Chapter 140 Scars

◎Dad doesn’t love me, mom doesn’t care about me◎

"Ha ha ha ha……"

Seeing that Zhao Xiangwan did not respond, Luo Yihui thought he had found Zhao Xiangwan's weakness and burst into laughter.

Zhao Xiangwan looked at Luo Yihui quietly.

After she and Ji Zhao got together, countless people were complaining in their hearts. There were jealous people, people who were disgusted, people who cursed with ill intentions, people who were malicious and resentful... Zhao Xiangwan had heard even worse words.

Luo Yihui's curse was nothing to Zhao Xiangwan.

The reason why Zhao Xiangwan didn't say anything was because she discovered that Luo Yihui's knees, which were tightly pressed together before, were unconsciously opened because of laughing, and his right leg was shaking slightly - this was a relaxed and comfortable state.

This means that his psychological defenses have been relaxed.

Zhao Xiangwan suddenly had a bold guess.

——Luo Yihui has always wanted to be a naughty, noisy and willful child.

Since Luo Yihui could remember, he had been living in an unhappy family atmosphere. Whenever he made a noise, he would be scolded and ignored by his parents. From the moment his parents abandoned him, he suddenly grew up, became sensible and well-behaved, and tried hard to please everyone around him.

Luo Yihui has been forcing himself to grow up and mature, and has never been a real child. He is childish and naive. He cries when he is angry and laughs when he is happy. If someone makes him unhappy, he will act like a spoiled child and quarrel with others. He is a child who gives adults a lot of headaches and takes a long time to coax.

Because of his premature maturity, Luo Yihui has accumulated a lot of negative energy in his heart.

But today in the interrogation room, Zhao Xiangwan forced him to face his scars, and his true nature began to show, his inner dissatisfaction was vented, and his defenses began to lower.

Zhao Xiangwan made up his mind, so he could just be a kid with him for once.

"Is it funny?"

Zhao Xiangwan curled his lips.

"First, medical research shows that autism is not a single gene genetic disease, but is related to multiple factors. There is no record of a high incidence of autism in the Ji family's ancestors. Therefore, the possibility that Ji Zhao and I's child will have autistic symptoms is not high."

Luo Yihui certainly knew that autism was not a dominant genetic disease like albinism and hemophilia, but he had to say that on purpose, wasn't it just to attack the other party's soft spot? This was the same as some people scolding the other party for having a son without anus when they were arguing. He opened his mouth to retort: ​​"Then what..."

Before he could finish, Zhao Xiangwan's second sentence came out.

"Second, even if my child has autism, so what? She is still Ji Zhao's and my baby, the most pampered baby of the Ji family. Unlike you, who is not loved by your father and mother..."

Zhao Xiangwan's words were like a sharp arrow.

puff--

A sharp arrow pierced his chest.

Luo Yihui suddenly stood up from his chair, raised his hand and pointed at Zhao Xiangwan, his fingers trembling: "Zhao Xiangwan! Who are you to dare to curse me! Shouldn't the saying "father doesn't love you, mother doesn't care about you" be given to you? Your biological parents don't want you, your adoptive parents abuse you, and you yourself are full of wounds, yet you dare to say that to me!"

Everyone has some degree of childhood trauma and harm from their original family.

——In a poor family, every item is extremely precious. When a child accidentally breaks a kettle and gets his hand burned, his parents not only do not comfort him, but they beat and scold him, scolding him for being a spendthrift and being clumsy. From then on, a thorn will be planted in the child's mind, making him feel that he is not cherished.

——In a family where the father is absent for a long time, the mother is busy and tired every day, nagging incessantly, constantly telling her grievances, and blaming the children for bringing her endless housework and hard work. Children who grow up in such an environment will have a strong sense of guilt and feel that they are not worthy of love.

For some people, these pains will accompany them throughout their lives, and even if they grow up and start a new family, they still cannot let go.

However, for some people, these wounds gradually heal.

As they grow older and gain more experience, the injured children will gradually understand that all parents are first-time parents and they are not perfect. No one taught them how to treat their children properly, and no one told them how to love another person, so they will make mistakes.

Children don't have to bear the consequences of their parents' mistakes for the rest of their lives.

Luo Yihui is the former, unable to let go of the past.

He is extremely lacking in love and security, so he demands endless care and love. His heart is like a bottomless pit, and no matter how much love and dedication others give him, it cannot fill the big hole.

Zhao Xiangwan is the latter, coming to terms with the past.

She once longed for the love of her parents, once cared a lot about the six words "daddy doesn't love me, mom doesn't care about me", once was afraid of contacting people, and once thought she was a very bad person.

But as he grew older, his career progressed, and more and more outstanding people appeared around him, Zhao Xiangwan, who was becoming more and more content, no longer cared.

To Zhao Xiangwan, Luo Yihui's attack was weak and powerless.

"It doesn't matter if my father doesn't love me or my mother doesn't care about me. I can still live a beautiful life. It doesn't matter if they love me or not. I love myself, and that's enough."

"But what about you?"

"Envy? Jealousy? Hate?"

"I envy my integration into the Ji family, I envy Ji Zhao for having selfless parental love, and I hate that the future child of Ji Zhao and I will become the happiest baby in the world."

Envy, jealousy and hatred?

Luo Yihui's face turned pale, and his whole body began to tremble like a pendulum.

Cao Guang couldn't stand it anymore, so he walked forward and put his hand on Luo Yihui's shoulder: "Sit down, don't get excited." What on earth were these two people doing? The content of the quarrel had nothing to do with the case.

Luo Yihui felt heavy pressure on his shoulders and sat back in his chair.

The fire of anger burned in his brain, spreading like wildfire, burning away all his rationality and calmness.

Luo Yihui raised his head and stared at Zhao Xiangwan fiercely. There was only one thought in his mind: to defeat and crush this hateful woman in front of him!

"I'm jealous of you? Don't you think too highly of yourself? You were played around by Zhao Chenyang, your adoptive parents schemed to swap your identity, and you were thrown into the countryside to live for eighteen years. You were abused like this, but you let everyone off easily. You even treated Zhaojiagou as your hometown and were intimate with your two cheap brothers. You are incompetent and ridiculous! Coward! Fake Virgin!"

This was the first time someone had exposed Zhao Xiangwan's scars to his face.

The interrogation room fell silent again.

Cao Guang thought: How could the wise and brave Officer Zhao have such a miserable childhood?

Li Mingyang thought: I never knew that Officer Zhao had such a miserable childhood.

Officer Zhou wiped his sweat while taking notes: Ah, can you write this down? Officer Zhao won't come after me later, right?

Luo Yihui stared at Zhao Xiangwan closely, expecting to see her broken and sad.

【Hurry up, cry, cry. 】

[I just don’t believe that you can truly forgive those who have hurt you.]

[We are all people abandoned by our parents. I don’t believe that you don’t have hatred, jealousy, or reluctance in your heart! ]

However, Zhao Xiangwan did not cry.

She smiled.

Finally, I heard Luo Yihui's complete thoughts, and my goal was achieved.

"It seems that idiot Zhao Chenyang told you a lot about me."

Zhao Xiangwan leaned back against the table. She was not nervous at all, but rather relaxed.

Luo Yihui's eyebrows moved.

The word "idiot" is really unkind.

[We were both abandoned by our parents, why is she so happy while I always feel unhappy? ]

[After I was abandoned by my parents, at least my aunt was willing to raise and educate me. Zhao Xiangwan was like a maid in the countryside and had to work hard to study. I obviously got more than her, so why was I the one who was angry and she was the one who was happy? ]

Zhao Xiangwan frowned, his amber eyes reflecting bright light under the light.

"We are all children abandoned by our parents, right?"

Luo Yihui was attracted by her gaze and nodded, "Yes." Perhaps because they shared the same suffering, at this moment Luo Yihui had the illusion that he and Zhao Xiangwan were on the same side.

"Whose fault is it that my parents abandoned me?"

"It's their fault!"

"Is it our fault?"

"no."

"Very good. Then why are you using my parents' mistakes to attack me?"

Luo Yihui was speechless.

After a while, Luo Yihui suddenly came to his senses: "It was you who attacked me first, and you were the first to scold my father for not caring for me and my mother for not loving me!"

Zhao Xiangwan said calmly: "But the person I care about is you."

Luo Yihui was a little confused by Zhao Xiangwan's tricks: "Is there any difference?"

Zhao Xiangwan nodded: "You care, so you are angry; I don't care, so I am not angry. The same words have completely different effects, so I win."

Luo Yihui looked up at Zhao Xiangwan and sneered: "You won, so what?"

Zhao Xiangwan laughed: "I won, I'm happy."

Zhao Xiangwan smiled, her eyebrows curved, and she looked lively and smart. Luo Yihui subconsciously shifted his gaze, not daring to meet her gaze.

For some reason, Luo Yihui seemed to have returned to his childhood. He was wronged, and he got angry, threw his toys on the ground, and yelled at the top of his lungs.

Even though it's childish and ridiculous, but... it's really fun!

Some scars are too painful to be touched, so one dares not to open them. The more one dares not to open them, the more untouchable they become, as they bleed when touched. However, today, Zhao Xiangwan opened his scars again and again, and he used the most vicious words to poke at her pain points. They went back and forth, and the pain gradually became numb.

They argued like little kids, and later on Luo Yihui suddenly realized that he was not the worst person.

趙向晚的童年比他糟糕多了，偏偏還能當上警察，站在這裏審訊他。憑什麽他就必須成為嫌疑人，接受她的審判？

莫名地，洛一輝被趙向晚激出勝負欲。

——你贏了？未必吧！

洛一輝主動開口說話：“趙向晚，你猜錯了。”

趙向晚等的就是這句話。

她故意一挑眉，冷哼一聲：“你不是兇手？”

洛一輝點頭：“對，我沒有殺蔚藍，也沒有雇兇殺人。”

趙向晚搖頭：“不可能！連趙晨陽都說，你看過她與蔚藍的通信，不願意讓她與蔚藍合作。你想剪掉她的翅膀，把她永遠留在你一個人的身旁。你從來沒有真正擁有過一個人，或者一件事吧？所以你要把趙晨陽牢牢控制在你手裏。”

趙向晚越是不信，洛一輝的內心便越是高興。

趙向晚剛才營造出來的“小孩子鬥嘴”場景令他沉迷其中，此刻洛一輝就想贏一局。

洛一輝看着趙向晚：“我剪掉她的翅膀，把她永遠留在我身旁？不不不，晨陽把自己看得太過重要了。”

如果趙晨陽親耳聽到洛一輝的話，估計會瘋掉。

趙向晚假意震驚。

洛一輝很滿意趙向晚的這個反應：“你們都以為我很愛晨陽，是不是？其實……并不。”

什麽是愛？

怎樣去愛一個人？

如果這是一門考試，那洛一輝與趙晨陽都及不了格。

對洛一輝而言，趙晨陽是同類。

趙晨陽嫉妒趙向晚，洛一輝嫉妒季昭。

兩人都是善妒的人，都覺得世道不公平，都覺得自己沒有錯，全是別人的錯。

兩人都在不斷地向外界索取。

一開始，洛一輝覺得趙晨陽很有意思。

聽她罵趙向晚，怪父母無能、恨社會不公，事事說到心坎上。

可是，日子一久他便倦了。

他想要無私的、奉獻的愛，趙晨陽給不了他。

趙晨陽想要包容的、付出的愛，洛一輝同樣給不了。

兩個同樣貪婪、自私的人，怎麽可能會幸福地生活在一起？

但是，趙晨陽還是有用的。

當趙晨陽展現出對未來的判斷之後，洛一輝很快就發現了端倪。以趙晨陽的學識、眼光、智商，絕不可能會有這麽精準的預判能力，也想不出來那些精彩無比的點子。

除非……

趙晨陽從未來而來。

比起洛一輝，趙晨陽那點小心機完全不夠看。她給蔚藍寫信，想要合作寫小說、出版、拍電視劇，這些洛一輝都知道。先前只覺得趙晨陽好玩，想一出是一出，可是當蔚藍回信之後，洛一輝這才明白，趙晨陽的這些故事梗概很有價值。

既然有價值，那就把她的價值榨幹為止。

洛一輝提出結婚，趙晨陽很高興地答應了。

他打算親自與蔚藍談判，如果蔚藍能夠同意合作，那就一起成立工作室，趙晨陽出創意，蔚藍寫文，出版、改編成電視劇，賺來的錢按照一定比例分成。

反正趙晨陽與他夫妻一體，她賺的不就是他的？

趙向晚目光炯炯，一直觀察着洛一輝的表情變化，在他陷入沉思的那一瞬間，她也開始快速分析眼前的狀況。

為了獨占趙晨陽，所以洛一輝殺了蔚藍——這個殺人動機有些牽強。

只要結婚，夫妻財産共享，趙晨陽越優秀，洛一輝越受益，何必殺人？

想到這裏，趙向晚拿出從蔚藍的公文包裏搜出來的信件，在洛一輝面前晃了晃。

“這是蔚藍随手攜帶的，趙晨陽寫給她的信。在這封信裏，趙晨陽給蔚藍講了一個故事，提出合作意願，蔚藍充分認可了趙晨陽的創意，并提出見面。”

洛一輝點了點頭：“這個，我知道。”

趙向晚：“蔚藍願意主動約見趙晨陽，你知道這說明什麽嗎？”

不等洛一輝回答，趙向晚直接給出了答案。

“這說明趙晨陽在蔚藍眼中，很有價值。只要她們這次順利見面，談妥合作條件。未來趙晨陽會取得成功，她将與蔚藍的名字寫在同一本書上、出現在同一部電視劇的片頭，趙晨陽将會成為文壇一顆冉冉升起的新星，光芒萬丈。”

這番話要是被趙晨陽聽到，恐怕會感動得涕淚俱下。

可是，如果洛一輝像趙向晚一開始預想的那樣，他想要阻止趙晨陽的進步，要将趙晨陽牢牢控制在自己手裏，那這番話對他而言就是一種刺激。

趙向晚開始挑戰洛一輝的耐性：“到時候，趙晨陽就會脫離你的掌控……”

洛一輝打斷了她的話：“不不不，趙警官，你明顯犯了經驗主義的錯誤。你對我有偏見，總覺得我會殺人。”

洛一輝眼裏閃過一絲得意：“我承認，我想要把晨陽牢牢把控在自己手裏，但是，我沒必要為她殺人。退一萬步說，我就算要殺人，也必須做到天衣無縫，絕對不會挑戰法律的底線。”

趙向晚皺了皺眉，并沒有反駁洛一輝的話。

算計季昭爬上廣告牌，讓他在衆目睽睽之下掉落，這一切的确被洛一輝做得天衣無縫，如果不是趙向晚有讀心術，任誰也無法指認他是始作俑者，更沒有辦法定他的罪。

講故事刺激季昭的人是管家馮媽；私自約會、脫離崗位的人是保镖；爬上廣告牌的人是季昭。洛一輝幹了什麽？頂多就是在讓季昭走回來的時候有些操之過急。

因此，雇兇殺害蔚藍，的确不符合洛一輝一貫的風格。

即使人不是洛一輝殺的，他也一定是知情者。

趙向晚拿起季昭畫的畫像：“你認識殺手，這你不能否認吧？”

洛一輝沒有說話。

趙向晚點頭：“很好，你默認了。”

洛一輝保持沉默。

趙向晚雙目微眯：“他是誰？”

洛一輝搖頭。

【這個人是誰，我不能說。】

審訊室裏所有警察都打起精神來。

李明楊恨不得沖上來搖晃洛一輝的腦袋，逼問出殺手下落。

曹光更是牙槽緊咬，死死盯着洛一輝。

負責做筆錄的小周警官奮筆疾書，生怕漏掉一個字。

趙向晚沒有催促，洛一輝的心門已經被撬開，他的內心掙紮趙向晚聽得一清二楚。

【如果說了，夜總會就開不下去了。】

【行有行規，殺手組織也一樣。壞了江湖規矩，我只有死路一條。】

【喻惠民與阿金的私下交易，絕不能洩露。】

喻惠民與阿金？

趙向晚雙手握拳，右腳邁出半步，腳尖朝向洛一輝，左腳膝蓋微屈，身體下沉、前傾，似一把弓，蓄勢待發。

洛一輝感覺到一股寒意撲面而來，內心一驚。

這已經不是小孩子吵架的狀态，這是戰鬥的姿勢。

趙向晚嘴角微微一勾，目光炯炯：“你開夜總會幾年了？”

洛一輝為她氣場所懾，不由自主地回答起她的問題：“三年。”

“夜總會裏魚龍混雜，你平時怎麽處理這些關系？”

“我只是提供一個玩樂的場所，其餘的一概不管。”

“遇到犯罪行為，也不聞不問嗎？”

“我們規範經營，哪有什麽犯罪行為？”

洛一輝雙唇緊緊抿住，抿成了一字形，這代表他在抗拒。

【夜總會雖然賺錢，但免不了與黃、賭、毒打交道。我能夠保證自己潔身不好，不沾這些已經算是不錯了，別人，我管不了，也不想管。】

【夜場裏，少不了公主、少爺，他們在裏面尋找客人，被帶出去過夜，和我有什麽關系？瘾君子玩嗨了，毒品交易總是少不了。夜總會想要賺錢，難道把這些人趕出去？】

【二樓包房裏進行一些見不得光的交易，我手下人全都守口如瓶，這是行規。】

趙向晚繼續問：“有殺手組織嗎？”

洛一輝視線游離。

趙向晚：“讓我來猜一猜吧？”

聽到這個“猜”字，李明楊莫名地興奮起來。啊，趙警官要開始她的微表情審訊術了！

“他是殺手，在你的夜總會完成交易。”

【阿金是組織裏頂尖的，要價很高。】

“找他的人，是從京都來的？”

【蔚藍那個女人，恨她的人太多。】

“喻惠民？君誠？還是魏清芳？”

【最恨她的，是她丈夫，真可笑！】

“很好，看來是喻惠民。”

洛一輝整個人開始緊繃。

【她怎麽知道的？我什麽也沒有說！】

眼看着洛一輝心生警惕，趙向晚加快了問話節奏。

“喻惠民慕名而來？”

“他到了你們夜總會？”

“私下裏見了殺手？”

“珠市的那個電話是喻惠民打的？為了确定時間？”

“你為他們牽線搭橋？哦，不是你，是楊經理。”

趙向晚突然提高音量：“殺手在哪裏？哪家醫院？”

眼見得趙向晚一步一步逼出真相，洛一輝額角冷汗涔涔而下，可是內心卻将答案說得個清清楚楚。

【阿金是孝子，母親在慈濟醫院住了半年院，費用很高。】

趙向晚繼續逼問：“公立，還是私立？很好，看來是私立醫院。”

洛一輝不敢再看趙向晚，視線移向右下方。

Zhao Xiangwan sneered: "How many private hospitals are there in Zhuhai? The famous ones are only three hospitals with names starting with the word Ci. Ci Xin, Ci He, and Tzu Chi. Very good, it looks like Tzu Chi Hospital."

Zhao Xiangwan turned around and looked at Cao Guang. "Captain Cao, please send someone to Tzu Chi Hospital immediately to arrest the killer. Yu Huimin is on his way, right? As soon as he lands, subdue him immediately."

Cao Guang was dazzled by what he saw and stood up immediately: "Okay."

Luo Yihui felt as if his throat was being strangled by something. He couldn't utter a word. He sat down suddenly, breaking out in a cold sweat.

Zhao Xiangwan looked at him and said calmly, "I advise you to cooperate with the police as soon as possible. Otherwise, when the killer organization finds out that it was you who leaked the secret, your life will be in danger."

Luo Yihui slowly raised his head, stared at Zhao Xiangwan in a daze, and said hoarsely: "I, I will confess." Only by wiping out the killer organization can he survive.