Chapter 120 Freedom
◎I'll tell you the answer!◎
Why bribe?
Lu Shangwu had asked himself this question countless times in his mind.
In traditional Chinese concepts, a marriage is orthodox when the man marries and the woman gives in.
Men who marry into a woman's family are usually poor and cannot afford to marry a daughter-in-law, or they are disabled. For someone like Lu Shangwu, who has only two sons in his family, is financially sound, tall, healthy, and handsome, it is impossible for him to agree to marry into a woman's family under normal circumstances.
By choosing to accept the bribe, Lu Shangwu must bear the negative evaluation that comes with it.
——It's embarrassing for a man!
——I’m sorry to our ancestors.
——He doesn’t even want his own surname anymore. He will be too ashamed to face his ancestors when he dies.
Lu Shangwu had thought all of this through before deciding to marry into the imperial court, and had made sufficient mental preparations.
You have to give up something before you can gain something. If you want to gain the support of the Yang family, change your own destiny, and get rid of your mother's control, what does that little gossip matter?
It is because of his awareness that his father-in-law Yang Weian feels comfortable handing his daughter over to him.
Due to health reasons, Yang Weian, the former director of the Public Security Bureau of Luo County, has only one daughter, Yang Qiaozhen. He is a traditional man and is determined to find a son-in-law who is willing to marry and give birth to a grandson for the Yang family to continue the family line.
Although he was considered a high-ranking official in Luo County, it was not easy for him to find a suitable son-in-law.
Yang Qiaozhen wants to find a handsome and educated young man; Yang Wei'an hopes that the other party is smart and motivated. However, smart, motivated, and educated handsome men are rare, even if they are poor, there are a lot of girls who want to marry, so how can Yang Qiaozhen find one?
As time went by, Yang Qiaozhen's marriage was delayed until she was 24 years old.
Early marriage was popular in that era. Most girls in rural areas were engaged or married at the age of 18 or 19. Even in the city, most girls got married at the age of 20 or 21. Yang Qiaozhen knew that if she continued to waste time, she would become an old maid, so she made up her mind to lower her standards.
——It doesn’t matter what the educational level is, as long as the person looks good.
In this way, Lu Shangwu caught Yang Qiaozhen's eye.
At the age of 18, Lu Shangwu entered a machinery factory as an apprentice pliers worker. He was surrounded by female workers because of his outstanding appearance. He was tall, with red lips and white teeth, and he was handsome and sunny even in work clothes. When he got off work, girls would surround him and give him small gifts, which made his fellow workers envious and jealous.
Surrounded by girls, Lu Shangwu had a clear goal. He wanted to find a girl who worked in the county, had a good family background and could help him find a formal job. Therefore, he contacted several girls but was unsuccessful in the end.
When they met Yang Qiaozhen, the two hit it off immediately.
Yang Weian met Lu Shangwu and after chatting with him, he found that although the young man only had a junior high school education, he was studious and ambitious. So he ignored his junior high school education and tacitly approved of their relationship.
Yang Weian was willing to cultivate Lu Shangwu, but the condition was a marriage, and a very formal marriage.
It is equivalent to Lu Shangwu "marrying" into the Yang family.
The child he and Yang Qiaozhen have must have the surname Yang.
The children call Yang Weian "Grandpa" and the old lady of the Lu family, Sun Youmin, "Grandma".
Lu Shangwu agreed without discussing it with his family.
Sun Youmin was of course not happy, but Lu Shangwu changed after he turned 16, and he always made decisions beforehand. When she knew the news and wanted to object, the Yang family was too powerful, and it was too late.
However, she had a cold attitude and basically had no contact with the Yang family. She even seldom took care of her grandson. The Lu and Yang families seldom visited each other and their relationship was not very good.
Lu Shangwu married at the age of 21 and is now 36 years old. In the past 15 years, he has gone from being a pliers apprentice with a junior high school education to the chief of the Luo County Public Security Bureau. He has money, power, and fame. What does the ridicule of others mean? Lu Shangwu thinks marrying was a wise choice.
In the past, he could still hear some sarcastic remarks from the villagers, but when he gained great power, even county leaders had to be courteous to him when they met him, and when he went out, everyone envied him, and all he heard was praise, compliments and fawning.
Today, sitting in the Star City Calling Room, hearing Zhao Xiangwan say this: "What's wrong with marriage? Doesn't it just mean that the child will take the wife's surname? What's the problem? Using a surname to exchange for a lifetime of wealth and glory, it's worth it!", Lu Shangwu seemed to have returned to the past when he had nothing. It was extremely irritating!
Lu Shangwu did not get angry, but looked at Zhao Xiangwan calmly: "Officer Zhao, I just thought you were young and ignorant and outspoken. If you say such insulting words again, I will file a complaint."
"Complain?" Zhao Xiangwansi was not afraid at all. She met his eyes. There seemed to be a flash of fire when their eyes met. "I didn't say that. Your mother said it in mockery. She told us that you, her son, were lost. Your eldest brother had four daughters, but no one continued the Lu family's bloodline. However, you continued the Yang family's bloodline. Your mother was very disappointed in you."
There was an indescribable sadness in Lu Hui's eyes.
"My mother? Why are you looking for her? For her, her life comes first, enjoyment comes second, and face comes third. As for other people, they are not important. What's the big deal about continuing the Lu family's incense? She just fears that relatives will gossip behind her back."
Lu Hui's chest was rising and falling violently, his teeth were clenched, his hands were on the table, and his whole body was shaking slightly. It was obvious that he was successfully stimulated by Zhao Xiangwan.
[After killing someone, I’m not afraid of anything! ]
[She still wants to control me? No way. ]
[My mother has always wanted to control everything in her hands. Anyone who is honest and obedient should be exploited by her! My grandmother died, my father died, she exhausted everyone around her, and continued to torture me and my brother.]
[I got rich, I got rid of her, I finally left her. This little policewoman is so funny, she said my mother is disappointed in me? Haha, it's good to disappoint my mother! ]
Zhao Xiangwan felt a little shudder in his heart - Lu Hui's weakness was found!
If Lu Hui really wanted to get rid of his mother's control, why did Lu Hui allow his mother to show off her power under his name for so many years?
When I first met Sun Youmin at the bus station police station, she said arrogantly: Do you believe that if I make a phone call, Chief Lu will send the police to take you away?
Why should Lu Hui listen to her? Why should he allow her to continue to command?
Zhao Xiangwan once read an article that said the more you hate someone, the more you will become that person. Why?
In psychological research, the original family, that is, the family where a person is born and raised, leaves a very deep imprint, silently influencing the person's personality and behavior through the attitude of the parents towards the elders, the words the parents say to the child, and the meals the parents cook.
Lu Shangwu hated his mother in his heart, but Sun Youmin's way of speaking, behaving and doing things had already penetrated deeply into his bones long before he formed hatred and tried to get rid of it.
Once triggered, people will immediately follow suit.
Lu Hui's psychological weakness is control.
He imitated Sun Youmin's way of controlling others, but he also kept resisting and trying to break free from Sun Youmin's control.
Killing someone on a rainy night was Lu Hui's first act of resistance.
Joining the factory as an apprentice was his second act of rebellion.
Marrying into the Yang family and changing his name to Lu Hui was his third rebellion.
Step by step, Lu Hui has been trying to break free from the shackles of his original family and escape from Sun Youmin's control.
So, here comes the problem.
What does Lu Hui desire most?
What Gong Sixi desires most is the recognition of his parents, because he has always been ignored;
Where is Lu Hui?
His fate has been controlled by others throughout his life, and what he longs for is freedom.
It is not just physical freedom, not just freedom of behavior, but the freedom to choose to be respected, trusted, appreciated, supported and encouraged.
Choose your own life and don't be influenced by others.
Do what you really want to do without being disturbed by others.
By finding what Lu Hui desires most and accurately pressing his emotional buttons, you can make him sad, happy, angry, and even collapse!
However, this process will be difficult and extremely mentally taxing.
When you control the emotions of others, you will also be affected.
Thinking of this, Zhao Xiangwan took a long breath, poured himself a cup of tea, and slowly sat down.
Seeing Zhao Xiangwan so calm, Gao Guangqiang and Zhou Rulan also relaxed and lowered their heads to drink water.
Only Lu Hui was filled with anger and had nowhere to vent, his emotions still immersed in hatred for his mother.
[Selfish, money is all she cares about! Grandma had an ulcer on her thigh, and the barefoot doctor said she needed to get an injection of penicillin, but she was reluctant to spend the money, so she just watched her grandmother's thigh decay and die.]
[Dad was sick, so she forced him to work in the fields. Dad died of exhaustion! ]
[If anyone doesn't listen to her, she will cry, make a scene, or even hang herself.]
[The first child was a daughter. I said I would place her in the care of my eldest brother. What did she say? She said the girl’s last name was Yang, and then she gave her away…]
The first child is a girl?
Zhao Xiangwan took a sip of hot tea and looked up at Lu Hui: "How is your relationship with your mother?"
Lu Hui shook his head and said nothing.
Zhao Xiangwan said, "I have talked to your mother, Sun Youmin, twice. I feel that she is a very strong old lady. Living with her must be very tiring, right?"
Lu Hui nodded, thinking: "Very tired."
Zhao Xiangwan asked: "If you are tired, why don't you leave?"
Lu Hui looked calm, but his heart was in turmoil: "I chose to marry into the family, which means I'm leaving."
Zhao Xiangwan changed the subject: "Since you left, why are you still influenced by her in everything?"
Lu Hui looked at her and said, "I make all my own decisions without being influenced by her."
Zhao Xiangwan said: "Since you made all the decisions, why did you abandon your first child, a daughter? Even if you get rid of your mother, your life is still controlled and manipulated by others, but the person who controls you has changed from your mother to your father-in-law."
趙向晚的話，揭開了盧輝心底的傷疤。
【入贅前楊衛安就說過，一定要生孫子。這一點是死命令，我沒有辦法。】
【梅梅80年冬天出生，和我長得很像，那麽漂亮的小臉，我也舍不得。雖然楊衛安說他有辦法再弄一個準生證，但畢竟有計劃生育政策在上面擺着，面子上還是得過得去。原本想着先把梅梅放在大哥家養着，将來再想辦法接到我身邊，誰知道我媽那麽狠心！】
梅梅？
趙向晚腦中忽然冒出一張楚楚可憐的面孔來。
不會這麽巧，被盧輝遺棄的女兒，是許嵩嶺收養的女兒許珍梅吧？
周巧秀在孤兒院領養梅梅的時候，她已經五歲，小名就叫梅梅，星市孤兒院的院長說之所以叫這個名字，是因為襁褓上繡着梅花圖案，還有一個“梅”字。
将記憶中許珍梅的模樣與盧輝對比，趙向晚暗自點頭。
許珍梅長得像盧輝，沒錯，但更像她奶奶、孫友敏。一樣的小臉，一樣的自私，一樣的控制欲望強烈。
趙向晚幾乎可以肯定，許珍梅就是盧輝與楊巧珍的第一個孩子。
盧輝的面孔抽搐了一下：“誰告訴我，我把女兒遺棄？”
趙向晚：“你媽聽說你犯了事，迅速撇清自己，該說的、不該說的，她把你揭發得徹底而幹淨。”就是孫友敏親口揭發兒子，說他違反計劃生育政策生了兩胎，第一胎是女兒，卻把她遺棄。
盧輝并沒有意外母親的絕情，但一顆心卻蕩入了谷底。
被親人揭發、背刺的感覺，非常糟糕。
【真不愧是我媽！】
【她還有臉說我遺棄梅梅？明明是她，是她把梅梅抱走丢掉！】
【梅梅生于冬天，窗外寒梅暗香襲來，所以我給她取名梅梅。我并不想丢掉女兒，小灣村那個時候還沒有拆，離縣城半個小時車程。放在老家撫養，看她也方便，多好。】
【偏偏我媽恨我入贅不聽她的話，将一口惡氣發洩在孩子身上，偷偷抱走丢在火車站。等我知道這件事，已經是三天以後。】
盧輝長嘆一聲，垂眸苦笑：“孩子被我媽丢棄在火車站，再也找不回來了。”
趙向晚追問：“為什麽不找？”
盧輝擡起頭：“你怎麽知道我沒找？我的第一個孩子被我媽扔在火車站，我找遍了羅縣所有地方，問遍了所有人，可就是沒找到！”
楊家人都忙着侍候坐月子的楊巧珍，沒有人幫他找孩子。
孫友敏做了一回惡人，卻正中楊家下懷。梅梅還沒來得及上戶口，楊家正好再生一個，又不違反計劃生育政策。
唯一記挂梅梅的，反而是盧輝這個父親。
趙向晚道：“我能幫你把女兒找回來，你信不信？”
盧輝一臉的不信。
趙向晚站起身：“你等一下。”
說罷，趙向晚起身離開。
傳喚室裏剩下的三個人，你看看我、我看看你，都不知道趙向晚要去幹什麽。
趙向晚直奔副局長辦公室。
敲門等到回應之後，趙向晚推門進屋。
許嵩嶺一看到是她，眉毛皺了起來：“你來幹嘛？”
趙向晚雷厲風行，仿佛古代手執尚方寶劍的巡撫大臣，一路殺殺殺，卻搞得朝中君臣很頭痛。
許嵩嶺今天一整天都在收拾趙向晚留下的、程序上的爛攤子，找省廳專管刑偵大案的彭廳長、一把手汪廳長彙報工作，又求着彭廳長與岳州地區公安部門協調，抽調人手立案偵查盧輝、龔有霖貪腐大案。
其間遇到無數阻力，從羅縣到岳州區各領導層都有電話打過來，有說情的，有講理的，也有發脾氣批評他跨越程序胡亂瞎搞的，總之一句話，焦頭爛額。
一擡頭看到趙向晚進來，許嵩嶺下意識地心髒一縮：又怎麽了？
趙向晚聽到他心聲，有點過意不去。
不過她有正事，也來不及解釋安撫，徑直問：“師父，你那裏有梅梅的照片嗎？”
算一算，許珍梅今年應該快滿十五歲了，正在讀寄宿初中，初三。
許嵩嶺一邊拉抽屜找照片，一邊問：“怎麽了？”
趙向晚說：“我有可能找到了梅梅的親生父母。”
許嵩嶺拿照片的手僵在半空，半天才說：“你在搞什麽鬼？”
不是正在查三村灣的案子嗎？怎麽突然就冒出這麽個消息？梅梅一出生就被家人抛棄，送到星市孤兒院撫養，直到五歲才被許嵩嶺、周巧秀收養。這麽多年來，一點消息都沒有，怎麽今天趙向晚突然說找到梅梅的親生父母？
趙向晚認真地看着許嵩嶺：“師父，您見過羅縣公安局局長盧輝沒有？有沒有發現他和梅梅長得很像？”
許嵩嶺将照片交給趙向晚，眉毛擰成了一條線。
【梅梅的父親是盧輝？】
【向晚從不诳語，多半是真的。】
【好好的，他為什麽要把梅梅抛棄？】
趙向晚低頭看一眼照片。這應該是梅梅暑假參加學校組織的夏令營時拍的，對着鏡頭比了個姿勢，戴着寬邊草帽，一襲白裙，飄然若仙。
趙向晚笑了：“這照片，絕了。”五官神态妥妥一個小號女版的盧輝。
許嵩嶺将抽屜往裏一推，忽然站了起來：“我跟你一起去見見那個盧局長。”
趙向晚道：“好，您去質問質問他，為什麽生而不養，枉為人父！”
許嵩嶺拿過她手中照片，瞪了她一眼：“要你教？”
師徒二人大步走回傳喚室。
看到許嵩嶺進來，高廣強、周如蘭一起站起身：“許局。”
許嵩嶺示意他們坐下，走到盧輝面前，上下打量了他一眼，這才伸出手來：“你好，我是許嵩嶺。”
握完手，知道對方是公安局長的盧輝終于感覺自己受了重視，正要開口說話，卻被許嵩嶺一句話打得措手不及：“你就是梅梅的親生父親？”
盧輝頭有點暈，雙手扶住桌邊才穩住身形：“你，你什麽意思？”
許嵩嶺将照片放在桌上，推到盧輝眼前：“十年前，我與妻子周巧秀在星市孤兒院領養了一個女孩，名叫梅梅，你看看，現在她快十五歲，讀初三。”
盧輝低下頭，愣愣地看着照片上笑容溫柔、眉眼酷似自己的美麗少女。
【這是我的女兒？】
【被我媽丢在火車站的梅梅，怎麽送到了星市的孤兒院？】
【長得真像我！兒子像我老丈人，完全找不到我的影子。可是梅梅，雖然我沒有養過一天，卻長得這麽像我啊。】
“為什麽要扔掉梅梅？”許嵩嶺面孔黝黑，面容嚴肅，這麽多年刑警大案偵破蘊養出一身正氣，這一聲質問直擊盧輝心底，令他不由自主地心虛起來。
“我，我也不想的，是我媽自作主張。”
許嵩嶺冷笑一聲：“做父親的人，連自己的女兒都保護不好，還談什麽做人！不要和我說什麽你媽自作主張，你既然結婚生子，就已經是立了門戶的男兒，受母親所制，你還好意思說出口？”
趙向晚與周如蘭對視一眼。
趙向晚心想：不愧是我師父，這一句話罵得好！
周如蘭心想：果然是師徒，紮心的話都一樣。
盧輝的氣焰徹底被許嵩嶺撲滅。
親生的女兒被母親扔掉，這是盧輝心底最隐秘的痛。
這代表他永遠無法把控自己的人生。
雖然他這一輩子都在努力擺脫旁人對他的控制，但他卻像一只困在蛛網裏的小蟲子一樣，再掙紮也沒有用。
女兒對盧輝而言，并不只是一個小生命，更代表着他一直奮力要擺脫的枷鎖。
他雖然入贅，有了新的社會地位，有了更好的生活。
可是，他能為所欲為嗎？
不能！
他的第一個孩子，那個長得像他的，花朵一樣嬌豔的女兒，不可能被楊家承認。
他送回村裏，想讓大哥幫他撫養，可是母親卻不同意，背着他悄悄扔掉。
此刻看到女兒的照片，面對将女兒撫養成人的許嵩嶺，盧輝完全硬氣不起來。
許嵩嶺那一句“做父親的人，連自己的女兒都保護不好，還談什麽做人！”讓他的臉瞬間脹得通紅。
“我……我……”
嗫嚅了半天，盧輝也只說出兩個重複的“我”字，沒有一句完整的話語可以辯駁。
【我是個失敗的人。】
【這一輩子，都沒辦法做自己想做的事。】
【連女兒都保護不了，我根本不配做一個父親。】
許嵩嶺目光似電，緊緊盯着盧輝，厲聲道：“為什麽扔掉梅梅？”
盧輝沒有說話。
許嵩嶺脾氣不太好，受不了盧輝這磨磨唧唧的模樣，左手重重拍在桌上，發出“砰！”地一聲。
梅梅的照片随着桌面的震動，移動了半寸。
許嵩嶺指着照片：“看到了嗎？我拍桌子，照片都會動。你堂堂七尺男兒，怎麽半點反應都沒有？”
許嵩嶺停頓片刻，大聲道：“我再問你一次，你捂着自己的良心，認真地回答我，為什麽？為什麽把梅梅扔掉？”
盧輝緩緩擡起頭，面色慘白。
“許局長，你這一生，一定是快意恩仇、肆意灑脫吧？”
許嵩嶺：“瞎說，穿上這身制服，誰敢說自己能快意恩仇、肆意灑脫？”他還不忘瞪了趙向晚一眼。
【快意恩仇、肆意灑脫，這八個字，送給你最合适！】
趙向晚攤開手：“您別看我，我也做不到這八個字。”
盧輝并不意外許嵩嶺的答案：“至少，你的每一步選擇，都是由自己決策，是不是？”
許嵩嶺點頭：“那當然。我喜歡當兵，就去當兵；我想當警察，就當警察；我喜歡巧秀，我就和她結婚；我想要孩子，可是巧秀身體不好生不出來，我們就一起去孤兒院領養一個。這些都是我的選擇，我努力做好，對得起自己，對得起良心。”
盧輝的眼中滿是羨慕：“可是，我和你不一樣，我有一個充滿控制欲、極度自私的母親。”
“從小到大，我和我哥一切都得聽她的。小的吃多少飯、穿什麽衣，大到考多少分、交什麽朋友，都必須聽她的。如果不聽她的話，她便會用那種冰冷的眼神看着你，把你當作空氣一樣地對待着。”
“哪有孩子不依戀媽媽呢？我和我哥被她教育得非常聽話，按照她的要求，懂事、乖巧、不提過分的要求。我哥叫尚文，我叫尚武，可是村裏、學校裏的孩子給我們取的外號是什麽，你知道嗎？”
盧輝忽然笑了起來，笑聲裏一絲愉悅都沒有。
“我哥叫盧大妞，我叫盧二妞。我倆從來不敢把衣服弄髒，不敢打着赤腳四處亂跑，不敢罵髒話，不敢在田野裏打滾，因為我媽不讓。”
說到這裏，盧輝忽然站起身，面對着傳喚室緊閉的門，做了個奇怪的動作。單膝微屈，雙手下垂，仿佛古代奴仆見到主子一般，低眉斂目：“啊，我忘了介紹我母親。她叫孫友敏，千金大小姐，祖上曾經三代翰林，要不是戰火蔓延、世事變遷，她不會淪落到鄉野之間，更不可能嫁給我爸這個農夫。”
這樣的盧輝，整個人被一種深沉的悲哀籠罩着。
盧輝已經陷入一種急欲訴說的狀态，根本不需要旁人引導，開始自說自話，仿佛這些話一直以來深深壓在他的心底，今天終于找到傾訴的機會。
“我媽的控制欲，讓我和我哥都喘不上氣來。可是，她在面對我們家裏每一個人的時候，自帶一種高貴氣質，頤指氣使，讓你不由自主地低下頭來，心甘情願為她服務。我爸在她面前更是匍匐到了地底，每天寵着、哄着，就怕惹得大小姐不開心。”
許嵩嶺聽不下去了，打斷他的話：“你已經三十六歲，過好自己的日子就好。”
盧輝搖頭：“我也很想這樣，我也不斷努力。我不願意婚事受她擺布，于是我選擇入贅楊家；我不願意孩子受她擺布，所以我讓兒子姓楊，喊她外婆。我以為我越來越強大，可以讓她俯首稱臣……”
趙向晚往他心上戳了一把刀子：“入贅，意味着你在得到助力的同時，也必須受到楊家的控制，包括生男還是生女，包括命名權；你用一種控制，來擺脫你母親的控制，借助的依然是外力，而不是你自己的力量。所以，到三十六歲了，你依然軟弱、微小。”
軟弱、微小？盧輝的心被紮了一刀，踉跄着退後幾步。
許嵩嶺站起身，扶住他的胳膊，引他坐回椅中：“盧局，我們都是警察，深知警察職責，懲惡揚善，而非助長惡、容忍惡。既然你母親把你女兒扔掉，你為什麽不訓斥她，報警抓她？她這是遺棄罪，應該接受懲罰！”
盧輝搖頭：“她是我媽，那孩子本來楊家也不肯要。如果告她，我在楊家該如何自處？那個時候我還在黨校學習，沒有工作、沒有收入，一切仰仗我老丈人。”
許嵩嶺一聽，勃然大怒：“說這說那，不過就是你自己也不是什麽好東西！你生下梅梅，卻又嫌棄她是女兒。那我問你，為什麽你不與你老丈人據理力争？你妻子是不是女兒？姓楊的為什麽不把他女兒扔掉？啊？你為什麽不争，你為什麽不吵？！”
許嵩嶺的話，成功讓盧輝臉色一白，如受雷擊。
對啊，女兒怎麽了？
妻子楊巧珍也是女子，不是一樣可以招贅生子？
如果非要再生一個兒子，大了不起就是不要公職，接受罰款嘛。老丈人楊衛安是公安局局長，難道他就沒有其他辦法可想？
楊衛安之所以選擇不要梅梅，只不過是因為這樣最簡單省事罷了。
盧輝喃喃自語：“對啊，我為什麽不争，我為什麽吵？”
趙向晚慢悠悠地回答：“因為你內心軟弱，因為你不敢反抗，因為你已經習慣順從。”
這一回，盧輝沒有反對趙向晚的話，而是呆坐在椅中，看向周如蘭。
“周警官，你一定不能理解我這樣的人吧？你一生下來就什麽都有，不必你努力奮鬥，就可以擁有一切。”
周如蘭笑了起來：“怎麽可能？像我這樣的人，一樣也要努力才能得到自己想要的東西。也許你想要的是權勢，可是這些對我而言并不重要。我想要的，是像我父親一樣，成為一個好警察。我從來不提父母的名字，一步步從基層做起，就是怕被人特殊對待。我想讓別人說：苗慧和周江勇有這樣的女兒，真光榮。而不是聽到別人說，啊，要不是因為她的父母，她什麽都不是！”
盧輝大受震撼。
【原來，我想要的東西，對她并不重要。】
【有背景卻不肯用，有可以借助的力量，她不要，偏偏還要靠自己。】
盧輝再看着高廣強：“高警官，那你呢？你是自由的嗎？”
高廣強的目光裏滿是生活的智慧：“人活一世，哪裏可能有真正的自由，不都得為外物所累？有的為名，有的為利，有的為情，有的為父母子女，不管是為什麽，只要是自己選擇的，那就不要後悔。”
此刻的盧輝，正處于人生最迷茫的時期。
他拼盡全力，想要擺脫母親的控制，到頭來卻發現一切都是徒勞。
他想通過結拜來獲得朋友的幫助，可是朋友卻逼他殺了人；
他想通過進城入贅來獲得楊家的支持，可是楊家卻讓他丢棄女兒；
哪怕他改名盧輝，哪怕他現在與母親分隔兩處，哪怕他現在當上公安局局長，他的內心從來都沒有成長，也沒有變得強大，依然是那個被人嘲笑的、不敢反抗母親的“盧二妞”。
盧輝雙手交叉，緊緊将自己環抱，仿佛只有這樣才能汲取到力量。
他忽然擡起頭，看着許嵩嶺：“梅梅，她好嗎？”
許嵩嶺沒隐瞞：“我們後來生了一個女兒，梅梅很嫉妒，但并沒有表現出來。四年前吧，她找了個機會把妹妹丢棄，妹妹差點被拐走，當時這事鬧得挺大，全局上下幫我找孩子，幸好向晚幫忙才把妹妹找回來。”
盧輝忽然笑了，笑容悲喜莫辨。
【呵呵，嫉妒、獨占欲強烈。】
【真不愧是我媽的嫡親孫女！】
他怔怔地看着許嵩嶺：“抱歉，給你添麻煩了。”
許嵩嶺是個直脾氣：“的确麻煩。”
自從發現許珍梅擅長僞裝柔弱、內在卻膽大心黑之後，許嵩嶺對怎麽處理父女關系，絞盡了腦汁。
被人抛棄、缺乏安全感、容易采取極端手段，這樣的孩子，應該給予她最多的愛，對她進行正确善惡觀的引導——這是心理醫生給出的建議。
為此，一方面許嵩嶺與周巧秀将梅梅送到寄宿學校，将她與妹妹分隔開來，避免産生嫉妒情緒，另一方面，他們也沒有放棄對她的教育。
最終梅梅會成為一個什麽樣的人，許嵩嶺并沒有把握，但至少現在，梅梅坦然接受了被抛棄、被收養的事實，也感謝養父母的寬容與愛。
盧輝聽許嵩嶺唠唠叨叨講完許珍梅的故事之後，內心五味雜陳。
他一個親生父親，殘忍把女兒抛棄；
許嵩嶺這個沒有任何血緣關系的父親，卻為女兒的成長、教育殚精竭慮。
盧輝問：“為什麽？”
許嵩嶺反問：“什麽為什麽？”
盧輝問：“如果說，你以前沒有孩子，這麽對待養女我能夠理解；可是你後來有了自己的孩子，幹嘛還要付出這麽多精力來教育她走正道？”
許嵩嶺看着盧輝：“對你而言，這世上所有人都是自私自利只為自己的嗎？”
盧輝：“難道不是嗎？”
許嵩嶺皺起眉毛，嚴肅地責問：“責任呢？道德呢？公道呢？這些，你都丢掉了嗎？”
許嵩嶺聲音雖不大，氣勢卻很足，盧輝這一剎那如受重擊，呆怔出神。
許嵩嶺厲聲道：“你為什麽會坐在這裏？”
盧輝沒有說話。
Xu Songling stood up, took the stack of information from Zhao Xiangwan, and slammed it on the table: "Look carefully! This is all your evidence! Corruption, bribery, bribery, and factionalism. You instructed Gong Youlin and others to provide protection for underground casinos, brothels, and the trafficking of women and children. As the police chief, you have done such a thing that even I am ashamed of you!"
Lu Hui's heart was in turmoil.
[How did it come to this? ]
[Because I want to get rid of control, I need external help. 】
【But I found myself being controlled by other forces again. 】
Xu Songling is not like Zhao Xiangwan, who would gradually lead the opponent to reveal his weakness and then strike with thunder.
He is a bold player who always hits hard during interrogations.
Once the evidence is produced, Xu Songling will show no mercy.
"How dare you say you're bothering me? Your daughter, your own daughter, you have the nerve to bother me?"
“Why give birth but not raise it?”
“Why don’t you dare to fight?”
“Why can’t I ever get rid of other people’s control?”
"I'll tell you the answer!"
Xu Songling stopped cursing at this point, and looked down from a high position, like a tiger emerging from the mountains, with anger burning in his eyes.
"You don't have even a single quality in your heart that can help you grow and become stronger!"
"With responsibilities on our shoulders, we will move forward with a heavy heart, and our steps will become heavier and more steady."
"With good and evil in our hearts, we know what is right and what is wrong. That is why we dare to face evil people and evil things and fight bravely."
"Only when we have morality above us can we be respectful and restrain our behavior. If we are upright, people will act accordingly without being told!"
"If you don't have these, how can you be truly powerful? How can you be truly free?!"
At this moment, Xu Songling's aura was so strong that Lu Hui couldn't breathe.
Xu Songling yelled, "Tell the truth and be a clean person! This is your only choice. It is also the only choice that can make you strong and allow you to face Meimei and bravely tell her that you are her father!"
Tears of regret flowed down Lu Hui's cheeks: "I confess, I confess!"