Sometimes, even the ideals we cherish deeply may take on a different flavor after a few years, slowly dissipating and becoming less cherished. Chance, accidents, mistakes, change, and loss always fill the journey of life.
I often regret it afterwards, regretting that I didn’t choose the right direction at the beginning. Unfortunately, time is gone and no amount of regret can make up for it.
"Regret is inevitable." She raised her head and stretched her hand into the night breeze.
"Is there anyone else in Uncle Yu's family?" She remembered what Yu Baichou had said just now. It seemed that there were some things at home that worried him.
"Yes, I have an older brother and a younger brother, but they are both ordinary people. My eldest brother farms a barren hill in my hometown, and my younger brother runs a restaurant in a small town, doing some food business."
"After the elders in our family passed away, we brothers got together less and less often. Sometimes when we did go, we would look at the unfamiliar eyes of our nephews and nieces and feel that it was not appropriate to stay for long."
"I've spent almost half my life traveling, while my older brother and younger brother have always lived in our hometown. We have many different perspectives and ideas, so it's hard for us to talk to each other."
"Looking back on our youth, the three of us brothers often went out to play together, fought with others, and experienced many things together. But eventually, we gradually drifted apart, and when we met, we were speechless and had nothing to talk about."
"Sometimes I wonder if I hadn't ventured out and stayed in my hometown like them, things would have been better. Perhaps I would be surrounded by children and grandchildren and living a quiet life now."
"Does Uncle Yu regret it?" the girl asked.
Yu Baichou did not answer immediately, but quietly looked at the night mountain scenery.
"I do feel a little sad, but if I had to choose again, I would probably still take this path." There was a lot of nostalgia in his voice.
"The reluctance and stubbornness of youth, the restlessness and curiosity of youth, and the satisfaction and pride of having a little power in middle age are all experiences that cannot be avoided, just like the flow of a river."
“Even if I die in a foreign country one day and no one collects my body, I will still feel that my life has not been in vain.” When he said this, he seemed to have released some things that had been suppressed in his heart.
"Hahaha, so that's it, so that's it, so that's it." The big man was seen standing at the stern of the boat laughing up to the sky, and his voice was heard far away on the silent river surface.
Then the aura on his body gradually changed. From Loran Hill's observation, it seemed that he had advanced?
So after waiting for a while, the big man's aura gradually stabilized and slowly subsided.
"Uncle Yu, do you understand?" She saw the man in front of her turn around, his eyes sparkling like bright stones in the dark night.
"I understand the obstacles and barriers in my heart in the past, and I feel refreshed today." A smile appeared on Yu Baichou's bearded face.
"Although I used to be brave and strong, there was always a trace of hesitation and regret in my heart, which made me hesitate at the critical moment."
"I left home as a teenager, and by middle age, I hadn't achieved anything I could be proud of. Every time I returned home, I felt a sense of guilt. When my parents passed away, I felt deeply that I hadn't fulfilled my filial duties. I wondered what would have happened if I had been with them more."
"When I was fighting with others, I thought, 'I don't have any offspring yet. If I die, wouldn't the incense and offerings to my ancestors be cut off? No one will offer sacrifices to me.'"
"When all kinds of mental obstacles dwell in my heart for a long time, it's like running with a piece of iron on my back, and I can't enjoy it to the fullest. I wonder if I had chosen a different path back then, and I often feel regret."
"Looking back now, if I could go back to those days and choose again, would I really stay home peacefully? Would I really join a prestigious sect?"
"I'm afraid I can't. If I stay at home, I'm afraid I'll regret not coming out to see the world when I'm old. And with my background and knowledge, even if I enter a prestigious sect, I'm afraid I won't be able to communicate with those noble disciples and will gradually become marginalized, instead of drinking and chatting happily with people of similar backgrounds and like-minded people like me now."
"So, all illusions have dissipated. I am still myself, and there is no need to regret any more."
Looking at this wise old man, the girl felt a little happy.
"It's great that Uncle Yu can think it through." As she observed, the sequence level of the uncle in front of her slowly changed from Sequence 3 to Sequence 4.
In fact, he should have been stuck on the edge of this level for a long time, but he just couldn't break through the mental barrier.
"Thank you very much. In fact, Miss Luo sometimes gives me a lot of inspiration." Yu Baichou suddenly expressed his gratitude.
"Me?" The girl was a little confused.
"Well, actually, I was a little worried at first, because a young lady like you is probably willful and difficult to get along with, haha."
"When I was working for the Cao Gang, I met quite a few dignitaries, and some of them did leave me with this impression."
"Later, I saw that you were gentle and understanding, so I let go of all these things. Then I saw that you had no family around you and couldn't remember your past, so I was afraid that you would cry and feel sad alone."
"I'm a rough person and not very good at comforting others. I can do nothing when faced with such a thing."
"But later, seeing Miss Luo so carefree and at ease, not caring at all, I felt that I was obsessed."
“Do we have to remember everything and fulfill every regret in order to live a happy life?”
"I used to think so. But now it seems that it wasn't. It was just a lock I put on myself."
"It's certainly worth rejoicing when you get something, but even if you lose something, won't you be drowned in regret?" the girl asked tentatively.
"Yes, hahaha." Yu Baichou slowly stroked his short beard.
"That's true, but it's still a little difficult to do." The girl thought so. In fact, she felt that she was not as strong as Yu Baichou said.
"Yes, it's a little difficult, but this is what cultivation is all about. Using a flawed, tangible body to pursue the boundless and invisible Tao."
"Using the finite to pursue the infinite?" The girl looked at the vast mountain scenery in the night.
"That's right." Yu Baichou answered in a crisp and decisive voice.
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