"Qi Siyu put her bag on the bedside table. I tentatively asked her if she wanted to move to another place, as there wasn't even a bathroom here. But Qi Siyu said that since we were here, we might as well make the best of it. This place is far away from the city center, and no one around knows us. It's the best place. I knew I couldn't persuade Qi Siyu, or I'd never persuaded her before, so I had to leave it at that. I sat on the bed for a while, and then I felt that the room was as hot as a steamer, and I was covered in sticky sweat. I ran to the bedside to turn on the electric fan. The fan was still working, but it made an unpleasant squeaking sound. I saw Qi Siyu pour a glass of water and take the first pill. The doctor said that if I took one pill a day and the last pill on the fourth day, I would be able to abort the baby. I was nervous and turned on the TV. But there was no signal on the TV, and every channel was full of snow."
When Ye Zhan said this, I remembered the fragments that he told me about, the dirty sheets, the worn-out TV, the creaking fan, it seemed that he was talking about this doghouse-like hotel. But the bloodstains on the floor had not appeared yet, so it must be the situation after the miscarriage on the fourth day, right? Could it be that Qi Siyu was really unlucky and had a heavy bleeding? I didn't dare to think about it anymore, and listened to Ye Zhan continue to talk about what happened at that time.
"Actually, I'm not in the mood to watch TV, but watching TV is the only way for us to kill time now. I went out to call the boss up, and he fixed the TV for a long time. Unfortunately, there were not many channels on it, only CCTV 1 to CCTV 3. I locked the channel on CCTV 1, and Qi Siyu and I sat on the bed watching TV. I don't know if Qi Siyu was paying attention, but I wasn't paying attention at all. There were dirty sheets under my butt, and I didn't want to sit on them for a moment, but I got used to it after sitting on them for a while, as if I had merged into this room, because we were equally dirty, so who was looking down on who?"
Ye Zhan talked incessantly, revealing sadness and depression in his words. I followed him back to the hotel room at that time. The room was like a steamer, emitting a strange smell. There was a stinking chamber pot on the floor. The electric fan at the head of the bed made an unpleasant squeak. The shabby TV was always playing programs from CCTV1. The sound of prostitutes' teasing came from the yard, and occasionally there were a few cicadas' calls. There was no wind in the air. A young man and woman sat side by side in this room, paying the price for the mistakes they made when they were young and ignorant. How long will it take for this summer to pass...
"After watching TV for a while, Qi Siyu hooked her arm around my shoulders and said she was sleepy and wanted to sleep. I held her in the bed and we fell asleep in each other's arms on the dirty sheets. Qi Siyu fell into a deep sleep, but I couldn't sleep. I stared at the ceiling with my eyes open. From time to time, strange little bugs crawled across the ceiling. I was worried that they would crawl into my mouth or ears after I fell asleep. I just kept my eyes open, wondering what would happen in three days, and what the baby Qi Siyu would miscarry would look like."
"I don't know how long it took, Qi Siyu woke up slowly, looked at me with my eyes wide open, and asked curiously: 'You didn't sleep?' I nodded and said: 'I didn't sleep.' Qi Siyu hugged my neck and said: 'Honey, I'm scared.' Then her whole body began to tremble. I hugged Qi Siyu tightly. I couldn't let her find out that I was also scared. I couldn't let her know that my body was shaking. I sang to her softly, to comfort her and myself..."
Bad Youth
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