Closing remarks
Sorry, it took several days to post 00/Qingkong was lazy (I am really happy when I don’t have to write (*^▽^*))
In December, I wrote a self-review late one night (in emo), but now I feel it’s inappropriate and it’s very depressing (e=(′o｀*))).
First of all, let me talk about some regrets and shortcomings in this book. The first is the plot structure. As I said before, because I was very young at that time, I wanted everything, science fiction, Western fantasy, ancient style, fairy tales, epics, group portraits and so on. There were too many elements in the writing. As for the depth of each direction later, it was a bit insufficient. The next book will definitely be more restrained.
In addition, there are a lot of poisonous spots that are stepped on, such as the protagonist's amnesia and re-leveling.
I felt a little tired when writing in the middle and late stages, just like a mobile phone with less than 30% battery. I didn’t have much energy to prepare some big plots, thrilling and exciting stories with ups and downs. I felt drained after typing 4,000 words every day.
Ahem, but I've recovered a little now.
Although I've taken time off before, the pressure of updating was like a vicious black dog guarding the door. Even when playing games, it was hard to fully immerse myself. It was always weighing on my mind, but now I've finally let it go =. =/~~~~
Very happy, very cheerful, even able to watch extremely realistic and depressing stories without feeling depressed (it's an exceptionally powerful illusion)
In the past two years of writing books, I have invisibly reduced my time and energy for other things, which has caused some panic. For example, I don’t know whether what I am writing now is still popular with everyone, how it compares with the current mainstream, whether it is too long-winded, not exciting enough, or a bit old-fashioned, etc.
Some descriptive words and phrases also gradually began to repeat. The word "deaf-mute" is connected with "deaf-mute". When you can't hear any sound, it is only a matter of time before you become mute. Because you can't get feedback and correction, your voice will gradually be distorted, and finally you will be unable to speak.
So, during this period of time, Qingkong will read books by other authors, especially works like Today's Big Fire and Wind Direction, to understand the current environment. He will also play games that he has always found very interesting but did not have the energy to experience.
The style of the next book will probably be a bit lighter, not too deep. In fact, I was already quite tired when writing the deeper parts later on, and sometimes I felt it was not quite right, always feeling a bit preachy. (This is not a good habit, please don't learn it 00/)
Everyone's values and outlook on life are derived from their own experiences. If you force preaching and apply your own experiences to others, you will most likely offend people.
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I have said a lot in mumbling, but now looking back, in the summer of 2020, I was sitting in the house I had just rented and wrote the beginning of this story. It felt really dreamy and unreal.
At that time, I had just paid off my debts (due to a previous illness) and only had some savings left. The epidemic had just ended, and I told my supervisor that I was resigning. He also asked me if I had found a job elsewhere, because I had told him before that there were some places I didn't like. The promised year-end bonus was gone, the salary during the epidemic had been withheld and not paid, and there were some problems with social security and other things.
I replied that I was not, I just wanted to take the civil service exam, and I was afraid of being laughed at if I wrote it.
Afterwards, my supervisor and the boss's wife mentioned it to me, and the HR department quickly settled all my wages, including the unpaid portion. Actually, the people in the company are pretty good, except for being a little stingy sometimes (laughs).
The reason I didn't continue was because I knew the prospects for this job were quite limited. It wasn't a high-tech, savvy industry, and I had no idea where I was going to end up. Furthermore, with this salary, I couldn't possibly buy a house in a big city. (Bitter)
I can't see the future, and the pressure of the times is gradually approaching. I always feel that if I let things continue like this and spend a mediocre and busy life, it will be a regrettable and uncomfortable thing.
The serious illness I had in 2018 had a huge impact on my outlook on life. The doctor initially thought it was a variant of leukemia, but fortunately it wasn't. However, it was still a blood disease that was difficult to cure. (I'm basically in good shape now, so don't worry.)
Because my mother died of a blood disease, my family was particularly worried. When I was lying on the hospital bed, I would unconsciously start thinking about many things, such as the impending death, how to spend the limited time in the future, etc.
What’s strange is that I was very calm at that time, and I didn’t feel depressed or anything like that. I just felt a little sad, because my life span is not as long as that of ordinary people, which may be more precious.
After several visits, the cause of the disease was finally found at Tongji University. It was a relatively rare hemolytic anemia. The doctor recommended conservative treatment, which means taking medicine every day and regular blood transfusions.
I stayed at home for half a year before going out to work. It was definitely not a good idea to stay at home all the time. Not only my relatives would think so, but my family was also afraid that if I stayed at home all the time, I would become weird and out of touch with society, so it didn't matter if the salary was lower.
Later, like any other person, I went for an interview and landed the job. The good thing about this company is that it's very detached. There's no team-building, and no one ever discusses family matters at work. You leave immediately after get off work, and there are no dinners or forced overtime. (There is voluntary overtime, and during busy periods, the company pays for it.)
Because of the reasons I mentioned earlier, after leaving my job, I began writing, something I had been looking forward to for a long time. My plan at the time was that if I couldn't sign a contract within three months, or if things started to improve, I would continue looking for a job. (Just think of it as a job change and a reason to give myself a raise, haha)
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