xingrui and Jian Jinwen were indeed pen pals for a long time, and the person who facilitated this friendship was Jian Chenghua.
"When I knew Shi Xingrui, he was just an elementary school student. He submitted more than ten articles to the newspaper at one time, describing the difficult situation at home, which attracted everyone's attention. At that time, Jinwen had just been admitted to the hospital not long ago. Maybe it was empathy. Seeing that Shi Xingrui described himself in such a difficult situation in the letter, I thought I could help him. I squeezed the space, accepted his article, and wrote him a letter of encouragement."
Jian Chenghua recalled the past, his eyes slowly drifting away: "After Jinwen entered the hospital, he could not go to school to attend classes, There were no other children to play with him, and I was afraid that he would be lonely, so I would chat with him about newspaper affairs every day and read him some of the submissions and letters from young readers. This is how Jinwen knew Shi Xingrui. He had been soft-hearted since he was a child. When he heard me say that Shi Xingrui's family was in a bad situation, he took out some of his pocket money and sent it to Shi Xingrui along with my letter of encouragement, and also left a small note for Shi Xingrui to cheer him up. "
Shi Jin listened and felt a little sad in his heart. Jian Jinwen was really a very kind and good child, but it was a pity that God did not favor him.
"After receiving my letter and the pocket money from Jinwen, Shi Xingrui politely wrote me a thank-you letter and submitted his next manuscript to me, saying that he would donate the royalties from this manuscript to the orphanage. At that time, I felt that this child was really sensible and righteous, and a good seedling worth cultivating."
Jian Chenghua wanted to laugh when he said this. After a brief laugh, his expression dimmed again: "It was during that period that Jinwen's disease was diagnosed and he started taking hormones. He was in great pain, and I wanted to divert his attention. It happened that he was more concerned about Shi Xingrui at that time, so I let him Try writing a letter to Shi Xingrui, and then send it along with my reply to Shi Xingrui’s newspaper. I guarantee that Shi Xingrui will see it. Shi Xingrui is also a kind-hearted kid. After receiving Jinwen’s letter, he would reply to Jinwen every time he submitted an article. In this way, we kept in touch through me. “When Shi Jin heard
this, he had a very subtle idea in his mind. At the beginning, Shi Xingrui and Jian Jinwen established contact, probably not out of kindness, but because he was attracted by Jian Chenghua’s identity and wanted to stabilize Jian Chenghua as the editor-in-chief of the newspaper, so that it would be more convenient for him to publish articles and earn royalties.
But thinking of Shi Xingrui’s age at the time, he felt that he was biased. How could a child in his teens have such deep thoughts?
He shook his head, gathered his wandering thoughts, and continued to listen to Jian Chenghua.
Shi Xingrui and Jian Jinwen have maintained this alternative correspondence since they established it. The frequency of their correspondence is not high, basically overlapping with the frequency of Shi Xingrui's submissions.
After Shi Xingrui graduated from elementary school, his family was in great difficulty for a while because he had to raise money for junior high school tuition. Shi Xingrui did not tell Jian Chenghua about this, but only mentioned in the letter to Jian Jinwen that his parents had been very busy recently. Jian Jinwen took it very seriously after reading it, and was afraid that he really could not go to junior high school, so he specially found Jian Chenghua.
After Jian Chenghua learned about this situation, he happened to have a job editing tutoring materials, so he recommended Shi Xingrui's article to the people in the studio.
There was actually quite a long time between the article being accepted and the payment of the royalties. Jian Jinwen was afraid that Shi Xingrui could not wait, so he generously contributed some of his own pocket money. Jian Chenghua saw this and decided to advance the payment of the royalties to Shi Xingrui, so that Shi Xingrui could get the money early.
After this episode, Jian Jinwen and Shi Xingrui's relationship became better. Shi Xingrui's frequency of submitting articles to the city newspaper increased, and Jian Jinwen's letters to Shi Xingrui became more and more generous. The two teenagers grew up slowly, and when Shi Xingrui was about to graduate from junior high school, Jian Jinwen proposed the idea of meeting Shi Xingrui.
"We had agreed on a date to meet, but unfortunately something happened to Shi Xingrui's mother after he took the high school entrance exam, so the meeting was delayed." Jian Chenghua sighed, with a regretful expression, "It was probably because they were not meant to be together. After that, Jinwen's condition deteriorated a bit, and he was transferred to another hospital. When he came back, Shi Xingrui had already been admitted to a high school in the provincial capital, far away."
After the meeting plan failed, the two continued to communicate, but the content of Shi Xingrui's correspondence gradually changed, with more emotional expressions between the lines. Jian Jinwen knew that he was sad because his mother had passed away, so he was always very careful to comfort Shi Xingrui in his letters.
Shi Xingrui must have been really upset during that period of time. The manuscripts he submitted were all things he had written before. Three out of the five pages of the letter he sent to Jian Chenghua were addressed to Jian Jinwen, and the content was very negative.
Jian Chenghua frowned and said, "It was also at this time that I discovered that Shi Xingrui was actually a very violent child. He described his anger and pain to Jinwen in long paragraphs. He wanted to take revenge on his grandparents, question his uncles and aunts, and beat his brothers and sisters. He was full of hatred and had no place to vent, so he poured it all out to Jinwen. He suddenly became a strange person, and the coldness and irritability between his words were even more obvious. , even as an adult, I find it scary. I started to worry that Jinwen is too soft-hearted and I was afraid that he would be hurt by Shi Xingrui." Shi Jin
couldn't help but frown when he heard this, and at the same time he knew that this should be the turning point of Shi Xingrui's feelings for Jian Jinwen. After the shock of his mother's death, Shi Xingrui, who had nowhere to vent his emotions, began to confide in Jian Jinwen and truly opened up to Jian Jinwen.
Jian Chenghua continued, "I tried to persuade Jinwen to cut off contact with Shi Xingrui for a while. I am just a selfish father. I don't want Jinwen's already bad life to be filled with negative energy by others. But Jinwen refused. He said that Shi Xingrui was like this because he had entered adolescence and could not adjust himself well. If he didn't comfort Shi Xingrui, Shi Xingrui might be psychologically distorted by the pain of losing his mother and really go astray. He convinced me, and I agreed to their continued contact."
Throughout the first year of high school, Shi Xingrui had been dumping emotional garbage on Jian Jinwen. Jian Jinwen was like a piece of filter cotton, taking in all the garbage, filtering it out himself, and then returning tenderness and patience to Shi Xingrui.
Shi Xingrui's mood gradually adjusted back to normal. He stopped submitting old manuscripts and started writing new things. In the summer between his freshman and sophomore year in high school, he took the initiative to ask Jian Jinwen to meet him. Shi Jinwen's
heart moved when he heard this - the summer between his freshman and sophomore year in high school? This time node is very important. He remembered that Shi Xingrui stopped submitting all manuscripts in the first semester of his sophomore year in high school and began to concentrate on his studies.
Could something have happened
during their meeting this summer? Shi Jinwen looked at Jian Chenghua.
Jian Chenghua had already fallen into his memories and did not notice Shi Jin's eyes suddenly brightened.
"Jinwen also wanted to meet Shi Xingrui, his pen pal for many years, and readily agreed to meet him... But Shi Xingrui broke the appointment. Jinwen waited for him at the agreed place for a whole day, but he never showed up. Shi Xingrui disappeared and could not be contacted again. Jinwen went from being disappointed and lost at first to being worried and anxious later. Perhaps his emotions affected his body, and Jinwen's physical condition suddenly worsened. I had to transfer him to a large hospital in City B. . "When Jian Chenghua said this, his expression became a little tense, and there was a hint of blame in his words. "Although my mind tells me that Jinwen's physical deterioration is caused by objective reasons, I still can't help but blame Shi Xingrui. He said he wanted to meet, but why didn't he come? How sad Jinwen must be to play such a trick on him."
Shi Jin was stunned and soon realized one thing - Shi Xingrui might not have broken the appointment at all, but was "dead in the light" to Jian Jinwen.
This kind of situation often happens when making pen pals and online romances. If we look at this from Shi Xingrui's perspective, it means that after graduating from junior high school, Shi Xingrui began to open up to his pen pal because of his mother's death. Then, after a year of opening up, he developed an emotional dependence on or some kind of feelings for his pen pal. Then he happily asked to meet up, and went to the agreed place with expectation and shyness, but he saw an ugly fat man, so he ran away!
This completely explains Shi Xingrui's sudden change! How could Shi Xingrui, who is so proud, allow the person he likes to be a fat man? So he ran away, disappeared, actively strangled this secret love, and cut off contact with the object of his secret love.
This is really... really a simple and true truth.
In order to verify his guess, Shi Jin suppressed the excitement in his heart, interrupted Jian Chenghua's recollection, and asked: "Well, did my father exchange photos with your son before he met him?"
Jian Chenghua was stunned by his question, then nodded and replied: "Yes, but it was relatively early. I was worried, so when they just started communicating, I asked them to exchange photos once. Wait a minute, I still have the photos, I will find them for you." They
actually exchanged photos?
Shi Jin was also stunned, and began to doubt that he had guessed wrong.
Jian Chenghua took out two palm-sized old photos from an old album, handed them to Shi Jin and said: "These are the two photos. I'm sorry, Jinwen, the photos he sent were still selected by me."
Shi Jin took the photos and looked down.
The photo above is of Shi Xingrui, the edges are not smooth, as if it was cut from a group photo. Shi Xingrui in the photo is only about ten years old, his facial features have not yet developed, and he is quite different from an adult.
He quickly moved the photo of Shi Xingrui down and looked at the next one, and then he was dumbfounded.
The photo below is obviously much clearer and of better quality, and it can be seen that it was taken with a good camera. The photo is also of a child in his early ten years old, who is very good-looking, sitting on a hospital bed, holding scissors and paper cutting in his hands, with hair a little long, already past his ears... like a girl with short hair.
Really, if he hadn't known that Jian Jinwen was a man, and only looked at this photo, he would definitely have thought the person in the photo was a girl! And she is a beautiful, gentle, and very good-looking girl who looks like a childhood goddess!
Shi Jin felt as if a huge thunderbolt had struck from the sky, hitting him right on the head, making him dizzy, palpitating, and trembling, and he could hardly speak.
Shi Xingrui might not only have experienced the death of exposure, but also the pitfall of a goddess turning into a male god... He suppressed his emotions a little, looked at Jian Chenghua who was still sighing, and said: "Well, can I see your son's handwriting? I'm just a little curious..."
This request was strange, but Jian Chenghua didn't think much about it. He was happy to share his son's excellence with others. He was very easy to talk to and took out a well-preserved notebook, and said with a little pride: "Of course, Jinwen is a quiet child. He started practicing calligraphy since he was a child, and his handwriting is very good."
Shi Jin took the notebook, looked at the handwriting on it, and was silent.
It is said that handwriting reflects a person's personality. Jian Jinwen's handwriting is just like him. The strokes are rounded, without any edges or corners. The characters are round and delicate... like a girl's handwriting.
If he was the young Shi Xingrui, after seeing a photo of his pen pal and such a delicate handwriting, he would definitely think that the pen pal was a girl, a very beautiful and gentle girl.
He looked up at Jian Chenghua and wanted to ask him whether Shi Xingrui and Jian Jinwen had confirmed each other's gender during the correspondence, but when the words came to his lips, he swallowed them back.
How to ask? This question is really too stupid. After exchanging photos, who would think of confirming the gender of the pen pal again? In those days, cross-dressing was not popular.
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